Avery's POV
“What have I done?” Amos said out loud running his hand through his hair. “We mated,” I explained, confused myself at why and how this was possible. “But you have a wife, right?” I asked, trying to clarify the situation. He had children so he surely had a wife, so why did this happen? “She is dead, you humans killed her,” he said, accusing me of something I had no idea about. “I am not human, I am half werewolf,” I corrected him but I finally understood his hatred for humans. They had killed his wife, taken away his lover and mate, the mother to his children. “Oh shut up, it's the same fucking thing,” he said rising his voice. “I can't do this, not after what you people did to me, you can't be my mate,” he said standing up and getting dressed. “What do you mean, we already…” before I could finish speaking he stopped me again. “Don't remind me of the abomination that just happened here, it never happened, we are nothing, this is nothing,” he said walking away. “No, no, no, no,” I said as tears flowed down my face, I couldn't believe this was happening to me, did he just mate with me and reject me? I wept bitterly, feeling useless at my very core. The sound of music coming from their party room distracted me from my grief. I tried to dress up quickly not wanting anyone to come and see me naked. I was still very sore from my encounter with Mr. Amos, a reminder of his rejection. With tears running down my eyes, I arranged all the pastries and the cake. I went to meet Angie who was in her dressing room, getting ready to make an appearance at the anniversary party. “I am done with the baking,” I said, trying to mask the pain in my voice. “Oh thank you so much,” she said distractedly, handing me my money. I took my time to count it again and again, firstly because I was in so much pain and I kept forgetting what I counted but secondly because I had to make sure it was complete, I was going to have to live off it for the next couple of weeks or months, who knows? “Thank you so much Ma'am, thank you for everything,” I said truly grateful, I would have hugged her but I couldn't bear to touch anything or anyone related to Amos, it would hurt too much. “You are most welcome, thank you for saving the day, call if you ever need anything,” she said wanting to owe me a favor. “There is no need, thank you,” I said and walked away without waiting for a reply. As I walked towards the door, I looked around admiring the castle. It would have been my home but now I had to leave it behind. I didn't even try to look for Amos, he had done enough. “Why did I think this was going to be different,” I muttered as I closed the big gate behind me. All my life, I had always had a glimpse of happiness before it was stripped from me, I had parents, a big house, a happy childhood and one day it was no more, I had a caring Aunty who was very nice to me and one morning she became a drunk and my worst nightmare, why did I expect anything better from anything or anyone. “I just hoped,” I said aloud, I had always felt that when I found my mate everything would be fine, I didn't expect him to be half as rich as Amos but I always imagined we would build a good life together, that was why I didn't date anyone else, I was waiting for my mate but I finally met him but he hated me for no reason, for something I couldn't control. No matter how much he hated me, I didn't expect him to reject me after we mated but this was my reality. “Why me,” I whispered as tears continued to roll down my face. Was I cursed by the moon goddess? What was it about my life that snuffed out any form of happiness no matter how little. Clearing my throat and trying to look normal, I entered the train and charted my way home. I needed to hurry up if I wanted to succeed with what I had planned this evening. Getting home, I was glad to see an empty house. I didn't need Aunty Vivian's trouble right now. Rushing to my room and checking the time. I was glad to have three more hours before she would be back from the bar. “I have to get out of here quickly,” I reminded myself as I packed the little clothes I had into an old worn out bag. I brought out all the money I had hidden away and put it in the bag also. I removed five thousand dollars from the money I was given this evening. I was going to keep that for Aunty Vivian. I knew she treated me bad but I felt like I owed her that much. “I need to bathe first,” I reminded myself again, I had to take extra care not to forget anything especially because of the pain I felt, it was retarding my brain functions and I couldn't afford any mistakes tonight. Stepping into the bathroom, I allowed myself to cry and sulk for ten minutes, my life had turned upside down yet again and there was nothing I could do to fix it. “It's time to go,” I told myself as I picked up my bag, dropped the money without a note and walked out of the house, I kept walking, faster and faster, soon I was running as my tears were like fuel for me. I was going to leave this life behind me and start again, no matter what it costs. I was going to throw away this life and build a new one with that I ran far, far away to where no one could find me. “Why are you here,” I suddenly heard from behind the trash can I wanted to sleep next to.Amos’ POV “What have I done?” I thought as I took off my clothes, transforming into my wolf form. Running into the woods, I sought sanctuary in my den. It held so many memories not just of me but those of my lover, my wife, and my mate. I hated to think of her as dead, gone, out of reach and I have lived my life like she was here, like she wasn't gone, never in all these years have done something like I did tonight. A few years, months, weeks, and even days from now I was not in any way open to the idea of another mate, it had never once crossed my mind but tonight, I not only found my new mate but I already marked and mated with her. “Damn it,” I roared as I increased my pace, finding this cave was proving harder today, even my nose had lost the scent of it. I kept running and running but it was useless I was going around in circles. “Arhhhhhggg!!!” I screamed as I brought myself to a halt. Sitting on top of a rock and staring at the moon, I struggled to calm my still heav
