Hopeless?
Only a few seconds later, Nathan's enthusiasm was completely eroded. The smile on the man's lips suddenly appeared. No, despair was never in his dictionary. Either before, or today. He should remember that.
In an instant, Nathan's enthusiasm burned again. Erick's rejection and insults should not have made him give up there. Because see? There's always a way to Rome, isn't there? New ways always grow behind the death of old ones. There is always a way out that can be made, behind a dead end.
Yes, that's roughly how optimistic Nathan is at the moment. After catching something in his eyes that now looked so bright and promising.
Why? Guess what Nathan saw? The answers to his questions over the past few days were recorded there quite clearly. And Nathan will know the answer he is looking for without even needing to press his friend again. He should have thought about that for a long time, but oh well, the rice has become porridge, and eating porridg
“Do-doc? What is it? Wh-why are you—”Liana was confused. She didn't understand why her psychiatrist suddenly acted outside of how the man usually appeared in Liana's eyes. The Erick that Liana knew was calm, modest, gentle, good at self-control, and so on, now looks very... bar-bar? Ah, how can Lian explain it?"Sorry, Lian. Excuse me. I'm sorry, but I had to save you from—no, I mean forget what I just said but the point is that what I did just now was for your good.”Lian clearly didn't understand what her psychiatrist meant. So what? Saved from what? And what does Erick mean—he's doing it for Liana's good? But, even if pressed or asked, Erick wouldn't say it, this could be seen from his movements as he immediately sat down in his work chair, a sign that their conversation had ended there.However, the woman who was still standing in her place grimaced at the confused expression shown by her psychiatrist, until she said something that Lian had never said to Erick during their consul
"Hatchiii..." Lian rubbed his nose which suddenly felt itchy.The woman was still in the office elevator just about to go home with all her equipment piled up in her hands. He was in a closed elevator, with several people around him, plus the sudden sound of sneezing amidst the silence. Of course, the awkward situation that had already filled the elevator when she decided to go down with the other employees, became even worse when Lian uncontrollably let out a sneeze."Ms. Lian are you okay?" asked one of the employees, whom Lian remembered was in the marketing department.As one of the leaders of the company, Lian of course must remain authoritative even though she is a woman. Let alone her absurd or strange nature, only the closest and most trusted people can see what her true temperament is like. Because being a leader, who is also a woman—without anyone backing her up, clearly has to be strong, really strong so that there is no room for anyone else to bring her down."It doesn't m
Truly...What should Katrin do with her best friend? Is this the company leader who is said to be firm, intelligent, and authoritative? Is this the person? A woman with a level of stupidity—no, let's not call Liana stupid, because e her academic achievements recorded in the form of certificates or trophies have piled up in the woman's house.Lian is just too innocent, his best friend is just too unique until what gets caught in her head, even though the person's meaning may not be what Lian interprets, that's what Lian believes. Poor thing, Lian is like that when it comes to personal matters, both past and present. In her mid-30s, Lian is still the same as when the woman was in her 20s or even teens.“Li, you didn't think about it at all? What was the trigger that made your psychiatrist suddenly pull you into his room? He can't possibly say all that to you just because of something you think he likes, right?"The woman in front of her suddenly fell silent, only the blink of her eyes m
As soon as he entered the café, Nathan immediately turned his head here and there. The goal? Of course to find the figure he is looking for. Liana, Nathan finally knew the woman's name after Erick first mentioned it. Nathan didn't hear it very clearly because Erick was just mumbling. It was only yesterday that Nathan finally heard the woman's name clearly from Erick's mouth—after various things had happened, and certainly after things that Nathan ultimately needed to discuss with Erick."WELCOME. Please order here."Nathan smiled faintly, welcoming the friendly greeting of the café employee who was standing by behind the counter. For a moment, Nathan had to put aside his goal of looking, because, of course, he couldn't just be there to look, but also had to buy if he didn't want to embarrass himself."Just one ice Americano, please."The employee in front of him repeated Nathan's order and then asked if there was anything else Nathan needed. Nathan shook his head and put on a faint sm
"Ah, sorry to interrupt your conversation."Nathan suddenly seemed to realize that he shouldn't have been in such a hurry that the person he was talking to was reluctant to talk to him. And that could be seen from the way both Liana and Katrin were looking at him right now.“Sorry, but... Sir, who are you? Why do you want to talk to me?"Katrin, who had originally directed her gaze at Nathan, now turned to Liana, with one eyebrow raised. "Oh, you don't know him? But earlier he said..." Katrin's words trailed off and then turned back to Nathan, who immediately flinched, understanding that he had to explain his position to Liana at this time."I'm Nathan, Nathan Mahardika—a friend and fellow doctor from Erick.""I thought you and Liana had known each other before, did you know she just introduced herself to you today?" Katrin's interrogation, she is starting to feel wary of Nathan's presence, which she thinks is strange.How could it not be, if Liana didn't know who this person was befo
