59L A N D O N I've parked my car right outside the pad where Miranda and I are staying in London and I don't know what I am feeling. I don't know if I'm ready to face her. I don't know what words I would or should say to her. I'm so mad but I don't want to be mad at her.I take a few minutes to try to calm myself down before stepping out of the car. Ned had brought them home right away when I left the reception and I was glad he did. I know she's waiting for me to arrive home and I know she wants to talk about it.I honestly don't know how to talk to her about all this.My fist feels numb and it is still hurting after punching Hugo.I know Miranda would explain to me but I don't know how to trust her after what she did behind my back. I just don't want her to explain everything because the fact that she had sex with Hugo for the second time totally angers the living hell out of me.I march my way to the front door and gathered my thoughts together with me as I entered the foyer. I l
60M I R A N D A"Let's have a paternity test."Landon's words are engraved inside my head for the past hour and I couldn't help but agree since I know that we both need to know about it to make sure. This is for reassurance and for us to have a peace of mind.He told me that he wants to make sure if it is indeed Hugo's or not and I agreed to him. Right after he asked for my consent, the two of us went to a clinic which conducts such test and he had to pay additional fees to make sure that the files will only be confidential to the doctor and the couple.Landon was very much decided to have this and I want this too.As soon as we reached the clinic, I went through two DNA paternity test right away. I went through a blood test from the alleged father who is Landon and a fetal cell analysis on me. The other one was much each and it was a 1 x 10mL blood sample from me and two mouth swabs from the alleged father.When it was done, we were told that the result would be sent to our e-mail a
60.5Damn he can still smile at me like that and I hate how he's acting fine."I am fine." He tells me.He holds both of my cheeks and plants his lips on my forehead while my tears are flooding on my face. He gently pulls my face up to him so I can look back into his teary eyes. He's eyes are filled with little amounts of tears but he's trying so hard not to cry."I promise you I'm alright. I'm okay now. I was mad at first but I know it won't lead me nowhere if I'd keep my anger. I've gotten over it." He tells me.Landon wipes my tears with his thumbs and smiles again. "Let's just start all over again." He says.I nod."Let's forget that it even happened because I'm trying to forget about it too. I don't want to remember it ever again and I don't want you to ever do that to me too. Promise me."I nod vigorously, "I promise.""I'm still hurting and I won't deny that it's hard for me to have that kind of trust again but I'm staying strong for you. And for myself. Of course for our baby.
61M I R A N D APuerto RicoPuerto Rico is a very astounding place to be and it is just ridiculously beautiful. It's like I'm on a terrific vacation and it is a great place to be to unwind and relax. Cross out my boyfriend who is unfortunately not here with me, missing the amazing place.The wind is blowing pretty kind of strong that's messing up my hair but it felt warm against my skin. The picturesque view of the beach as it calmly wets the shore, is astoundingly beautiful. It's so peaceful here and I just couldn't find any words to hate this place because this is a piece of paradise. Far from the busy streets of New York. Far from pollution. Far from the media. Far from everyone who wants to butt in into our lives.At least for a while Ben would have fun without me worrying about what the people are going to say about him. Ben is busy playing with his two nurses and I'm glad Landon reserved an extra room for them just to be with us. We have our two bodyguards as well which is also
61.5I don't know where my man is!Finally a doorbell came by the door.Thank heavens my foods are here!I hop off the couch to rush my hungry ass to the door and as soon as I swing it open, I jerked away from the door once I see a very tall man standing right outside my room. He wore an all black suit and tie while he is holding a huge white box. I glued my eyes on him and thinking that this is some kind of prank or he might be at the wrong door."You must be... At the wrong door?" I ask him.He shakes his head with an answer and smiles at me. "No ma’am. I was asked to deliver this to Presidential Suite room 6."That's my suite. I answered mentally."Are you Miss Miranda Rachel Rose?" He asks.I'm surprised.What is this? A question is stuck in my head."Yes. I am. Are you gonna kidnap me and put me inside that box?" I ask.The man chuckles. "No. It's a special delivery for you mam." He smiles sweetly with his adorable eyes,I accepted the box and was surprised with it’s weight since
62M I R A N D A"You're here." I cup his cheeks as a smile creeps on my face.I actually cannot believe that he is here because I thought he is going to arrive in two weeks. I made sure that I touch his face, to be certain that it is really Landon and it is him. I smile at him feeling overwhelmed to find him here.He smiles at me. "I am.""But... B-but you're in London... You told me--""I lied." He says while grinning."What?"He keeps smiling at me before he lands his lips on my cheeks and finally a quick peck on my lips, "I lied to you. I set you up. I was with you and Ben the entire time. In the same plane, when you got here, while you were sexily strutting your stuff around the resort. I was just around. Behind you. Watching you."My jaws open before I playfully smack his arm, "Why didn't you tell me?"He keeps laughing as if it was something funny, "I wanted to surprise you." He hugs me tight around his arms before he plants a kiss on my neck while his hands are still holding m
