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Always is not Forever 53. The One Where I Tell The Truth
We retreated out of my room, jogged downstairs and halted at the sight of her father sitting in the hall. His sharp gaze cut to me and I stumbled back a bit.He scared me.But he didn't bear the hard look, but a tired. "Is she okay?" He asked me."I don't know," I replied. "I was going to check on her.""You both remain with her," Mom told me and Nisha. "Inform when she wakes up. She needs to eat."I nodded, withdrew to my parent's room, but as soon as I was inside, I caught Nisha's hand and whispered, "Take care of her. I will be back.""You're snooping on them?""Obvio. I need to know why she was crying in the first place." Rolling my eyes, I gave the last stare to Alina and left the room to hide behind the wall and listen to their talks."What you did was wrong," Dad whispered yelled at her dad. "Who deny their daughter in front of others? No surprise she was crying."What the fuck?"She only told us. I thought it was stressing her. I was trying to help her.""Nice help," Mom snorte
Last Updated : 2022-11-10Always is not Forever 54. The One Where I Delay The Inevitable
As we both vacated the room, I was met by the sight of Kabir, leaning the opposite wall and shaking his head at me. Coming forward, he placed the Nutella box in my hand, but then, he got it and screamed, "Get me a spoon!""Kabir.""Hush. Feel good that you're eating chocolate. Have you forgotten what had happened last time when you drove when you were crying? What's with you and accidents? I had told you thousand times to listen to another person before screaming at them, but no, I'm Alina, this is not in my nature." He opened the lid of the box, dipped the spoon, caught the scoop of it and presented it in front of me. "I hate chocolate.""I love it." Grinning, I buried the spoon in my mouth and melted the chocolate in my mouth. "Stop acting so angry." I stared back at dad. "I will come in ten minutes." He gave a stare to both of us, groaned and left us alone to talk."Stay five feets away from my daughter, Kabir," Dad shouted before disappearing into the hall."Should we tell him I've
Last Updated : 2022-11-11Always is not Forever 55. The One Where I Trust My Friend
Are you sure this is Rahul's address?I shot the message to Dhruv for the second time of the day.Yes. Why you need it?Nothing. Thank you.Switching my phone, I hopped off the car, pressed my sweaty palm on my jeans and took a deep breath.You came here for a reason, Alina, don't you dare back down. Only Rahul could help you with it.Gulping, I rang the bell of his house, waiting for him to open the door and confess everything to him. Kabir had assured me before that Rahul was trustworthy and he would try nothing other than some flirting that I need to get used to it. He did it with Nisha too much, and if she could handle it, I could handle it as well.What if he tried something? What if he tells Kabir before the task was even completed? What if he thought I was being absurd and shut the door at me?But Rahul wasn't rude to me. I wasn't Nisha."Who are you?" I snapped my gaze to a boy standing in front of me and frowned. It wasn't Rahul. He narrowed his eyes at me from behind his spec
Last Updated : 2022-11-12Always is not Forever 56. The One Where I Cry Out
"Kabir," I said in surprise as I entered my house. He was sitting on the armchair, drinking coffee. I had seen him last week in his house when I had turned mad and forgot what was happening to me, but it felt good being with him, felt relief when I talked to him, felt soothing to be in his arms whenever something bad happens to me.I was so in love.He stood up, placed the mug on the table. "Where were you?""What are you doing here?" I passed him the packet of Nachos but he waved his hand. His loss. Taking a piece, I chew it, wondering what my boyfriend was doing in my house."Nothing." He passed a look to Meena Auntie. I didn't know she was sitting there. "Just a bit chit chat. Isn't it, Auntie? I realized I never talked much with her. We were talking about you.""Me? What about me?""That how you nice you are," Kabir smiled. "And how much I'm in love with you that I'll do anything to protect you from bad people.""Is it?" I directed my question to Meena Auntie.She nodded tightly, p
Last Updated : 2022-11-13Always is not Forever 57. The One Where I Say Yes
