(Pamela)
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THE WEIGHT OF the contract in my hands is a constant reminder that this is a very big mistake.
I shouldn't be here. I shouldn't even be entertaining this ridiculous offer.
But I find myself still skimming through the terms of the contract. It's a whooping 12 pages and each page ends up being worse than the last one.
Massimo is seated across from me. He doesn't say anything but his eyes speak volumes. I can’t bear to look at him so I focus on the document that I'm holding.
“Let me get this straight,” I begin, my voice shaky. “You want me to give up two years of my life, parade around as your wife, and pretend to be part of some picture-perfect family ... all to make you look good in the eyes of the media?”
“It's not just about me,” Massimo responds in a calculated tone. “Like I said earlier, it's also about Erik. He needs a home. Stability. Safety. You can’t give him that alone.”
My chest tightens as his words strike a nerve. “You don't know what I can or can't give him.”
“I know what the court will decide,” He asserted, his face blank.
His statement leaves me feeling drained because it's so obvious that he's going to win the court case. I've already seen the custody papers and it isn’t going in my favor at all.
His legal team has completely ripped me apart using all my weaknesses: my small income, my even smaller apartment, and my lack of connections. On paper, I look like a Nobody. A nobody fighting against a giant.
I stand up abruptly and begin to pace the office. My whole head hurt from all the overthinking.
“Why two years? Why not just take full custody and leave me out of it, like you always wanted?”
Of course, I don’t mean that, but curiosity always has the best of me sometimes.
Massimo leans into his seat, a muscle in his jaw ticking in annoyance. But his voice softens slightly, catching me off guard, “Because I've had a change of heart. Whether I like it or not, you matter to Erik. You're the only link to his mother and I don't want to take that away from him.”
I stop in my tracks at his words. I can’t believe there is still a hint of humanity in his heart. I always thought he had no emotions and didn't care about Erik at all. Perhaps I was wrong.
I don't know if that makes me feel better or worse.
“Let's not waste any more time,” Massimo continues. “If you agree, sign. If you don't … well, you know how it all ends, don't you?”
My eyes dart to the contract again. The terms are ruthless:
Two years of Marriage, with Joint Custody of Erik
Pamela and Erik must move into Massimo’s estate
Both parties must maintain the appearance of a loving and stable marriage
Romantic or emotional attachment between the parties is STRICTLY prohibited
Both parties must avoid scandals or actions that could harm the family's public image
IF EITHER PARTY BREACHES THE AGREEMENT, THERE WILL BE PENALTIES ATTACHED
“I need a moment to think about this,” I say finally.
But Massimo doesn't look like he has that much patience. “Well, you don't have all damn day. And neither do I.”
My eyes linger on the most disturbing part of the contract. Clause two.
“Do I really need to move into your estate?” I ask tentatively.
The thought of it scares me. It's bad enough that I get to have a fake marriage with him but living together just doesn’t seem right.
The corner of Massimo’s lips curls into an amused smile. Like he can't believe his ears.
“Well, if we're going to do this together, would you prefer we mail Erik back and forth like a package? Or better yet, we could set up a schedule where I FaceTime him from my penthouse while you teach him how to balance your grocery budget.”
A flush creeps across my cheeks when I realise he's only being sarcastic. I didn’t know he had it in him.
He leans into his seat, his smirk only getting wider at my obvious reaction. “Yes, Ms. Brown, moving in is absolutely necessary. Unless you'd rather explain to everyone why our ‘perfect marriage’ looks like we can't stand to be in the same house.”
Okay then, he does have a point. But it still doesn't make the situation any more appealing.
“You barely know me,” I say. “Why would you trust me to live in your home and care for Erik?”
“Why wouldn't I?”
I shrug, “Because I'm a stranger?”
Massimo rolls his eyes as he leans forward with an impatient look. “A stranger who’s already managed to argue with me, insult me, and question my decisions in less than a week? Ms. Brown, you’re practically family already.”
I blink at him, completely caught off guard by his words.
“Besides,” he continues. “I’ve had my team look into you. If you had any dark secrets, trust me, I’d already know. Unless, of course, you’re hiding something my team couldn’t find?”
My stomach tightens and I shift uncomfortably. His sharp eyes don’t miss a thing.
“Thought so,” he adds, clearly enjoying my discomfort. “Now, if you’re done questioning my life choices, maybe we can move on to the part where we make this work for Erik.”
I take in a deep breathe, my entire focus on the ballpoint pen on the table. The name D'Amato is engraved on it, giving it such a sophisticated look.
If I pick it up to sign these papers, my life would be over in a split second. Not only will I be getting married but everything else will change as well.
Everything.
Am I really ready to do this?
