Sprinting to the kitchens, I saw that some of the security detail had gotten there before us. The last of their ranks disappeared around the doorway. As I rounded the corner, I prayed with everything inside me that everyone was okay. That Amara was still here, still safe. Jolting to a stop, it took only seconds to take in the carnage. But as my brain registered what had happened, my heart almost exploded out of my chest when I couldn't find Amara immediately.Willow had the man's hands spread wide on the butcher block counter. Blades buried to their hilts in each palm. Blood splattered her face and clothes. Her lips were pulled back as her growling breaths panted so hard they disturbed the flour on the counter. Jessa was curled around Carys in the corner. Her face sheet white and horror etched into her pretty features. Tears tracked down her cheeks as she shook her head over and over. "Amara. Amara. Amara. Amara." With a shaking finger, she pointed towards the kitchen island.
With his hands still pierced and immobile, I got a stool and perched on it so I could look down into my great uncle's face. The last few months had been hard on him. Harder than I thought, judging by the appearance of new lines and broken blood vessels around his nose. "What brings you by, Uncle?" I asked softly. He glared at me. "You should have come home a long time ago, Shadow. You know what you make me do when you disobey direct commands."I smiled. "Yes. I do know. But I think my letter to you should have been quite self-explanatory. I made my plans and my desires no secret."I felt Massi stiffen next to me. Going over everything in my head, I realized I probably hadn't told him about the note I'd left this human stain. As soon as Hugo was dead, I would tell Massi all about it. Hugo sneered. "You've left notes before. How was I to know this one was the time you actually meant to leave?""Probably because it was accompanied by the head of your security lead as the pa
I wasn't really surprised when Rafe stuck his head around the corner. How he always managed to show up at the end of things was either an incredible talent or just sucky timing. Either way, he was here. I tapped my nose to Eden's. Pulled back so I could sign to her. Asked her to interpret for me. She nodded. "Rafe, Massi has something he wants to say to you."Rafe stopped in his tracks, wiped all emotion from his face. He nodded. Eden looked back at me. Her eyebrows up in expectation. "Kitchen, clean it."Eden's lips twitched as she repeated my words. The trill of suppressed laughter was a balm to my aching soul. She was the best woman in the world. And she was all mine. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Rafe's hands twitch before he clenched them into fists. Behind him, the room filled with the rest of our family. Probably coming to see what all the fuss was about. As Jessa came in behind Rafe, Carys no longer in her arms, I saw the tears on her face. "I'm so so
I pulled the knife from Rafe's chest. Stuffed a wad of towels into his wound. Slapped his face. Maybe a little harder than I should have, but he'd just made me kill him in front of his loved ones. "Wake up, you little shit. I know you're not dead." Yet. His eyelids twitched before he opened his eyes fully. "Wh-wha-"I shoved a clean towel into his mouth. "I just killed you. In front of your family. For them. Not for you. But I now own your ass. Your life is mine to do with as I please. And despite your death wish, now isn't your time to die."He worked up a weak glare. I smiled down at him. "You're going to leave. Go get yourself fixed up. I'll send you a text message. Meet me at the address I list. If you miss the appointment, I'll tear your life into so many pieces you'll never put it back together. And if you think to disobey me so I'll kill you, I'll make sure you stay alive forever. You don't get to waltz around here like the spoiled little brat you are anymore. You don'
Stunned silence was thick enough I could hardly breathe. It felt like a herd of buffalo were sitting on my chest, squeezing my heart and lungs into stillness. Under the heavy weight, I could feel the barest sigh of relief. It was peppered through the room, coming from different people. But it was there. And it was slowly growing. Willow came over, wrapped me in her arms. "I'm so sorry, babe."I cuddled her back. For every tear that fell on my shoulder, I put another tally mark in the sins list of Rafe's life. He had a lot to answer for. The least of which was hurting these people. Soon, the entire Amatucci family surrounded me. There was no ill will. No recriminations. My kill had been clean in their eyes. They grieved for the man they loved as their son. The man he should have been. The man he could have been. Momma cleared her throat from the back of the pack. "From all accounts, Rafe had raised a gun against his sister, Eden." Her voice cracked. She shook her head as b
