*Bexley*
At 5:45, I carry my suitcase down the stairs. Mother, Fiona, and Mrs. Jones stand there, tears in their eyes. I feel like a soldier being sent off to war. It’s silly, really. I’ll be fine.
I’ll be back tomorrow.
I remind my mother of that. “Don’t eat all the stew,” I say with a smile. “I’ll be wanting it for dinner tomorrow night.”
She can barely speak as she leans over and kisses my cheek. “I’ll… save some for you. I love you so much.”
Now, she’s making me tear up. “I love you, too, Mother.” I kiss her back. “It’ll be fine.”
“No one ever stays more than one night,” Fiona reminds us. “Really, it might be kind of nice to get to see the fancy castle. They used to have grand balls there. My grandmother went to one many years ago. You’ll get to see all of that.”
She’s trying to be optimistic, and I appreciate it, but I can barely manage a smile.
A sharp knock on the door has us all jumping. Mrs. Jones takes a deep breath and opens it to reveal—just Garth.
“I heard about the letter,” he says solemnly, shaking his head. Turning to me, he adds, “I wanted to come see you off, Becky.”
“Thank you.” He’s the last person I want to see at the moment, but the sound of his voice coaxes Harvey from his study so that now there are two people I don’t want to see here. They shake hands and begin to chat about hunting, a sport I detest that Garth’s entire life apparently revolves around.
No matter what happens to me at the castle, I am not a good match for Garth. Perhaps the king will be doing me a favor by ruining my reputation.
A clip-clopping sound has my stomach lurching into my throat. I peer out the window as Mother’s shaky hands position my cloak around my shoulders.
I see a carriage coming up the drive. It’s large and ornate. All of the neighbors come out of their houses and stand along the cobblestone road, trying to get a look. “They should’ve brought binoculars,” I mutter, feeling like a spectacle.
The carriage stops in front of our house, and a very regal looking man steps out. He’s wearing a suit with his dark hair slicked back. Massive shoulders and muscular arms tell me this man is no one to argue with. If he says get in the carriage, one gets in the carriage.
“Is that him?” I whisper to Fiona. “Is that the king?”
“I don’t think so. No one ever sees the king anymore,” she mutters. “Not since he was the prince.”
I don’t know what that means, and I don’t have time to ask. A footman accompanies the gentleman to the door and knocks for him. My palms are sweaty as I turn the knob and pull it open.
A smile lights his handsome face, his green eyes gleaming. “Miss Bexley Kessler?”
All I can do is nod my head.
He bows a bit as he says, “I’m Ellison Lake, here to accompany you to the castle.” He seems polite and kind, and with such empathy in his eyes, I’m inclined to step forward and let him lead me away.
My plans are ruined when Garth steps forward, nearly knocking me into the wall. “And just who may you be?” His voice is authoritative, as if Mr. Lake is somehow infringing upon something that belongs to him.
Mr. Lake is a bit taller than Garth and broader, which is saying something because I’ve never imagined a man could be bigger than Garth. He clears his throat, but his charming disposition doesn’t waiver. “I’m an advisor to the king,” he says with a smile. “And you are?” He lifts a hand, and I imagine him crushing a watermelon in his palm.
Garth tentatively shakes Mr. Lake’s hand. “I’m Garth Roberts, Becky’s betrothed.”
My eyes bulge, and my stomach twists into a knot. I hear my mother gasp behind me, and Harvey chuckles low in his throat as if he thinks Garth’s claim will prevent the king from taking me away.
Mr. Lake’s forehead crinkles as he looks at me. “We have no record of any upcoming nuptials at the castle.”
All I can do is shake my head slightly, and I get the feeling that, somehow, Mr. Lake understands what I am thinking.
“Well, that’s simply because we only became engaged last night,” Garth replies, folding his arms across his chest, his chin in the air.
With a nod, Mr. Lake takes my suitcase from my hand. “I see. Well, I’m afraid anything that hasn’t been filed with the proper authorities won’t prevent Miss Kessler’s visit to the castle.”
