"Oh, you will be worse before you are better, dear. Now, don't you carry on. You will forget all about it when it's over. I have seen dozens vowing that they will never have another baby while this is going on and once it's over they start talking about their next "
Penny gave an hysterical laugh. Her next! There might never be a next. Perhaps this would be her last. Oh God, what a pain... It would be her last. She was not going through this again for anybody.
Joey called up that he was in touch with the doctor and he would be here shortly. Audrey left Penny to nurse Caroline, and suddenly Penny felt horribly deserted, left in the hands of a stranger who had complete control over her just as this pain was controlling her body. She could not get away from any of it.
Nurse Caroline was a nice little woman with grey hair and powerful spectacles behind which there beamed a pair of blue and kindly eyes..
Doctor James and nurse Caroline stood at the foot of the bed and looked at her. Her face was tranquil and lovely, despite the sweat and the tumbled hair and the purple bruises under her eyes.Doctor James frowned."It's a dammed nuisance" he said. "that baby is not making the headway it should. She will sleep for a bit but I'm afraid she will wake up to another nasty bout"Nurse Caroline twisted her lips.This was not a straight forward case, that was obvious. But like everyone she had implicit faith in this doctor."I will go down and get a spot of sleep" said Caroline. "Call me when she wakes out of this"Downstairs in the little living room he had a tall with Joey. Audrey went into the kitchen to make coffee for everybody. There were all thankful that Penny wasn't suffering any more for the moment. Audrey had been horrified at the sight of Joey's face when
"She may want you, Audrey. She will be coming round now"Audrey ran up the stairs, hesitating for a brief moment outside the bedroom door. With a sudden pang of desolation, she thought :'If things had worked out between Alex and I, my children would have been born here in this house,... In that room'She brushed aside such reflections and knocked on the door.Penny felt as if she were returning from a long, long way... From eternity itself. She opened her eyes to see Audrey bending over her. For an instant she did not speak but she listened and heard the cry of a baby... Her baby, an amazing exciting sound. It was an incredible relief to be able to lie quite still without suffering, no more of that awful, racking pain, just to lie drowsily, contentedly, listening to the cries of the new born baby."Is it a boy or a girl?" she whispered, and was surprised at the effort it cost he
"That's settled then" said Audrey, relieved. "I think Joey has arranged for the priest to come here tomorrow and see you. What about god parents?" "You and Joey of course" Penny replied without hesitation. "Maybe he should have two god fathers" Audrey said with a smile. "Why not ask James. After all, young Howard practically owes him his like. At one moment James thought he might have to operate to save your life and that would have meant no baby" "Oh Audrey don't say things like that" Penny cried, "I can't imagine such a horrible thing. No Howard. How awful" "You really do worship that baby, don't you?" Audrey said. "Well of course" Penny said promptly. "After all, he is mine, a part of me. Part of Jeremy too. I adore him" "I'm glad" Audrey said. It was odd... And sad, she thought, that this little boy might yet prove to be the one person to stan
"I'm certain he smiled this morning" Penny said eagerly. "Really, Joey, don't laugh, he did. His little face wrinkled up and I thought for a moment he was going to cry, but he smiled instead""Wind" remarked Joey caustic ally, and Penny joined in the general laughter.Audrey took another parcel from the tree and handed it to Penny. Opening it, she found a thin, gold bracelet on the inside of which Joey had had inscribed :'For Penny, with love'"Oh Joey" she whispered. "It's beautiful"'But I can't accept it' she thought. 'It must have been very expensive. I shouldn't take it'"Please, Penny, put it on" Joey said quietly as if he had understood her thoughts. "It would give me so much pleasure"Obediently, Penny slipped the bracelet over her hand. The gold links felt cold against the warmth of her flesh. Slowly it t
Audrey, however, was convinced that many other people beside herself would be prepared to pay quite a reasonable price for Penny's sketches. One afternoon, she borrowed Joey's car and took the portfolio to town. When she came back, she went straight to Penny ""There's an offer for you from a man who runs an art gallery and bookstore" she said. "He's willing to buy your sketches""I can hardly believe it" Penny cried incredulously. "Audrey, you are a sly old thing. Where have you been?""Penny, listen, you have to take it. It's such a good offer" Audrey said."Of course I know that. It's just so good to be true" Penny laughed. "And the pay is good. I'm so grateful, Audrey. I need the money. Especially now that I have Howard"For the two weeks preceeding her departure, Penny was glad of the distraction her sketching afforded her. Together with Howard's feeds and the bottles, diape
It was difficult for Penny to imagine Jeremy as he would be when he came into the flat this evening. She had only her memories of what he used to be and his voice, his calls, his texts... Those long, descriptive but heartbreakingly impersonal texts of his from which to draw her picture. With soul searing honesty, she forced herself to realize that Jeremy's life in Cairo was by no means a parallelism of her own. Having a baby was perhaps one of the biggest and most wonderful experience in a woman's life. Having an illegitimate baby particularly taught one a lesson. But she could not make herself believe that the gay, social round of parties Jeremy had described would have taught him anything. Worse, it had no doubt increased his passion for youth, his desire for fun, his irresponsibility.Perhaps he had met someone else? Perhaps she, Penny, had ceased to mean more to him than a memory... A pleasant but out of date memory like the girl he had once told her about.