Amos’ POVAs I raced back to the castle, I became more anxious, what if she wasn't there when I got back?I covered more distance, desperate to get there on time.Getting to the castle and finding some clothes for myself I rushed out to find my mate. The party was in full swing and everyone was enjoying themselves but the one person I sought was nowhere to be found.I started by looking in the kitchen, there were no traces of her, and it almost felt like she was never there. All the flour that was scattered all around the kitchen was cleaned, all the utensils were neatly arranged as they ought to be, and even the oven was cleaned.“What the hell?” I whispered as I took it all in at once.Going to Angie's dressing room hoping to find her there, maybe she wanted to change clothes but on getting there I didn't find anyone.I was walking around in circles at this point so I decided to find her with my nose, her scent was unmistakable, surely I would find her.“Perfect,” I whispered when m
Amos’ POVAvery, Avery, Avery,” the woman screamed in shock, she seemed to have sobered up.“Somebody help!!!” She screamed again but nobody reacted or tried to inquire what the problem was. They all stood there staring at her as she cried hysterically and ran back and forth in confusion.The woman finally exhausted sat on the floor, she was shaking and whispering some things to herself, she looked like someone who was running mad and looking at her hands, you wouldn't blame her.“My mate is dead,” I whispered as I cursed my fate for always killing my mates.But could I really blame my fate for this one? It was my carelessness, it was always my carelessness. I left her all alone when she needed me the most, I ran away like a coward, and now I had to pay the price.“Cursed,” I whispered as I turned my car around, it was no use entering that house, I wouldn't be able to hold myself together if I did.I drove back home in silence, not able to fully comprehend what had just happened, I ha
Avery’s POV “Why are you here?” The voice repeated harshly as I struggled to see the person or creature speaking to me. “I….I….I…” I stuttered trying to retrace my steps and possibly run away. “Speak up girl,” the voice commanded, scaring me more. At that moment I decided I was going to run away, it didn’t sound like it was a human speaking to me, I knew it was some kind of magical creature because all the hairs on my body stood up and there was a strange aura around. Turning and trying to take off, my hand was suddenly grabbed by some claws and it was digging deep into my skin. “Let me go!!!” I screamed in agony, as I fought to set myself free. The injuries I was sustaining were not my problem, as long as they didn’t affect my face. “You haven’t answered my question,” the voice repeated, I could now see the creature, it was a werewolf. “Why do werewolves keep hurting me tonight,” I thought angrily as I devised a plan to run away from this freak. “Why I am here is none of you
Amos’ POV“Where am I? I asked myself as I found myself in a dark forest.“What is this, what is going on?” I was voicing out all my questions with hopes that something, someone would hear me.I got no response so I kept walking, this forest looked oddly familiar but my memory was still a mess.“Help me Raph,” I begged my wolf but he seemed to be silent.Of course, he hadn’t forgiven me for what I did to our mate, which is another reason I needed to get out of this damned forest, I needed to make things right?Suddenly, I heard the sounds of screams, clanging swords, and roars.I immediately transformed into my wolf form and ran in that direction, I should be running away but my wolf was pushing me towards the chaos.I came to a halt in front of the chaos and realized why this forest was familiar, I had been here before, it was the place where the final battle took place during the insurrection, it was the place where I lost my wife and my Alpha.“No…no…no,” I whispered, how could I f
Amos’ POV“An Alpha of pain and blood,” I whispered as I watched myself run and fall over and over again, my wolf was weak and I had lost too much blood.As I watched myself try to get to the fortress, I tried to remember what happened to the Alpha’s daughter, she was half-werewolf but she was also in the fortress, I didn’t have to wait or think for too long, I watched what had happened upon my return.As I signaled the hidden gong, one of the warriors who was left to protect the pack came out to assess the situation and find out who it was requesting entrance into the fortress.“Amos, is all well?” He asked from afar as he approached me.Getting close to me and seeing my wounded wolf with the crest I held in my right hand, he immediately went on one knee.“My Alpha,” was all he said with his head bowed, I could feel the questions in his gaze when he finally lifted his head.“Gather everyone, only then will I speak,” I said as I felt myself almost fall to the ground, he rushed to catc