62.5When we were done eating the delicious dessert, we left the table and started strolling on the shore. His hand is holding my hand as we walk together slowly and it felt as if the time was still and everything around us didn’t matter because I am holding his hand. The moon is gleaming on the dark night sky and the sea is silently brushing its way to the shore, causing the sand to get wet."Just so you know, there are people around taking photos of us." I tell him.He looks around the same time a flash from a camera came from the darkness right ahead of us. "Can't believe the paps would still make it here." He says while shaking his head sideways.I chuckle."But I had fun today." I tell him as I pull my head up and his face lightened up with a smile. The view of that makes me smile too.“Even if I lied to you for this surprise?” He cheekily smiles at me.I smile as I nod at him, "Even if you lied to me to surprise me. I'm really glad that you're here." I tell him as I rest my head
63M I R A N D AThe golden engagement ring is massively beautiful and it is absolutely beautiful to see. It was too beautiful that I'm too embarrassed if I would wear it on my finger. I can't even take my eyes off of it because it looks undeniably amazing.The diamond is an oblong-cut and is a large cutlet facet being surrounded by little diamonds too. The entire ring is wrapped with tiny and remarkably shiny diamonds on it but as I look at it, the ring sparkled beautifully. It looks incredibly expensive as hell.My tears flooded my cheeks right away and Landon is still kneeling down right before me. He is waiting for me to answer him and my lips are trembling because I am just absolutely too surprised."Miranda?" He asks.I smile at him as my tears are still flowing over my cheeks."Yes Landon. I will marry you." I answer him happily. Without any doubts.He pull himself up and throws himself at me right away. He holds me tight and I hug him back as soon as he held me. The people aro
87 T H E A Sebastian committed suicide. He ended his own life with a gun in his head. No one even knew how he had a gun in the first place and no one had any idea he was going to do that. He was supposed to meet Ben and the others tomorrow for a reunion. He was supposed to live a new life after being sentenced in prison for seven years. He was supposed to live in a tropical place and start a new life for himself. He was supposed to live a life filled with dreams now that he is out in prison. Sebastian was supposed to live. I was supposed to forgive him. The autopsy report stated that it happened around twelve midnight which means just a few hours after he left our home. I have never felt so depressed in my entire life that I wasn't even able to tell him a lot of things that I wanted to say. I didnt know what I was exactly feeling, completely lost in my thoughts and emotions after Sebastian's passing. I knew that there was something wrong in his eyes when he talked to me becaus
86T H E A"How have you been?" He asks.Sebastian wore blue, white and light pink plaided top, a pair of faded jeans and a dirty white sneakers. He looked older than the last time I saw him and his hair has gotten longer too. He looked different, but those eyes still frightens me.Those merciless eyes.I couldn't stare at him longer and I had to look away from his gaze. I clear my throat, "I have been well." I answered."I'm really glad that you are." Sebastian tells me."Um, do you want to drink something Sebastian? Tea?" Ben offers.I quickly held his wrist, stopping him from leaving me alone in here and stared into his eyes as I said to him. "Please don't leave me here."Ben stares intently at me before he turns to Sebastian who speaks, "You dont really have to offer me anything."I bite my inner cheek and breathe in some confidence before I faced Sebastian. "What are you doing here?"Sebastian stares at me eagerly."What do you want?" I asked firmly."I came here to see if you ha
85T H E AI couldn't sleep the entire night as I was bothered about Sebastian's release happening in just a few hours.Thoughts were filling and piling inside my head one over the other and I don't know if this was going to let me sleep at all.So I slipped out of the bed where Ben was sleeping soundly and headed out of bedroom to get myself a glass of wine from downstairs. I hate myself when I turn to alcohol every time my thoughts are fogged up and fucked up. I hate when there are questions left unanswered and my solution is alcohol.I hated it.I hated it so much I hate myself too.I finished two glasses of wine and spent almost thirty minutes just sitting on a chair where I tried to drown and sort my troubled thoughts. I finally pulled myself up and headed back to my bedroom only until I saw Xavier heading out of his room, crying. I rushed to his side and wished that he wouldn't smell the stingy scent of alcohol from my breath."Xavier." I cooed. "What happened?""Mommy I had a n
