I waited nervously in front of the doctor's examination room, wrapping my hands tightly to ease my nervousness. I have been completely frustrated this week by all the troubles that are happening to me right now. After I tried the test pack Junhyu gave me, I also decided to try the five test packs that I bought at home. I still don't really believe the test pack results that Junhyu gave me. But unfortunately when I tried the five test packs, the same results were seen on each of my test pack screens. I'm positive for the pregnant of that damn bastard. God, I don't think I want to live anymore. I want to submerge myself to the bottom of the ocean, then sleep peacefully there without anything disturbing my life.
"Miss Im Anna ..."
"Me..."
I immediately stood up when the nurse called me while giving me a soft smile. She must be trying to ease my nervousness because this is the first time I have come to this maternity clinic. I've decided carefully if I'm going to abort my pregnancy here. During this week I kept looking for references from obstetricians who practice abortion as well. And thank goodness I found this clinic in Hongdae area. I've seen that many young mothers have come to abort or just have their womb checked here. But of course, I've always been the youngest patient sitting alone in this terrifying hallway. There is even one woman who I think is still in college, she came here with her lover. At least the man still has a sense of responsibility by taking his girlfriend to the clinic to have an abortion. Whereas the jerk? huh, I wouldn't expect much of him. He can't even take care of himself, how could he possibly take me to this clinic to take responsibility for his lecherous act.
"Good morning, Miss Im, can I help you?"
"I want to abort my pregnancy." I answered flatly. It seemed like I had no desire to do anything anymore, and just wanted this to end quickly. My hope, I can go home soon with a heavy burden that has been released on my shoulders. I don't want to be haunted by terrible shadows about my child and my future that will soon be destroyed. Moreover, lately I always dream about my father and mother who was furious after knowing the news of my pregnancy. I don't want that to actually happen in real life.
"How many months are you pregnant?"
"I don’t know."
Maybe he's three months old now, I'm not sure. But I guess he had indeed grown up there since that promnight. Until this second, I still can't believe that a boy who looks weird like Lee Junhyu can make a popular woman like me pregnant in just one time? Huh, is this a coincidence? But it sure was terrible. Maybe he has genes that are so fertile that he is capable of impregnating a woman at one time. My God, I honestly don't want to think about this, but sometimes those thoughts of cursing poison my brain. Maybe if he doesn't look weird and is often the butt of Jihoo oppa and his friends, he will become a man who is quite popular among Kirin students. But unfortunately he has a strange appearance that always makes all women choose to avoid him rather than knowing him.
"Please lie down, I will check your uterus."
I lay nervously on the examination bed feeling the soothing chill of the gel the doctor had rubbed on the surface of my skin. This was the first experience that tormented me because somehow I suddenly wanted to cry. I used to always think that I would be accompanied by my mother when I was going through my pregnancy. But in fact, I was experiencing this time earlier than I thought. While I was still very childish and still enjoyed playing with other boy's feelings, I had to endure a terrible disaster like this.
“Look, your fetus is growing very healthy. You have a strong uterine structure, whereas usually teenagers your age have a uterine structure that is still weak because they are not ready to receive a fetus in their uterus."
"But I don't want it, I want to abort it."
Even though there was a little sadness when I said that, I couldn't keep it there either. I wasn't ready to become a mother at such a young age. So please forgive me Lord for committing this very big sin.
“Let me in! Or I'll report you to the police if something bad happens to the woman in there!”
"What is that?"
I vaguely heard a noise outside the examination room. The doctor who examined me immediately asked permission to go outside because it seemed like something bad was happening. But before the doctor actually came out, the door to the examination room opened wide, revealing Lee Junhyu's figure staring at me with an angry gaze while trying to control the howl of his panting breath.
“What kind of stupid thing are you going to do Im Anna? You're going to kill your own son?” he asked emotionally.
But I chose to turn my face to the side, and looked at the monitor screen that showed a small fetus developing in my womb. I honestly don't want to do this either. I will be labeled a murderer for the rest of my life because it will destroy that innocent little baby. But what should I do? I'm not ready to take care of him! I will become the worst mother in the world because I gave birth at the wrong time.
"Don't do that stupid thing, I'll be responsible."
"So you are the father of this baby?"