“But… the king cannot possibly expect for me to make her my bride after he… defiles her!” Garth spits.
Horror washes over me as I wait for Mr. Lake to throw the first punch in defense of the king. Garth has no problem whatsoever speaking ill of the king. That’s one thing behind closed doors, possibly even in the middle of town amongst the right people, but this man is obviously very close to the king.
Clearing his throat, Mr. Lake says, “I’m sure you’ve heard rumors about what happens in the castle, but I can assure all of you that no defiling is about to happen.” When his eyes reach mine, they are full of warmth and understanding. Despite the uncertainty of my plight, I do believe him.
Garth does not. A rumble explodes from his chest. “You expect us to believe that?”
“I honestly couldn’t care less what you believe.” Mr. Lake is beginning to lose his patience. One of the horses snorts and stomps its foot. That’s not a coincidence. Animals can sense human emotion, and this one knows there’s an issue. “Now, Miss Kessler, if you’ve said your goodbyes, let us be on our way.” Mr. Lake offers his arm and I take it.
Garth follows us onto the porch. “This isn’t right, you know! Does he understand what everyone is saying about him? That he’s a perverted, egotistical—”
“Garth!” Harvey steps in as I feel Mr. Lake’s arm tense under my hand. “Please. You mustn’t speak ill of the king.”
Rather than turn around and pound him in the face, Mr. Lake simply keeps walking.
I turn my head to peer past where Harvey is trying to calm Garth before everyone gets arrested and see my mother and Fiona weeping and waving. I lift a hand and manage a smile, but the fear I’ve felt bubbling inside of me all day rises to the surface, and I’m afraid I might burst into tears myself.
“In we go,” Mr. Lake says, handing my suitcase to one of the footmen as he directs me inside of the carriage. I sit on one side, and he manages to fold himself through the narrow door and take a seat across from me.
I run my hands over the plush velvet seat. It’s a rich blue that practically screams royalty. Ornate gold scrollwork climbs the walls. It’s beautiful and comfortable in here. Even with the large stranger sitting across from me, I feel safe.
A moment later, the carriage begins to move. I’m inclined to open the curtain and look back at Mother and the others, but I don’t. I think it’s best if we just leave our goodbyes as they were spoken.
“I apologize,” Mr. Lake says, drawing my attention to his warm eyes again. “This is never easy.” I can tell by the way his shoulders slump that he doesn’t enjoy being the one to come and collect the women. I’m honestly surprised no one has ever mentioned him to Fiona. He seems quite memorable. “I try to avoid it when I can.”
I nod, thinking maybe he isn’t the usual aristocrat who goes out to collect the women then. “I’m sorry—about Garth,” I stutter, wanting to pour everything out to him but thinking it unnecessary. Still, he should know, “My parents fully support the crown.”
A crooked smile pulls at one side of his mouth. “A lot of people question the crown these days. You will get the opportunity to see why. However, I’m afraid it won’t last long. When you leave, whenever that is, you won’t remember what you’ve experienced at the castle.”
A chill runs the length of my spine. “How is that possible?”
His smile broadens. “We have our ways.”
“Does it hurt?”
He chuckles, a soothing baritone that calms me instantly. “No. Nothing painful or uncomfortable will happen to you. Well, not physically anyway.” He runs a hand through his mop of unruly dark hair.
I’m not sure what that means, but I decide not to ask. I wish I could see out the window. I can only imagine what kind of wildlife we might see out the window as we approach the forest. It is dark out, but the moon hangs high in the sky this time of year, and I’m certain I might see an owl.
Or a wolf.
“What do you like to do in your free time, Miss Kessler?”
He’s trying to set me at ease, and I appreciate it. “I like animals,” I tell him, and he nods as if he somehow already knew that. “I like to observe them. To study them.”
“Interesting, and do you think you might make a career out of that one day?” Unlike Garth, he seems genuinely interested.
