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SHANTOYAI am having negative feelings about this chapter...do you feel the same. Happy Reading.
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Awakening Prime Chapter 58
Everyday, I find myself living in constant regret. Despite even the positive memories that my regrets breathe. I wish that I hadn't accepted Cassian's invitation. It had been a week since his accident. On the surface, there were only a few scars on his body and they all appeared healed but beneath the surface, every organ in his body was constantly on fire. It was all my fault. I am the one who put him in harm's way. I shouldn't have gone through that portal. I should have stood and fought by my mother's side and if need be…I would have died there, at least no one would be hurting the way they are now. And I wouldn't feel as if I was living in constant torment, haunted by the little terrifying creature at the back of my mind and not to mention the shadows that crept over my back. There was a great possibility that my dark signature had grown. I feared what it truly meant. I huffed,tugging at the strands of my hair. Tonight was the dinner. Phoebe had agreed to accompany me but she
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Normal, or at least as normal as my nights usually were. Lying awake struggling to sleep as I fought against my own thoughts that always threatened to go to dark places that I knew that I would never come back from if I gave in. Suddenly a comforting presence hugged me and I unconsciously leaned into him. "Are you going to be alright," he whispered into my ear. I bit my lip, glancing into his dark eyes. It was strange how I could get lost in them. They were just so alluring and hypnotic. Whenever our eyes met I would instantly believe that we were alone in the world with no worries weighing us down. He felt right in every way…but sometimes I struggled to stay in the light because my mind liked to betray me. Conjuring up my fear, guilt and all the negative emotions that I held inside. That was one of the reasons why I felt as if I couldn't trust myself. I wasn't certain but at times I would feel a part of myself contradicting my every action or thought. I didn't know if it was r
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"Hey, I am sorry about that day. I was just in my head too much…feeding my hate for those of dark heritage," Medaline said, her voice becoming smaller with every word. "I know a thing or two about hate," I said. I hated Xerxes, I didn't know him very well but they say action speaks louder than words and I couldn't even begin to find things to love about the man. Maybe I could have had a father in a time before I was born but that wouldn't exactly make any sense, now would it. I sighed. "I have a dark heritage, you could say the darkest," I told her, watching her facial expression closely. She nodded and stopped one of the waiters with a singular class of red wine surrounded by champagne. I nearly rolled my eyes when she reached for it but I settled for shaking my head instead. Who knows who's mama was watching? Crap! At the thought of Cassian's mother, I grabbed a glass of champagne for myself. I inhaled deeply and took a big sip. "I know which is why I'm apologising. I'm start
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I should wear a cardigan, you know, to compensate for my scandalous attire at the dinner party. I mean that look she gave me, pierced my soul and killed me 10 different ways. I could not stand to be looked at that way for the rest of my life. I should cancel. I needed to work on finding the dark realm and that cure for Cassian anyway. Oh, Cassian, he will be disappointed. This is not how he planned for any of this to go. What am I saying, who would plan for their mother to hate their girlfriend. Wait, was I his girlfriend. Ugh, I was not in the right state of mind to be judged. I needed an excuse. Something important enough to warrant my cancellation. I walked out of my room and went downstairs. The living area was empty. Well everyone was hanging out with their parents. I exited the house and was greeted by a scent that was forever etched in my mind. No, it wasn't Cassian. It made its way to my nose in the form of smoke. Smoke which was surrounding Brian. "Are you smoking," I
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You know that feeling that you get when you're with your person. Every touch is hot to your core. Every kiss drives you wild and every breath feels, not enough. You want more of everything, you need more. You want to feel all of them…but…then their mom walks in. Running to Kylen wearing Cassian's face at the library was very infuriating. So after leaving angrily I made it my priority to talk to Cassian about it and then I remembered how I stood him and his mom up and then I remembered how much I wanted to spend as much time as possible with him before I…left Elverton. Anyways I was really missing him, so I snuck into his room at the Sapphire house. Damon just rolled his eyes at me and walked off. He didn't want to help me sneak through an open window on the second floor but enough about the journey. I had made it into the room. I just had to wait a few hours for him to arrive. I should have probably spent my time better but I was becoming very needy and clingy. I felt extremely b
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Why was I so obsessed with finding Xerxes? Why was I so eager to find someone who wanted me dead? Was it to save my mother? Let's face it, if she was in a life or death situation she would have found a way to contact me, to guide me to where she was. Everyone spoke of how Xerxes loved Iris and he would never hurt her. A part of me believed that as well. True love conquers all hate. Maybe I was lonely. I had never gone this long without seeing my mother or hearing her laugh, smell her or feel her warmth. She never judged me or accused me of being like my father. She loved me and that kind of love I yearned for. I guess I understand why Xerxes hunted us for all those years. He wanted her all to himself. I sighed, skipping the crisp brown pages of yet another history book with no answers on where to find the portal to the dark realm. Heck, there wasn't even any information on any of the portals. It's as if someone didn't want any of us to travel to other worlds except for Earth. "
