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75. The Collection of Memories
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2022-03-09 01:42:28Just before the sunset, I go to the day care center to pick up my daughter. By staying near to Zoya, I get to forget about Ashar problem and every other problem of my problematic life. However, that little kid reminds of my sin a lot more than before. I wonder how my parents would've survived after leaving me alone. Did they feel the same way like me? If yes, then they surely didn't have an easy life.
I stop walking when I notice Ashar is standing at the front gate of the daycare with a yellow patterned paper bag in his hand. My mood is once again ruined.
The corners of his lips curve upward into a smile as he looks at me. My nostrils flare. I don't know why he is keep showing me his puppy like smile. My heart flutters in a way I don't want to think about.
He walks towards me. I stand straight and wait for him to explain his reasons of coming here.
"I thought it would be difficult for you to take care of her. But you're doing good." He again gives m
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