I shrug. “I’d like to, but my stepfather has me working in his firm more and more recently. I don’t mind working with numbers. I’m quite good at math. But I would prefer to be outside.”
“And your betrothed?” He says the word like we both understand that’s not what Garth is. “What does he do?”
I shake my head. “Other than call me by the wrong name?”
Mr. Lake chuckles again, and I can imagine many a woman doing all she can to cause him to make that sound.
Thinking of Garth does not make me want to laugh, though. “He is a local hunter and also owns a farm and some other businesses. I honestly don’t know that much about him. I’ve only met him a few times.”
He nods in understanding. “He seems close with Mr. Moss.”
“Mr. Moss would like for him to be.” I take a deep breath, inhaling his spicy cologne. I briefly wonder about the king. If his advisor looks and acts like this, how much more handsome and charming must he be? “I haven’t lived here long, well, about a year, but most of the villagers have grown up together, attending the same schools and such. I have struggled to make friends. Other than Fiona.” He continues to nod as I talk about how we moved to Luna Hollow because my mother met Harvey through a mutual friend, and I never really wanted to come, but I love my mother and want her to be happy. I’ve probably been talking for ten minutes when I say, “I’m so sorry, Mr. Lake. I shouldn’t be rambling on.”
“Please, call me Ellison,” he says in that casual tone. “And you’re not rambling. All of that is quite interesting to me. Tell me more about Hexeton.”
I’m not sure if he’s just trying to distract me or if he really wants to know, but I tell him about the kingdom I grew up in. “The king died before I was born, and since he had no children, it’s just the queen now.”
He nods, and I should realize he already knows that. “Queen Maeve.”
“That’s right. She made a lot of public appearances when I was younger, but as she aged, she stopped coming out so much. I’m not sure what will happen when she passes away.” He only shrugs. I decide it’s time to stop talking about politics, so I move on to tell him about my grandparents’ house and how much I loved spending time there.
“These are your father’s parents?” he asks me.
“Both,” I say. “I mean… I loved going to both sets of grandparents’ houses. But yes, my father’s parents have a large forest behind their property. So of course I loved that. Grandpa would go out with me sometimes to look for animals. And Grandma would bake us something warm and delicious to eat when we got home.”
His smile is genuine. “Do you remember much about your father?”
I hesitate, not sure what I can share with this man, but then I nod, and his smile widens.
*Bexley* “My father died in an accident when I was quite young,” I begin. “Mother says it happened very quickly. He was only twenty-three.”“I’m sorry for your loss. Do you know what happened?”Again, I shake my head. “No. Mother doesn’t like to talk about it. I only know it happened deep in the woods.”“Interesting.” He strokes his chin leaving me to ponder what’s so interesting about that. “We are beginning to climb the hill to the castle now. Would you like for me to open the curtain so you can see the forest?’“Yes! I’d love that.” My enthusiasm would be embarrassing if I didn’t feel so comfortable with him.Ellison laughs and pulls the curtain back on both side of the carriage. I oscillate between each of them, doing my best to peer through the darkness into the trees. The road is narrow enough that tree branches occasionally scrape the top. We roll over some deep ruts that jar me out of my seat, and one of them makes me bump my nose on the window.“Are you all right?” he asks.