Smiling at his gestures, I kissed him and caught his jaw in my palms. And like I had said, his hands didn't wander anywhere than the areas I told him. He listened to me. He always did. Grinning, I touched our forehead, panting before kissing him again and burying my fingers in his hair. What would I do without him? Who would be as considerate as him? Who would listen to me like he did? Who would love me the way he did? He was mine. I would kill him if he ever thought of leaving me after making me feel too much, after changing so much in me, after making me love him when I had stopped believing in it. "Rahul is right." Confused by his statement, I broke our kiss and sat on top of him. Panting, he bit his lower lip, his hazel eyes clouded and hair messed up because of my hands. "You've turned sexy. I never noticed it before but today you looked so irresistible." If our kissing didn't make me feel hot, his comment did. "Never leave doing yoga. It makes you so sexy." Laughing at hi
Last Updated : 2022-12-06Always is not Forever 58. The One Where We Make Each Other
"Open the laptop!" I shouted at Nisha, not caring her mother was standing behind me and tusking at Nisha's habit. It had been an hour since NEET result was declared, and this girl wasn't ready to open the laptop, too scared to see the zero score again.I didn't even know her roll no, neither she was telling any of us.For an hour, Kabir had been calling on her phone, but no, this girl wasn't ready to accept it."Nisha, see it." Her mother placed a hand on her shoulder. "I'm sure it will be good.""What if I fail?" She asked in a scared tone. "What if I get a too low score to have admission in a good college?""It'll be good. Trust your mom." Her mother settled on the opposite chair whilst I blinked my eyes. Mom wasn't this sweet. "Whatever it is, we'll go through it together. Your dad is calling me again and again.""He'll be disappointed, mom," She mumbled, staring at her laptop. "I promised him I will do better. What if get a too low score? How will I tell him? With so much difficult
Last Updated : 2022-12-26Always is not Forever 59. The One Where I Toast
"Ready?" Nisha wriggled her eyebrows behind. Chuckling, I shut the eyeshadow palette and turned to look at her. "I knew this black dress was a killer. And damn, your new room." She let her gaze wander around the new room of mine. It was the opposite of my old room, much more stylish, and the books of shelves were behind my bed, rather than being on the opposite.Kabir had argued what if an earthquake came and they fell on my head. The creative mind of his."Your dad has a good taste," She commented.Bending down, I caught hold of my wedges and tied them to my feet. "Thanks for helping with makeup.""Never mind." She waved her hand in the air. "I love dolling you up. You say nothing while I do it. Apart from my brother warning me to not cake your face.""What?"She giggled. "When I was leaving, he warned me if I caked your face with makeup, he will steal my canvases. He loves his natural bookworm too much.""Oh." Too warm. Too hot."What natural things are you both doing?" She smirked.
Last Updated : 2022-12-26Always is not Forever 60. The One Where I Burst Out
"Nice dress." My smile froze on my face as I stared at her from the mirror. "From where you got it? Maybe I can go there?""Zara."She clicked her tongue. "Too costly for me." She chuckled, and stood next to me. "Was it costly for you? Of course, it wouldn't be.""You can ask Dhruv. He'll get you one, but why buy?" I faced her with a mocking expression. "His mother is a fashion designer. Her clothing is trendy."To my surprise, she laughed and nodded, "I have a share of them. My boyfriend loves showering me with gifts. Dhruv was wrong. You have a fire in you. An angry fire. But anyone would have it after that thing.""What thing?" I asked quietly, nails digging into my wrist.She gave me an innocent look. "Your past? Have you forgotten with Kabir? And damn, he's so delicious." She took her lipstick out, applying it to her lips. "What does he like? He works out, isn't it? Why is he with you?" She passed a disgusting look at my arms. "He must be crazy. No matter how handsome he is, he's
Last Updated : 2022-12-26
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Always is not Forever 120. The One Where He Proposes
