CHAPTER 13
DISAPPEAR JUST LIKE POOF! That's what I wanted to do.
The way he stared at me made my knees weak, like I would crumble to the ground the next minute, and I'd never be able to ride again.
“Alpha…” I managed to say, but he cut me short before I could form the words.
“Shhh!" He cooed in my ears. “But I'm not going to force anything, I promise. You came to me that night, and you gave yourself to me." He looked deep into my eyes, “I'll make sure that wasn't the last time, Raven."
The burning stare in his eyes made me want to melt. I can't hold this on for much longer, it's killing me.
I jerked away from him at that point, hoping that the distance would help keep me sane. “Alpha, what happened that night was a mistake, okay? I was carried away by the pain." I blurted out.
It didn't hel
CHAPTER 14ONE WORD, yet it made me feel like I had done a mission more impossible than that of ‘Mission Impossible’.I wasn’t sure what I expected after asking him to stay. Maybe for him to smirk, to taunt me with that knowing look he always wore. Or maybe for him to slip into bed beside me, filling the empty space that somehow felt colder in his absence.But Julian didn’t do either of those things.He stared at me for a moment, something unreadable flickering in his gaze. Then, slowly, he exhaled, his jaw tightening as if making some difficult decision.And then he turned away. "I can’t," he murmured.My breath caught in my throat.I opened my mouth to say something, anything, but before I could, he was already at the door."Sleep, Raven," he said without looking back. And then&md
CHAPTER 15A LIVING DEAD! That's what I was. I sat before the mirror, staring away into space, brushing out the knots in my hair with shaky fingers.I should have never told him.The weight of my confession to Julian—about Luca and Elena’s betrayal—settled heavy in my chest. I had spoken in the heat of the moment, lulled by the quiet safety of his presence, but now? Now, I feared what he would do with that knowledge.What if he exposed it?What if he humiliated her in front of the entire pack?What if… he had planned something far worse?My stomach twisted at the thought.But no—Julian wasn’t like that. He was dangerous, unpredictable, but he had never been needlessly cruel to me. Still, I couldn't shake the unease.I slipped into a modest black dress, one befitting a formal meeting, then made my way to the council hall.The tension in the room was immediate.Luca’s glare was a knife against my skin, sharp and unrelenting. I ignored him with all my will, settling into my seat, but m
CHAPTER 16SLEEP ELUDED ME.I turned onto my side, then my back, then my other side.The blankets tangled around my legs, the pillow felt too soft, too firm, too wrong.I couldn’t sleep. Not after what tonight, not after what Julian had said."I couldn't bear to see another man around you."I squeezed my eyes shut. Ughhhhh!Damn him.Damn that voice of his, smooth and low, curling around my thoughts like a shadow I couldn’t shake.I could still feel the weight of his hands on me, the heat of his touch lingering even now.“You want to fight this, but you can't…”A shiver ran down my spine.I should have pulled away.I should have told him no.But I didn&rsquo
CHAPTER 17I WAS PARALYZED.One by the deep, shuddering need that made my stomach churn, and my heart race so fast that it was almost impossible to breathe. His hand was barely on my waist, and yet, I felt like it belonged there, like I had been claimed in ways I couldn't fathom.Two, was by the noise we heard. This crippled me.I pushed him away from me immediately, with a strength I didn't know I had, my heart hammering in my chest as we both turned towards the sound.Panic surged through my veins. If someone had seen us then…What if it was Luca?Or Elena?I swallowed, straining my eyes further into the dark. Then, we heard the voices again.Julian didn’t think twice. He gripped my wrist, firm yet gentle, pulling me into the shadows behind a thic
CHAPTER 18MY BLOOD PRESSURE SKYROCKETED.The darkness enveloped me, my breaths so rough that it tore through my chest as I struggled against the iron grip on my wrist. My heart pounded, my body tensed, and my mind made up to fight, until I caught his scent. It was him. A slow, shuddering exhale left me just as a low, familiar voice murmured, “It’s me.”Julian. Relief flooded through my chest. “What the hell, Julian?” My voice was breathless. “You scared the life out of me.”His grip didn’t loosen. If anything, he stepped closer, his presence overpowering in the small space.“I had to,” he murmured. “I couldn't watch you walk away.”I scoffed, trying to ignore the heat creeping up my neck, and the goosebumps. “That’s not an excuse to abduct me.”Even in the darkness, I could feel him smirk.He reached out, and I held my breath. However, I never felt his touch. Instead, the room lit up as he flipped the switch on. I scoffed.And he smiled. “What? I can touch you if you want me to."
