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I AM NOT A MONSTER
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BETWEEN AN ALPHA AND THE OUTCAST THE MONSTER
I tensed because … I was. I had to be.“I’m sorry,” I whispered, dropping my hands from his face and stepping back in fear that I would lose control again.I didn’t want to hurt him. I didn’t want to hurt any of them. They didn’t deserve it. They had waited four years for me.Four years, and I’d scarred his face.Tears welled up in my eyes. My knees gave out. I doubled over onto the ground, bending at the hip to curl into a ball. I hated this. I hated this so fucking much. I was nothing but ruined because of Dad. I couldn’t even live my life in peace without him.He had turned me into a monster. He had turned me into a fiend. He had made me so insane that I hurt my own mates, something that he had probably wanted this entire time so he didn’t have to do it himself.ANNAI was a monster.Nobody understood the pain that I had gone through every day for years, how much I had tried to believe that Dad just wanted to use my body for sexual favors and not for … this, how much agony this fuc
Last Updated : 2023-10-27BETWEEN AN ALPHA AND THE OUTCAST NO SHAME
About twenty minutes after Ann disappeared into Asher’s room with him, I lay back on my bed and closed my eyes to get some rest for the first time all night. Last night might’ve gone as planned in the beginning, but it had quickly taken a dive into something much worse.None of us knew what Anna really was.And I was terrified that we wouldn’t be able to protect her. That this time, she would be the one protecting us. She didn’t know what she was capable of, and she couldn’t even control herself or that inner demon she had whatever it was.A light knock came on my door, followed by Anna’s sweet scent. " Lucas?”I sat up to lean against the headboard and squinted my eyes in her direction as the sunlight flooded into the room through the open windows. “What’s up, Pretty Bird?”She shuffled into the room and shut the door behind her. “Can I stay with you for a bit?”After I pushed over to give her some of the bed, she crawled in with me and snuggled close to me underneath the blankets. F
Last Updated : 2023-10-27BETWEEN AN ALPHA AND THE OUTCAST GOONS SEARCH
“James?” Gregor said. “He’s made big strides to become the next demon leader.”“No fucking shit,” I said through gritted teeth. “He’s also Sina’s ex-boyfriend, and I don’t trust him.”Gregor tensed and swallowed hard. “You shouldn’t. He’s a liar and a cheat. I get that he’s an incubus, but something has never sat right with me about him either. I’ve only seen him in passing, and I have some shit against him that’s my private matter, but … I don’t like the kid.”“Where was he last night? A guy like him wouldn’t have missed a party like that.”?”“South of Bloodmoon.”“That’s funny.” A dry laugh escaped my lips. “Because he fucking told Anna that he was in the north, trying to figure out how many soldiers her father had, that he’d find out as much information for her as possible.”Gregor furrowed his brow. “Last I heard, there’s an army gathering in the south, not the north. It’s a bunch of humans that James was supposed to meet with to try to stop the war against the other species. The
Last Updated : 2023-10-27BETWEEN AN ALPHA AND THE OUTCAST TRACE
Asher “The perfect beings?”I repeated, brows furrowing. “The Paragon.” “It sounds fucking crazy,” Thayer said, pacing around the prison and running his hands through his hair. He stared at the ground, his wolfish eyes turning a piercing red demon color. “Because it is. How can a species be perfect? Not even gods can reach perfection.” “I’ve read about the Paragon briefly,”Lucas said. “Isn’t it a book in the library? From what I remember, the Paragonian people are a combination of species, almost like you. Multiple species in one.” “The Paragonian people aren’t mutts like me,” Tylersaid. “All the books and lessons we learn during school have been watered down, so as not to cause hysteria, but demon families pass down what they know to be true.” “Then, what are they?” I asked, confused. Still, I couldn’t grasp this reality. Anna had always been human. She had been human four years ago, and she had been human when she escaped her father and returned to Bloodmoon . If she were anyth
Last Updated : 2023-10-27BETWEEN AN ALPHA AND THE OUTCAST WHO SHE REALLY IS
Lucas looked at the back French doors. “They’retaking careof a couple of people.”“Like … my father’s people?” I asked.Sighing softly, Lucas nodded. “Look, don’t worry about it because.....” He suddenly stopped and lifted his gaze to the back door.A pregnant human woman stood at the door and waved to us.He jumped up. “I actually want you to meet someone.”I straightened myself, vaguely remembering this woman from last night.She walked into the room and unzipped her light fall jacket. “Hi, you must be Anna.”Nervous for some reason, I stood up and guided her to one of our stools. “Yeah, I’m Anna. How are you feeling? That vampire didn’t hurt you at all last night, did he? I tried to stop him. I’m sorry if I...”“No, he didn’t,” she said, sitting and smiling at me. “I’m Hellana.”“Hellana,” I repeated. “It’s nice to meet you. Well, is there anybody we can call, so we can get you back home? I’m sure you don’t want to stay here with a bunch of werewolves and … whatever the hell I am.”