(Pamela)..THE RAIN STARTS right as they lower my sister into the ground.It's a light drizzle that quickly turns into a downpour. Everyone takes shade under an umbrella, but I don’t even feel the rain pouring down harshly at us.My entire focus is on Anna's dark mahogany casket that keeps getting lowered away. Soon, my sister is completely gone from our view and now six feet under. Never to be seen or heard from ever again.My fingers clutch the baby-red roses so tightly that the stems dig into my palms. But I don’t feel the pain. I don't even feel my own fingers. I should step forward. I should place the flowers down and whisper a final goodbye. But my body refuses to move because I'm still finding it so hard to believe.She’s gone.She’s really gone. My one and only sister.I'd sacrificed my entire life to raise her, to make sure she didn't have the kind of childhood that I had. I had done multiple jobs at the same time, just to be able to provide her with the best things, an
(Pamela)..Massimo moves before I hit the ground.It all happens so fast like a scene out of a horror movie. One minute, I'm swaying out of control, and the next minute, his hands are gripping mine in an attempt to stop my fall.His touch is warm and solid, and a gentle comfort from the biting cold. My head tells me to pull away because he's the enemy here. But I don’t. Instead, I allow myself to relax for a bit and everything else comes to a standstill.The tears that have been building up since the funeral finally lets out and I begin to wail into his chest. I'm completely consumed by my grief to even notice that I'm tearing up in Massimo’s arms, of all people.For a long moment, we stand there as I cry uncontrollably with the rain pounding against us. My body trembles, and I hate myself for showing weakness in front of him. But it feels good to let all the pain out.Massimo’s as stiff as a statue for the first few seconds and then he exhales. His voice is quieter when he spe
(Pamela)..THE CAB PULLS to a stop right in front of Massimo’s company and I jump out, more determined than ever to give him a piece of my mind.Leo, Massimo’s right-hand man, jumps to the rescue before I can even shove through the doors of Massimo’s office.“Ms. Brown.” His voice is firm, but I can see the faintest hint of amusement in his deep-set eyes. “Mr. D’Amato is in a meeting.”He thinks this is funny? Fine, I'll show him what's funny.“I don’t care if he’s meeting the damn Pope!” I fire back as I struggle against his grip. “Move.”Leo doesn't budge. It's as if I weigh nothing, which technically could be true because that man had muscles the size of a horse.“Not a good idea,” he says.Oh, I know this isn't a good idea at all. Which is precisely why I'm doing it. Massimo leaked those fake rumours about us without even telling me first. Like my opinion wasn't important or needed, like I was just a spawn in his games. As if that wan't enough, he dragged Erik into this and pu
Massimo ..PAMELA BROWN HAS a habit of storming into my life like she has control over it.First was at the funeral. Now, my office. Always demanding explanations. Always wanting to know why I did what I did, or even better what my brother was up to.I let her scream at me, let her slam her phone on my desk in front of my two business partners. I even let her throw her little accusations my way. And not because I have suddenly turned a new leaf. My nephew is very much the reason we've come this far and I'm willing to compromise a little to keep things that way.And now, as she stands before me, arms crossed, blue eyes burning with fury, I can’t help but find this entire thing amusing.She actually believes she has the right to be upset.“I'm not implying anything, but let's go over what has happened lately, shall we?” I respond in a carefully controlled tone, while catching the scent of her floral perfume.To be honest, I wouldn’t have brought this up if she hadn't barged into my of
Pamela..I CAN’T BELIEVE IT.I just slapped Massimo D’Amato across the cheek. Of all the things that could possibly go wrong today, this isn't one that I'd seen coming. But he'd gone too far. He not only insulted my sister and I, but he also accused us of doing things we never ever did. What happened with Anna and the pregnancy was just an accident. But twisting the entire thing like we'd planned it was totally unacceptable to me.I take step back when I realize what has just happened. The room is awfully silent. I wonder what Massimo will do next. Hit me back? Call Leo to throw me away? Call off the contact and take Erik away from me permanently? God, the thought of that alone scares me. How could I have let my anger take the best of me? I'm not normally this triggered to the point of hitting someone. That's just how unbearable this man is.Massimo slowly turns back to face me and I can see his tongue dragging across his bottom lip. Then, I realized with horror that I hit him
(Pamela)..I CROSS MY ARMS, my stomach twisting at Veronica's words.“People are beginning to talk?” I ask the both of them who are now sitting side by side on my couch. “And what exactly are they talking about?”Veronica exhales as she places her sleek, black purse on the arm rest, but before she can respond, Massimo beats her to it."Wow, I'm shocked. You mean to tell me you haven't been glued to your phone, popping champagne over how the entire internet is tearing me apart? Unbelievable."I shoot him a glare.“Massimo!” Veronica warns and then her polite smile springs back on her face. “Don't listen to him, Pamela dear. It's already working. They're saying that they like you two together. The media is eating the story of you two setting aside your differences and the response has been positive.”I scoff. “Positive? You're telling me that people actually believe those photoshopped pictures of us? How gullible!”Massimo’s nostrils flare at my sarcasm.“It's a win for us,” Veronica