CHAPTER 19THE AIR IN MY ROOM FELT HEAVIER THAN EVER BEFORE. Julian was just about to leave when Father stepped inside. The moment he saw Julian, he stiffened, his eyes flickering between the Alpha and me. His gaze darkened.I remained frozen in place. Did he hear anything? Julian remained composed, his hands clasped behind his back, but there was a quiet tension between them.“Alpha,” my father greeted stiffly, his voice neutral, but laced with suspicion.Julian gave a small nod, unbothered. “Beta.”I couldn't help but wonder if this was just an act. How could he not be bothered that my father had walked in on us? Or am I the only one losing my mind? My father’s gaze narrowed. “Why are you here?”Julian glanced at me briefly, then turned back to my father, his expression unreadable. “I was speaking with Raven.”I felt my breath hitch. Not your daughter, just Raven. Why did that feel good? My father’s brows furrowed. “Speaking?” He crossed his arms. “And apologizing, from what I o
A growl rumbled in his chest before his lips met mine again, softer this time—savoring, and his hands trailed my body, like he was worshipping my very existence. His hands explored slowly, as if memorizing every inch of me. Every brush of his fingertips set fire to my skin, every kiss left me breathless.When our bodies finally came together, it wasn’t just heat or passion—it was something deeper. Something I didn't know I needed. I lost myself in him, in the way he whispered my name like a vow, in the way he made me feel like I belonged to him.The night was filled with heat, whispers, and surrender.I surrendered! ***Warmth.That was the first thing I felt when I woke up.Not just the warmth of the morning sun filtering through the curtains, but the warmth of him.Julian’s arm was draped over my waist, his bare chest pressed against my back. His breathing was steady, slow.For a long moment, I didn’t move. I just laid there, feeling the rise and fall of his breath, feeling safe.
CHAPTER 21OH NO! I fumbled with my words as we stood in the hushed corridor of the council hall, the tension between us almost palpable. I could feel Julian’s steady presence beside me—a silent assurance that made my heart both flutter and ache. Luca had been nearby, his eyes narrowing in suspicion at our closeness. Before he could press further, Julian’s cool tone cut through the charged atmosphere.“You didn’t need to know every detail,” Julian said sharply, his gaze fixed on Luca as if daring him to continue. His words were measured but edged with authority. “As you heard, it's clearly something no one can find out about. And you're not exception." Luca’s lips pressed into a thin line. For a moment, I thought he was going to give up and walk away, but I was so wrong. “Why are you always together?” he demanded, his tone low and challenging. “You do know an Alpha and his member is not supposed to be this close. It's so suspicious, it's not something I can ignore.”Without a momen
CHAPTER 38RAVEN'S POVI HAD FORGOTTEN. I had forgotten what it felt like. I had forgotten how beautiful this feeling of being held by him felt.His lips worked on mine, slow at first, like he didn't want to push too much. I wanted him to.Before I could restrict myself, I reached out, holding his collars as I pulled him closer. His second hand found my waist too, the unexplainable feeling of warmth steering through me from his touch.He bit my lips, just before his tongue slipped into my mouth, ready to explore. A moan escaped my lips, loud but I didn't care.“I missed this," Julian's raspy voice echoed in my ears as he murmured against my lips.I was overwhelmed. The pleasure was just too much. “Show me!" I whispered, my voice breathless. “Show me how much you missed this." He stepped back ever so slightly, and at that moment, I saw the intense desire flash through his eyes—the one I had gotten used to. Oh how much I missed that!“My Raven, indeed, I'll show you how much I've miss
CHAPTER 37RAVEN'S POVWHAT DID I EXPECT? The silence that followed my confession was suffocating. For the longest time, all I had ever felt from the pack was judgment. Doubt. Cold indifference that burned worse than any fire.That had finally changed. Now the mood had shifted.The anger that had once been directed at me was now aimed at Luca and Elena. Whispers grew into murmurs, and murmurs into outrage.“How could they?” someone hissed.“Betraying their own friend, that's heartless.” another voice growled.“I always knew that Elena was up to no good. How dare she try to steal her best friend's partner?" I saw it in their eyes—the guilt, the regret for ever siding against me. For believing lies over the truth I had been screaming for so long.Luca was nowhere to be seen, but I knew he was feeling the weight of his actions. And Elena… I exhaled, forcing myself to let it go. It wasn’t my burden to carry anymore.Father bowed his head, but before he did, I saw a tear fall. “I'm sorry
CHAPTER 36RAVEN'S POVABYSS.I drifted in and out of consciousness, barely aware of what was happening around me. I wasn't unconscious, but I was fully awake either. Just somewhere in between, floating in an abyss of an underlying misery.I felt movement—the steady rhythm of footsteps. The firm, unwavering grip of Julian’s arms around me was not something I could unfeel. It was there, not subtle, rather overwhelming. I could hear him breathing, hear the way his heart pounded against his chest.He was holding me like I was the most precious thing in the world, like he would never let me go.The cold air bit at my skin, but I wasn’t afraid anymore. I was going home.Finally, I was finally going home. This was the only thought that filled my mind as I eventually passed out.I couldn't tell how long I was out. The first thing I noticed was the smell.It wasn’t the damp rot of the rogues’ hideout, or the thick scent of fear clinging to my skin. It was home.Home?The crisp morning air dr
