6I kept my eyes glued on Mrs. Anne sleeping on her bed, all covered up with the blanket, while I was freezing to death on my wooden seat that I have been sitting on for an hour now because the room is insanely cold. I haven't brought my sweater with me and it is damn freezing in here. I would wish to make the temperature higher but I'm too shy to say anything.We have been quiet for an hour now and I wouldn't want to talk to Hugo because I don't know how to start a conversation with him and he is actually busy too. I wouldn't want to disturb him as well because he looks so focused on his seat. He is really a busy man now as what I've read on the news. He's busy making music, producing music with his own well-known record label and that infamous company of his.But seeing a busy thirty-year-old Hugo working on his laptop makes me think that he has finally matured. He has finally grown up so as his fans. He wasn't the Satellite Patrol lead vocalist who used to sing songs for his fans,
7"I'm not going. That's final." I say."Oh come on Miranda. Don't be such a baby! Maybe fate has led you back to him."I roll my eyes at no one, "Well fate is definitely wrong about this.""No. It's not." She argues.I arched an eyebrow at Vivian who was busy looking for my outfit to wear tonight. "Really. After seven years? And why on earth would that be?" I asked."I don't know. Maybe it's time you need to tell him the truth? That he got you pregnant? That he's the father to Ben?""Shhh, Ben might hear you." I shushed right away.She sighs. "Miranda, I'm your friend for better or for worst."I know where this conversation is going.She continues, “But what and why are you so afraid?”I didn’t answer.“Ben needs a dad." She states and emphasizes on the second word. I know that. "He needs a father's love. And I'm not saying you can't give it to him but it's different when a man is around." She adds."Okay I know that Vivian.” I stare on my hand trying to look for the words to say. “I
7.5Breathe Miranda.Breathe.Goddamn, I can't stop myself from falling in love of what I just heard coming from his delicious plump mouth. Hugo really is the nicest and most thoughtful guy a girl could have."I'm really thankful you came. I thought you were going to be busy tonight." He adds.I smiled back. "It's my day-off today so I have time."He smiles back, damn those dimples I swear to God."You say that you're going back to England?" I asked."Yeah. For work."I nod. "Well I can't believe it's been years since you'd sing to thousands of people with the four other lads."He smiles. "Those were the days."Suddenly his phone started ringing. He quickly pulled it out from his pocket. "I'll take this call." He tells me.I nodded with a smile."Hey honey." Hugo speaks to someone over the phone.Honey.My smile fades.I froze to the word honey. He's calling someone honey. Honey is a term of endearment. Of course it had to be someone special. It won't be his mom, would it? Is he taken
8Out of all the people that could open the door it had to be Ben.Damn universe, you are really enjoying playing with me.Say something Miranda! Speak! Jesus Christ speak up because you are already making it too hard on yourself."Ben!" I called out with a shaky voice.Hugo moved his head to me and there was a slight change from the way he has been looking at me the entire night in the restaurant.Ben smiles at me while he kept glancing his eyes at Hugo who was still silent. Oh goodness my heart. I think my heart is going to jump out of my chest and I'm going to collapse."You're still up." I add."I couldn't sleep.” Ben answers. “I was waiting for you."Ben's eyes moved to Hugo. "Who is he?" He asked, while pointing."He's a friend." I answered."Your little brother?" Hugo questioned."Her son. Name's Ben." Ben offered a handshake.Every single time. He always does this when there are new guys he sees me with. He is kind of protective of me in some way and I kind of find it really a
8.5Chris continues to read the entire page, "Wow this guy. He owns a lot of money. I wonder how he spends his wealth. Maybe he could open a hospital and pay hospital workers a bigger salary."I smile and tried to diver the topic away from Hugo, "How about lunch? I'm starving."He brings his hand together and stand from his seat, "Fantastic!"We went out to have lunch at our usual spot which was just located near the hospital. It’s been our favorite since the foods are incredible and the place has a really nice ambiance. We continued having our conversation while we were eating on our foods and it’s always nice to just hang out with Chris."Miranda, haven't you thought about getting into a relationship?" He asks, out of the blue after we discussed about Hugo’s offer to me.I really don't know how to answer when people bring this topic because I don’t think I am ready to share a part of me and Ben with someone else. I need to have this reassurance that the man I will spend a life with
9H U G OA knock came by the door."Come in." I say while my eyes were glued on the papers that I was busy signing.The door opens, and here comes my secretary, Maria, who's been getting hates from my fiancée Audrey Chamberlain. Audrey doesn't really like her especially when she is around here in my office every single day. Audrey mentioned that she thinks Maria is flirting with me. She's afraid I might bend her over my desk and have sex with her while she's away from me but I wouldn't do that.Audrey typically worries too much about the women around me and I guess she’s a little bit too overprotective. She keeps whining about having Maria fired because of her gut feeling which has always been wrong. I couldn’t fire Maria who has always been amazing and diligent with her work. She’s reached her position because she earned it from working her for long. Maria’s really great at her job, excellent in multi-tasking and she's very quick and attentive."Yes Maria?" I asked."These are the p
9.5For some reason, a part of me is actually hoping on seeing her again. I never had the chance to talk to her while I was sober. I never had the chance to actually spend time with her after the frolicking and fucking. I tried to look for her as much as I could but I couldn’t the morning after that.No traces of her, just this damned necklace.If I'd ever see her again, I would ask so many things like why she wanted to ask her why she left me that morning, how she has been after what happened and if she was alright after that.Most importantly, I want to know how hurt she was because I obviously took her virginity. I feel this guilt inside me because I haven't fucked a virgin before and the way she left that day without saying anything to me made me feel as if she was embarrassed.She must have seen the bloodstain and felt too shy to talk to me after. I thought she was going to be someone who was using me to ruin my image but then no one actually knew what happened. All these years I
10M I R A N D AI try to fix my gray colored graded contact lenses inside the bathroom and dropped a few eyedropper to avoid my eyes from drying. I have always sported gray eyes ever since my drunken one night with Hugo Saintclare. Yeah, I’m a freaking coward.I know, I’m always trying to hide my real identity from blond hair to the changed darker hair color and light blue eyes to fake gray colored lenses. Pathetic. Fucking pathetic Miranda. You are an absolute fucking pathetic, I swear. I’m still hiding even though Hugo is already right in front of me yet I am still so scared.I have always lived in guilt, embarrassment and… more guilt the more I see him, the guiltier I become.I have to tell him, I have to. I must. I need to tell him because he is the father of Ben.I finally left the bathroom as soon as I finished preparing myself for clearance. Until I hear my name being called, "Miranda Rose!"I quickly turned my head around and found Chris running towards me as if he was in a h