84T H E A“Why didn’t you tell him?”Benedict's question still lingers in my mind.Why didn't I tell Sebastian back in the day?I have been asking myself that same question over and over again for the past couple of years. I used to tell myself that I wasn't ready and I know I wasn't ready. I lied to myself when I said I was ready to confess to him about our child but I was absentmindedly denying the fact that my mind was filled with so many thoughts as soon as I faced Sebastian.When I saw him, I was reminded of how he raped me mercilessly. When I saw him, I was reminded of how dirty of a woman I was. When I saw him, I was reminded of how I didn't want this baby to be born if only it hadn't been for Ben.Ben has always been my rock and my strength after everything that happened to me. All these years, he accepted me no matter what and I have been beyond blessed to have a man like that in my life.That kind of love and care he showed me is going to be something I didn't want to waste
83T H E AI stare at my own reflection in front of the mirror, I gained weight but I look different compared to the old me a few weeks ago. My eyes travelled down to my baby bump and as I turn to my side, I feel more anxiety building in the back of my head. I am not confident enough that I will be a good mother to this baby once it’s out when I know this baby came from a man who I trusted so much but just raped me. My bump is starting to show now and I know I have a lifelong responsibility waiting ahead of me. I just hope I will be responsible enough.I rub my hand over my small tummy then smiled at myself.“You will be fine.” I told my baby.Ben is here for me and for us. He always has. He made everything feel better. He made me better and happier without asking too much in return. He is a very selfless man and I owe him my life. My everything and all that I have left.I breathe out heavily and tucked my hair behind my ears as I stare at myself wearing this white dress and white ba
82B E N E D I C TShe stands by the balcony sliding door, staring at an empty space wearing my shirt and some pajamas. Standing here afar from Thea, looking at her, I can see and I can feel that her mind is full. It’s full of endless thoughts and worries. I wish I could take some from her restless bothered thoughts and I wish I could help her with what she is going through.Thea is strong but I don’t want her to have another breakdown. I hope I can share the pain and confusions she is going through right now. I wish, at least I could make her happy despite of what has happened lately.But I don’t know what to do as well.I am bothered too, restless, anxious, troubled and angry. I still have this growing hate in me and unwillingness to befriend Sebastian.I hate him.I walk towards Thea and wrapped my arms around her. She didn’t budge but still sets her eyes out the window. “There are no stars tonight.” I say.She sighs heavily.“Aren’t you hungry sweetheart?” I ask.She didn’t answer
81B E N E D I C T“The CEO of Saintclare Enterprises , finally off the market!!”I read mentally the newspaper’s headlines as soon as I got into my office. I scan through the magazines which were also over my desk, and the headlines were also all about me.I sigh. “I knew this was gonna come out first thing in the morning.”The phone on top of my desk rings, I quickly picked it up, “Yes.”“Mr. Saintclare everyone is calling in for an interview with you. They’re all asking if you have any available time.” I can hear telephones ringing from my secretary’s background.“Cancel all interviews. Tell them I have a busy schedule up until next week.” I hung up.Suddenly the phone in my pocket rings. I stare at the screen and it was Mrs. Brown, my PR.I sigh as I answer, “I know what you’re going to say.”“It’s everywhere. My phone has been ringing since six o’clock this morning. I don’t know what to answer them.”“Did you say anything about Thea?”“No. Not unless you tell me to. I’m only wait
80BENEDICTI stare at Thea, and she has been looking out of the window for minutes now. I know she still has a lot of things in mind with what has happened lately and I’m sure she’s tired of thinking about it too. She has talked to Khaleel and I have had talked to him too. Despite her past, we wanted to keep it to ourselves than letting the others know about it. They wouldn’t understand what she went through to survive and it isn’t our story to tell.I have asked myself a couple of times why she had to choose such job but then I didn’t have the courage to ask her. I don’t want her to feel bad about herself and the more I ask about her past, the more she would think it bothers me.Honestly, it has been in the past and we all have had done crazy shit a thing or two. All of us deserves a second chance and women like Thea who strives hard to change herself to become a better woman deserves more than that. I am proud of her and she knows it.A smile creeps on her face as soon as I rubbed
79THEASometimes, in our lives there are instances when you just want to disappear because of awkward situations or embarrassing moments. And right now, that’s what I want to happen. I want to teleport to another place far from here.It feels like everything inside my system malfunctioned and brain feels dead. I have never felt more disgusted of myself and my past than how Sebastian is embarrassing me right now in front of Ben. No one has ever made me feel so little of myself, only Sebastian.This bastard. This one of a hell man. I wish he dies.My tears were just flowing from my closed eyes and I feel this growing pain against my chest. I try to breathe in but the pain grows as I exhale so I remained quiet. I don’t want to face anyone or see how they look at me with disgust and filth. I just want to disappear like one pop of a bubble or run out of this house and never look back.But I cant, I know I have to face them now. I have to face Khaleel. I have to face Benedict even if it’s