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2022-10-03 13:00:58For those of you who have been hurt in the past
Anyone and wherever you are, if you are now reading word-for-word of this book is not feeling well, still hurt by a figure that's been present then leave without a word or two, it's okay. Give yourself a break to get back on your feet, no need to look like everything's okay. There will come a time when you can see everything, and when that time comes, you will realize that it is not the world that is unkind to you, but you who are too fixated on every wound and pain. Until you forget how each pain and wound lead you to a new life, a life where you can better choose who gets and who doesn't get into the most important room of your life. Not shut yourself down from everyone who comes, just contain it. For what? Simply do not give those who come with less, yet, not even a good thing at all.
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