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Every girl feels doubt about their first relationships. When their boyfriend gets over friendly with other girls or worse one of her friends, when a hot ex comes to town with her flawless skin evoking many insecurities, there is also the worst kind of doubts; when it seems like the universe is fighting you. On every step of the way there is an obstacle to be fought and overcome but what if I'm not in the right state of mind to overcome all these challenges. Times like this I wonder if Xerxes was right about me being weak. Ugh, this is most definitely bad if I'm starting to think that Xerxes was right. I knew that I lacked proper control over my abilities. If this was a game I would be at level two at best when my ultimate level is like ten. I must be delirious but maybe Xerxes wasn't as bad as everyone else said he was. My mother barely talked about him but sometimes I would get the feeling that she missed him or the person he used to be before his arch nemesis was born. I was
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I entered the house and was met by silence. The house was poorly lit as always and there was no Kylen in sight. I walked into the living room that was illuminated by the glow of a fireplace. It gave the room a warm and cosy feeling. Times like this I missed my mother. When I was younger she used to hug me tightly on the cold nights. She was my source of warmth and comfort. I huffed, feeling a wave of unwelcome sadness approaching. I glanced up towards the ceiling. "Mr. Vampire, where are you," I called out annoyingly. The more irritated he was, the faster he would save me from falling into a pit pit where I would cry myself to sleep, missing my mom and Cassian, cussing out my sperm donor and regretting that I had ever come here. Yeah, I couldn't do that. I needed answers and the oldest person in the room and my…guardian, I guess. Well, I am fairly certain that he used Vanessa's name but my mother left him in charge of my wellbeing, furthermore he has to answer all my questions.
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He will kill you…where Xerxes last words to me before he fell into a deep sleep. His skull had been cracked sending a jolt through his entire body and then his feeling faded. Touch. My heart had broken along with his mind. I was so close and yet I stood at the back of the line. My promise had shattered to the floor with my hope. A hope that my life would be a fairytale. I hells happily ever after in my hand for the first time and then it let go. I thought that I had hated him but how could you shed tears for someone who you hated. Feeling. I felt them falling down my cheek but I didn't want them to fall, that would admit that I had lost. That would presumed that I love. Did I love him? I was willing. What should I do now? Hate or grieve. Claw. He said he attacked. He was hurting me. I felt it but this pain that I felt now hurt more. I inhaled deeply, squeezing my eyes shut as the cold water of the shower beat down against my skin. I released the breath slowly, trying to
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Something had changed within Xerxes mind or it was just that Xerxes mind. It was fractured with black smoke creeping around every corner. My mother wasn't with me but I could feel her close by, hopefully convincing her husband to man up. In a way I guess I could understand what he was going through. Not knowing who you really are and constantly doubting yourself. It was sad just like all our lives. I only wish that I could do more to help him rather than just be bait or a distraction for the dark side. I admittedly hadn't planned ahead of getting into Xerxes' mind. This was something that I hadn't thought of. I was still figuring out my abilities but at least I had the confidence to overcome my fear. I walked aimlessly around the giant gothic castle, pushing doors open to reveal empty rooms until I arrived at a large room that vaguely resembled a throne room. Through the shimmers and smog, I spotted a shadowy figure sitting on the throne and another standing before it. I walked
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"I told you that I was going to save him," my mother snapped, brushing the dirt of her red sundress, unbeknownst to the twig sticking out of her hair. She looked like a mad woman and she sounded like one too. "He is beyond saving," I gritted out in pain as I straightened my body. My shoulder was in a strange position which could only mean one thing. It was dislocated. "You know nothing," my mother spat angrily. "Yeah, I wonder why," I replied sassily, walking towards a tree. I leaned my shoulder against it and sighed. I might even hurt myself more. "And what is that supposed to mean? I don't even recognize you anymore," she said in her pissed off, 'I'm going to whoop your ass' tone. I turned towards her, leaning my back against the tree. My hand was trembling and the hellhound scratch still hurt really badly. I couldn't push my shoulder back into place without possibly causing myself more harm so I would rely on telekinesis to do the job. I exhaled slowly while staring at m