"Yes, I had impregnated her. If you dare to abort her, I will sue you right away."
This man… I don't know what's really inside his brain, why is he so brave to take such a big risk? Being a parent at such a young age? I guess I can't. But he meant it what he said. Should I follow his wish?
"So far, the baby is good, the pregnancy has entered the third month. Do you feel nauseous too? " asked the doctor, suddenly getting kinder to me. Whereas previously she was not that friendly. Haha, she must be afraid of Junhyu's bluff. Tsk, she must be afraid that Junhyu will report this illegal clinic to the police. But that's good, now she won't be so mean to me anymore.
“Not bad, I'm having morning sickness right now. What should I do?"
"I will give you anti-nausea medicine and some vitamins. You better listen to your lover, don't abort your baby."
"Hmm... yes, I won't do it."
I won't do it, but I'm going to make this baby die by itself. It's useless if I want to keep aborting this fetus if in fact the lustful Lee Junhyu will do all kinds of ways to prevent it. So while he's off guard, I'll try to kill this baby slowly.
"Are you following me?" I asked coldly without looking at him. I heard him sigh softly next to me while clenching his fists on the obstetrician's table. Maybe he's still angry with my reckless actions today. But I also have the right to be angry with him for spying on me this far.
“I've been watching you since that day. I had predicted that this would happen.”
Without realizing it I had squeezed the hem of my dress tightly to channel all my anger to him. If he had predicted why he didn't choose to stay away that night. Instead, he acted as a hero to stop me from spending two bottles of soju. Look at the result of his actions now, he has created a baby in my womb. You damn man!
"Don't forget to take the medicine and vitamins I gave you, see you again next month."
After the doctor gave me a prescription that I had to redeem at the pharmacy, she invited me to come out, motioning her assistant to open the door.
"Where are your car keys?"
"What would you do?"
"Drive you home safely."
"I can go home alone." I replied curtly. What does he want? Is he going to be pretentious again in my presence? Oh come on, I'm sick of seeing his face today. And I'm too tired to argue with him too. My head suddenly got dizzy when I saw the pretentious innocent eyes hidden behind the thick glasses.
"I don't want to risk you doing stupid things like today again."
"I told you I can go home alone, don't bother me!" I said harshly while pushing his shoulders. But this time my push didn't affect him anything. He was even more aggressively pursuing my wide footsteps, then he immediately grabbed my car keys when I was off guard and felt a little dizzy because of too many emotions I felt today.
"Are you okay?"
Somehow Lee Junhyu was behind me while holding my waist so that I wouldn't fall. His attention immediately disgusted me and immediately pushed him back so he wouldn't touch me again.
"Don't ever touch me."
"You're going to fall, Anna. I'm doing this for your good." he replied coldly. Good, now he's starting to act bossy in front of me. You damn bastard! I know now, all this time he only pretended to be a weak man helpless to cover up his lecherous nature. And unfortunately I was the one who became the victim of his depravity.
"Come in, I'll take you home."
I was forced to immediately get into the car without giving him any resistance. Obviously I would lose if I tried to argue with him one more time since my condition wasn't possible. I then chose to close my eyes while Lee Junhyu drove my car quietly beside me. Hopefully when I open my eyes, I'll just find this a dream. Hopefully all of this never comes true, and I will return to my normal good life.
