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10.5

I paused. "A little bit."

He paused too and looked at me. "Is England the place where they have that large clock clock that’s the same as my name?"

I nod, "Yes baby. That’s right."

"Are we going there?"

"Do you want to go?"

He paused again and pressed his lips together while he was thinking about what to answer to me. "No."

Ben begins to eat again as I sigh inwardly. "Why not?" I can’t help but ask.

"It's pretty expensive."

He's right. Who am I kidding? Everything in England is expensive and having the both of us there, with no friends around like Vivian or Arthur or Christian who would actually help me. New York is expensive too but at least I have friends who would help me when I am in financial need.

"You see Ben, mommy has been offered a job there in England and a friend of mine will help us when we get there." I tell him.

Ben pulled his head up and looked at me, "You mean we're leaving New York?"

I nod. "You don't want to?"

"Mom, I don't want to leave.” He pouts. “I can't le
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