*Canaan*The girl stands with her nails embedded into Ellison’s arm so deeply, if he wasn’t wearing a suit jacket, he’d probably be bleeding. Her eyes are wide in horror as she takes me in, and I can’t blame her. Any moment now, she’ll scream and rush from the room.Somehow, she manages to eke out the rest of her statement, “Your Maj—esty,” and keep her feet planted firmly in place. I am impressed. She’s lasted longer in the same room with me than everyone else.But then, I realized there was something different about this girl as soon as I saw her name on my list. I’d gone to see for myself earlier this morning, something I’ve never done before. I’d felt how special she is the moment our eyes locked—not here in my office, but in the woods outside her home.“Bexley,” I growl, the sound of my own voice making my skin crawl. “Pleasure. You may go.”Ellison stands there a moment longer. He’s never had to actually escort a girl from my office before because they have always taken off runn
*Canaan*I’m sitting in my room, staring at the wall, sipping a glass of wine when the soft knock on my door comes. It’s later than usual. Normally, entertaining these women at the evening meal only takes an hour or so, but tonight, it’s been nearly two hours since Ellison escorted Bexley away from me.I shouldn’t be too surprised. She is interesting and lovely. Who wouldn’t want to speak to her?“Come in.” I take another sip and wait for Ellison, my Beta, to enter the room. He closes the door behind him and slips into the darkness, taking a seat across from me.It takes him a moment to speak. All he asks is, “Well?”Normally, he says something like, “We’ll try again. Another girl from such-and-such is turning twenty-one the day after tomorrow,” but even he knows there’s something different with this one.Of course, that may be due to the fact t
*Bexley*The soft, warm embrace of a thousand goose feathers wraps around me. I sigh and stretch, not wanting to leave the most comfortable sleep of my life, but when I open my eyes, I see sunlight peeking through the edge of the curtains, and I know it’s time for me to get up.I take in the beautiful bedroom and smooth down the comfortable satin nightgown I’d found in one of the drawers as I make my way to the attached restroom. This one is so much larger and nicer than my bathroom at home. I could spend hours in the huge bathtub. Unfortunately, I haven’t had a chance to try it out, and since I’ve obviously slept in, I decide to take a shower instead. As much as I am enjoying my time here, I need to get home to Mother.Despite my best efforts to hurry, I take a long shower using all of the amazing products I find on a shelf within the massive stall. When I’m afraid I’m about to drain the hot water out of t
*Bexley*I follow Ellison down the corridor toward the dark part of the castle. He’s not holding my arm like he was the night before, and he’s walking so fast, I can barely keep up. About half an hour after I made my demands, he left the room and then came back to tell me that King Canaan was willing to meet with me.Barely breathing, I do my best to tamper down my nerves. My lack of oxygen has little to do with how fast I’m walking and everything to do with seeing the king again. A thrumming in my heart has me undulating between rushing to keep up and slowing down and fading into the walls. Would it be possible for me to ditch Ellison and find the nearest exit? Could I run all the way back home from here? I doubt it, but if the king is as scary today as he was last night, I might not be able to control myself.We reach the office door, but Ellison doesn’t knock on it right away. Instead, he waits for me to reach him a
*Canaan*I trace Bexley’s movement to the door and see what she’s about to do. Cursing under my breath, I take preventative measures and scramble through the door behind my desk that leads to another office just as the room is bathed in bright light. Moving quickly is difficult when I’ve been sitting for so long, but necessity increased my speed, and I just manage to get my tale through the door when she flips the light switch.Had I underestimated her at all, I’d still be sitting at that desk, and she’d be running from the castle in horror. Thankfully, I’ve figured out who Bexley is already, and I know never to trust her.“Where did he go?” I hear her whisper as she takes a few more steps around the office. I silently slip the lock into place and hope she doesn’t have some other means of forcing her way into the room.She doesn’t even approach my desk again. I hear her over by the
*Bexley*Ellison is angry at me. It’s clear from the way he marches away from me, leaving me to rush to keep up. If I thought it was difficult to match his strides when we were going to the king’s office, it’s at least twice as hard now .When we get to the grand staircase, a maid is waiting there for me. “Will you show Miss Kessler to her room, please?”She bows in compliance, and he turns to walk away.“Ellison!” I shout after him. He stops but doesn’t turn to look at me. “I’m sorry.”Slowly, he turns around, that angry scowl still etched in his face. “Are you? Do you have any idea what you just did?”“Yes, I do,” I tell him. “I should’ve never—”“I don’t think you have any fucking idea what you did, Bexley.”The woman next to me cowers a bit at his use of such a powerful swear word.