He stole the very breath from her as his lips touched hers, moving over her mouth as if exploring a new, precious territory. Then he deepened the kiss, pulling her even closer so their bodies felt joined, seamless, and desire plunged deep in her belly; her hands fisted in his hair, awareness of anything but Jeremy and the desperate sweetness of his kiss fading to nothing.For it was desperate. The kiss was imbued with a longing that made Penny feel like this was all they would have, and she pressed closer, wanting more. Asking for more.Jeremy broke the kiss, his breath a raw shudder. "I have to ask you this" he said. His voice sounded hoarse and he still held her."Do you love me?" Do you still love me? Say it! Say it!" Jeremy demanded.Penny broke away from him with a last effort gathered from the remnants of her waning strength. She gathered herself quickly, straightening her shoulders
Penny woke to hear the steady fall of rain on the roof and the spatter of heavy drops against the window pane. The room was filled with sombre grey light but she could not be sure whether the dawn was breaking or if the storm were responsible for the darkness. But it did not matter. Nothing mattered except Jeremy.She turned her head and looked at his face, crumpled like Howard's in sleep. Hitherto she had seen only a likeness in the color of their eyes and in their hair curly hair. But now she saw that there was a strong resemblance in the shape of their heads the determined line of their lips in sleep.Howard and Jeremy. Father and son.... And both hers. She and Jeremy were going to be married. Jeremy had said so. Today, when he woke, she would tell him about his son. Or should she wait and take him to Cornwell for their honeymoon, then show him Howard in person? He could not fail to love his son. Howard was so plump... So warm
She leaned back and looked up at him. "I can't believe I'm standing here like this" Penny said."Like what?" Joey asked."half naked in your kitchen" she replied simply.Joey laughed. "You could always take off my shirt""No way. The lights are on"He paused, then began to unbutton the shirt.She grabbed his hands. "What are you doing?""Taking back my shirt" Joey replied, like what he was going was very normal. Like he had been doing it for a long time."You have on jeans. You don't need this shirt as badly as I do"He slid his hands to her wrists and pulled her fingers away. When she tried to pull free, he wouldn't let go."Joey" she said with a warning in her voice.He switched tactics and started at her neck, moving his mouth over her soft skin. He cou
Penny groaned, the sound low and desperate. Holding her by the hips to keep her steady, Joey tilted her closer, right where he wanted her, and explored her pretty, slick folds with his mouth. As he’d expected, she nearly buckled at the sensation, but he kept her steady, completely in control. And he didn’t relent, just kept pleasuring her until he heard her cry out her climax a few moments later.“Beautiful,” he murmured against her thigh, watching as she shook from the power of it.He let go of her hips. She stretched again, easing this way and that, her body warm and pliant and, he would suspect, still pulsing from her powerful orgasm.He had wanted to go very, very, slow, but right now, Joey wanted to share the moment, to be part of her deep pleasure. So he pushed his boxer shorts down, not even kicking them all the way off. Using his teeth to tear open one of the condoms he’d
Penny breathed a sigh of relief. She was so grateful to Audrey. "Thank you, Audrey. I honestly don't know what I would do without you. You are a blessing. Good night dear""Good night" Audrey replied and they hung up.When Penny turned around, it was to see Joey resting on the wall, watching her. He'd put on his boxers, Penny noticed. Good for her, she thought. She stood right where she was when he pushed himself from the wall and walked towards her."See, I told you Audrey's got this. You worry too much" he said, and as he did, he slipped a hand behind her and pulled her towards him, crushing her breasts to his hard chest."I'm sorry.... I just had to be sure that everything was fine" Penny said softly, wrapping her hands around his neck and clinging to him. He obviously wanted her to cling, because his hold on her tightened and his other her grabbed her butt.&n
That realization seemed to make him grow even more engorged against her, and he threw his head back, the cords of muscle standing out in his neck.Penny wasn’t entirely sure how far this kind of thing could go. She didn't know if he was close to cumming. Nor was she selfless enough to give up truly having him inside her. But she did like it. A lot. She especially liked that he was visibly losing a little of that infamous control, his hands clenched tightly in her hair, his breath coming in short gasps.“Gotta have the real thing, babe,” he muttered, dropping his hand to her shoulders and pushing her onto her back.“I wish you would,” she whispered, wanting him desperately.But instead of pushing her farther back on the bed and climbing on top of her, Joey went to the drawer and got a condom, then returned to stand between her parted thighs. He ope
