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Confused

Cassie POV

When I step out my bedroom Gabby was sitting on the couch eating pizza while drinking beer. This is normal for her she loves beer and pizza. I sat beside her and grab a slice.

It was already 8:00pm and she was still here which was odd. She was the bars' bartender and it's a Friday night. Not that she the only bartender in the bar but usually all three of them was present during weekends. We always have a huge crowd on weekends.

"So you’re not going to work tonight?" I tried to start a conversation with my best friend. I mean I feel bad for hiding in my room for the almost the whole day. I wanted to be ready to talk with her. I didn't know she wasn't working today. If I knew that I would have just stayed locked up in my room. I'm not sure I'm ready to talk about what happened yesterday.

"I was awake all night yesterday looking for my best friend. I was worried to death. Then she showed up with the devil as if nothing happens." Gabby was really annoyed and I don't want her mad at me. I guess I have no choice but tell her what happen.

"Sorry." I hugged her tightly. "So how did you convince our stalker boss Anderson give you an off."

"Jake suggested I skip work tonight. He said I better take rest since I was exhausted."

"Really? So Mr. Smartass has a heart after all." I said smirking at her.

"Stop calling Jake that. I mean, you were kissing the devil playboy what the hell was that about." She stated accusingly.

"Wait, we always enjoy calling him names cause he always annoys you. Are you not telling me something?" I stared at her in disbelief.

"Wow! And the girl who was MIA the whole evening demands honesty."

"Gabby, come on. I'm sorry. I just can't believe he... he lied to me again. I... I felt lost. I can can't face you and tell you that..." Tears started pouring out and I can't stop it again. The memories of Jonathan betrayal resurfaced once again. 

"Hey. I'm sorry." Gabby embraced me and just let me cry. After crying for almost half an hour I felt better. It's crazy to see Gabby crying as well. She's really my best friend. She understands how I feel but she never really liked Jonathan. But she always have my back. She supports me no matter what.

"I saw Jonathan having sex with the model being linked to him. I should have listened to you and Cole that it wasn't just a rumor that it was true. I'm such an idiot." I stare at our kitchen wall while playing with my fingers.

"That bastard. I'm going to kill him when I see him again." She stated angrily.

"I don't really want you to do that. I mean I hate him for what he did but..."

"They’re still a part of you that loves him." Gabby cut me off. "Best when will you wake up and see that Jonathan is a douche bag that you have to dispose him. For crying out loud, stop being too nice you’re too kind hearted that sometimes people like him takes advantage of you. You need someone that would love you the way you love them."

I felt relieved to hear those words from Gabby. She was always honest and never lied to me. I just need to do this. I have to move on. I have to let go. I need to live a life without Jonathan.

I can do this. I am going to get over Jonathan. He will be on my past now...

"I know. It's not that easy but I'll try to get over him." I said and smiled at her. "And this time I promise you I won't give him another chance. This time it's really over." I stated firmly.

"If you say so, anyways let’s stop talking about depressing topics. Let us go to the hot stuff. Why were you kissing the devil playboy Frankford?"

Leave it to Gabby to ask silly questions. And I have much crazy answers for her this time. Here it goes. I know she's going to be estatic.

"Gabby I think I had sex with him last night." I stated shyly.

"What?!" She was obviously shocked. "What do you mean you think? Best it's either you did or not."

"I don't know. I really can't remember. I was too drunk to remember anything from last night." I admitted.

"Great. Just great, you had the hottest hunk in your bed and can't give me the kinky details." I blushed with her words. Sometimes, Gabby just can't stop her mouth from speaking out loud what's on her mind.

"Technically, best. It was his bed." I can't help but smile remembering this morning encounter.

"Spill. What are you not telling me?" She looked at me knowingly.

"Promise me you won't judge." 

"Best, I never judge. I just voice out my opinions. So please.. I'm dying to hear the details."

I told Gabby everything. I mean I always do. I was just taken back that the whole time she wasn't giving any crazy comments. She just listened and smile at me.

"So that's it. That was everything. I honestly don't know why he stopped when he did."

"You like him. My bestie has a crush on the devil." She started laughing.

"What, of course not! Gabby I don't like him. I was lost by the moment."

"If you say so... but seriously best. Nicholai is bad news his reputation is worse than Jonathan. I don't think you can handle someone like him."

"Gabrielle Simons, I am not getting involve with him. I won't fall for him. I still need to get over my ex." I stated, 

"Just saying, cause I can see your eyes twinkle when you talk about him. So please take your time before jumping off another cliff."

"You’re crazy. I don't think I'll see him again anyway. I mean, he is a very busy person to waste his time on me. So I doubt that I will be encountering him again."

"Best, you might still encounter him." I was taken aback by her statement. "He’s my boyfriends' best friend."

"You’re what?" Gabby was smiling at me sweetly. "Mr. Smartass is your boyfriend. What the hell!" I was so surprised.

"Oh, come on Cassie. He is really nice, his sweet, he cares for me." I looked at her annoyingly. "Fine! He’s good kisser and really good in bed." I started laughing at her. "I really love him, best. I never felt this way before."

"I'm happy for you. But if ever he makes you cry I'll be right here. We can always call him names."

"How did you know about Mr. Frankford? I mean, I haven't met him before. And we always have the same circle of friends." 

"Best, he is not my friend. I don't personally know him. I just saw him in magazines and pictures of the three of them in Jake's apartment. Nicholai, Jake, Cole. JNC"

"Oh. Okay." I smiled at her. "I honestly didn't recognize him. I mean we see him on magazines all dressed up. Not dressed so casually."

"Sure... I bet you were too busy with other things than trying to recognize him." She started laughing.

I guess so... too busy enjoying his damn sweet lips...

I felt good after talking with Gabby. It was good having her listen to my sentiments. It's just crazy that Jake and her actually is a thing now. She's just not the type that settles for a guy. I mean she is my best friend, we have been leaving together for three years now she never introduce any one as her boyfriend nevertheless mention LOVE. Jake really got to be special. I hope that their relationship work out. If not, Jake will definitely get to know Gabby the bitch.

I went back on my room past mid night. Gabby was already sleeping in her room and I was staring on my ceiling. I can't help it but my mind keeps remembering the kiss I shared with him. I don't know what's wrong with me. I mean it's so not me.

Three months ago when I caught Jonathan kissing his secretary I cried the whole week and just got him on my mind. Now, it's odd. I still love him but every time I close my eyes all I can see is him. The devil playboy..

Is Gabby right?

Do I have a crush on him?

If I do, shit I can't.

Gabby's right, he is not the person I can get involved with. He is a playboy and I can't fall for him. I tried to fall asleep but my mind kept lingering back to this morning’s event.

Why did he have to stop?

If he didn't stop, would I be here right now or still in his apartment begging for more?

I’m so fucked up…