The term instant gratification usually implies it happens immediately and although this isn’t what anyone would qualify as instant, it happened way sooner than I thought and damn; it is amusing. Gemini scowls at Alders’ back as he leads her down yet another well-trodden path that we traveled no less than a day ago.Two days. Two days and they are already lost and damn, is it satisfying to watch. From a distance, I can see them grumbling at each other, Alder throwing his hands up in defeat as she pushes past him. I toss a berry from the berry bush I found last night into my mouth, relishing the snack and the show.For a brief moment, I was convinced Alder may have ulterior motives. Who the hell are we to take him at his word, but if he has a motive, he sure as shit isn’t going to follow through anytime soon. Not with his horrible navigation skills.I creep closer along the trees we passed once before, staying in the darkness, lurking just along the edge of their ability to see me. Gem
*Gemini*I want to be mad at Rocky for following us, even though it is unreasonable to be angry at him for it. But it’s easier to find anger since I’m already annoyed about making zero headway for the past two days.I sit on the ground recalling his smug expression as he called us out for walking in circles. As it turns out, Alder is worse at navigation than I am, which isn’t saying much since I’m terrible. Alder’s problem is he hasn’t quite come to terms yet with his lack of skill. Instead, he blames the scenery, claiming the beautiful meadow distracts him or that it all looks the same, so we are making headway and I just need to put my trust in him. Easy for him to say when he seems to trust so easily, too easily, if I’m being honest. Night creeps in and I remain vigilant, looking at the trees, watching the leaves as a low breeze dances through them, giving me glimpses of the moon. It’s darker than it usually is at night, and I can tell it’s the overcast sky that is making it this
*Rocky*In and out. That’s all I can manage right now as I lay on my back. I don’t dare open my eyes for fear of the splitting headache. I can feel growing running rampant like a fire given oxygen. My chest aches as my lungs cry for oxygen, my arms too heavy to lift and my legs unwilling to listen to my commands.So I focus on my breathing. In through my nose, out through my mouth and repeat. My lycan is nowhere to be found, hiding away as he rests from probably saving me. How I can’t remember, all I know is one minute I was fighting for my damn life in the water and the next I am where the air is damp and musty but it’s oxygen so I don’t really give a shit how it smells. It feels like heaven in my lungs.My fingers twitch as something tickles them, my skin cooled, and a shiver runs up my spine. I think I am cold, or something is touching me, but my brain is too slow to register that we are in danger. Against my body’s will, I force my eyes open, looking into the darkness down my body
I stare at the wall, looking back and forth between the pictures and the words. The disgusting history of my kind and what is actually the real reason for this curse? I come from a long line of self important assholes.We were given the task of protecting and living with the werewolves, to even find our mates from amongst them and yet…we slaughtered them. For what? To feel more powerful? To showcase how strong we are? Selfish doesn’t even come close to what they were, what we have been for years. We deserve this and I hate with every fiber of my being that I know it now. Do we even deserve freedom? The more I sit here and really digest what the hell I am looking at, the less I believe we do. The story we have been told…the lies surrounding our punishment make us seem innocent.Stained with our ancestors’ sins is the least of our problems. We are meant to be humbled and even in that we have failed in our punishment. Is our innocence of it all now enough to save us from our wrongs?“Fu
*Gemini*“Do you have any more food?” Alder asks from behind me as we slush through the onslaught of rain.I clench my jaw, trying not to snap at him. I am tired, my body aching and my shivering in the fucking icy rain and all this kid can think about is food? Food that is my rations, because he has once again eaten all the food set aside for him under the guise of ‘I’m still growing and your said you are used to eating very little.’“Nope,” I grind out, not bothering to look behind me.“Nothing?” he scoffs. “Are you sure?”What the hell is wrong with this guy? Seriously. Did his mother drop him on the head too many times on his thick skull or is he really this entitled? This has to be a facade, a way to test me and try to break me, for what I have no clue, but this can not be real life right now. “I am sure, Alder.” I sigh heavily.I can hear him grumbling behind me, but I block it out, wiping the rain from my face as we come up to a small cliff overlooking the forest. At least we m
Panic takes over every sense as my body presses against a muddy wall. I slide down the steep side of the cliff, my fingers scratching hopelessly as I try grip anything to stop my fast descent. My foot catches on something hard, my body crumbling over it as start to roll back away from the safety of the side of the cliff. Everything moves in slow motion, my arms flying out the cry the breaks from my lips as I tumble backwards rolling head over heels pain lacing through my body as I try to catch my breath. I land with a heavy thud, what little oxygen I have in my body evaterpates as I wheeze. Cold rain hammers me in the face, mud splashing around me as small rocks land and settle in. I know I have to get up and move, to try and run away but getting my fingers twitch is the best I can do. The rain stops Over my face and I focus my eyes on the face directly above mine. A young woman blinks at me then tilts her head, a frown on her lips as she squats and reaches through the mud beneath