So what happened today was just a dream? I smiled a little in relief when I found myself still lying on the bed with my favorite pink pajamas and also a thick blanket that wrapped my body. Thank goodness that the incident at the clinic was just a dream, because I really don't want to have to deal with that guy again. "Finally you wake up, it's time for lunch Anna." "You? What are you doing in my room?" I screamed hysterically when I found him in front of my door, carrying a tray of food that was still smelling thin smoke in the air. So what happened at the clinic wasn't a dream? That guy actually drove me home and even changed my clothes? Oh shit! What other surprise will I receive from that damn man. "Time to eat, and you must eat for the good of my son." "Get out of here, I don't want to see you damn it!" “It's up to you, it's up to you if you want to hate me as much as you want, but that will never change anything. You are sti
"I don't understand how you ended up with Lee Junhyu, have you been close?" I closed my eyes for a moment and returned to open my eyes with a blank look. I've been here for more than thirty minutes, sitting in front of my parents in the condition of a convict being judged in court. Actually my parents didn't scold me for that inappropriate act, it's just that they were too curious about how I came from to end up with Lee Junhyu. Of course my parents were surprised because I was always picky about friends and didn't let just anyone get close to me, because I was an exclusive woman. And now suddenly I'm pregnant with the child of a man who is not popular at school, of course my parents are surprised. "No dad, we're just friends in the science club." It's true, he used to be a senior in the science club. But I only joined them for two months, after which I decided to leave because I was bored with smart people who often see popular people as school troublesome m
"From now on you will live here." "I want to go home!" “This is a decision made by your parents and mine Anna, so you can't argue with that. Your mom will have to return to Australia next week, which means you will be home again alone. And your mother doesn't want you to fend for yourself in the middle of your current pregnancy, so she wants you to stay here with me and my mother." “No, I want to go home! I don't want to be in the same room as you." “You don't have to worry Anna, I won't do anything to you. Besides, pregnant women are no longer attractive." Damn it! How dare that guy insult me and just leave me with all the anger exploding inside me. Brukk I dropped myself in frustration on the bed while staring at the ceiling of Junhyu's empty room. What am I going to do here with the Junhyu’s family? They all never knew what really happened between me and Junhyu. I'm going to be tormented more here with all the
When I arrived, the whole school looked shocked by the appearance of Junhyu who suddenly came in a dark gray sports car. I told you that Junhyu turned out to be a fraud. It is not what it seems so far. He is not a poor guy who just depends on scholarship he got here, but it was more than that. If he could afford it, he could just take out Jihoo oppa and his friends, then buy this school for himself. But he didn't do it, instead he chose a simple life with all the abilities he had without wanting to trouble his parents. But today he chose to show everything he has in front of all Kirin students for my sake so that I don't go to school alone using public transportation. Lee Junhyu finally showed his true self after years of hiding behind his ridiculous thick glasses. "I don’t think if he is actually a crown prince." said Tiffany in amazement when she saw Junhyu getting out of her luxury car while adjusting her glasses clumsily. Even I also have the same mindset with Tiffany un
"Mother really likes you, so please don't disappoint my mother." When Junhyu's car stopped at his yard, Junhyu's mother immediately smiled brightly as she walked hastily to the terrace. Even though I haven't even stepped my foot out of this car, Junhyu's mother didn't seem to want to miss this moment to welcome me home. Suddenly my chest felt tight just because I thought about Junhyu's mother's behavior that touched my heart. I have never in my life been greeted with such a sincere smile. Instead of being greeted at home, I always come home feeling lonely. My parents never really took care of me since I was a kid. I used to live with my grandmother as well as Aunt Jang, then when my grandmother died, Aunt Jang decided to return to her hometown of Sokcho to enjoy her remaining lives. And after that I became even more lonely because there weren't any good people who loved me sincerely like Grandma and Aunt Jang. "Come down, Anna." I gasped when Junhyu knocked h
I immediately pretended not to see him after finishing my cooking with mom. It seemed that he smelled the aromas of our cooking, so he immediately walked downstairs to eat his favorite dish. I don't know, I'm feeling sick again after cooked with mom. Maybe I should take a break and not make my condition worse by looking at it. I'm not in the mood to fight or argue with him. Especially now that mom is with us, I can no longer linger with him while holding back all my emotions that explode every time I see his pretentious face. "Let's eat." "I'm dizzy, I should just rest." I saw he was about to say something, maybe to force me to hang on to the dining table with him. But in the end he didn't say anything and let me walk away to rest in the room. Besides, it's better than me showing my true attitude in front of his mother. So far I am still considered a good and obedient daughter-in-law in front of his mother. Even though I was the one who had been torturing her