A week laterWe all stood around in mission ops. Waited for Papa to finish the eulogy for Rafe. A conflicting mass of feelings swamped me, just as they had over the past seven days. I felt like I was still trying to just tread water, to keep my head above the surface of everything. Eden and Amara were the only bright points in my life at the moment. Every single moment I was awake, I was with them. Holding them. Loving them. Cherishing them. They would know, beyond any shadow of doubt, that they were loved. Amara squirmed in Eden's arms. Gave a pouty sigh. "Fi'shed?" She looked up at me with hope in her eyes. She made the sign in the air as she asked.Eden kissed her nose. "Almost, Monkey. Almost."Amara nodded. Stuffing her fingers in Eden's hair, she twirled them around a long lock of pure black. Laying her head on Eden's shoulder, she closed her eyes. "And so we gather here today to pray for the peace and mercy of our Heavenly Father. Please accept Rafe into your grac
Shoving my phone back into my bra, I walked back into the ballroom. Apparently the kitchen staff had been prepared for Nik's rushed nuptials. The room was decked out and was almost dreamy. Massi walked up to me, Amara in his arms. "Feel better?" he asked softly. His voice was back after an entire week of resting it. I nodded. "Much." He held out his hand, pulled me into his arms with him and Amara. He tapped Amara's nose, tilted his head at me. Amara's shoulder drifted up to her ears. A huge smile on her face. "Wiet!" she yelled in the mostly calm room. "Daddy has westions!"Massi chuckled. He dropped to one knee, Amara perched on it. They both looked up at me. Massi tapped Amara's shoulder. "Mama, will you marry us?" she asked. Massi looked up at me, his heart in his eyes. Tears flooded my eyes as I nodded. "Of course, Monkey." I leaned down, gave her kisses. Then I switched my kisses to her daddy. Sandwiched between us, she giggled and slapped at our faces. "Ki
Six months laterI stood in the dark. Alone. Just like I preferred it. Not even the moon was out tonight to betray me. I watched them going about their lives. Saw that the agony and grief hadn't lasted long. Oh well. Nothing lasted long in this life. Sweden was beautiful this time of year. But the hard push of winter was making her appearance. But just like everything else, it would sweep in and demand her notice. Then fade off into the creeping clutches of Spring.Nothing lasted. A noise beside me had me sinking back into the shadows. I knew it couldn't be a security guard. I wasn't stupid enough to have been seen or even noticed. And those lardbutts couldn't be bothered to search the roof when it was accessible by stairs only.From the darkness, I watched as a man crouched near the ledge of the roof. Rolled my eyes at his attempts to be sneaky. What the hell was this world coming to? Did the idiot just decide to wake up this morning and say, "You know what? Be
I crept along the rooftop. The target was staying in the long term suites across the road. It was our first night, and it felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders the farther we got from New Trenadie. The next moment, I crashed to the roof's floor. "Damn it." She snickered. "Still a sucky spy, Raphael." She slid her body over mine.I sucked in a breath. Nodded. Hell, I practically begged her for it. But without words. When she got that tone, my words were not necessary. She smiled. "I'm not going to beat you to death. Nor am I going to stuff you into a padded room." She bent down, flicked her tongue over my lips. "But I will tie you up, spank you, flog you, fuck you, and then make you do it all over again. My dick went to iron between her legs. Her laugh was husky. "I'm keeping you, Raphael. Do you understand me?"My heart settled. Skipped a beat. "Yes, Mistress."The end.
My phone dinged with a new incoming text message. Considering my phone had been going off since the wee hours of the morning with Willow and Ryker announcing the baby was finally coming, I was tempted to just shut it off. But it could be something important. And since Angelo and I were at home with the other babies, it fell to us to make sure we kept everything running as it should. I grabbed the phone. Unlocked the screen. A video message popped up. Raphael and his girl, Nia. Their heads mushed together to get into frame. "Momma, I have to leave. But I wanted to tell you I love you. And thank you for everything. I will let you know when I get back." Nia smiled. "I'll keep him safe, Momma. I swear it.""Bye, Momma," they said together before they ended the call.I smiled even as tears filled my eyes. Angelo looked up at me from his spot on the bed. He was restrained, a ball gag in his mouth. I held the crop up high. "Our last baby is finally happy, Angelo." I s
Two weeks later I glared at the woman on the table. "I still don't know why I have to be here. I barely know you."Willow snorted. "Because you're scarier than anyone else in my family. And I don't want those doctors trying to get all bitchyyyyyyyy." Another contraction hit her. She clamped down on my hand hard enough that I thought I was going to need surgery to remove the bones from each other. And this little firecracker had more strength inside her than her grip would show. Raphael had told me some of her story. She'd told me the rest of it. A ritual the Amatucci women apparently indulged in was something called Girls' Night. Really it was a bunch of drinking, talking about sex, and watching movies while we ate enough of Willow's confectionaries to give ourselves diabetes. Willow blew out a breath. "Ryker can't handle seeing me in this kind of pain, so he has to stay out in the lobby with the rest of them. You're second chair." She panted. Demanded some ice chips.
