#unedited.
~Jade~
'I think it has always been long buried emotions and feelings because the memories of when I did not feel like this are blurred. I can't remember.'
I smiled sheepishly at the message. It was sent around 6am. Talk about waking up to a love message. I thought this only happens to American teenagers or older Nigerians but definitely not to a sixteen year old me.
'Won ti n tan, abi?' (They are already fooling you, right?'
I looked up at my brother's voice. He was standing at the foot of the stairs and he was looking at me. I mentally rolled my eyes as I descended the stairs.
'Why does it have to be tha
~Jade~I stared at him as he unbuckled his belt, walking closer to me. I crawled back, apprehension rising in my throat.This wasn't happening.I kept crawling back, willing myself to scream, to make a noise, to fight back but I just laid there paralyzed, almost breathless. I grabbed my throat, feeling the beginning of a panic attack.Oh God! Not now.I crawled back and he laughed, dragging me by me legs.'Are you not going to scream? Shout? I told you, I love my girls fiesty.'I barely heard what he said, my lungs were constricting and darkness was closing in on me. Oh God! No.No ooooI screamed internally, willing myself to scream outward, loud
~Uthman~When Hana finally told me that we could visit Jade, I released a breath I did not know I had been holding since the last time I saw her.She was unconscious and her brother had carried her.I was nervous climbing the stairs to where her room was. I could literally hear my heart beat faster and faster.'You guys should wait here. Let me check if she is awake'Hana said and entered her room. I heard voices in the room but couldn't make out what they were saying. Then, the door opened again and Hana gestured for us to enter.My heart picked up race again.Calm down buddy. Just calm down.The guys entered and I followed them.She was sitting up on her bed, her knees drawn to her chest. She looked up briefly when we entered and smiled tightly at us.At
~Uthman~I never knew I could have jamb tension. I thought I was better than that but walking into the hall where I did my jamb proved me otherwise. Two days later, If I thought what I felt walking into that hall was tension, then checking my result must be a panic attack.I thought this has to the with the jamb syndrome fear that has been passed down from generation to generation. Eventually, I checked it.Dear Uthman Gbadamosi, your result for 2020 UTME is 345Physics: 78Chemistry: 77Biology: 79English: 111I was the only one at home when I checked it and I shouted and fist bumped the air.Nah, I danced around like a lunatic in my room.I couldn't keep calm and I chatted Akin up.
~Uthman~When the driver drove in, I saw our extended families coming out of the main house.My first reaction was panic because seeing them like that reminded me of when mom died.I calmed down immediately afterwards, believing nothing tragic had happened. I got down on from the car and took them in, one by one. They were mostly from my dad's family and then mom's too. They must have just finished one of the numerous meetings.They've done so many meetings and it has yielded no positive result. They might as well end the marriage. Completely.Are you really sure about that? Can
~Uthman~I swallowed at our close proximity. I shouldn't have hugged her.So, you should have just stood there and watched her nearly have a panic attack?I patted her back, smelling her shampoo, her long hair tickled my ears as I started to move back.Jade grabbed my shirt, stopping me from moving away.I stopped.I looked down at where she grabbed my shirt before looking up at her again. Her eyes were still glassy. Glassy from crying.Now, it looks like the sexy kinda glassy.O beere? What are you thinking about?'Jadeshola, we should......'
Last Days at Lakeview High ~Jade~It's been 5 days.5 days since Zee's mom died.She had handled everything strongly. Attending the funeral, sorting out her wears with her other relative. She said she saw it coming. How many cancer patients actually survive it?I was still lowkey mad at Uthman even though he had been nothing but sweet and caring the past days.But he still doesn't know what he did wrong? Just imagine oo!It was all rainbow and sunshine until I walked into Michelle. It was a Saturday and we were attending a t
~Uthman~And once again, our house became lively like it once was.It became loud like it was once was. It was impossible for it not to be loud considering my sister's chatter every now and then. The girl keeps talking. Over the last two weeks, she had filed me up with every single details of what I missed when they were not in the house.'And do you know the most important thing you missed?'She asked me one evening. We were both in the varender. I was reading my chemistry textbook because our Neco already started and I had Chemistry in two days time.The Almighty Chemistry.'What's that?'I asked her, not looking up from th
~Jade~Mogbe. Moku. Modaran.Won ti padà kó èsúrú wá.What the...?What was I even thinking?You were not thinking anything. You were just too eager to pick his call that you forgot you were literally wearing nothing.Aah. My God! How will I face him now? How will I even act around him?But wait oo, what of he did not see anything?Then I laid down on my bed and pretented I was on a video call while my front camera was on.Everything was in full display.He saw everything. 