Drizzle... and I reflexively hugged my own stomach, as if I was afraid the drizzle would hurt him. Well... it's a little embarrassing to admit, but now I'm getting used to it having him in my belly. Now I feel like he's a part of me too, so I shouldn't hurt him and have to continue protect him, no matter what. Even though I hated his father so much that I wanted to get rid of him from my life, I couldn't hate him too. Tiin tiin I frowned deeply, but a second later I changed my facial expression to a flat face when I knew that the man who just sounded the horn next to me was Junhyu. That bastard again... I thought he had come home and would leave me alone to go home using public transportation. No problem actually I go home by bus, I'm not that exclusive woman, at least that was me. Now I am starting to change my way of looking at this cruel world. Slowly I began to raise the flag of defeat for my help
"Anna... why do I have to pick you up here, where is your car?"Tiffany came with a frown when I asked her to pick me up near the bus stop, not far from my parents' house. The cold air that had been stabbing to my bones made me rush into Tiffany’s car, throwing my body hard towards the pink car seat. Yeah, my friend is indeed a pink monster. Almost all of her belongings are pink, and she will never tire of pink."Please turn on the heater, I'm cold." I said, rubbing my hands brutally.Jessica, who was right next to Tiffany, immediately complied with my request with a strange glance at me through the rearview mirror above her head. I know, they must be really feeling strange about my current situation. But I have prepared lots of boasting stories so that they won't be suspicious of my current limited situation."So what happened to you all this time?""I didn't expect that if you guys would immediately bring up such a heavy topic after one mon
Anna sat in Jihoo's car nervously. Since then she has been disapproving of Tiffany's idea to follow Jihoo to check out the hotel ballroom and catering for her wedding party. Coupled with her cell phone which is now low, makes Anna want to go home and meet her two children. She was feeling very worried now, because this was the first time she had left Leo and Daniel with Lee Junhyu. Even though it shouldn't be a problem, she still feels worried. She was afraid that Lee Junhyu would not be able to take care of their two children properly and would actually harm their children. Ow, yeah, Anna was going too far on that. "Anna, what are you doing? Are you worried about your children?" Jihoo asked next to Anna. Ever since they were at the restaurant, he had noticed Anna's strange behavior. But he prefers to ignore it and stick to his ego to ask Anna to go with him. This was the only opportunity he had, so he couldn't possibly let it go to waste. After this h
"Oh, wake up. It's already morning," Anna said to Junhyu while opening the curtains of their room wide. Junhyu, who was dazzled by the sunlight entering his room, only briefly moved to the left to reach for the pillow and after that he fell back asleep with the pillow covering his entire face. Anna chuckled annoyed with the behavior of her husband who was very lazy when he was on vacation. But if he is already working, then his husband will be so diligent that he forgets to go home and forgets his wife and his children. "Oppa hey. Wake up. Woobin oppa has already left for work. Why are you still lazing around?” Anna asked angrily as she snatched the big pillow from Junhyu's face. But Junhyu still insisted on keeping the pillow on his face. "Hmm, don't bother me. I'm still sleepy. Just let him work. Now I'm on vacation. So, don't ever disturb my fun when I'm on vacation," said Lee Junhyu childishly. Anna rolled her eyes lazily at her husband. I
"Blanket?" "Done." "Socks?" "Done." "Leo's milk bottle?" "Done." "Leo's toys?" “Done. I only brought some because we can buy them there.” “Daniel's sweater and jacket?” "Done. Geez, when are we going to leave if you keep checking our luggage one by one?” Anna complained lazily while checking their luggage one by one which she had arranged in the suitcase. Lee Junhyu looked at all the things carefully, then he closed the suitcases and carried them to the trunk of the car. "Daddy, let's go. What did it take so long?" Leo whined in the car. "Wait a minute dear, daddy is putting your things in," Junhyu replied to Leo while arranging his things into the trunk. "Honey, is your brother still sleeping?" asked Anna from the direction of the house. Leo shook his head slowly at Anna, but a second later he shouted in delight at his mother. "Daniel's awake, but I've covered his
