"What do you mean?" she asked. "I love him, Audrey. I just can't imagine a future which does not include Jeremy. I love him"
"Sure it isn't just physical attraction?" Audrey queried.
"Of course not. It isn't the sleeping with Jeremy that matters. It is.... Oh, lots of little things, having him come home to me in the evening, waking up to find him there beside me, seeing his clothes, his toothbrush, his shaving kit in my bathroom, seeing the way his hair curls after a night's sleep, how he looks at me with a funny little half smile, the smell of that stuff he puts on his hair. Oh so many silly things. I want to be Jeremy's wife and share his intimate life for ever. "
"We often want things that aren't good for us" Audrey said.
"You do remind me of my aunt Ann" Penny said, suddenly smiling. Then her eyes narrowed. "You don't like Jeremy, do you Audrey?"
Audrey chose her answer carefully. "I don't know
He stopped talking and Penny saw that the hand holding his phone was trembling."I would say I was sorry if I thought you needed any sympathy" she said. "But frankly speaking, Joey, you are well out of it. I'm not worth your love""Don't say things like that, Penny. You are everything I ever imagined a girl could be. Sweet, intelligent, beautiful and much too modest. Just to know that you see me as a friend is more than enough now.... Since it can't be different""Oh Joey, of course I look on you as my friend. And you and Audrey are the best ones I have and I terribly, terribly fond of you both. But don't love me. Please don't. I couldn't bear to feel responsible for causing you any unhappiness."Joey took her hand and held it in his own for a moment."You could never do that Penny, except by being unhappy. It would make me sad to see you miserable. I told Audre
Penny and Jeremy texted and called each other. He didn't call much because he said he was mostly busy, but he texted her. He told her about his journey and assured her that he was safe and that he loved her.One of his texts read: 'I have been settling down in the most luxurious flat in the center of Cairo. It has three bedrooms, sitting room, dining room and a an enormous very modern kitchen. The place is very comfortable. It's incredible. Your apartment doesn't compare to it very favorably... Except of course when I remember you are in it... Which is very often 'Penny smiled happily to herself when she read that, unaware of Joey's steady gaze with those deep greenish eyes of his.She kept reading the text: 'You have to know that I miss you the hell of a lot, darling, especially nights when I get so lonely. I'm pretty busy as far as work is concerned and we might not get to talk on the phone for long. I didn't want to tell you thi
"Audrey, do you really think Joey is in love with me?" Penny asked suddenly, distressed by her own thoughts. "I mean, might it not be... Well, force of circumstances? After all, I was practically the first girl he met when he came back from abroad""That would be so if I didn't know my brother so well. But you are everything he ever dreamed about. Penny, he told me so himself. I think that if he had met some girl first, he would still have waited till you came along"Penny bit her lip."Audrey, do you think i should just go away?" she asked on an impulse. "While I am here things will remain as they are. If I weren't here, he might forget about me and look around for someone else""I doubt it, Penny. Honestly, if I thought it would help, I would say so. But Joey isn't the type to forget easily... If at all. He would be utterly miserable if you went away now. He would worry himself sick about you. Now
"It is always wise to be prepared for the worst. Joey loves you Penny. He is prepared to be there for you and your child. He's ready to give you both his protection. He won't ask anything more of you. I am sure of that. You could just go on together the way you are now... Being good friends and nothing more, unless you wanted it ""It wouldn't be fair to Joey" Penny said. "I can't let him make such a sacrifice just for me""That is dramatising the situation" Audrey replied. "Supposing the position were reversed... That Jeremy had been in love with a woman who died giving birth to a baby, that you were in love with him but knew he still loved the other woman. Wouldn't you take responsibility of his child for his sake and for the pleasure of being with him... Knowing that he would always be a part of your life?""Yes" Penny said without hesitation."You wouldn't think it such a dreadful sacrifice?"