*Bexley*Books. Thousands of them—maybe hundreds of thousands of them—line the shelves of this magnificent room. It’s two-stories tall with an endless amount of shelves, some quaint looking seating areas, and a roaring fireplace. In the distance, I see a wide window with a gorgeous view of what must be the back gardens Ellison was telling me about. I cover my mouth as I stand there and take it all in. Best of all, even from where I’m standing, I can see an area dedicated to zoology.“Miss Bexley!” Anna calls from across the room. I turn in her direction to see David on a ladder tall enough to reach the highest books, but he’s not at a bookshelf. He has a large white sheet in is hand, and he’s attempting to drape it over a huge painting on the wall. I scan the room and see two other such paintings already covered. In the distance, another hangs untouched. It’s a portrait of an older couple with their arms around one another. They look regal, dressed in fancy clothes with referred expre
*Bexley*The fresh air cools my cheeks and helps clear my mind as I crunch through the freshly fallen snow out in the forest. It seems thicker out here, unlike the garden where it was a light dusting. I’m not trying to be quiet so that I can sneak up on any animals at the moment, so I let my footsteps crack, sending an echo through the forest.I find one of my favorite spots, an area where I’ve been watching a family of foxes until recently. They were living in a log, but I haven’t seen them in a few days. I’ve seen more large prints out here recently, and I think something must’ve scared them off.I’ve been suspicious that the larger pawprints are from a wolf—or several, honestly. I see a lot of those tracks out here, but I’ve never seen a wolf. With everything that’s happened recently funneling through my mind, I think it’s a little strange that I haven’t seen a wolf. I think of th
*Canaan*Bexley’s dark eyes are wide with terror as she stands pressed against the wall in the infirmary. For the first time in ages, I don’t feel like I’m the only one in the room who doesn’t want anyone to look at them.I speak first, knowing exactly how she feels. “It’s okay, Bexley.”She shakes her head, that mortified look on her face not fading. “It really is.” Justin sets the needle and thread he was trying to use to sew Ellison's wound aside, no longer needing it, and takes a few steps closer to her. She tries to back away, but she can’t. “Bexley, you healed his wound. With your hands.”Once more, she shakes her head furiously. “No. That’s not possible. I don’t know what happened. It must’ve been… the orange juice I drank for breakfast. It must’ve… spilled on my hands.”“Damn, I need to get myself some more of that orange juice,” Ellison jokes, trying to lighten the mood. It doesn’t work. He picks up his shirt, which is bloodied and has a small hole in it, and stands. “Thanks
*Bexley*After breakfast, I go back to my room for a warm cloak and mittens. I decide against wearing a hat, even though I know I’ll be colder without it. I don’t want to look silly in front of the king.Anna is at my door as I bound out. She smiles and says, “I thought maybe it would be helpful if I show you to the gardens, dear.”“That would be wonderful.”We walk down the same staircase as usual and down the hallways I’m familiar with until we are almost at the atrium, and then she turns a different direction down a path I’ve never explored . As we go, we chat. She asks about my mother, and I ask about her duties here at the castle since she’s already told me she has no family. She’s so sweet, and being around her is sort of like having a mother or a grandmother here, even with mine so far away.We arrive at an exterior door, and she pushes it open. &ld
*Bexley*The castle ballroom has an ethereal glow to it. Shimmery and clouded with a blanket of mist, I step into the center of the floor, my long blue ball gown billowing around me. The faces of the crowd around me are obscured by the mist. They don’t quite come into focus, but that’s okay. None of them are important. I hear their cheers above the sound of the orchestra playing in the corner, which I cannot see. It’s all so wispy and dreamlike. I feel like I’m floating on air.A man steps through the crowd, his face the only one I can see. His smile is genuine, his hazel eyes twinkling in the sparkling candlelight. He’s unbelievably handsome with his blonde hair tied back and a dazzling smile. His royal blue suit is fitted, showing off his rippling biceps as he extends a hand to me.I slip my fingers into his, and he pulls me close, and I can feel his heart beating beneath my palm as we begin to dance. “You&rsqu