Last Updated : 2023-11-02BETWEEN AN ALPHA AND THE OUTCAST REVENGE
“No,” I said with a slight head shake. “You won’t.”But still, I wasn’t positive. She had the power to kill me and everyone else here. If Anna wanted to hurt me, she could snap all my fingers and my throat in a millisecond. Paragons weren’t known to play nice when pissed off.“You have to believe me,” I said, drawing her closer. “I know it’s fucking hard. I know you’re scared. But to be honest with you,you’rethe only one who will be able to defeat your father when he comes to take you back.”“He’s ” Anna started, but then cut herself off. She glanced down at her feet and gnawed on the inside of my cheek. “I think I unlocked another memory from my past. If it’s true and real, then my father … isn’t really my father.”“But your mother was, wasn’t she?” I asked. It was all making fucking But your mother was, wasn’t she?” I asked. It was all making fucking sense now.“Yes,” Anna said, voice soft. “She was. How’d you know?”I grabbed her hand and tugged her toward the back door. “You’ll s
Last Updated : 2023-11-02BETWEEN AN ALPHA AND THE OUTCAST MINE
Tyler.”“Give me fucking all of you.”“D-don’t push me. I’ll l-lose it.”“Then, lose control, Pretty Bird. Show me what you’re made of.”I turned us around and shoved him against the stone wall, my hand tightening around his throat. I desperately wanted to stop myself, but I couldn’t even think straight anymore. My monster had seized control and planned to do exactly what Thayer had demanded.His pulse raced underneath my fingers. He wrapped his hand around my throat and tightened his grasp, mirroring me. And then, like the psycho he was, he smacked me across the face harder than he ever had.A low growl rumbled from my throat, yet I found my pussy pounding. Like he had done to me, I smacked him back so hard that I left a red handprint on his cheek. The excitement in me rose every moment.“Is that all you’ve fucking got?” he asked, smacking me again. “Hmm?”I strummed my fingers down the column of his throat and hit him again, watching his smirk widen even more. As much as he loved ab
Last Updated : 2023-11-02BETWEEN AN ALPHA AND THE OUTCAST TYLER'S MARK
Pleasure coursed through my body as Tyler’s canines sank deeper and deeper inside me. My legs trembled. I curled my fingers into his muscular shoulders and let out an unsteady breath.“You … you marked me,” I whispered.When Tyler pulled away, his teeth were covered in my blood, like mine must’ve been with his earlier. He licked his lips clean, eyes rolling back into his head, then drew his tongue across his mark to close the wound.He curled his fingers into my body, a small smile stretching across his face. “Yeah, I did. And I should’ve fucking done it sooner. No more pissing off and listening to Asher. You’re my fucking mate, too, and that was the best fucking thing I’ve ever experienced.”Heart racing, I laid my head on his chest and relaxed against his body. When the pack house came into view, I smiled. Days ago, I had been begging for them to finally mark me, feeling so helpless and lonely. Now, I wore two out of four marks.“You’re back,” Jake called from the back door. When Ty
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BETWEEN AN ALPHA AND THE OUTCAST THEY WANT BABIES
When she began muttering,“No,”over and over again, I nodded to the back door.“Open it up,Lucas. We need to get her….”Suddenly, Anna snapped her eyes open and stared up at the dark night sky. Tears began pouring down her face, her cheeks becoming blotchy. “No!” she said, shaking her head and twisting even more in my arms. “No! They can’t.”I didn’t know why she was crying or what kind of daydream she’d just had. I wasn’t as good with emotions as Lucas was, but I clutched her tighter so she wouldn’t thrash around so sporadically.“What’s wrong?” I asked.“They … they want babies!” she shouted, her cries becoming louder and completely controlling her body. Her breathing became heavier, her voice raspy. She looked around frantically. “They want babies!”“Who wants babies?” Lucas asked her.Instead of answering him, she jumped out of my arms and looked around the forest, shaking her head. Strands of her brown hair whipped around under the moonlight. “We need to stop them. They want the b
