Emily’s POVI found him standing in the garden, under the moonlight and he seemed so lost in thoughts while the night breeze played with his hair that I didn't dare disturb him. I knew this was what he needed right now: peace. Even if it meant me being lonely for a little bit longer, he would be okay when it was over. But As I continued to watch from afar, the urge to go up to him grew stronger but I was scared.What if he was suddenly grumpy and felt irritated by my presence? What if he thought that I was trying to pry into his business? I didn't want to say something wrong, didn't want to upset him . But still, how much could I wait until he was done meditating? “Sir… I mean Luka” I finally said when I walked up to him.He didn't turn to look at me, he just continued staring into space without acknowledging my presence.“It's a bit cold, aren't you gonna get inside soon?” I asked, rubbing my arms to get rid of some of the goosebumps.The fact that it was cold outside didn't mak
Luka's POV“She used to live close by, but I don't….she is supposed to be with me, supposed to be alive, why did you run away, I begged her but I guess I scared her…” I found myself saying to Emily, at this point I couldn't care if she understood me or not but I wanted to let these words out, it was as if I couldn't keep them inside anymore.It hurt more than anything else to talk about her, especially with some random person but I still spoke about Portia anyway.“You know it was our favorite place …” I trailed off again while chuckling bitterly as memories of Portia flooded my head all at once making it feel like it was going to explode if I didn't keep talking to keep my anxiety at bay.“You know, she used to say it was our secret, our place where we spent our time together and she would come home early and surprise us with dinner…she loved cooking…” I smiled at the end feeling like some sort of superhero who had managed to hold on to all the parts of the woman he loves.It all fe
Luka’s POV“I brought you soup,” Emily said as she stood in front of my door, holding a tray at the same time giving me a scrutinizing look. I knew what it meant. She wanted to know if I’d been sick or not. I couldn’t blame her for that either. I was pretty sure I wasn’t supposed to be standing up yet. My body ached from yesterday and what was worse than the shame that came after vulnerability?Yet I couldn't explain how relieved I felt from letting the load off my chest and the exhaustion settle into an easy slumber. It had taken a long time to fall asleep last night. The nightmares were never as bad, but they would make it hard for me to get enough rest.“Can I at least come in?” asked Emily with a little hesitation, knowing full well that she didn’t have permission to come in. I nodded. She was still holding onto the tray as if it were some sort of treasure.“I think you should take it now, it is still hot” “What are you doing here?” I asked her instead and she seemed surprised
Emily’s POVAsshole! Ungrateful asshole, that was who he was. I was the one who was stupid enough to feel sorry for him. I should have told him that he deserved all of the things he was going through, but that was not my style. I wasn't raised like that.I could do better, I know I could.In the previous week, I found paintbrushes and Cassie was kind enough to give me canvas and I began to paint again. Just like how I used to when Papa was still alive and when Mama and I were his priorities. I miss the days when my life felt so complete.Now I was stuck walking around eggshells. Because I hadn't drawn or painted anything for years, it was rough and needed a lot of adjustment.I abandoned it.The King didn't come to check on me that evening. Only the maid brought food and she was not Claire or Cassie so there was no one I could vent. I had a feeling he was avoiding me. I tried to convince myself that it wasn't that much of a big deal yet I felt unsatisfied. I was the one who was supp
Emily’s POVI had been feeling grumpy and mostly bored. I still hadn't managed to get a hold of my drawing and it drove me crazy and what was worse was that I couldn't even talk to Cassie.Claire on the other hand had been unavailable, I heard she had gone on a trip and the second oldest maid was mean. She would send disapproving glares to my side whenever she saw me talking to Cassie.I didn't like her either. She was a smallish woman with a blank stare that always seemed out of place on her bony face. Everything about her seemed off, even her energy. The last time she had chased me out of the kitchen causing the other maids to giggle.Nothing seemed to satisfy me anymore, I needed a distraction, and any distraction would do.I needed to talk to the King, not about our sexual lives or whatever it is we had going on, but I needed to take classes, maybe baking or cooking or something else that would get me through this month, and keep me busy and focused. I hated these moments when my
Emily’s POVApart from the fact that my eyes were teary and my body seemed weak, I was ashamed to say that I enjoyed and loved every bit of it.I was thrilled every time he took me to that euphoric wall, it was as if all my sorrows magically disappeared with it.I couldn't explain how I felt but it wasn't just a mundane feeling, it was real.It made me feel whole. It was as if I was meant for him and he for me, I don't know.He had brought me to sit on his lap as he wiped my tears away, my buttcheeks hurt so bad as he forced me to sit, knowing how much it would sting.“Will you disrespect me again, Emily?” he asked almost gently, that one would think he couldn't hurt a fly but I knew better, not after he had just fucked me out of my senses.“No” I sniffled.His cock brushed against my pussy and I let out a gasp. Despite all my tears, I still reacted like this towards him. He had me hooked.He chuckled lightly.“Is this what you want Emily?”I couldn't tell if he was playing games with
Emily’s POVToday I woke up very pissed. I couldn't tell what had become of my life, this was not the kind of life I wanted for myself. What was I doing here?I was only here to give him an heir and what if I couldn't?What would happen to my futureI looked at my body that lay motionless on the bed in the room. I was still a woman but everything about me looked so different from the way it used to be when I was younger.I stood up and ran to the vanity mirror to take in my reflection . I felt like throwing up, even though I didn't have anything to throw up with. The last time this happened to me had been a week or two ago. “Ugh!” I screamed while tugging at the roots of my hair. “Why does it feel like I am losing my mind?”“Take a deep breath, Emily” Amelia my Wolf tried to calm me down. This didn't work very well since she sounded worried and confused “You are not losing your mind.”“It's like being inside someone else's head and you don't know how they are going to react” I cont
Luka’s POV“Why not? you don't want me here, the people in your castle don't want me here either. You would talk to me today and tomorrow you wouldn't, I am stuck in this room repeating the same routine, It is driving me crazy!” She sounded like she was angry, extremely angry. I could see the fire blazing in her eyes. It was threatening to burn down the whole place, threatening to burn me up. “It's like I have become a different person and don't even know who I am. My dreams, my whole life, everything feels stuck! I feel stuck!” she yelled to my faceZI couldn't understand why she was complaining, I treated her better than I treated anyone, better than she has been treated in most part of her life. It didn't just make any sense.I took in deep breaths because my wolf had asked me to, he clearly, didn't want me tongue lashing his mate. She stared at me as if she was wondering if that was all I had to say there were expectations in her eyes and when she realized that I wasn't going t