CHAPTER 35RAVEN'S POV HESITATION SPREAD THROUGH THEIR FACES.“What?” the one holding me snapped.“You heard me,” the rogue panted. “She’s not to be harmed.”Confusion flickered through the room. But I didn’t wait for them to figure it out.The moment their grip on my arms loosened, I wrenched free, stepping back toward the door.The rogue leader’s words echoed in my mind. You are more valuable than you realize.What the hell did that mean? And why were they letting me go?One of them glared at me, and I recognized him as the rogue of earlier—the one who had seemed too familiar.He sneered. “We can't just let her leave like that. She hasn't fulfilled the purpose for which she was brought here." The other one countered him immediately, “Do you intend to go against the master? She will not be pleased, and you know what happens after that." The rogue who had brought in the information, followed up with his own subtle warning. “It seems you don't love the life you live anymore." The r
CHAPTER 34RAVEN'S POVPAIN DRAGGED ME BACK TO CONSCIOUSNESS.It came in waves, sharp and unrelenting. My wrists ached from the rough ropes binding my hands, and my body throbbed from the fight I had put up before they captured me. My head pounded, my breathing shallow as I took in my surroundings.The room was dark and cold, the scent of damp stone and old blood filling the air. A single torch flickered on the far wall, casting shadows that danced eerily across the rough stone floor. My pulse quickened. Where the hell was I?A dull, throbbing pain echoed through my skull. The darkness around me was thick, suffocating. I tried to move, but the effort sent sharp pain shooting through my limbs. My mind was sluggish, like I was wading through fog.Where… am I?Then, it all came back—the slap, the heartbreak, running into the woods, and then… the attack. The struggle. The hands grabbing her. The blow to my head. Everything came back.My heart pounded against my ribs.I forced my breathi
CHAPTER 33JULIAN'S POVWHAT HAVE I DONE?The moment the guard delivered the news, my world tilted. My Raven!"A group of rogues were seen near the borders. A fight broke out. We can’t find Lady Raven."The words slammed into me like a death blow. This is all my fault. It's all my fault.Silence stretched between the guard and I for a beat before I moved. My body was a blur of motion as I stormed past the warriors gathered in the courtyard. My pulse thundered in my ears, my wolf clawing to break free.She was out there—alone, or worse. I had to find her.“Get every tracker we have,” I barked at my warrior, my voice sharp enough to cut steel. “Now.”The pack stirred with unease. The weight of my fury was suffocating, even I felt it. I was like a storm ready to tear through anything in its way.As we set to depart, I heard my name. “Julian," I turned to see Desmond, Raven's father. His face was pale, as if he hadn't sleep in weeks. I would have walked away, but something in his eyes ma
CHAPTER 32JULIAN'S POVThe sting of Raven’s slap burned across my cheek, but it was nothing compared to the pain in her eyes.She had never looked at me like that before. Like I was a stranger. Like I was someone she despised.I had known this moment would come.I had felt it building, every time I walked past her without a word. Every time I ignored the way her presence pulled at me like gravity. Every time I saw the hurt on her face and told myself that pushing her away was necessary.But this? Watching her break, watching her crumble in front of the entire pack—this was worse than I had ever imagined.She didn’t wait for an explanation, didn't even give me a chance to tell her the truth.She just turned and ran away, like I was a plague.I should have followed her. Every instinct in me screamed to chase after her, to hold her, to tell her the truth. But my feet didn’t move.Because I had done this. This was all my fault.Before I could even process what had happened, a new voice c
CHAPTER 31DEJA VÙ I watched it happen a second time, and just like before, I had no idea how to react. There, standing way too close to him, was Elena. His back was to me, but I saw it all unfold.Her hands were on his chest. And his lips—his lips were on hers.The breath left my lungs. For a second, I couldn’t move. I couldn’t breathe.Elena was the first to notice me. She pulled away slowly, turning to me with a victorious smirk. Julian’s head snapped toward me.His eyes widened, but it didn’t matter.Nothing mattered anymore.Something inside me cracked. No, not cracked. It broke.I broke.Without a single word, I turned and walked away.I didn’t stop when I heard him call my name. I didn’t stop when my vision blurred.I just kept walking, because if I stopped, I would fall apart.I knew I would.The world around me blurred as I stormed out of Julian’s quarters, my chest burning with betrayal. My hands trembled, my vision swam, but I didn’t stop. I couldn’t stop.His lips had bee
CHAPTER 30IT STARTED WITH THE LITTLE THINGS.I was a fool to have thought that I'd find peace that'd last forever. My life has always been that way—lonely and sad, one minute; and then I'd find peace, but it was of course, always temporary.It started with the little things.Julian stopped waiting for me in the mornings. He left before I woke up, his side of the bed cold.When I searched for him, I was met with short answers, curt nods, and empty looks.I told myself it was nothing. That he was busy. That he was just dealing with the weight of his responsibilities.But when I reached for his hand one evening, and he pulled away like my touch burned him, I knew—something was wrong."Julian, talk to me," I demanded that night, stepping into his office even after he asked me to leave.He barely looked up from the papers in front of him. "I'm busy."I swallowed. "You're always busy."Silence.I stepped closer. "Did I… do something?"That made him pause.His golden eyes lifted to mine, bu