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84. Still Married
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2022-03-12 01:27:34A week later at my office, Derek and Laila are sitting with me on my desk to discuss the progress of Hobsons's assignment. Almost half of the work is finished and approved by Watson.
"The content is ready." Derek pronounces, looking at me.
"That's cool. It means the most difficult task is completed." I muse, nodding my head.
"Here is the list of all those companies who'll be interested in Hobson's gadget." Laila places the plastic file on my table.
I'm about to grab that file, when I feel my phone begins vibrating in my jeans' pocket. I pull it out and see Ashar is calling. I exasperate, cut the call and put it back in my pocket.
Since past week, I have been avoiding his calls. He tries to talk to me, but I shut him up through warnings and fury.
I can't bear him anymore after his confessions. He can't just do as he pleases. First he annoys me to the highest level then expects me to go easy on him by listening to his mere sorrys.
"Let'
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