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2024-10-29 19:42:56“You’ll always be my pack. No matter where you are. I love you like blood, you were meant to find me mi hermana, and I’ll never stop caring about you.” Her statement tells me she does know, and she isn’t going to argue about it. She’s a realist, and she knows my life won’t improve when Colton marks Carmen. I’ll be this inconvenient issue stuck in the way of Carmen’s happy ever after, and we both know she’s too spiteful to let that fly.
“I know what I have to do to ensure my own safety, and my own future. I love you too, Meds. I’m sorry.” I guess deep down I’ve been churning this over for days, knowing it’s where I was heading, but until now, I didn’t want to face it or say the words. I’ve pulled my head apart, and churned my mind in circles over this, and it all kept coming to the same blank spot I didn’t want to fill in. You have to cut the roots to let the grass fly fre
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