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I couldn't help but to laugh. My nemesis was lying unconscious just inches away from my boot. Oh, the world was right again. I stared down at the man that looked like my father but he was far from it. With his eyes closed he almost looked peaceful, well if it wasn't for the blood running down his face from a nasty gash on his temple. "Yikes, I guess I don't know my own strength," I said, placing my hands on my hips as I glanced towards the table. It was indeed a blueprint of the academy but that is as much as I understood given that it was printed in bold at the bottom of the paper. I had no idea what he was planning but there was only one way to find out. I sighed. I did not want to go that way, especially without a physical anchor. I huffed and crouched beside him. Plucking a strand of hair from his head and pulling a loose strand from mine. I twisted the strands together, well I got frustrated and rolled them into a ball since they were so tiny. With a snap of my fingers,
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"You have got to be f*cking kidding me," I cursed aloud, running my hands over my curls. The front bang that I had managed to cut, hanging over my forehead like a mockery. "Excuse me, watch your language young lady," my mother said sternly, folding her arms as she stared at me. I released a humourless laugh, nodding to myself slowly. "I am a motherf*cking idiot," I said slowly to myself in realisation. Xerxes was right. That's a wound that cut far too deep. How was I supposed to recover? "What is wrong with you? Who have you become? You are not the daughter I sent here. What did you do to yourself?" my mother said, staring at me with wide eyes filled with…indifference. "What did I do to myself," I retorted quietly, glancing towards the floor. "I did nothing. What did you do to me," I paused and hummed, giving her a sad smile. "Irrelevant, I guess I don't mean that much anyways," I continued, pulling my knee towards my chest and hugging them. "Taiti, stop this foolishness. You
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I was perched in a tree, simply to put it. I couldn't stop thinking about the memories that Professor Faren had sent to me. Xerxes was the name given to him by his father but he had another name, given by his mother. That was how I was supposed to reach out to him. Though I couldn't bury the nerves spiking under my skin, raising my temperature and making me uncomfortable. Was it weird that I was nervous? All this new information was making my stomach twist and turn. Why did this feel so different? I had met Xerxes recently and he was a narcissistic ass hat but I guess I had never met the man my mother fell in love with. It was making me nervous and I needed to focus. I exhaled slowly, hoping down from the tree branch. It was very far from the ground which was how I got up there in the first place. Well, it was not as if the serene scene that I had painted was real. I stood under a large tree, full of branches that hung low and broad leaves that swayed subtly. There was short gr
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My heart was pounding in my chest and I struggled to breath properly. What I was about to do, would most likely get me killed. Which was why I needed guidance. Kylen was halfway across town and I was not about to tell the director of my involvement regarding the lockdown. That would be my third strike and then I was out for good. I couldn't leave permanently now, not when Cassian was about to do something that I was told that I needed to do ever since I got here. It was strange, wasn't it? How Kylen would always be pressuring me to awaken Prime and yet Cassian could do it himself. Was that what he was subtly telling me to do…or did I miss something? Ugh, I was always so distracted. I hope that it was nothing major…but then again the look on Parys' face. He discovered something. Shit, I couldn't handle all these doubts right now. I trusted Cassian, more than I did myself. He could do this and whatever the consequences we would face them together. I released a slow shaky breath a
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I resisted the urge to stomp my feet childishly while swinging my shoulders. Instead I took a deep breath. I could fix this, we could fix this. I just needed to find Cassian and apologised. I began to walk after Cassian, when Parys suddenly grabbed my wrist. What? Didn't he want me to go after him? Was this a 'he needs some spaces' situation. I glanced down at Parys' tight grip and then met his gaze with confusion. He blinked out of a trance and then quickly released my hand. "Sorry," he said, running his hand through his hair nervously. This was strange, Parys behaviour. I turned towards him slowly. "Are you okay," I asked genuinely worried about him. We still hadn't had that talk about his love life yet and it was most definitely overdue. "I'm fine. I…ah…can we talk later," he paused to glance towards the others but I was already nodding. "Later, in private. It's something important," he continued. "Oh, okay," I said, glancing towards the floor. This sounded very import
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Cassian was pacing and gripping his hair so tightly, I was sure that he would rip out a few strands. Silas sat in front of me, bandaging my arm. He followed my gaze to Cassian and released an inaudible sigh. He glanced at me hesitantly as if he wanted to say something but wouldn't say it with Cassian present. "Uhm, are you okay, " I said softly towards Silas. "Why wouldn't he be okay, " Cassian chipped in before Silas could answer. He had stopped pacing to stare at Silas with a hard stare. I sighed, pulling my arm away from Silas to tie the bandage myself. I stood to my feet and left the room with Cassian hot on my heels. "Cassian Shane 'Primus' Cole!" I said loudly, turning sharply to face him. "Stop following me," I continued in a quieter tone. "I'm not going to disappear into thin air if you take your eyes off me for 5 minutes, " I said, hinting at how much alone time I needed. Cassian stared down at me with an unreadable expression on h
