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CHAPTER 19
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2024-10-29 19:42:56We spent few more days at the hotel bago bumalik ng Manila. After that night, my unknown relationship with Elouise became better—no, maybe kind of. He thinks that I have already overcome my nightmares and trauma after he brought me in Antipolo but he's completely wrong.
My nightmares became more severe each passing night. Palaging mayroong pumapatay sa akin sa panaginip ko. I always end up dying. Nightmares sucks.
Ilang araw na akong walang tulog. At tuwing madaling araw, si Eris ang madalas kong binubulabog kagaya ngayong madaling-araw. I woke up because of nightmare. It's 2:17 in the early morning, and I can't help but to cry. I've been suffering with this for too long and nowadays it became a burden on my mental health big time. That's why I already planned something already in my head.
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PAULIT-ULIT kong binasa ang article na 'yon. Tumigil lang ako ng humapdi na ang mga mata ko. Hilam ang mga ito kaka-iyak sa hindi ko matukoy na dahilan.Dahil ba natutuwa ako na hindi na nagtatago sa likod ng pen name n'ya si Elouise? o dahil nasasaktan ako kasi.. ang posisyon ko dati sa tabi n'ya ay napalitan na ng iba?Tinuyo ko ang basa kong pisngi. This isn't worth my tears. Besides, I told him before not to wait for me. And what hurts the most is.. I tought, he would come to me like he used to do before. I thought he would find a way to follow me.. however, it didn't come.And it disappoints me until now.Pumasok ako sa loob ng banyo, para makapag half-bath muna at para na rin makapag hilamos.Nang makapag palit na rin ako ng pantulog ay
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"Don't touch me."I tried so hard not to wince in pain. Mariin ang pagkakakagat ko sa pang-ibabang labi."What happened, Love?" He asked worriedly. Humakbang siya palapit sa akin at marahang hinawakan ang braso ko.I look at Elouise's worried face. I suddenly want to cry. I didn't do anything wrong, why did she do this to me? Tiningnan ko ang mukha ni Nica. She looked so started on what she have done. Binalik ko ang tingin ko kay Elouise. Masama na siyang nakatingin kay Nica."What happened, Nics?" He asked. Still looking for an answer from the both of us. I could only hear our heavy breathing."I—I was.." She went pale. I sighed."It was my fault." I told him instead. "I annoyed her, that's why." Nangingi
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"Ewan ko ha, but I think she's trying to woo Elouise."Sabi ni Eris habang nag-aagahan kami bago pumasok sa trabaho. Kinwento ko sakaniya na pumunta si Janica sa condo ni Elouise."He told me naman na there's nothing to worry about Nica." Sabi ko habang ngumunguya.Eris brow shot up. "Well, if he say so. May tiwala naman ako kay Elouise, pare. Pero doon sa Nica, wala."I sighed. "Same, jusko."Hinaayan ko nalang 'yon at pumasok ng maaga sa opisina. Pagdating ko palang sa cubicle ko binuksan ang phone ko. I saw his text since last night. Hindi naman ako galit at nagtatampo. Nakatulugan ko lang talaga phone ko kagabi kaya hindi na ako nakapag reply sa messages niya.From Elouise:Lov
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"W-What did you just say?"He caught me off guard with what he said. I am looking at him with wide eyes! I mean, maybe I am hearing things?"Why? you think my proposal is ridiculous?" Elouise turned to me.Ridiculous my ass. Sinong nagsabi? wala naman akong sinabi. Ang sarap kaya sa pandinig ng sinabi niya to the point na hindi na ako nakapag react ng maayos."Ano nga ulit sinabi mo?""I don't want to repeat it again, it's embarrassing." I saw his ears turned red.Tinaasan ko siya ng dalawang kilay. "So you are saying that I am an embarassment?" I joked.He frowned. "What? No." Tiningnan niya ako ng masama. "I know you heard it. What I just say is just a.." Hindi niya matuloy