(Pamela)..THE SCHOOL BELL rings the minute it clocks three p.m, like it does every other day.I peep out the door of the teachers’ staff room and watch as the students all pour out of the classrooms, chattering and hollering with each other. This has been my routine for the past four years ever since I got this teaching job and it's a ritual I look forward to each day: going home after a busy day.My thoughts are filled with Erik and I wonder if he's doing OK. My neighbour, an old woman named Margaret, offered to take care of him whenever I went to school and I couldn't have been more grateful to her. But even though I checked in on them every two hours, my spirit still wasn't at rest until I got back to Erik. I quickly pack my things into my handbag, eager to get back home by all means.“So when are you finally quitting this job and moving in with your Prince Charming?” Stella's voice take me out of my thoughts.She's the Geography teacher while I teach English and we've been wo
(Pamela)..“WHAT?!”I can’t believe my ears. Did he just fire me without letting me know? Again?This was my problem with Massimo. Always making decisions that would affect me without even letting me know. “How could you do that?” I fire at him. “You have no rights to send a resignation letter without even letting me know!”“Calm down, alright?” He says coolly, like my reaction doesn't bother him one bit. “I don't want you working here anymore. In a few days, we'll be married. It will be a stain on my name if my wife is a highschool teacher at some local high-school.”“You should have told me first before making that decision,” I holler.“Come on. I know it's a bit messy but I'm doing you a favor here. You won't work for two years as my wife and you'll be well taken off, with a monthly allowance that's ten times your salary here.”“That sounds like a nightmare!”I can’t imagine not teaching for two years. Just taking care of Erik all day long without a bit of a distraction. For oth
(Massimo)..MY COMPANY BUILDING is quiet when I walk in.My assistant, Theo, is already on his feet, following me down the hall leading to my office with a tablet in his hand."You have three meetings this morning, Sir. The board is still pushing for the Vegas deal. And your mother called again.”I grunt. “Tell her I’m busy.”“She also said to remind you that you should come back to Italy for the celebrations. Also, she wants to meet with Pamela. She doesn't like that you're keeping things from the family.”I pause for a second, then keep walking. “Noted.”Inside my office, the view of the city greets me like always. The tall buildings, the traffic below, the endless movements of potential clients and workers. There's no room for stillness or any form of quiet. It used to feel powerful. Now it just feels... empty.Theo rattles off the rest of my schedule."Also, Pamela’s card has been sent out. The driver will deliver it by 9pm this evening. Should I confirm when she gets it?"“No ne
(Pamela)..“I…I NEED TO make a call,” I tell Bonnie who's still staring blankly at me in confusion. “I'll be right back.”I stand from the couch and rapidly make my way to the kitchen, because Erik is fast asleep in the bedroom and I don't want to wake him up. My fingers hover over Massimo’s contact for a full minute as I debate whether to call him or not. Finally, I force myself to. I can’t just accept all that money without finding out if it had been an accident. I mean, the man thinks I'm a gold digger. What would have made him change his mind so quickly? Plus, I'm still in a state of shock.The phone rings twice before he finally picks up. “Pamela,” his voice is cool, almost professional. “I didn't expect to hear from you so soon.”“Fifty thousand dollars?” I whisper into the phone so the nanny won't hear. “And a black card? What is this, Massimo?”“Ah, I see you've received the notification,” he said but I catch a hint of amusement in his voice. “That's good. My assistant co
(Pamela)..“You're everywhere,” Bonnie shrieks, shoving her phone in my face for the tenth time.I've already seen the headlines a thousand times that morning. And right next to it is the photo of Massimo and I kissing back at the restaurant, which had been the highlight of the evening.“Everybody's talking about it,” Bonnie continues. “I can't believe my best friend is the talk of the town. You're almost like a celebrity.”Celebrity seems like a long stretch. And the only reason people are talking is because I agreed to fake a relationship with Massimo in front of the cameras.“Oh, come off it, Bonnie. You know that's not true,” I counter.“Of course it's true. I checked your social media and your followers have tripled overnight. A lot of people are interested in you now.”Well, while that might be the case, it also didn't mean I wasn't getting a lot of hate either. I can recall seeing a post about Massimo and I and the comments had been ruthless. Every single person had thought