Rubbing my neck with the hand, I felt his presence on my back. "What is he doing here?"I turned to face him. "Kabir--""Alina, no." He cornered me, caging between his body by placing both of his hands on the counter table. "It's ten at the night.""He came. I couldn't say him to leave.""Or you could have said it's not ideal for him to come," He shot back, straining lines visible on his forehead. "You looked uncomfortable. Did he say something?"Nothing just confessed it to me and I had no idea why he thought he loved me when he knew nothing about me except the things I shared in the support group when he had no idea how needy I was, how I seek for attention."No," I whispered. "You got late.""Work." Pranit voice from the hall echoed in the kitchen and Kabir's eyes darkened. "I hate him. When I see him, I see how you said you loved him." But it was a lie. I was trying to hurt you, make you see how you leaving had impacted me. "I know you both have same past," He dragged a shaky brea
Always is not Forever 119. The One Where I Reject Him
"Come again?" Dr. Sha asked, her hands flying from right to left, hitting the ping pong ball with the red colored bat.Hitting with my bat, I tried to dodge her attempts to make me lose a point. "Why are we playing ping pong?""Don't you get bored staying in a room?""Kind of."But this wasn't what I had expected when she called for an outside meeting instead in her building's cabin. I had thought a café maybe, or someplace quiet but she had surprised by calling me to a club and assured nobody would come in this room."Your dad was ready to allow it.""His friend owns the club," I mumbled dryly, the sound of the hitting echoing in the four walls."And he loves you," She pointed out, smashing the ball and before I could hit, it flew from my side. "And you lost a point.""Funny," Grumbling, I walked to one of the corners, picked the ball and started the game again. The sweat had started forming on the forehead, my grip on the handle of the bat was losing, my wrists were aching. What was
Always is not Forever 118. The One Where I Face It At Last
Yawning, I closed my books and stretched my legs. Getting up from the bed, I walked out of the room to find something to eat. Switching on the lights, I found a note stuck to the refrigerator.Food is in the microwave. You were sleeping. Must be hard practice 😝 Ps. Heat and eat.Chuckling at her handmade emoji, I crumbled the note and threw it in the dustbin before opening the microwave and found the plate in it. She never forgot about me. Twitching my lips, I brought the plate out and grabbed a spoon.Cold food was better than hot food and she wouldn't understand that.She wouldn't understand why I had gone straight to the bed after coming back from college, she wouldn't understand how much it was killing to know that how deep secrets we both were holding.Before I could take a spoon, the kitchen walls were invaded by the screams.Alina.Dropping the spoon, I sprinted to her room, opened the gate and saw her struggling in her bed. She hadn't gotten any dreams since she had started s
Always is not Forever 117. The One Where He Knows
"I still think you shouldn't go," Kabir's voice brought me back to present.Shaking my head, I tried to remove the memory. It was before I had started imagining him as Rishi, it was before when we were happy and there used to nothing other than nightmares to trouble our relationship.Now we had to be careful. This careful was getting on my nerves."It's fine," I stated, changing the song on the stereo of the car."Here." He passed me his phone, connected it to the black aux cable. "Listen any you want."Taking his phone, I went through the songs, ignoring the EDMs he loved to hear and settled on something soft to not make him hyper."Now, Dhruv and you. You're traveling too much.""I'm not. He needs me. He's all alone, handling Ria." I curled on the seat. "She's too small. She needs to see people love her despite her father leaving for jobs. And Dhruv deserves a break.""I get you're worried. We all are." He dabbed his palm on the horn. "But look at yourself. You're squeezing your sch
Always is not Forever 116. The One Where I Miss
[ A L I N A ' S P O V ]Gripping the pen tightly, I wrote down the explanation of the sonnet, completing the work that had been due last night. I blamed it on my over-worrying boyfriend who couldn't keep his mouth shut on why I was traveling this much. From past two months, I had been pacing back and forth between Bangalore and Delhi every weekend.He was getting angry.And I was getting pissed.Sighing, I placed the pen between the pages. Just two more lines, Alina and then you could go and shower to remove the aftermath of mediation and yoga."What you writing?" Hearing him, I levitated my head to stare at his face, but then, my gaze dropped to his chest.Where was his shirt? And why the hell wasn't I changing my gaze?Gulping, I paid attention to the white pages, overwritten by my hands. "Sonnet explanation. College work. You didn't go to GYM?""I'm taking a time off for a while," he answered, moving across the kitchen to grab a bowl for himself and picked the milk carton from m