We say goodbye, we hold on to these memories that never die. ~Jade~There were tables o
~Jade~I was walking with my back, all the while waving at Isreal when I bumped into someone. The drink the person was holding feel on the ground and it spilled on our bodies. I instinctively bent down to pick the cup and the keys that fell with it.'I'm sorry. I wasn't looking at where I was going.'I stood up and handed the key to him. His hands brushed against mine and it lingered there for a moment. I met his eyes, about to tell him off and I froze.He winked at me, smiled and gave me a mock salute before walking off.I had an instant flashback and I instinctively moved back.I did not know how long I stood there. I was too immobile to do anything. It was only when two girls bumped into me that I regained my composure and started to walk back
Last Days at Lakeview High ~Uthman~We finished our exams today. Like we were really done with exams. No more secondary school's exams.We trudged out of the hall together because the external invigilator had insisted that we should all submit our scripts together.I shielded my eyes from the sun with my hand immediately I stepped out of the hall. It was closing time for the school and we could hear the loud chatters of students as we walked from the hall to the main building.'Now, I'm really done with secondary school. It's almost unbelievable.'One of my mates whom I couldn't place his voice said and almost immediately
~Jade~He motioned for me to wait a little. Then, he disappeared to a room and reappeared with a slippers. He dropped them in front of me.'You should change into this.'I stared at the big slippers before wearing them. They were big, way too big, that my feet got lost in them self.'Is this your dad's?'I blurted out without thinking. He smiled.'Nah, it's my grandfather's.'I made to hit him and he ducked.'Mama, why are you this violent?''I'm not violent and besides, why are you slippers this big? Your feet are too big.'I said, staring at his feet.'They're not. It's your feet that are too small. Too tiny. Even Mo
~Jade~Mogbe. Moku. Modaran.Won ti padà kó èsúrú wá.What the...?What was I even thinking?You were not thinking anything. You were just too eager to pick his call that you forgot you were literally wearing nothing.Aah. My God! How will I face him now? How will I even act around him?But wait oo, what of he did not see anything?Then I laid down on my bed and pretented I was on a video call while my front camera was on.Everything was in full display.He saw everything. 
~Uthman~And once again, our house became lively like it once was.It became loud like it was once was. It was impossible for it not to be loud considering my sister's chatter every now and then. The girl keeps talking. Over the last two weeks, she had filed me up with every single details of what I missed when they were not in the house.'And do you know the most important thing you missed?'She asked me one evening. We were both in the varender. I was reading my chemistry textbook because our Neco already started and I had Chemistry in two days time.The Almighty Chemistry.'What's that?'I asked her, not looking up from th
Last Days at Lakeview High ~Jade~It's been 5 days.5 days since Zee's mom died.She had handled everything strongly. Attending the funeral, sorting out her wears with her other relative. She said she saw it coming. How many cancer patients actually survive it?I was still lowkey mad at Uthman even though he had been nothing but sweet and caring the past days.But he still doesn't know what he did wrong? Just imagine oo!It was all rainbow and sunshine until I walked into Michelle. It was a Saturday and we were attending a t
~Uthman~I swallowed at our close proximity. I shouldn't have hugged her.So, you should have just stood there and watched her nearly have a panic attack?I patted her back, smelling her shampoo, her long hair tickled my ears as I started to move back.Jade grabbed my shirt, stopping me from moving away.I stopped.I looked down at where she grabbed my shirt before looking up at her again. Her eyes were still glassy. Glassy from crying.Now, it looks like the sexy kinda glassy.O beere? What are you thinking about?'Jadeshola, we should......'
~Uthman~When the driver drove in, I saw our extended families coming out of the main house.My first reaction was panic because seeing them like that reminded me of when mom died.I calmed down immediately afterwards, believing nothing tragic had happened. I got down on from the car and took them in, one by one. They were mostly from my dad's family and then mom's too. They must have just finished one of the numerous meetings.They've done so many meetings and it has yielded no positive result. They might as well end the marriage. Completely.Are you really sure about that? Can