"Enjoying life, huh?" asked Penny."Not as much as I should. There's some talk of research work and I may find my self working with a new partner. That will make me a senior, which would be a step up financially""I'm glad. You deserve it" said Penny.He looked at her with an emotion he was trying hard to repress."Penny, I want make it clear to you that I'm in good position to look after you and the baby. I know you are worried about being in this alone. I do nothing but think about you. I know the position but he won't be here before the baby is born, that's certain "Penny turned away. All the old feelings of insecurity and despair shivered through her."No. He won't be here" she said in a low voice."Then how about you stay and let me be here for you.... Till Jeremy comes"She looked at him, her face crimson, her
Jeremy called Penny later that day. Joey watched her as she picked the call. Jeremy told her he was having a good time in Cairo. He had made many friends and was out at parties all the time."But there isn't a girl here to touch you for looks or charm" Jeremy continued saying. "I miss you so much darling, so much that sometimes I wish I didn't accept this job. Anyways Six months isn't such a very long time and with the way things are going over here... With all the fun... I'm not even going to notice how long it is"His words brought Penny no comfort. She felt cold, almost dried up and emotionless. Jeremy was beginning to show himself as such an appalling egotist and so shallow, it horrified her.The months did not pass quickly for her. As she grew bigger, she felt unable to tackle the long walks up to the cliff tops with Joey and spent most of the day in the garden.Penny's prayer now was that this
"Sometimes I don't understand your gender" Joey said with a smile. "You guys can be so inconsistent sometimes""The only men who do understand women are those with quantities of experience" Audrey said wisely. "They are the dangerous ones because they know just how to act... And attract. Jeremy is a typical example""Audrey, I believe you hate him" Joey said."It isn't often I hate anyone. But you are right. I do hate Jeremy. I blame him for putting Penny in this position. Oh I know she is to blame too, but she loved him and she is, nor ever would be, the promiscuous type. She really believed deep in her heart that Jeremy wanted to be with her and wanted to marry her once it became financially possible. But I don't think Jeremy ever meant to. I don't think he will.... In spite of the baby. I think he will walk out on her when she tells him about it. Penny fears it but she refuses to believe it. And frankly Joey, I hope h
She wanted him desperately tonight. She was in labor. If Jeremy had been her husband he would have been here to hold her hand and she would have clung to him. Loving him so much she wouldn't have been frightened at all. For the first time for a long while she felt a sick, crying need for him. She wished to God he were not so far away and that he knew.... Knew what was going to happen to her tonight.Tonight she was going to have his child.Perhaps not tonight, but tomorrow. People said this could go on for hours. So far she had only had two proper pains. She called down to Joey a note of high pitched excitement."Joey, the baby won't arrive before you get back, will it."He laughed back at her."Afraid not, Penny. I can't promise you it will be as quick as that""I don't think I want it to be" she called. "I want the nurse
She leaned back and looked up at him. "I can't believe I'm standing here like this" Penny said."Like what?" Joey asked."half naked in your kitchen" she replied simply.Joey laughed. "You could always take off my shirt""No way. The lights are on"He paused, then began to unbutton the shirt.She grabbed his hands. "What are you doing?""Taking back my shirt" Joey replied, like what he was going was very normal. Like he had been doing it for a long time."You have on jeans. You don't need this shirt as badly as I do"He slid his hands to her wrists and pulled her fingers away. When she tried to pull free, he wouldn't let go."Joey" she said with a warning in her voice.He switched tactics and started at her neck, moving his mouth over her soft skin. He cou
Penny groaned, the sound low and desperate. Holding her by the hips to keep her steady, Joey tilted her closer, right where he wanted her, and explored her pretty, slick folds with his mouth. As he’d expected, she nearly buckled at the sensation, but he kept her steady, completely in control. And he didn’t relent, just kept pleasuring her until he heard her cry out her climax a few moments later.“Beautiful,” he murmured against her thigh, watching as she shook from the power of it.He let go of her hips. She stretched again, easing this way and that, her body warm and pliant and, he would suspect, still pulsing from her powerful orgasm.He had wanted to go very, very, slow, but right now, Joey wanted to share the moment, to be part of her deep pleasure. So he pushed his boxer shorts down, not even kicking them all the way off. Using his teeth to tear open one of the condoms he’d
Penny breathed a sigh of relief. She was so grateful to Audrey. "Thank you, Audrey. I honestly don't know what I would do without you. You are a blessing. Good night dear""Good night" Audrey replied and they hung up.When Penny turned around, it was to see Joey resting on the wall, watching her. He'd put on his boxers, Penny noticed. Good for her, she thought. She stood right where she was when he pushed himself from the wall and walked towards her."See, I told you Audrey's got this. You worry too much" he said, and as he did, he slipped a hand behind her and pulled her towards him, crushing her breasts to his hard chest."I'm sorry.... I just had to be sure that everything was fine" Penny said softly, wrapping her hands around his neck and clinging to him. He obviously wanted her to cling, because his hold on her tightened and his other her grabbed her butt.&n
