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Chapter 37: Yearning for Death

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~1 year later~

She spent each day in a zoned out state. She would barely eat and would not talk to anyone. She become very frail and never left her room. Myra would often have to force her to shower. She never slept until she blacked out from exhaustion. None of the dragons other than Myra saw her. Jasper would come sit with her, but they never spoke. She was plagued by the memories and the pain. She often cried for hours on end. Rose had tried to comfort her, but could not help. Today..it was the one year anniversary…today she would visit them. She left early in the morning without a word to anyone. She walked all the way to her old pack. The place was still in disrepair. She walked to the cemetery. She hit her knees in front of the graves of her twins and Jonathan which were just in front of Romero’s and Baudouin’s graves.

“Forgive me…that I live and you are gone…there’s a grief that can’t be sp

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