~Jade~
Happy new year except that there's nothing happy about the new year. Things have gone downhill since Zee attempted to commit suicide. It was really a narrow escape. She healed quickly and was discharged just two days after. Mom was discharged too. Our home fell into a rhythm of silence I never thought could happen to us. I wished Grandma was here, she would know what to do, how to resolve all these. She seemed to me, someone that would resolve anything and everything with just a snap of her fingers but sadly, she wasn't here anymore and we have to fight our way through this, ourselves. Dad called a meeting just last night to talk about the things that were happening. What was supposed to calm the situation ruined it even more.
'Zainab, you're our child, our first daughter, nothing is ever going to change that. You fed on your mother's bre
~Jade~School resumes today. I saw Uthman immediately I got down from the car. Without thinking much of it, I called out his name and waved. He turned back and he smiled in his cocky way and started walking towards me. We were halfway to each other when someone else called his name. I did not need to turn to look at the person to know that it was Michelle but Uthman did and he walked to where she stood with the rest of her friends. Do I need to pretend that this did not bother me and just walk away? Yeah. I did just that.'Hey love, you're looking so hot today.'I rolled my eyes at Akin who was leaning against the wall at the corridor of our class.'I always look hot'I replied and watched his mouth drop open. I laughed.'what's
~Jade~'Don't be so nervous, I'm pretty sure you're going to win'Today was the d day and I was feeling nervous. My hands shook as I tried to comb my hair. Zee stood up from my bed, collected the brush from me and started combing my hair.'But why are so nervous? It's not like this is your first competition.''But it's the main one, Zee, what if I don't win? I've never imagined my future without winning this oratory contest and how will I even raise my head in school if I don't win.'Michelle will never allow me to rest.'Just calm down baby, you'll be fine.'I turned from the mirror to look at her.'I just have this premonition that things won't go the way I want them to.''Don't think in the negative baby, you're already a winner.''Amiin'I replied nerv
~Jade~'Give it up for Uthman Gbadamosi'I strained my ears to hear properly. I did not know when my hands that were otherwise clampsed together as if in a prayer became fisted until my nails started tearing my skin. I stared at the little blood horridly before I stood up admist the loud cheers from the students. Luckily for me, there was a door behind the podium so I used that and I went outside. I needed fresh air. Immediately I got outside, I felt something trickling down my face. I used the back of my hand to wipe it off angrily.Damn it Jade, why are you crying?I'm crying because I never imagined myself not winning this. This means a lot to my career, to the law degree I want to get, to the legacy
~Uthman~Jade was absent in school on Monday. Michelle huffed when she saw her empty seat.'Look who missed school, it's the bitch. She had better not resume at all. I can't even stand her.''Get a life Michelle'One of our classmates replied her. Michelle was about to answer when our teacher walked in. We had Economics. We were done with almost all our syllabuses and all we do now is to revise.I heard nothing throughout the class. I kept glancing at Jade's seat. During lunch break, I met Akin and Hana eating in the cafeteria. I and Dan joined them, Hana did not even acknowledge my presence.'Hey babe, you're okay?' Dan asked her and she shrugged.'I guess I'm supposed to be fine.' 
~Jade~'When should we go and register for Jamb?'I asked Hana, we were both sitting in class. It was a free period. Well, most of our periods were free now. We were only left with doing revisions. Hana tucked an imaginary hair behind her ears.'Actually Jade, there is something I need to tell you.''What's it?''I... don't... think... I'm going to pick University of Ibadan as my first choice again.'When she stuttered while talking, I knew she'll say something bad but definitely not this. I stared at her, pointedly. She did not meet my gaze. What happened to choosing the same university? What happened to living in the same hall?'Why? What happened?''It's my manager. We figured out moving to Lagos will be good for my career.'I nodded, without saying anything. She put her hands over mine that was o
'Uthman'Hana stared at me for a minute longer than usual before she burst into laughter. She clutched her stomach, laughing hard.'Oh come on Jade, telling me you like Caleb is more believable than you telling you like Uthman. What kind of ridiculous liking is that one?'I smiled. I've always thought that it is ridiculous too, Hana saying it again confirmed it. I said nothing for a while, staring into space.'Wait oo Jade, are you actually serious?''No'She looked at me strangely before she laid on the bed.'Goodnight Jade, dream of me till the loyl comes.'I laughed.'Well, dream of me too.'After a while, Hana fell asleep but I was not even feeling sleepy. The time could as well be 2pm. Why did I say Uthman's name? Could I seriously like him? Uthman? Of all p
~Jade~Friday Morning and we were about to start our journey to Lagos State. We were 25 in total. 11 players, two teachers, 11 students and the driver. I leaned by the bus, still not feeling up to travelling. Uthman and Michelle entered the bus and I watched them sit beside each other. Uthman still hasn't spoken a word to me since Wednesday afternoon, in fact, he was acting like I did not exist. Good!I saw Akin walking towards the bus. He was talking to Malik, the SNJ(Small Neymar Jr), a boy in SS2 who can play ball like something else.'Do you realize I've been waiting for you?'I said as soon as he reached where I was standing.'Pele, mabinu. Oya let's go now.'I entered and he followed me. As I passed w
~Jade~What the fuck did I just do?I know what I just did though. I just saved Uthman's number from the group chat, he's one of the three admins of our groupchat, Bunmi, myself and Uthman. What was I even thinking when I typed the messageHello ooGood evening. This is Jade I'm sorry for what I said the other time, trust me, I did not mean to hurt your feelings.I stared horridly at the message and was about to delete it when it showed two blue ticks. Damn. He had read it. He has read it. I practically jumped from my bed. What will I do now? Oh God! Why did I even apologize in the first place? Because I felt bad. Actually, I've been feeling somehow since that day. And I'd realized with him not talking to me and all that I've gotten used to us talking and him ignoring me was kinda breaking my heart. He surprised me by actually talking to me when we were coming back from Lagos.