*Rocky*“I thought you knew the way out of here?” I grunt, watching as Jude stands at yet another underground crossroads with his torch. He has one hand on his hip, his head swinging side to side, as if he can’t decide which route to take.“It’s this way,” He says confidently, pointing with his light as he turns to the right.“You’re sure?” I ask and he snorts. “Yes. I will admit, at times, I get a little turned around down here, but I do always make it out. Plus, all of these lead out, but each one takes us somewhere different.”“They were near the lake hours ago….” I tell him, and he shakes his head.“No, you were out for a long time, dude. I swear to you they are long beyond the lake now.”It’s not that what he is saying doesn’t make sense. It’s logical and wise, but it makes me on edge. Maybe it’s knowing that anything could have happened to Gemini in those hours I was out. But maybe it’s because I’m not used to having someone who wants to also take the lead.It’s not a power com
*Gemini* Blossom sings quietly to herself through tears and sniffles, occasionally hitting against the metal cage wall like she just can’t handle the confined space anymore. I wish there was something I could say or do to let her know it will all be okay, but truth be told, I’m not sure I’d buy that line if someone fed it to me. So instead I choose to distract her. “How long have you been in here, Blossom?” I whisper. Her singing stops, and I hear her as she shuffles closer. “A few days, I think.” She sighs. “Do you think Vi is okay?” “I know she is.” I smile to myself, remembering the girl who tried to drag me to safety before she had to retreat.I get it now, her reasoning for abandoning me. She has someone who needs her more. Yet she still tried to save me.“Do you have a family?” Blossom asks and I think of my baby brother who I’m sure no longer looks or acts like a baby. He has a tender heart and uncommon process of logical thinking. He is strange, but he is blood and damn, d
Thank you all for hanging in there with me for the sporadic updates. For three years I have had the best most amazing readers ever! You all have been so understanding from when I had my youngest kiddo last year to all my sickness recently. So thank you.I will be taking a month-ish off in order to write my next project that way I have chapters saved up for the days I am not feeling well. Moving forward I will do better to ensure days are not missed. I undertsand all too well hard frustrating it can be waiting on chapters so i want to do my best to get back on track.My health is an uphill battle, I am newly diagnosed with several autoimmunes disorders and thus the medication I am on makes me far more prone to sickness and exhaustion. I refuse to let it be an excuse again for spotty updating! I'll be back in a month with something fun and awesome! Happy reading!
*Gemini* **One year Later** I watch the door, anxiously waiting for Rocky to pop in any moment. My palms sweat and I inhale deeply, wiping the clammy feeling on my lilac sundress. Something happened, something unexpected and scary, something I have no idea how to tell him about as I work to control my breathing. He left me three long days ago and he will come home to a whole new world, one I’m not sure either of us are ready for. The door creaks open, and I jump up from my chair, rushing to him only to stop and groan in annoyance. “Wow, not happy to see me? Do I visit too much?” Jude asks with a fake scoff. I chuckle nervously and walk up to my Alpha brother and give him a big hug. “I am always happy to see you, but I am waiting for Rocky. It’s been three days and I’m excited.” I say with a smile. He furrows his brows and tilts his head. “Excited or nervous?” he waves his hand in my face, “Because this looks like anxiety, not excitement.” I slap his hand away, pressing my l
*Gemini*“Remind me again what we are doing?” I ask Rocky as he saunters through the pack, dragging me along like he is looking for something. It is obvious his mind is preoccupied elsewhere, but I don’t mind it. Honestly, even with all the stress of learning what it is to be a present alpha for his pack, he is less tense than he was before. Not that I blame him. The whole ‘doom and gloom’ lingering over his pack and his death just continuing the whole issue has a tendency to weigh on a person.“We,” he says, pausing to look around a corner into a small backyard with a beautiful garden. “Are looking for someone.”“Oh?” I ask curiously. “And who is it we are looking for?”“Well, she is a girl.” He says, and I blink at the back of his adorably dense head.“First of all, I want to preface this by saying we agreed not to lie. Second, I don’t like the idea of you looking for another woman.” I admit and he stops, suddenly looking at me with a huge grin on his lips. Then he turns to face me