(Pamela)..LUCKILY FOR ME, the paparazzi are all gone by the time we set out to leave. We get into the limo and the driver speeds off. When I check my phone, it's almost 10 pm. I've never been out this late before, not even when I was in college.My mind skips back to the conversation I just had with Katrina at the ladies’ bathroom. I wonder if I should bring it up or not. Today has been a very hectic day and opening a whole can of worms is not the best way to end it.But my curiosity gets a hold of me.“Is it true?” I ask Massimo.He turns to face me, his brows nearly touching his hairline in confusion. “Is what true?”“That Kal made Anna sign an NDA?”“Who told you that?”“It's not important.”“It's Katrina, isn't it? She just never keeps her mouth shut.” He exhales. “So?”“Yes, he did. He made her sign an NDA, like we all do.”“Why?”“Because our reputation is that important, Pamela. You just don't understand, do you?” Massimo asks, an edge in his voice. “Being a D’Amato is not
(Pamela)..I SLOWLY MAKE MY way to the wash basin, feeling Katrina's eyes on me the whole time. I don't know why but I just feel that beneath her syrupy sweet smile, she doesn’t really like me.Which is crazy to me because I don't even know her. I've only just met her for the first time tonight but she wears her disapproval of me on her sleeves.“So?” She turns to me, a big wide smile on her face that didn't reach her eyes. “How does it feel having Massimo all to yourself?”I frown in disbelief. “I have no idea what you're talking about.”Katrina chuckles. “Funny that Elsa said the same thing to me and yet she had Massimo wrapped around her finger.”What is her obsession with Massimo? I mean, isn't she engaged to his brother?And who is this Elsa everyone keeps talking about?“Who is she?” I ask tentatively. “This Elsa?”Katrina's smile disappears. “Like I said, she's the one that had Massimo wrapped around her finger. It was pathetic really, how a powerful man like Massimo could bo
(Pamela)..MY BODY STIFFENS at the mention of Massimo’s brother, Kal. I take in a deep breath and try to relax my already shaky nerves. But I'm barely holding myself together. First, the kiss I never saw coming and now this?“He's here right now,” Katrina continues, as soon as she notices my discomfort. “I can call him over if you want. It'll be a wonderful reunion.”“No need to do that,” Massimo says immediately, like he's scared of something. And he should be because I'm not in the right state of mind to meet his brother yet. After everything he's done to Anna and I, I don't think I can hold myself together if he comes over right away. “Oh, well. . .it's a shame. I'd better head back,” the woman says as she straightens. “It’s been lovely meeting you, Pamela. I’m sure we’ll be seeing a lot more of each other.”“Don't count on it.” Massimo hisses.It's hard not to notice that they have a lot of tension between them. But none of it is any of my business. I just need to get throug
(Massimo)..THE TABLE is dead silent.Pamela picks at her food, barely eating, and I can’t blame her. There’s nothing to say between us, and I know it’s partly my fault.I never should have kissed her, especially not on the lips. I should have followed Veronica’s plan, kept it simple, and played my part.But the moment I looked at her, in that red dress, with that beautiful face, and every other little detail that reminded me of Elsa, I just couldn't resist. No matter how hard I tried. The truth is that I didn’t kiss Pamela because I wanted her. I kissed her because, for just a second, I wanted to know what it felt like to kiss Elsa again. After almost five years since she passed away.And I don't know how to explain that to her. She'd never be able to understand exactly how it feels. And I know she'll always hate me for barging into her life and making her do things she never wanted to do.For the first time since this whole fiasco started, I feel a little sorry for my actions. B
(Pamela)..THE LAST THING I see before I can make sense of what's happening is Massimo’s lips crashing down onto mine. At first, it feels like I'm dreaming. Like this isn't real at all. It has to be a prank, right?But after a few seconds in, the fog in my head clears and I finally realize that this isn’t a figment of my imagination nor is it a prank.Masimo D'Amato is actually kissing me.Right in front of all these people. I hear the rapid clicks of the cameras behind us and the the muffled gasps from onlookers. They're all as shocked as I am.I don't understand it. How and when did we go from arch enemies to this? This wasn't even part of the plan. We were only supposed to hold hands like a couple as we walked into the restaurant and that was it. That was what we agreed on, or at least, what I assumed we agreed on. Massimo never mentioned anything about kissing each other in front of the media.I should have known better. I should have seen it coming. This man always did what
(Massimo)..MY MOUTH HANG OPEN the moment I see her.She looks exactly like Elsa.The slope of her neck, the curve of her hips, the delicate lines of her face. . .all of it is so identical to my late wife.How the hell did I not notice this before?Pamela shifts slightly under my gaze, smoothing her hands down the crimson dress that hugs her body in all the right ways. The color suits her, just like it always suited Elsa.A sick feeling knots in my stomach.I’ve spent weeks in her presence, spoken to her, argued with her on so many occasions. And yet, it’s only now when she's dressed like this, with her hair styled just so, that I finally see it.For the past five years since I lost the love of my life, I never gave any other woman the time of day. And most of them have tried their hardest to win me over. But none of their silly tactics ever worked. None of them ever stirred anything in me.Until now.Until Pamela stepped out of the room, dressed completely different and looking lik