BETWEEN AN ALPHA AND THE OUTCAST THE PAST
“Anna,” she whispered, lips trembling. “Oh, my Anna. There is so much I didn’t get the chance to teach you about who you truly are, about the power you wield, about the family and species you come from.”“Mom …” I whispered, still attempting to understand what she had just said.She scrunched her face and grunted out in pain, her grunt turning into a scream. “The baby …” She looked down at her stomach and grabbed the thick chains in her hands. “You have to get out of here, hide somewhere. They’re coming for you, Anna. They’re coming soon.”“What are you talking about? What’s…”Mom let out another scream and spread her legs. “Anna, go! Only you can stop this. Find your real father.”Suddenly, the door to my left opened. I didn’t want to leave Mom, but I couldn’t let them see me. Whoever it was, wherever this was … I needed to figure out what was going on even if this was just a dream.I crouched behind a large dresser and hoped that the men wouldn’t see me, seeing as the room was basic
BETWEEN AN ALPHA AND THE OUTCAST YOU ARE NOT REAL
“Like it hasn’t already,” Gregor snarled, nervousness crossing his features. “There will be a rebellion soon. I suspect tomorrow at the latest. And the kingdoms can’t even fucking accept me looking like this, a half-human and half-demon face stuck like this forever. How will they… How will they accept me as their new leader?”Elise pulled her hand away from me and took Gregor’s face in her hands. “I accept you just the way you are, Gregor,” she whispered. “They will too.”He stared down at her for a long time, hard gaze softening. And finally, he dropped his head and rested it against hers, his body tense. “I can’t fucking do it. I don’t want to do it. They’ve done nothing but belittle me since I was a child.”My heart clenched at the brokenness in his voice. It reminded me of Elise’s after she was attacked by werewolves years ago. She had come to me in tears and told me that nobody would ever love her, that nobody would ever look at her the same. But I hadn’t seen her any differently
BETWEEN AN ALPHA AND THE OUTCAST GREGOR AND ELISE
“We’ll fuck you when we get back. This is serious.”After she finally snapped her mouth closed, I wrapped her into a coat because it was getting chillier down in bloodmoon, especially at night, then nodded to the guys. The only person who might have some idea about James was gregor, Eise’s boyfriend.We walked through the chilly fall forest toward bloodmoon, the sounds of the night echoing around us.Sina stepped closer to me and wrapped her hand around my forearm. “Where are we going?”“To see Elise.”“Elise?” she asked, eyes wide. “What does she have to do with this?”“Not her, but her boyfriend.”“You think Gregor knows something?”Branches snapped around us from a couple of small squirrels scurrying through the woods with nuts. I pressed my lips together and stared ahead at the horizon of lights illuminating from the town.“He knows more than I do.”Once Anna pursed her lips, she nodded and looked at the ground, tensing so suddenly that she came to a full stop on the outskirts of
BETWEEN AN ALPHA AND THE OUTCAST TO FIGURED IT OUT
If what the guys had said was true and I couldn’t trust Jaroth, then I needed to at least figure out why he had come here. He had to be here for a reason other than my father. But why? Why would he show up this late at night too?Once I opened the back door, James glanced over Asher’s shoulder at me. I pushed through the guys, who would barely move an inch for me, and stared at my ex-boyfriend, who looked like he had rushed over here in a hurry.“What’s up?”“Don’t talk to him, Pretty Bird,” Asher snapped.But we needed to figure out why he had come.“I need to talk to you…alone,” James said. “It’s important.”“Don’t believe anyone other than your mates,”a soft and distant female voice that wasn’t my own drifted through my head. My brows furrowed momentarily, an uneasy feeling building in the pit of my stomach.“They all want to use you for your power.”I stared at the dirt and swallowed hard. The voice almost sounded like … Mom’s.“You’re more powerful than them all. You’re the only o