Lee Junhyu arrived home at half to four in the afternoon. Just as he opened his car door, Anna was out of the house carrying Daniel in her arms. Then beside her, Leo was seen following Anna while holding the hem of Anna's dangling dress. "Daddy," Leo shouted loudly at his arrival. Leo then let go of his hand on the hem of Anna's dress and immediately ran to his father who seemed to be waiting near the car while spreading his arms wide. "Leo, be careful honey." Anna warned while watching Leo's every move warily. The little boy sometimes trips over his own feet when he is walking. So Anna must always pay attention to Leo's behavior in addition to paying attention to Daniel. "Daddy, Leo was playing lego with Daniel and mommy," Leo said enthusiastically in Lee Junhyu's arms. Anna glanced lazily at her husband and chose to enter the house to avoid him. Even though this afternoon she was determined to be more mature when her husband came home from w
Anna rested her chin boredly while accompanying Leo to play in his room. This morning after feeding Leo and rocking Daniel to sleep, Anna again felt sad because her husband didn't allow her to go to London. Even though she really wanted to meet her old friends and Jihoo. They haven't spoken to each other in a long time. The last time they saw each other was when they gathered at her house when Leo was only one year old. After that Jessica, Tiffany, Jihoo, and other friends went to study abroad respectively. Dannis now also lives in Manchester. She sees it from social media that she sometimes opens to entertain herself who is bored at home. "Mommy, mommy why?" Leo asked suddenly as he drew closer to his mother. The boy seemed to be rushing into his mother's arms because he was already feeling sleepy. Looks like this is the perfect time for Leo to take a nap. "Hmm, mommy is fine. Are you sleepy? Let's take a nap." Anna carried Leo slowly to her king siz
Anna walked slowly towards her room while looking from a distance, whether her little son was awake. Anna faintly saw a small movement from inside the crib. Then Anna slightly speed up her steps to approach her little son who was already awake. But when she passed her king size bed, Leo also opened his eyes and immediately crawled down the bed to reach his mother's body. "Mom," Leo said softly in Anna's arms. Anna stroked Leo's silky hair gently while lowering Leo from her arms. “Daniel cry. Mommy will hold your brother for a while." "But Leo wants mommy." Leo whimpered. This is what Anna fears the most when she has to accept her destiny to marry young and have children at a too young age. Sometimes she feels like she can't be patient enough with Leo if he starts to whine. In addition, now she has two children who are not far apart in age. When Leo still needs love from her, he just has to share her love with his brother. And the suspe
This morning Anna returned to her activities like a housewife in general. After a week at her parents' house after giving birth, now Anna has returned to her own residence with Lee Junhyu without having to deal with her very fussy mother.It started with rolling her hair up high, then saw her little baby sleeping soundly in the crib, then she kissed Leo on the cheek gently, and the last ritual was to grab her husband's hair so that the handsome man would wake up soon."Anna, it hurts." Lee Junhyu grumbled with his eyes half-closed.Anna giggled amused beside her husband, then she gave him a quick kiss on the lips, before she finally left her comfortable room.Arriving on the first floor, Anna immediately passed her housekeeper, aunt Kim. The middle-aged woman seemed to be wiping the table and also sweeping the floor."Good morning Aunt Kim," greeted Anna friendly to the middle-aged woman.Aunt Kim turned her head for a moment then returned A
"Are you feeling better now?" When I arrived she was watching television, but I could tell that she was only pretending to be watching television. Her eyes looked empty and seemed not really focused on the television screen that was left on just like that. Why does she always make my life difficult? Even though I have shown a lot of kindness in front of her, she doesn't want to change one bit for me. Instead, she tested my patience even more with her childish attitude like this. "What do you want to eat?" "Nothing, I want my life back." "It will not happen. Since that promnight, you have indirectly become mine. Now drink your milk, don't be stubborn and harm my child." Firm steps need to be taken to make Anna learn about life. Learn about a destiny that she can never change, and learn to accept whatever is currently her way of life. I handed her a glass of vanilla milk while feeling a little worried if he might throw it away like the p
What is that? I heard a strange sound that was so noisy followed by the sound of hurried footsteps. Instantly I jumped up while checking the right side of my empty bed. Anna! The woman was now hunched over in front of the sink, throwing up whatever she could throw up in there. I then immediately approached her and gave a gentle massage on the nape of her neck to make her feel more relaxed. I have received rejection from her several times. Maybe she's embarrassed by how messy she is because of her morning sickness, but I'm not going to back down just because I saw her spit out too much weird clear liquid in the sink. More or less it happened because of me. I wouldn't be embarrassed in the slightest to admit it, and that's why I'm standing here. I wanted to make her more comfortable even though she was having morning sickness. "You still want to throw it up again?" She shook her head faintly with her body almost falling to the floor if I didn't