20M I R A N D AHUGO: I'm terribly sorry I can't come for dinner with you. I know I promised but I needed to go back to London ASAP. Something important came up. I'll still be looking forward for the free dinner next time. Take care! Send my regards to Ben for me. Tell him I'm so sorry. See you both soon. xI read his message that he sent to me five hours ago. He left and I know why he came back. It's already one in the morning and I'm still thinking about the night I spent with Hugo. I wish it didn't stop. I wish it would happen all over again. I wish we'd build tents made out of sheets once more. I wish next time I could finally tell him the truth. I wish next time that I could have some confidence and bravery in me.I sigh inwardly as I reread his message for a hundredth time. I know he went back to London for his fiancée. He obviously went back there to fix the problem that they have had been going through. I just wish it isn't related about me.I mean, we've been spotted hanging
21M I R A N D A He’s really there no matter how many times I have blinked now.He’s there.He’s wearing a black Adidas jogging pants, a plain white shirt, a pair of red running shoes and that drowning light blue eyes of his which are glued on mine.Holy fucking ass!It’s really Landon.The Landon Thompson from Satellite Patrol who I have always adored for so many years now.Joan stands, “I’m glad she’s gained conscious Mr. Thompson.”“I’m glad too. Thank you Joan.” Landon smiles at me, “Hi love.”Holy ass, I should be old for fangirling but I can’t stop myself from doing so since Landon just freaking called me love.He begins to walk closer to my bed and sits down right next to me with curious eyes. I wonder how I’m going to react right now after what just happened to me with Devon. Right now, I want to scream, shout and let it all out. I want to hug him so tight. I want to throw myself at him. I want to do what fans usually do when their idols are around. But I reminded myself that
21.5But then I don’t want to end up like a weak loser. I’m going to fight. I’m going to fight for myself.“We’ll find that man. I’ll help you no matter what. He shouldn’t have done that to you.” Landon tells me.I glance at Joan and she looks at me pitifully. I hate when people look at me that way because I know I’m poor. I’m penniless. Hell, I’m running out of money in the bank. My savings aren’t sufficiently funded and I’m about to lose my job again. I know I am having a hard life and I hate when people pity me even though I know I am in need of huge help. I somewhat don’t want people to sympathize me because they will only look down on me. They will see that as an advantage. They will only make me feel like I am the worst person ever.Right now I badly need help and I know I need to learn how to depend on someone. I have been on my own for too long and it’s making me feel to lonely and tired.Thinking about it, Devon has the money and he could close the case just by paying everyon
22M I R A N D A "Mommy!"Ben runs towards me and he was quick to throw himself towards my chest coming for a hug. He's crying and I can tell from the look in his eyes that he was worried and he was scared that I was gone for hours. Oh god my baby boy truly amazes me every single day."I was so worried of you!” He says while crying. “Where were you mom? I thought you left me. I thought you forgot about me." Ben cries over my shoulder as his hug was tight.I kiss Ben's cheeks repeatedly. "Oh Ben. Baby I wouldn't do that." I release him as I rub his back with my hands. "Mommy's here. I'm here. I'm sorry. I'm really sorry mommy made you feel so worried."I see Vivian coming towards me and I quickly hug her tight as I try to hold back my tears. "What the hell, Miranda Rose! Where were you?” She asks me worriedly and scolds like a mother.“I’m sorry.” I say.“I was insanely worried about you! What the hell are you wearing? Where exactly were you last night?" She releases me and looks at m
22.5"Aunt Vivian, uncle Landon and I are going to talk about something." I answer him."Benny, uncle Arthur’s video games are upstairs. You know how to turn it on right?” Vivian asks.Ben nods.“You can play it upstairs if you want.” She adds."I can?” Ben smiles brightly. “Okay! I can practice so that I can beat uncle Arthur’s high score.” He stands on his feet and carries the glass of lemonade from the table, “I'm bringing this with me mom." Ben runs upstairs.“Careful honey!” I hollered to him.“Okay mommy!” He answers.I take a deep breath in and glanced at Vivian who was looking at me intently, waiting for me to say something. She looks at me confusingly and leans in forward as she whispers to my ear. "Are we going to tell him about Ben?"Landon glares at us while sipping his drink.I give Vivian an eye, "What? No." I spit.I pull myself away from her as I mutter to myself, "How do I start this."As soon as I told Vivian about what happened, she got so angry and it was expected
23M I R A N D A The following morning, 7:36 AM, I was already looking forward for dinner with Landon. I had the feeling that it was going to be a wonderful time spent with him and I am already freaking excited.My phone beeps and it was a message from Ned. I think he must have known about what happened to me and Devon.NED: I've heard the news from Kevin and Landon. I really feel bad about what happened to you. I’m sorry. I feel guilty because I was the one who offered you to work there. I am truly sorry Miranda. I didn't know Devon could do such a thing. He’s lways been a nice guy when I talk to him.MIRANDA: It wasn't your fault Ned. You were just trying to help me when I was looking for a job and I'm not blaming you because of what happened. Please don't blame yourself. I've gotten better and I am trying to be better. Righ now I'm just glad Devon is where he needs to be.NED: I know, it’s just hard to process everything. Landon and I made sure that he will learn his lesson in pri
23.5"Ned." I smile at him "Please stop thinking that it's because of you.""Because it was." He answer me right away. "Hugo told me before to offer you a job around here but then we were full and we weren't hiring. Now, after what happened, I needed to do something to at least ease my burdened thoughts out of my head."Does Hugo even know about what happened to me? "Does Hugo know about what happened to me?" I ask him shyly.Ned nods. "I told him."I purse my lips together and wondered if it even worried him or…. I don’t know, maybe at least I thought he would ask how I was after finding out about it."That's why he's been persuading me about giving you a job here and it’s safer if you are around under my supervision." He adds.I smile ruefully."Don't decline my offer please. At least when you're here working for me, my conscience will be at ease. I'll be able to know you're safe and you are not harmed in any way." He continues.I take another glance at the uniform and even though
24M I R A N D A Hugo smiles.Oh Hugo it's been a week since I've seen you and every time I see you I just feel like this all the time. It's crazy because I feel like I'm running out of breath when you're near or when you're around me. It's maddening because every time I see your face I can't help but want to tell you the truth but how am I gonna suppose to do that?How?It's not that easy and there are so many things left at stake. But Ben, it's obvious that he's your son and I know I need to find the courage to tell him and to tell you the truth.You're the only guy I had sex with all my life.I sigh as I think of how I badly want to tell him about these thoughts.I take a deep breath in and exhale heavily. Hoping my nervousness would release at the same time I exhale. I smiled back and greeted, "Hi…." I was caught with his handsome face and dimpled smile which I have missed seeing."Sir." I added."I told you to call me Hugo.""It's on the staff manual.” I answer him politely. “I