Nathan raised his hand to calm Lian, the man wet his lips several times before starting to speak again. This woman... when she changes her fashion can make a man's guts shrink. Or... did this just happen because of their situation?"No. Of course, I'm not a stalker like you mean, Lian. I'm just looking for your information to ask you for help, because from what I heard the situation is more or less the same.”No. This obviously won't be that easy just because Nathan finally said his goal even though it was only the intro. Nathan thought, after saying that—everything would be easier, but it didn't seem so.“What kind of situation do you mean? And how do you know about my situation which you think is more or less the same as yours? You found out my information after you knew the situation, right? Because that was your trigger to meet me right now and ask for help with whatever it is that I still don't understand.”“Lian, I apologize in advance. You are right, I knew your situation befor
The woman who had been in his sight passed, really passed and Nathan felt that he had no right to stop Liana. However, maybe Liana needs time to digest everything, Liana needs to think carefully that Nathan's goal in making her a friend to solve the problems they each face is not based on random considerations, but Nathan has thought it over carefully before conveying it to Liana.Liana needs time, that's what Nathan is trying to believe so that his courage doesn't burn out and so that he doesn't stop trying just to get here."What? What did you say to Liana? Why did Lian just leave like that?”Without Nathan realizing it, the café owner who had previously greeted him interrupted his reverie again, this time of course for quite clear reasons. Nathan saw how Katrin had tried to stop Liana, but her friend didn't seem to say anything and just walked away from there. Just like someone very angry."Hhm... That..." Nathan looked away, of course, he objected that he had to tell Katrin about
Liana has been absent from visiting Katrin's café for several days. When asked by her friend, Liana only explained that she was so busy that she didn't have time to stop by the café. And of course, Katrin didn't immediately believe Lian's joke.This must be because of Nathan's presence.“He's not here... He hasn't come for several days, Lian. So you don't need to be afraid of running into him. Besides, you forgot he's a doctor? He's busy, and his priority isn't just you. Who are you trying? Until you feel like he will look for you every day."Lian on the phone let out a short breath. “Did I say anything about that person? I should be the one asking you, why? Why are you suddenly making such a fuss about asking me to come to your cafe? "Usually when I go there you will end up nagging a lot and making a fuss about this and that.""Oh, don't dodge it. You don't have anywhere else to escape. So, the only place for you to unwind without distractions while drinking coffee and talking about
Lian nervous? Of course! However, the fact is that Lian hasn't experienced feelings like this for years. Feelings of nervousness when waiting to be introduced to a figure are something that she has to anticipate, and of course, Lian has to give a good impression.Well, even though their marriage was only the result of an agreement, that doesn't mean Lian can just show insolence towards her future in-laws, right? Ah, that nickname still seems too awkward to pin, so let's use “Nathan's parents” instead.It's true; after discussing it the other day at Nathan's apartment, they decided to immediately put their plans into action. After all, everything has been discussed, and even if something is missing, it can be added later. What are they waiting for anyway? Isn't their goal to make their family calm? That's why the sooner it is done, the better, right?“Are you nervous?” Nathan glanced at Lian, who was sitting next to him. The woman was rubbing her hands in her lap as if she were trying
"What do you mean without your knowledge, Arga?" Nathan spoke after Lian seemed confused about answering the young man's question. I always told you when I met Lian, so how could you say it without knowing?"Arga, who was attacked by his lover, looked relaxed and didn't seem cornered even though Nathan's question was quite harsh. The young man's shoulders even shrugged indifferently. “You said that after you two met, right? In other words, every time you plan a meeting, I don't know. What's wrong with what I said?"Unlucky. Lian swallowed her saliva, feeling that her current position was like a third person. Is this what it feels like to be between lovers who are fighting? Lian thought."But then..."“Yes, yes, it's up to you, Sir. I was just asking, why did you get so serious like that? I'm not going to attack Lian, why are you so scared?"“Arga.”“Sorry... Sorry, okay? Are you satisfied now? Can't you take a joke at all? You're too serious, you know?" Arga sneered, now turning his f
Strangely, every time Arga asked for Nathan's time to meet him, the man always had something urgent to do so he couldn't meet his lover. Meanwhile, without Nathan realizing it, the time to discuss something with Lian was always there, so the intensity of their meeting was quite high recently.What are they talking about? Many things. Whether it's getting to know each other, or learning all the things they have to do to convince people about their future marriage.Wedding preparations? Maybe that word can be used for some of these things. Although the perspective that people generally have is different from Lian and Nathan regarding the matter of "wedding preparation".“Today I invited Arga. Yes, don't worry. He said there was also something he wanted to talk to you about.”Nathan spoke on his telephone. Exited the doctor's office and started touring the hospital before heading to the ER where he spent the day.“Okay, see you later. I'll let you know when Arga has decided on a place fo
