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Chapter 46

Author: SHANTOYA
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Love isn't random, it's chosen. Our hearts bond and then our minds choose to listen but what if our souls are pulling us in opposite directions. Who does your mind listen to when your heart is in one place and your soul is being pulled to another? Is a broken heart worth as much as a broken soul? Am I strong enough to heal whichever one breaks? How do you heal a broken soul? I have never had a broken heart, what if it breaks permanently?

Wouldn't my broken heart affect my spirit? Wouldn't my broken soul affect my heart? What of the heart I would break to keep my soul whole? What of the soul that would break if I choose to keep my heart whole? What of the consequences of hurting them?

I hadn't thought of all this when I decided to kiss Silas. The action was supposed to be a friendly gesture…heck it was supposed to be a light peck on the lips. I never meant to feel this way… I couldn't understand this feeling.

When our lips touched it felt as if worlds collided. I fe
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