I’ve never been in this meeting room before, not even as a kid. It was only ever used for alpha’s which was a moot point considering they were never even here to make use of it. In a way, it became the Beta’s office, used to manage and run an entire pack. To carry all the weight of it while us alpha’s struggled on the outside. It’s strange being in here now, gliding my hand over the smooth cherry wood table that seats thirty people. The window lines the entire wall, looking out into a meadow with a tiny creek that spills out into a lake. On the other side I can see children playing in the water.A smile twitches at the corner of my mouth when I recall the times Bridger and I would play in that same lake. The way we would squeal when the cold water hit our skin. The same place my kids will get to grow up and not have this heavy looming cloud of doom over their heads. My children, if Gemini wants them, will get to play uninhibited with the pressures of having to learn to survive on th
*Rocky*“I’d rather not get out of bed.” I whisper, reaching out and tugging Gemini back toward me as she tries to scurry away. She squeals out loudly in a playful giggle, reaching her arm back and dragging her nails through my hair. I pull her close, nuzzling my face into the crook of her neck where my mark is. She is mine; she is here and not a damn thing can take her from me. Not even an appointment with the reality of the life of a Lycan King.“You have a meeting,” she reminds me, though she wiggles into me more, her bare skin rubbing parts of me that don’t need any more encouragement.“I have a mate. That is far more important than some alphas who want to speak with me.” I tell her honestly. Gemini sighs heavily before she shifts in my arms, spinning to face me. She wears her serious expression and I loosen my hold on her, waiting for her to tell me exactly what I am going to be doing.“What are you so afraid of?” She whispers. Her gentle and knowing eyes find mine, holding my ga
*Gemini*It’s not just the sparks from the bond that are sending my nerves into overdrive, but the anticipation, the waiting hopelessly for exactly this. If I hadn’t already verified I was indeed alive, I would almost think this was a dream.But the way his heart beats in sync with mine, the way he clings to me like his very existence is on the line if we part. It paints this as my reality. The dream I craved and never expected.“Are you okay?” He murmurs against my lips, his cheek brushing over mine as he pants and drags his nose along my jawline. My body shivers involuntarily as my eyes close, relishing every second.“Yes,” I murmur.Rocky leans back on his knees, his eye drinking in every bit of my exposed body. I’m too entranced with his rippling abs to be concerned or embarrassed enough to be shy.I have seen Rocky nude. I have seen him topless on more occasions that I can count. And yes, I have always checked him out at every opportunity, but there is something different when he
*Rocky*“Alpha,” Bridger says, coming up from behind me. My eyes close tight, hating that he is taking away from my time with Gemini. I know I haven’t been around my best friend in ten years. And I also know he has been the acting alpha internally for that entire time and he finally gets a reprieve. But I finally have my mate.“Yes?” I sigh, sitting back in my seat in disappointment, setting my fork down and looking mournfully at Gemini. “The alphas who joined with Jude are rather eager to speak with you now that you are awake and doing better.” He says. “Right,” I mutter, dragging a hand through my hair and wincing at the movement. I may be better than I was, but I am most definitely not fully functioning yet. But being the Alpha King means dealing with it and doing what must be done. “Are you in pain?” Gemini asks, not missing a thing and I give her a soft smile before realizing that she didn’t take my pain. I wasn’t thinking to mask it or try to hide it since it came on so quickl
The fridge is stocked full of every kind of food I could ever dream of, which for a cut off pack is a feat in itself. My stomach growls, anything and everything making my mouth water until I see the steak and I can’t help but smile. It reminds me of the first time Rocky made me something to eat.“There are some raw veggies you can eat,” Jude offers and I shake my head. A sense of excitement settling in my chest. “No, I want to cook something.” I say, grinning. “Uh, for yourself?” He asks warily and I scoff, feigning hurt feelings.“What are you insinuating, brother, who I raised from the time he was a little child?” I lay it on thick as he laughs. “You make food well enough to stay alive, so thank you for that. But that is the nicest thing I can say.” He says.“Butthead.” I mutter, pulling out the steak and searching for some vegetables. “Oh, what would you like to eat?” An older woman asks, rushing into the large kitchen with a gentle smile on her face. “I can make anything you w
*Gemini*“It feels like my chest is going to implode,” Rocky says, his hand clutching his chest as he grows more coherent by the second.My hands shake as I reach out and touch him, selfishly relishing every little spark that dances across my fingertips. It is very apparent to me what is happening, but I doubt he has ever experienced anything like this before. “You just need to breathe. Focus on inhaling and exhaling.” I tell him, inching closer on my knees. “Look at me, okay? I am right here and we are both alive. We are both safe.”He meets my gaze, his eyes filled with terror and panic as he slowly comes back to me. After a moment, he nods, reaching out to take my hand in his as he presses it to his lips. Then he slumps back onto his butt, his back against the bed as he tugs me along with him. My eyes grow wide in surprise as he pulls me into his lap, holding me in his arms like he has done so many times in the past, cradling me like I am the one who needs it, not him.I don’t arg