Three days laterWalking into my parents house when they didn't know I was alive was a risky thing. A multitude of crappy things could happen. Not the least of which was Momma killing me for real this time. Or Papa crying. Or either of them fainting."Go on," Nia said as she shoved me forward gently. "You're already here. Just go into the kitchen. Nik said she told them to wait for her in the kitchen."I nodded, felt my palms go clammy as my breath backed up in my lungs. This could go terribly wrong. So fucking horribly wrong. Man up, Si, that no longer too small voice said inside me. Since I'd been actively listening to it more, he wasn't so easy to shut up. Even when I wanted to. Thankfully, the nasty bitch who lived inside me was getting fainter. Although he could still throw a temper tantrum to beat a two year old. "I'm right here. And I'll be right here the whole time. They've waited long enough, Raphael." She nudged me again. Even as bile rushed up the back o
We all stood in the kitchen, guzzling water by the gallon. I hadn't been this dehydrated since the last time I got in trouble at Petter Manor. But at least this time it was due to happy tears and reunification. Raphael sat and watched it all. Just absorbed it. But he never got so far away I couldn't touch him. That I even needed to touch him still blew my mind. But I wasn't going to question it. He helped steady me when it felt like everything inside me and around me was bending and flexing too fast for me to catch up. "What are your plans for tomorrow?" Liam asked as he finished his third glass of water. "Tomorrow is the gala. I'm going to string Anders up-the guy who had you kidnapped again. I'm going to tell everyone the Petters have been blackmailing and abusing and paying off that the Petters are dead and gone. That they're all on watch." I studied Liam and Lilly. It blew my mind that they had gone into the government side of this dirty world. That they willingly put t
Nia came over to me while I was helping drag some bodies away. "Hey Raphael, can you come with me, please?"Foster grunted at me as we got the body up on the catering cart. "Go. I've got this." I nodded, turned back to Nia. "Sure, Nia." She took my hand and we walked from the room. Her hand was trembling in mine. It was only the slightest degree, but it might as well have registered on the seismic scale. "You good?" I asked her softly as we walked down a set of stairs. She said nothing, made no movements except to keep walking. I pulled her to a stop. Made her look at me. "Are you good?" I asked again. Her eyes were wide, as if she were trying to stave off the tears. "Amelie and Anton..." she blew out a breath. "They're t-""The only two people you love in this world." I smiled sadly. "I know, Nia."Her eyelids fluttered shut as a tear escaped down her cheek. Her breath was shaky as she exhaled. "I got them away from here. Put them in with a good woman with a hu
Day before the gala "Charlie team in position," the man's voice came through the little earbud I wore in my right ear. I kept a tight hold on my fear. My relief. My heart. All of the planning, all of the tears, all of the arguments. It all came down to this. "Delta team in position," Raphael said through my ear. "Foxtrot team in position," another voice said. I still wasn't quite sure who was who by their voice, but I'd done an okayish job of remembering names and faces. The fact that I had a team full of women with me made me like the Amatuccis even more. They didn't discriminate. If someone had the skill and the drive to join the security teams, they were given a position. "Estrogen team in position," I said. A series of clicks came through the earbud. I'd made a single joke about Echo team being full of vaginas. They called us the Estro team now. Since we were collectively badass, I didn't really care what they called us as long as it wasn't disrespectful. "A
Her babies? She had kids? I shook my head. Knew there had to be a different story, but I needed to get her back with me to learn it. I set her down on the chair. Pushed her head down between her knees. "Breathe, Nia." I made my voice hard. As hard as I dared when all I wanted to do was cuddle her up and carry her away. Nowhere was my fierce and strong Dominant. Right now, she was a broken, hurting woman. I would hold her together until she could find herself again. Ivan came rushing into the room, his gun drawn. He lifted it to the ceiling when he saw what was going on. One of his brows rose in question.I gave him a brief rundown of what I knew. Which was damn little. I shrugged when I was out of information to share. Mas came hopping in behind Ivan. He didn't have a weapon, but he did have concern etched on his face. "Who the hell are you?" a voice said from behind me. I whirled around, putting Nia behind my body as I faced the threat that shouldn't be there. A
After rushing through the shower and the delicious meal that Raphael put together for breakfast, I walked into the space Ivan and Klara had set up for me. Everything was as I left it, but that didn't mean a whole lot. Especially in a place I didn't control one hundred percent. Brushing the weird vibe away, I walked to the computer. Booted everything up. Once it was up and running, I went through my process of accessing my cloud accounts. Jasper had set some up for me that weren't the typical commercial kind. Luckily, I'd memorized the process, or I'd be up a creek with zero paddle at the moment. A ReadMe file was highlighted when I got all the way into my account. I right clicked, read through the metadata how Jasper showed me. Recognizing his signature, I opened the file. Ms. Flower~I've attached all of the information I could find re Cucumber Butt and Pretty Mean. You'll find them in the associated files.I snickered at Jasper's sense of humor. That kid was a genius and