Avery's POVI opened my eyes to the flicker of a candle and wondered where I was.“She's awake,” I heard a child scream and run out of the room I was in.I looked around as I couldn't sit up, there was not much to see, just the candle I saw earlier, everywhere was pitch black.“She's awake,” I heard another child say as he sat close to me.I still couldn't see anything, not even the face of the child but I could tell it was a girl.“Mummy!!!” I heard the child scream, I felt a sharp pain in my head and I screamed.“Are you okay?” I heard a woman ask as she turned on a light bulb.I squinted my eyes because of how bright it had suddenly become.“How do you feel?” The lady asked, sitting beside me and holding my hand.“Pain,” was all I managed to say before I passed out.“The pain is what made her pass out again, there is no danger,” I heard a man say and I couldn't even open my eyes because of how my head felt.“Why aren't you doing anything to help her then?” A lady asked, I recognize
Avery's POV“I need to get out of here and quickly,” I said to myself, sleep had immediately left my eyes and my mind was all over the place.Just then this lady returned to the room I was in.“Good Morning, you seem to have made a full recovery, " she said sitting close to me,” Her presence which had formerly been comforting had begun to make me feel uneasy.Maybe it was because of what I heard but I wanted to get away from her as quickly as possible. “My name is Shirley, what's yours,” she asked with a smile, this smile seemed too real and it melted my heart.“My name is Avery,” I replied as I relaxed a little bit.“Where do you come from?” She asked, seeming intrigued, her smile turned into a grin and immediately I remembered what I had overheard.“I don't know,” I lied, reminding myself not to trust anyone, especially someone who was so nice… too nice...“You can't remember or you don't know,” she asked, her smile turning into a frown.“I don't know,” I repeated knowing it sounde
Avery's POV “Oh my goodness!” I whispered in shock, using my hands to cover my mouth, who would have thought that my blood could open this diary? I would have never guessed it. The diary opened to reveal a beautiful handwriting, it almost looked like mine, just a little more calligraphic. I immediately forget the pain in my finger and just stared at the book in wonder. “Miss! You are hurt!” Martha screamed in panic, as she literally ran down to where I was, I quickly put the diary to the side, not wanting her to see it at all. “I know you want to be alone Miss, but please just let me disinfect your wound first,” she whispered with concern, as she took a first-aid box and hurried to treat my wound. I was utterly speechless, especially because of the way I had treated her before. She seemed not to care about that and it made me feel a little more guilty. I felt like one of those spoiled brats who treated the help in a very bad way. “I am sorry about how I treated you before, it's
Avery's POV “Your breakfast is ready, Miss,” one of the maids said softly, bowing as she spoke. I wanted to tell her that all of this was not so necessary but I knew she would not listen to me anyway so I let it go. “Thank you,” I responded dryly. I wasn't hungry, but I knew better than to refuse the food they offered. Lady Smith would be extremely worried if I missed breakfast, so I asked everyone to leave and sat by myself. “I am at the door if you need anything, miss,” Martha whispered anxiously, she seemed unsettled with leaving me by myself but I needed that alone time. Walking over to my table where the brown envelope was kept, I picked it up and opened the seal. I didn't bring out the files in it, instead, I walked over to the table where a very nutritious breakfast was waiting for me. Opening that file felt like a window into another world and opening it genuinely scared me. “This is really nice, " I muttered to myself happily, as I munched on the scrambled eggs that were
Amos’ POV “I watched her walk away, I watched her leave me,” I mumbled as I ran my hand through my hair. I could never forget that day, it was crystallized in my mind. I remembered standing just behind her and watching her walk towards the train, I wanted to stop her, to hold her and tell her I believed her but I held myself back, she entered the train and it left, that train left with a big part of me, I could feel my heart shatter into a million pieces but this was meant to be, it was the only way she could be free. “I just couldn't let her suffer,” I thought as I remembered everything I had put in place, I had not missed a single detail, not left anything undone when it came to her. I had my niece visit me briefly as she passed through our city the night before Avery left, I had begged her, promising her anything she wanted to be in that train and take care of Avery, I knew she would have been lonely and needed someone in the new city so I made sure she had Ella with her, made s
