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T H E A

PRESENT...

"Are you still mad?"

My eyes travelled back to Liv while I was being dead silent for a couple of minutes. I try to process the question that he asked me but I was also unsure of my own answer. I take a couple more seconds to think.

Am I still mad with all the things that he did to me?

I don't know.

"Then I take that as a yes." He answers his own question and looked away from me.

I sigh and looked away from him too.

"I don't know Liv." I admitted.

"I..." I trailed off.

I breath and exhaled. "I don't know if I'm still mad at you. I don't even know if I can even forget those things. I don't know if... I don't know if I can even forget our past Liv. You're like a ghost."

I turn my head back to him and he was already looking at me. "A ghost that follows me everywhere I go. You're always haunting me. In my dreams. In my thoughts. At work. Even after being away from you, you haunt me."

"Is it bad that I do?" He asks. "Do you feel mad when you remember me? Do I still dis
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