BETWEEN AN ALPHA AND THE OUTCAST EX BOYFREIND
One hand holding my tit, the other sprawled against the back of my opposite thigh, Asher didn’t say anything else to me as he rammed his cock into my pussy and pulled me into the air in a reverse cowgirl position, using nothing but brute strength to hold me up.Every time he rammed into me, my breasts swayed in the air. I clenched around him, moaning, begging, and pleading for him to come inside of me. He gripped me tighter and picked up his pace, pounding into me.“Pretty Bird, you’ve been waiting for this, haven’t you?”I bit my lip and nodded. “Yes.”“You like being bred by us.”“I love it.”He shoved himself harder.“I love it.”He trailed his hand to my other breast, groping them both and somehow still ramming into me as fast and as hard as he could. He growled, teeth grazing against my soft spot, and sank the first tip of his canine into me.“I love it so much,” I whimpered. “Oh God! Give me your cum. Please, please, Asher.”He swore under his breath and stilled inside of me. On
BETWEEN AN ALPHA AND THE OUTCAST PLEASURE
Lucas’s shirt that I must’ve worn to sleep last night pressed tightly against me, the design stretching far across the chest and my nipples hard and poking through the material. “Please, Lucas.” I grasped my breasts and tugged on my nipples until I moaned. “Please, give it to me. I’m desperate for your cock.”After grinding myself against him for a few more moments, he finally broke, pulled me off the bed, and turned me around so my back was pressed against his chest. With his large, callous hands, he pushed down his shorts to his knees and grabbed my elbows, plunging himself inside of me.“We really shouldn’t be doing this,” he murmured against me, his canines brushing against my soft spot. “We should’ve waited for the others, but I can’t seem to give a fuck anymore.”I moaned and curled my hands into the sheets, my tits bouncing against my shirt with every thrust. “It feels too good,” I said in a breath. “Too fucking good to wait anymore. They’ll come when they…”“Oh fuck,” he said,
BETWEEN AN ALPHA AND THE OUTCAST BREED NOW
Goddess, I want to,” Jake murmured against my lips, keeping them millimeters away from me, teasing me even harder. The beast inside me craved them so badly right now, even more than when I was in heat. “I want to so badly.”“Jake,” I cried, the warmth overtaking my body. “Now!”While I needed him more than ever, he walked up the prison steps and out of the concrete building toward the pack house with me in his arms. I ground myself up and down on him, rubbing my clit with his growing bulge through our pants.“Breed now,”the beast inside me commanded.“Breed now.”“Breed now,”I repeated, sinking my hand between our bodies and into Jake’s jeans. I gripped his cock in my hand and stroked it up and down as he carried me. “Jake, you need to take me right now. I’m begging you. I need you.”Heat, power, intensity burned inside me, from the inside out. A deep desire built in me.“I can’t,” Jake said through gritted teeth, as if he was trying to hold back. “I made a pact with the guys that once
BETWEEN AN ALPHA AND THE OUTCAST BREED ME
I wanted her to love me just as much as I loved her, just as much as she did the others. Could she ever love me that much? Were all these doubts and insecurities just in my head? Had I ever been built to mate with someone as strong and powerful as her?“Jake,” she whispered, “talk to me.”“I-I’m sorry.”Fuck, I didn’t know what else to say. How could I tell her that I felt left out? I found it so embarrassing, so terrible to say aloud. It wasn’t like they had done something to make me feel this way. I just was awkward as fuck sometimes.“Please tell me that you didn’t” she paused for a few long moments, her voice frail and wavering, as more tears piled up in her eyes “do anything with Havana. I’m sorry if I hurt you in some way, Jake, but please … you couldn’t have.”“What?” I asked breathlessly, unsure if I had heard her. “You think I would cheat?”A single tear rolled down Sina’s cheek, but she quickly turned away from me. Moments ago, she had been training to be the strongest speci