Avery's POV “I just couldn't help it…I couldn't stay away from you,” he whispered, it was the sound of Amos’ voice, I couldn't believe it but the way my body reacted to him confirmed any suspicions I had. “Amos?” I asked, it was a whisper and I was sure I was speaking to myself but I didn't get a response just the feel of his fur on my skin. “I miss you so much,” he whispered as he ran his hand through my hair. “This is a dream so why not enjoy it to the fullest,” I thought to myself, I had missed Amos for the longest time and even if I hated him for what he did to me it still didn't change the fact that he was my mate and we bonded on a very deep level, even if a ceremony had never been done. “I miss you too,” I whispered, letting myself go and hugging him back, opening my eyes, I saw him in his werewolf form. I just laid my head on his shoulder and inhaled his scent. It made my wolf pur…I wanted him in more ways than one. “It's been so long…please,” he begged, reaching for my
Avery's POV “As per our agreement, here is some of the evidence I found, study it and let me know when you are done, there is more where that came from,” Sir Smith said, handing me a big brown envelope and turning to walk away. “I know this might be very transactional to you but just know that I really recognize you as my daughter,” he said, turning slightly in my direction, as our eyes met, I could tell he was being completely honest. “I will bear that in mind, thank you very much,” I responded not knowing what else to say, he just nodded and walked away, I felt touched by their display of love especially since they just met me and knew absolutely nothing about me, although you could say they knew more about me than I knew about myself, giving the big envelope in front of me. I took a deep breath feeling suddenly nervous about the whole thing. I had thought I wanted to know the truth but now that the truth was standing in front of me, I was too scared to take a hold of it. I deci
Avery's POV “Where are you taking me?” I asked the driver as my entire consciousness was alerted, if need be I was going to tear this door open and run away. “I am taking you to the Smith's Mansion,” the man responded. It didn't look like it to me, everything was so suspicious. I tried to open the door to no avail, I had begun to panic, I checked my pocket for my phone, hoping that I would be able to reach Ella and find out the truth. Was the road to their house this strange or was I over thinking things? I needed to find out, but to my utter surprise, my phone was nowhere to be found, I had begun to panic for real and brought out my claws to break open the door and just then the driver spoke again. “We are here now Ma’am,” he said, parking the car in the driveway, I stopped suddenly, looking around me, it took me some time to recollect myself. “Please come down Ma'am, Sir and Lady Smith are anxious to meet you,” the driver said, coming out of the car, walking to the side of my d
Avery's POV “Good Afternoon Sir and Ma'am,” I greeted immediately I entered through their door, I was trying to be as cautious as I could be, afraid of ruining my plans before I actualized them, their suite had a beautifully designed dining area that was somehow detached from the rest of the suite, it was in such a way that we had access to only that area and not the rest of the suite and we could only see them only if they decided to come to the dining area. My greeting fell on deaf ears because they weren't yet in the dining area, so that meant we had to wait. This was making me nervous, I thought about doing this, and getting it over with but dragging it out like this made me more and more anxious. “Good Afternoon child,” I heard a response after a while, it was the woman, coming towards the dining area with a smile, it looked so beautiful, so pure that if I didn't know better I would have thought it was a true smile but now I knew it was just a cover-up, it was a good cloak for
Avery's POV “Yesssssss, please tell me,” Ella said excitedly, she had totally forgotten about her food and was concentrating fully on me and what I had to say, I didn't say anything more I just smiled and continued to eat. “Oh come on!” She whined as she grabbed my hand trying to distract me from eating and to tell her why I was in such a different but happy mood. “You will find out later today at work,” I said to her motioning to her food and encouraging her to eat the food she had abandoned, she grumbled but continued to eat with a frown on her face. Jake on the other hand didn't say anything, he just stared at me for a long time and nodded like he gained some kind of understanding. He chuckled at her childish behavior, I was so jealous of how he adored her, if only someone would cherish me the way he cherished her, I didn't dwell too much on that, I already knew what my fate was. “I am leaving now, don't be late for work,” I said to Ella, winking at her, I nodded to Jake befor
Avery's POV “I know you are scared, I also know that you came here with an intention in mind but, this is life, things change, situations change, it doesn't hurt to try, right?” Ella whispered, squeezing my hands, I looked at her with a sad smile, I knew that my intentions would never change. “I wish I can change my path but I can't,” I said letting go of her hand and walking away with tears rolling down my face, I wished it was possible to be her daughter especially since I hadn't been a daughter to anyone, especially since I had never felt the love of parents but it came too late. It all happened when things had already gone bad when I had crossed the bridge of no return. I kept walking, I didn't know where I was walking to but I kept walking, it seemed I could never escape pain no matter how hard I tried, no matter how happy things had become, no matter how good things were something had to hurt, almost as if I was destined for pain and pain only, I didn't want to live like this