That realization seemed to make him grow even more engorged against her, and he threw his head back, the cords of muscle standing out in his neck.Penny wasn’t entirely sure how far this kind of thing could go. She didn't know if he was close to cumming. Nor was she selfless enough to give up truly having him inside her. But she did like it. A lot. She especially liked that he was visibly losing a little of that infamous control, his hands clenched tightly in her hair, his breath coming in short gasps.“Gotta have the real thing, babe,” he muttered, dropping his hand to her shoulders and pushing her onto her back.“I wish you would,” she whispered, wanting him desperately.But instead of pushing her farther back on the bed and climbing on top of her, Joey went to the drawer and got a condom, then returned to stand between her parted thighs. He ope
His hand moved slowly.... Determined..... Straight inside her blouse from the bottom and then upwards. His big hand cupped her left breast and squeezed gently.Penny gasped in surprise when he did that. It was weird because she'd been expecting his touch. Waiting... And looking forward to it actually. But when his thumb and index finger found her nipple and squeezed, she moaned and her hands snaked around his neck, pulling his head down towards hers.Despite the lack of light, Joey's lips found hers with undeniable precision. Like his body, their warmth coaxed out a desire in Penny that she’d been trying to keep at bay, but it only kept growing stronger and stronger.Joey broke the kiss and moved back.“Sorry,” he started, voice suddenly very low. “I—I know what happened the last time we....I'm”Penny pushed her body forward, hand o
Penny loved every inch of the house. And as he showed her around, she understood more why he loved it. A home for a family... As he had said. She wanted the same thing too....she always had. There was a time when that dream included Jeremy.... Not anymore. Right now, she could almost picture herself, Joey and Howard being a real family. Maybe with two other babies... Maybe twins. She loved twins. Always hoped she'd have them someday. Once she heard the twins were never born to women who wanted them, but that was probably another old wives tale, she thought.Joey's voice snapped her back to reality."Thank you for coming, Penny" he was saying, "You have no idea how much I have missed you. Missed hanging out with you""I have missed you too. Howard too. The house is really not the same without you" Penny replied softly, and seeing the way his eyes darkened with desire as he stared at her, she moved away a
Penny opened her mouth but no words came out. She wasn't sure why. Maybe it was because for the first time since she met Joey she'd never seen him look so angry. Or because she had just heard him use those swear words that way. Or maybe because of his plain admission of his attraction towards her. Or maybe it was all of it.She didn't know. Didn't want to care. She could feel her body start to react to him being so close to her, but she fought to concentrate. No matter what happened, she had to remember that she was still really angry with him."You can't blame me for all that, Joey" she said, trying to make him understand, "I had a bad break up with Jeremy and I .....""I'm not Jeremy...." Joey said a little harshly, his fingers digging into her arm."I know you are not, jerk" Penny replied. For some reason she felt her voice crack. Oh no. She wasn't going to cry. She shouldn't cry
What if she and Joey got together and something happened and they had to break up. Audrey would obviously have to be on her brothers side. As she should be, Penny thought truthfully. She couldn't bear to come between two wonderful siblings. And if that happened, their friendship and relationship would be ruined. Penny didn't want that. But it didn't matter now, obviously. Because Joey was leaving, and he didn't even bother to say anything about it to her, and maybe soon she'd get her own place and leave with her baby. He'd obviously given up the idea of them being together, because now he was moving on. And she couldn't blame him. He'd gone through a lot with her. Stayed with her and loved her even when she didn't return his feelings. She had rejected him so many times and now he he'd finally let her go. It was all her fault. Penny knew that, but it didn't stop her from being mad at him. He should have at least told h
Joey's hands slowed. He didn’t even lift the plate that was now perfectly clean under those soap suds. Penny's voice was so quiet now it was almost a whisper. "Joey? Do you understand?" she asked. Joey swallowed hard. Then he turned to face her, his hands dripping water as his eyes met hers. He looked.... Mad. "I understand, Penny" he said huskily. His hands made a fist, like he was willing them not to reach for her and grab her, then he brushed past her and out of the kitchen. ------------------ "Is everything okay with you Audrey" Penny asked Audrey as she joined her in the living room after putting away the dishes Joey had left behind. Audrey looked up from her phone and stared at Penny, "I'm fine. Everything is fine. Why do you ask that?" she replied. Penny took a seat beside Audrey. "You have been coming hom