Always is not Forever 115. The One Where Reality Is Out
***"You!" Shouting, I shut the door of her cabin. Jennifer looked up from the files. "In my cabin now."She raised her eyebrows in amusement and nodded. Who told her to tell lies to Alina? I got her teasing on me, I accepted it but feeding lies to her wasn't acceptable. I was an inch away from losing Alina again. Inch away to destroy all the progress we both had made after getting back together.Taking a deep breath, I entered my office and turned to face her. Yesterday, I had spent all my day to get new clothes before selling my old clothes and helping Alina with the packing.She was moving back with me. Good. I could see clearly how she was scared of me.Jennifer stepped in. "Now that's the Kabir I know. Angry and dominating one."Rolling my eyes, I nodded my head to the money placed on the table. "You're leaving India in next twenty-four hours. This is your pay. You're no longer my assistant.""I answer to your father, not to you." She crossed her arms over her chest. "He sent me.
Always is not Forever 114. The One Where The Past Begins
Staring ahead at the scene, I smiled and tapped my fingers on her arm. She turned with a smile and slipped her hand around my waist."I missed you.""You did?""Yup," She grinned. "Don't go again."Laughing lightly, I was about to reply when her figure disappeared from my arms and all I could see was the face of her house perched in front of me. What was I doing here? I was in our apartment, meeting her after a long time.A hand tugged on my shirt. Peering down, I stared at the girl."Kabir, save me." Confused by her statement, I wondered what she was talking about me. "Save me, Kabir," She cried, thumping her hand on my chest. "You promised you'll save me. Save me now."She took a run inside the house. Frowning a bit, I followed her inside, took the flight of stairs and entered the room I hadn't been into for past three years.Wasn't it burned? Wasn't it locked?My feet thumped on the old familiar room, looking for the small girl but, all I found was Alina standing at the corner, sta
Always is not Forever 113. The One Where We Solve
Presenting a smile, I stood up, took the clothes and strode to her bathroom. Shedding the rest of my clothes, I entered the shower and cleaned the disgusting things sticking to my body. When I checked for a shower gel and shampoo, I found the girly stuff and sighed. Looks like I would be smelling like her until the morning.As I was washing my hair, all the previous month we had spent together started biting my places. She was too distant from me. Her words seemed to be held and assessed carefully. Maybe moving in with me would change everything, maybe we would be different then, maybe we would back to our love life.But what about the insecurities? How would I solve them?"Kabir, are you done?" She knocked the door. "Was I too harsh? Is it not removing? Do you need my help?""Yes, it's not removing!" I shouted back, smirking. "Help me.""Tie a towel."Looking around the shower, I grabbed the towel from the upper shelve and tied it around my waist. "Done." My eyes remained glued to th
Always is not Forever 112. The One Where I Become A Joke
Alina's expression didn't change, her hands remained still at her side, her eyes narrowed at me."You're lying." Again, the same sentence. "She saw you without clothes.""I'm aware," I confessed. "Once she came in my penthouse. I was roaming in my briefs and she saw it." Seeing her expression, I added quickly, "I did yell at her for disturbing my privacy. I changed the code too. I didn't know she knew about it. She purchased the penthouse. I should've been aware.""But you kissed her." She clutched the arms of the chair tightly. And that was the reason I didn't want to tell her. "I can't stop imagining when you kissed her." She dragged a long, shaky breath before facing me, turmoil residing in her black eyes. "You wanted to forget me?" With reluctance, I nodded. "Was I that bad?""No, I just love you too much," I replied honestly. "Wouldn't you have done anything to forget me?""True." Standing on her toes, she trudged to my side, caught my face in her hands and inched it closer to he