“Y-you guys?”After quite a bit of silence since Nathan last smiled following Lian's greeting, Katrin spoke, and unfortunately, that was the only thing that could come out of her mouth even though there were lots of things going on in her head.Katrin's head was busy changing direction between Lian and Nathan to see the two people's reactions, or waiting for the answer to come out of their mouths. But seconds passed, and Katrin didn't answer, instead, she gave a questioning look which made Katrin tired herself. The woman finally chuckled, choosing to leave the two people with who knows what their business was now.“Tsk, it's up to you! I completely give up on you two.” Katrin grumbled, a few seconds later the woman had taken over the cashier's desk and decided to busy herself there. As was the case with Lian, no matter how curious Katrin was at the moment regarding the two people's affairs, they wouldn't tell her anyway. That's enough, Katrin is enough and must be aware of that."I th
"Have you signed your marriage agreement?" Arga's shout on the telephone line slightly made Nathan, who put his cell phone to his ear, move it away for a moment."Arga... keep your voice down, my ears will hurt." Nathan protested afterward.The man on the telephone didn't seem to listen to Nathan's request, he continued to insult Nathan with questions that he didn't ask enough. Ah, maybe a little, Arga at least lowered his voice so that his lover's ears would be okay, even though the barrage of questions from him didn't stop even though the previous one had not yielded an answer.“Why didn't you guys tell me? Why are you guys doing it without me? Why don't you guys discuss the timing with me first? And why are you just saying it now? When did you do it? What are the contents of the agreement?"“Arga, calm down... What makes you this angry? What's wrong with me and Lian just doing it together? This is just a statement on paper, that we do it for each other's interests. What do you expe
Nathan could not immediately contact Lian even though the next day he had decided to follow all the points that Liana put forward. The reason? Because Nathan had to take another full shift, and it was difficult to find time to meet Lian because the woman also had a busy schedule.It took 3 days for Nathan to arrange a meeting with Lian. And it couldn't be said to be a meeting because Nathan still had to be responsible for the ER and his juniors.“You guys—” The man seemed at a loss for words. He couldn't understand why Nathan could take advantage of him at a time like this. “I mean, you can meet somewhere else! Why does it have to be in my room?!"Erick. That was Erick who was pacing back and forth in his room. He couldn't stop thinking about his friend and patient who agreed to meet in his room. What? What do they think Erick's room is? Rendezvous? Meeting room? Café? Seriously!"After all, Lian. I thought you came to consult with me again. I'm happy and grateful that you want to for
"But..." Lian continued but also stopped speaking at the same time. Her eyes now dared to look straight at Nathan, as if she wanted to emphasize that what she was about to say was something serious and intolerable.“Please continue, Lian. I'll listen.”“I want the contents of the agreement only you and I to know. Arga might be able to find out our true relationship, but not the contents of the agreement."Nathan was silent, listening.“Because even though this is called a fake household, basically this relationship will still be called a household. There are things that other people can know, and there are things that only the two of us need to know."Nathan's head slowly gave a slow nod. For some reason, there was something that made Nathan feel happy about Lian's words. The woman, whether she realized it or not, no longer used separate pronouns to refer to the two of them. He no longer uses "You and I" but rather "We" in her speech. And even though other people think it's a trivial
They met, just Lian and Nathan, in a café which of course was not Katrin's café. Lian knew that if they were there, their conversation would feel like they were being watched, and Nathan also knew that he probably didn't want to be seen again at Katrin's café after what happened.And now, after ten minutes of being there, both of them were still silent. Avoiding looking at each other even though both of them also stole several opportunities to glance or glance at the figure in front of them.Nathan rubbed his hands on his trousers-covered knees, and cleared his throat slightly, daring himself to speak first. "I thank you because you are still willing to meet me, especially—""No need to make small talk, that sounds annoying."What does Nathan hope for? Lian of course was still angry with him. Who doesn't? After being framed, lied to, and taken advantage of like what happened a few days ago, of course, Lian has the right to be angry with him, and even has the right to hate him for the
Katrin immediately approached Liana as soon as she saw her friend come out of her room. The woman was very excited and wanted to ask many questions that had been in her head for a long time, but when she saw Lian's confused expression, the enthusiasm on Katrin's face slowly faded, even disappearing completely, replaced by the anxiety that was etched there."Are you all right? Your conversation isn't going well?"Lian just shook her head, held one of Katrin's hands, and looked at her friend with a pitiful look.“I'll go home first, Kat. I need my own time. I'm sorry, and thanks for the room.” Without waiting for a reply from Katrin, Lian left in front of her, walking in a hurry as if she wanted to quickly disappear from that place and didn't want to look there again.Her mind was full, full of the wounds that her parents would have had to endure. And all of that was because of Arga's words, the persuasive sentences that the young man said to Lian seemed to have an impact on the woman.