*Bexley*Warm light bathes Canaan’s form as he turns on the light next to us. I don’t make a sound. Not a gasp. Not a whimper. Not a sigh. Nothing.I’ve prepared myself for this moment. Over the last several days as I’ve explored the castle and spoken to his staff and friends, I’ve gotten an idea of what he looks like now.The portrait in the library? The handsome man I’ve been hoping to see in my dreams? That’s what he used to look like. I only got a glimpse of that painting, but I know that was him.This is him now.His description of himself is pretty spot on, though I don’t see any slobber, and his tongue isn’t hanging out of his mouth as I expected it to be. He does appear to be caught in a transformation. His shoulders aren’t even, like his spine is twisted, with one higher than the other. His fur isn’t patchy that I can see. It’s a lovely gold color, similar to the hair I saw in the painting. He does have large fangs that don’t fit inside his mouth when it’s closed, as it is no
*Canaan*Several days have passed since Bexley first arrived at the castle. I’ve been trying to talk myself into visiting with her, but it’s been too difficult. The more time that slips away, the more desperate the situation becomes. Finally, I decide I have to bite the bullet and do something. She can’t get to know me if I never see her, and while Ellison and the others tell me she asks about me, I haven’t seen her in person in far too long. It’s time to remedy that, so I’ve called in the experts.“Ask her questions, but don’t be too nosy,” Olive suggests. “Take an interest in her, but don’t pry.”“And compliment her,” Naomi offers. “But make sure it sounds genuine.”“Don’t mention her boobs, though. No girl wants to hear a guy thinks she has nice tits. It just makes us feel like meat,” Olive insists.“I would never
*Canaan*“It’s fine. You can send it.” I slide Bexley’s letter back into the envelope and hand it to Justin. “How is she doing?”“She’s fine, I think.” He changes his position in the chair across from my desk, and I can tell he has more to say. “The girls have slipped up a few times, talking about mates and the like, but Bexley seems to think that’s just how we talk here.”“That is how we talk here,” I say with a shrug. “As long as no one has mentioned the curse or what she needs to do to break it, I think we’re fine.”“I’m certain no one has said that,” he assures me. “Although… she did walk into the library as David was covering your portrait. Anna thinks she may have caught a glimpse of it.”“Shit,” I mutter, dragging a hand down my face.“And she certainly saw the one o
*Bexley*Books. Thousands of them—maybe hundreds of thousands of them—line the shelves of this magnificent room. It’s two-stories tall with an endless amount of shelves, some quaint looking seating areas, and a roaring fireplace. In the distance, I see a wide window with a gorgeous view of what must be the back gardens Ellison was telling me about. I cover my mouth as I stand there and take it all in. Best of all, even from where I’m standing, I can see an area dedicated to zoology.“Miss Bexley!” Anna calls from across the room. I turn in her direction to see David on a ladder tall enough to reach the highest books, but he’s not at a bookshelf. He has a large white sheet in is hand, and he’s attempting to drape it over a huge painting on the wall. I scan the room and see two other such paintings already covered. In the distance, another hangs untouched. It’s a portrait of an older couple with their arms around one another. They look regal, dressed in fancy clothes with referred expre
*Bexley*Ellison is angry at me. It’s clear from the way he marches away from me, leaving me to rush to keep up. If I thought it was difficult to match his strides when we were going to the king’s office, it’s at least twice as hard now .When we get to the grand staircase, a maid is waiting there for me. “Will you show Miss Kessler to her room, please?”She bows in compliance, and he turns to walk away.“Ellison!” I shout after him. He stops but doesn’t turn to look at me. “I’m sorry.”Slowly, he turns around, that angry scowl still etched in his face. “Are you? Do you have any idea what you just did?”“Yes, I do,” I tell him. “I should’ve never—”“I don’t think you have any fucking idea what you did, Bexley.”The woman next to me cowers a bit at his use of such a powerful swear word.