His hand moved slowly.... Determined..... Straight inside her blouse from the bottom and then upwards. His big hand cupped her left breast and squeezed gently.Penny gasped in surprise when he did that. It was weird because she'd been expecting his touch. Waiting... And looking forward to it actually. But when his thumb and index finger found her nipple and squeezed, she moaned and her hands snaked around his neck, pulling his head down towards hers.Despite the lack of light, Joey's lips found hers with undeniable precision. Like his body, their warmth coaxed out a desire in Penny that she’d been trying to keep at bay, but it only kept growing stronger and stronger.Joey broke the kiss and moved back.“Sorry,” he started, voice suddenly very low. “I—I know what happened the last time we....I'm”Penny pushed her body forward, hand o
Penny loved every inch of the house. And as he showed her around, she understood more why he loved it. A home for a family... As he had said. She wanted the same thing too....she always had. There was a time when that dream included Jeremy.... Not anymore. Right now, she could almost picture herself, Joey and Howard being a real family. Maybe with two other babies... Maybe twins. She loved twins. Always hoped she'd have them someday. Once she heard the twins were never born to women who wanted them, but that was probably another old wives tale, she thought.Joey's voice snapped her back to reality."Thank you for coming, Penny" he was saying, "You have no idea how much I have missed you. Missed hanging out with you""I have missed you too. Howard too. The house is really not the same without you" Penny replied softly, and seeing the way his eyes darkened with desire as he stared at her, she moved away a
Penny opened her mouth but no words came out. She wasn't sure why. Maybe it was because for the first time since she met Joey she'd never seen him look so angry. Or because she had just heard him use those swear words that way. Or maybe because of his plain admission of his attraction towards her. Or maybe it was all of it.She didn't know. Didn't want to care. She could feel her body start to react to him being so close to her, but she fought to concentrate. No matter what happened, she had to remember that she was still really angry with him."You can't blame me for all that, Joey" she said, trying to make him understand, "I had a bad break up with Jeremy and I .....""I'm not Jeremy...." Joey said a little harshly, his fingers digging into her arm."I know you are not, jerk" Penny replied. For some reason she felt her voice crack. Oh no. She wasn't going to cry. She shouldn't cry
What if she and Joey got together and something happened and they had to break up. Audrey would obviously have to be on her brothers side. As she should be, Penny thought truthfully. She couldn't bear to come between two wonderful siblings. And if that happened, their friendship and relationship would be ruined. Penny didn't want that. But it didn't matter now, obviously. Because Joey was leaving, and he didn't even bother to say anything about it to her, and maybe soon she'd get her own place and leave with her baby. He'd obviously given up the idea of them being together, because now he was moving on. And she couldn't blame him. He'd gone through a lot with her. Stayed with her and loved her even when she didn't return his feelings. She had rejected him so many times and now he he'd finally let her go. It was all her fault. Penny knew that, but it didn't stop her from being mad at him. He should have at least told h
Joey's hands slowed. He didn’t even lift the plate that was now perfectly clean under those soap suds. Penny's voice was so quiet now it was almost a whisper. "Joey? Do you understand?" she asked. Joey swallowed hard. Then he turned to face her, his hands dripping water as his eyes met hers. He looked.... Mad. "I understand, Penny" he said huskily. His hands made a fist, like he was willing them not to reach for her and grab her, then he brushed past her and out of the kitchen. ------------------ "Is everything okay with you Audrey" Penny asked Audrey as she joined her in the living room after putting away the dishes Joey had left behind. Audrey looked up from her phone and stared at Penny, "I'm fine. Everything is fine. Why do you ask that?" she replied. Penny took a seat beside Audrey. "You have been coming hom