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2021-03-23 20:00:01Intense beeping echoes in my ears forcing me to open my eyes. I am not in my bed, but I recognize the smell of the white sheets that cover my body. I would do it anywhere.
Little by little, my ears stop ringing, but I have a severe headache and terrible nausea. I am getting up slowly and from the sunlight that enters through the half-open window, I deduce that it is daytime.
I feel like the vomit begins to rise my windpipe so I am forced to run towards the closed white wooden door on the side of the room, the one that I suppose leads to the bathroom, and I throw it all in the toilet, feeling How my throat burns when the liquid passes through it, burning my insides. My back and abdomen ache from exerting so much force so it is difficult for me to get up again.
My face in the mirror looks hideous, so as I turn on the tap to rinse my mouth, I also clean my face with water and tie my hair into a bun with a rubber band that I always wear on my wrist, which is f
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Bringing out so many memories that I've been trying to forget my whole life is fucking worthless.I can still clearly hear the sound of that bullet hitting her body and visualize her lying on the ground, staining everything with a pool of blood as she repeated over and over again that she loved me.Maybe it's time to tell it, maybe that will help me get ahead and feel a little better because something like that is never overcome.- Do you remember when I told you that my father had killed my mother?Lailah nods her head as she sits up and sits cross-legged on the mattress. I'd like to do the same but sadly I have a fucking hole in my chest that won't let me move a damn finger.-Lailah, I would not like your childhood memories with your father to change, but you should know that your father and mine have been at odds for as long as I can remember. -I know it hurts to know, but I would do it more if I had not told you. I can't hide something like tha
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Five days before the trial.LAILAHI hear Azael knocking on the door again but I don't even bother getting out of bed. I've been locked up in one of the upstairs rooms for a day, and call me bro, but I'm beyond mad at Azael for not telling me why the fuck I can't get out of this house. Weren't there supposed to be secrets between us anymore? Aren't we supposed, to be honest with each other? Well, it gives me the feeling that every time we move forward in whatever we have between the two of us, we have to go back two steps, and we always return to the same point. I also know that he is hiding something important from me, and that worries me.-Okay, okay, don't go out. We'll see what you do when you're starving- I hear Azael say on the other side of the door after getting tired of calling me so much.I roll my eyes. Damn stupid.I hear his footsteps moving awa
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LAILAH.I look at my hands nervously and go back to looking at myself in the mirror.It's been just a year since Alison died. Yes, today is the day of the prom, the first day I saw Azael and the last day I saw my best friend.I don't even know how to feel, but I can't help but look back at the past.A year ago everything was completely different. I had just lost the person I loved the most in the world and I didn't even know who I was. I just wanted revenge. Take revenge and do him justice, and boy did it not work out for me, because I ended up falling in love with the last person I thought I could do it with. Azael Volkov. The culprit in the whole thing.I only remember hating him before I
Azael 56
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-I know the answer, but I'll ask you one last time, are you sure about this, Lailah?- Jim asks me putting a hand on my shoulder.-Yes. -I say lengthening the vowel with some fatigue.- I'll try harder in the university next year, I promise you, but I don't want to have to live this last year again, and less without my best friends -sigh.This year has been the most intense and hardest year of my entire life, and honestly, I can't wait to turn the page. I want to start over and overcome everything that has happened.-Well OK. I'll pick up your mother from therapy at 7:30 and we'll be there at 8:00.Jason's car whistle sounds from outside my house, signaling that he has arrived.-Okay, I'm going. I love you! -I say goodbye to him walking towards the door.-Me too! You look gorgeous! -I hear him say before closing it behind my back. I smile at his answer.He is my real father, even if he doesn't have my blood
Azael 54
Day of the attack.AZAELThe city is empty. There are some other cars, but nothing that we cannot control.I did not count on this, neither I nor anyone else, so this part of the city is not clear enough that someone does not call the police at the slightest mishap. So yeah, it's a relief that it's four in the morning on a Monday because otherwise we'd be pretty screwed up.We park on the corner of the street so that the van is not seen and they know we are here, and we all start walking towards the building.Lailah takes my hand and laces her fingers with mine, she's shaking. I squeeze him so he knows I'm here, and that I'm not going to let anything happen to him.Phill stops us.-There's nothing planned Tron, what are we supposed to do?-Survive and keep Lailah alive. -Then I lower my voice a bit.- If you can do it with Scott and Kya too, all the better. I know they are prep
Azael 53
Day of the attack.Lailah.Everyone is ready, at their posts, waiting for Azael to give the signal.Lie. Not everyone. Because I certainly am not prepared at all. I thought it would be a lot easier than it seems to me now. I don't like this plan at all.There are people on the team who are so high up that I can barely see them. Down here there are only a few, who will cover our backs. I look at their faces. I know that some will die. I wouldn't want it to happen, because I know they have a life outside of this, and some will have families. Just like mine, which is also in danger.Azael seems to notice my nervousness, because he grabs my hand and nods at me, reassuring me. We both go with bulletproof vests, submachine guns, spare pistols, and included microphones to communicate. I look at the rest of the team. Even Scott seems serious. Normal. He is the next to climb.-Are you ok
Azael 52
I stroke Lailah's bottom under the covers and sigh. I feel like the luckiest fucking man in the fucking world.She's still asleep, her head resting on my ink-covered chest. I look at her profile, she looks like a doll. I need to take a shower, but she is so calm that I don't want to wake her up.I decide to carefully get out of bed and grab a towel before going to the bathroom.I have been successful. After five fucking months, I got it back. And hell, I couldn't be happier if it weren't for the fact that I only have two fucking options: make it right and risk something happening to her, or screw it up again knowing that Lailah will be protected. And we all know that I will always choose the option where Lailah comes out alive and unharmed, even if it indicates that I will never be able to have her again.I'm looking for Gigi's contact on my mobile. She is still saved as Queen G. I press it and wait for her to respond.-Azael?- she asks with surpri
Azael 51
I take another drink of water before laughing again.I admit that I had been locked in the room all day, trying to figure out what I feel about Azael right now, when reality has fallen on me. I hadn't even thought that I dropped out of school to rescue my mother, whom I miss so much and I don't know what situation she's in. I don't know what they could be doing with her and that has made me so mad that I couldn't help crying. That a person you appreciated as much as a parent can be, who you thought had died, can cause so much pain in your life and even try to kill you just for revenge I swear it is one of the worst feelings I have ever had. And when I am left alone, all that has taken its toll on me.Yes, I know that now I have changed and I am much stronger than before. Or so I try. But when I'm alone and I don't have to prove it to anyone, it's hard not to break down.Luckily, Phill was out shopping for donuts and stopped by to see if he want
Azael 50
I'm screwed up. Screwed.I can put my hand in the fire and swear I would never think that I could feel this way for just one person. Before having met her, of course. And yes, I'm talking about her. Lailah Gozt.Realizing that your whole life revolves around something you can't have hurt so much that you wonder why you are doing it. And in my case, I can't find an answer. And that makes me desperate.Because not only can I not have her, but I already did, and I lost her. And damn, I can't forgive that.Two knocks sound on the door and I blow smoke out of my lungs before speaking.-Fuck you, Scott. I already told you that I don't want you here.They play again and I jump up. Fucking asshole. This boy doesn't understand anything.I open the door with a poker face, when I am surprised to see Kya on the other side. And she doesn't seem very happy, to be honest, I would almost say that she looks at me as if I
