"Look Penny, I'm bloody sorry. I have behaved so damn badly. I know it. I feel all kinds of a louse. I can only ask you to forgive me. It hasn't been too easy for me... Being away all the time, and then you did keep it from me, didn't you?" he ended stuttering.
Her dark velvety eyes looked at him stonily. She said :
"I did and I expect I was wrong. But quite honestly, if I had told you that I was pregnant at the beginning, wouldn't you have suggested I had an abortion?"
The direct question threw him off balance. He scowled and shifted from one foot to the other.
"Possibly.. But...."
"No. Quite certainly" she broke in.
"Well, it's so damn awkward..."
She interrupted again.
"Most awkward... For both of us. I knew you wouldn't want a child and I don't happen to believe in abortions. I take my share of the blame for our c
She felt stupid. And sad. And angry.But if something good had come from her involvement with Jeremy, it was Howard. She had little Howard. She would focus on him. She would love him and he would love her back. No matter what happened, she refused to see her baby as anything but a blessing.He was such a wonderful, cute little baby. He didn't cry much except when he was hungry.... Or needed his diaper changed. He would frown and pout before crying loudly, but as soon as he got what he needed, he was a happy baby again.Penny didn't talk much to anyone when she returned to Cornwell. Audrey of course, was delighted that she had returned so soon, Joey was too.But the happiness wasn't complete because they knew that if Penny was back so early and without Jeremy, then it meant that things didn't go as planned with Jeremy.Penny stayed indoors for days. She wasn't in the m
"I'm just worried about you" Audrey said, knowing that her friend wasn't fine as she said. She gazed at table as she spoke. "Joey and I are worried about you. You spend most of your time in here, except when you go for a walk with Howard. And you don't even paint anymore. I know you have been very hurt, I understand that, but it's been a month now. You should find a way to move on."When Audrey stopped speaking and looked up at Penny. She saw that she was sobbing quietly. No longer trying to fold the clothes, but she tossed them carelessly into the drawer. Audrey could almost feel her pain as she watched her, and she had to fight back the tears that clouded her eyes. Penny needed her to be a source of strength for her, and she had to be strong for Penny. She rose up and went to her friend, pulled her into her arms and they sat together on the bed."You will be fine. I promise" Audrey murmured as Penny sobbed on her shoulder. "We are he
Perhaps he felt for her more strongly now because he knew that she wasn't engaged to anyone anymore. He wasn't sure she was seeing anyone, although he knew she probably had a lot of men after her, but he hadn't seen her out on a date with anyone. Somehow he had to make his move before it was late. He'd hate to loose her again.Penny stared at the painting in front of her. "I was just thinking of the perfect price for this. I don't want to make it too expensive" she said."I'm sure people would love it. It's a beautiful painting. The trees.... The ocean.... The birds... You didn't leave any detail out." Joey said, then he moved and he was right behind her, his voice was softer, almost a whisper. "I can imagine what it would be like to be in a place like that.... The quiet...the gentle breeze.... Watching the trees and the birds...... Would be even much better if it was a date... Would be amazing to go someplace like that with someone"
"Of course you are. Don't ever think you're not. I'm just scared, Joey" Penny replied, she dropped the brush she was holding and began to wipe her hands on a towel, suddenly needing to do something... To keep busy, but his intense eyes remained on her, watched her like a hawk.She felt terrible. The last thing she wanted to do was hurt him, but she had to tell him so he wouldn't keep hoping. "I don't think I'm ready for another relationship just yet. I don't know if I will ever be. What happened with Jeremy.... It was a lot to take. And asking you to wait for me or leading you on would be the wrong thing to do. Friends don't do that to each other, and that what we should be... Friends. We have something amazing going on. We might ruin it if we try to make it something more. And I can't stand the thought of losing you... Or Audrey. I really hope you understand""It's fine" Joey said softly, but in his head he wondered if that was all sh
She had turned him down. And it wasn't the first time. A week had passed since then, and maybe she was over thinking, but she beginning to feel him withdrawing from her and she couldn't blame him. It was never her intention to hurt him, and even now with Jeremy gone, she didn't think she was brave enough to take that step with anyone. She wasn't even sure if she would be able to open herself and her heart to anyone else.She looked at Howard. He had finished feeding. She lifted him up-right and began to rub his back to burp him, tilting her head so that she could feel his hair against her cheek. Despite the weariness that was coming back in a tidal wave and the fact that life had just thrown her another rather dramatic curveball, she found herself singing softly.Sleepyhead, close your eyes, for I’m right beside you…----------------Joey could hear the song well before
The something that controlled the muscles in her legs, maybe? At least the need to sit down for a bit became a priority when Howard helpfully decided that he was starving.Which was hardly surprising. They’d been on a mission for hours now as Joey had come shopping with her. She had told him she was going to get new clothes for Howard and he had offered to come with her.And now, here they were, in the Baby Su-permarket and the sales girls had all fallen under Joey's spell the moment he smiled at them. As one of the doctors who worked at the hospital, he was well known. And being single and handsome, Penny could understand. Although for some reason she felt a little territorial when she saw the girls reaction to him. A thought which she pushed quickly out of her mind. It wasn't like she owned Joey or anything like that."We’ll give you the best discount we can manage," the manager who knew Joey sa
The silence in the car started to feel a little awkward. Was Penny also thinking about that assumption the staff of the Baby Supermarket had made? What did she think about it? Had she—even for that tiny moment of time—thought about what it would be like if it had been true?Something like alarm prickled in Joey's spine. He’d already overstepped a boundary falling for someone who would never see him the same way. But it didn't change the fact that he cared. That she had touched his heart in a special way.But it seemed as if something entirely dif-ferent was bothering Penny. She was so quiet."I’ll pay you back," she said, finally. "Please you have to let me. You didn't come with me so you could cover all the expenses""That’s not necessary." Joey replied.She shook her head. "Of course it is. You’ve already done far more than most p
Penny nodded. And then she raised her eye-brows. "Did you know…that if a little girl has broken her arm…when the doctors and nurses fix it, she can choose a pink cast to wear for weeks and weeks?" Then Penny shook her head. "But I guess you might choose a green one.""Nooo…I want pink…"Penny put her thoughtful face on. "Hmm… but you’d have to get out of the car and come to where they make the pink casts."Mia’s face crumpled."Tell you what…" Penny was looking around the car. "Is that your jacket? The pink one?"Mia nodded."If I put it very carefully behind you, I could tie the sleeves over the front and that would keep your arm very, very still while we get you out of the car. And if Dr Joey lifts you, you won’t have to move at all and it won’t hurt more than a little