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Alpha's sinful mate 55. Good Morning
As I wake up, a certain soreness settles inside of my body once more. What last night seemed to have been sheer pleasure, has now turned into soreness and slight swelling. The sensation was not annoying, it was just a reminder of how hard to satiate he was. Talking about him… where was Killian? I toss and turn, but the bed is empty and a little cold. It means he had left the bed a while ago while I was still asleep. A strange emptiness takes hold of my stomach, making it turn and fill up with nothing but nausea. I push myself up and look around the room. He was not inside -“Killian?” I call out and a hint of panic surges through me.For a brief moment, I can only imagine that everything I had experienced for the past month has been nothing but a fever dream. Nausea rises to unbearable limits and I rush out of bed, to the bathroom. After a quick meeting with the toilet and after refreshing myself, I walk out a little drowsy, but with a peaceful mind at least. It was not a fever drea
Alpha's sinful mate 56. Vision
All I can hik about is the sad expression and slight drooping of her shoulders she didn’t mind containing as I left her behind. I knew what she was thinking : was this not our honeymoon? Why was I working right now? But there were things I could not share with her.And this was one of those things. How could I look that woman in the eyes and tell her I kill people for a living? How could I look at her and tell her I enjoy the chase -A cold shiver rushes down my spine as I think back at the softness of her. I dragged her into this world, like a selfish bastard. Have I ever been anything else but selfish?“Boss -” a voice pulls me back to reality and I suddenly realize I have been more than tense. Every muscle in my body ached right now and my knuckles were white from how harsh I have been gripping the damn whiskey glass. “Where here.” The man adds with a slight bow of his head and I feel my stomach turn.When did the time fly like this? With brows narrowed and a slight displeasure, I
Alpha's sinful mate 57. Berries
The sun is already sinking into the ocean and with it, sinks all my hope for not spending the night alone. I shift into my seat, the beanbag adjusting to my new position as I brush a hand over my stomach and belly and let out a low sigh. Despite the realization of it, I could not bring myself to feel very connected with the idea of being pregnant.Was there something wrong with me? I know women usually rejoice at this thought and they immediately start nesting. They can’t help it! While I… all I could think of was having him between my legs once more. Just as I think of Killian, my cheeks heat and the warmth spreads through my whole body, leaving me a little fidgety. As if I did not find the most comfortable spot just yet, so I shift a little more.My arm covers my eyes and I let out a low frustrated groan. There was no way I could ever get used to this kind of life! I knew no one around this place and the isolation did not help! The only people in reach were those two vipers that se
Alpha's sinful mate 58. Aching wounds
With slow strides, Killian starts closing the distance between us. There is a dark aura around him and the tension in his body is almost tangible. There is a spark of anger, almost madness dancing in his golden eyes and I swear there are reddish strikes I have never noticed before, taiting the gold of his eyes.My heart feels like it is about to run away from my chest and I suddenly feel like I am about to become the prey of a starving beast that had lost control over itself long ago and I have never noticed until now.A fear I have never been aware I have been cultivating all along, blooms and bursts into my chest, as the man nears me. There is intent to kill. I can feel it emanating for each pore of his body and I deeply wish I am wrong. A low rattle reverberates from his chest and I am certain this is no longer my husband. My so called mate. This is a wild beast, an intruder that had crawled under his skin and was now ready to tear me apart.I want to back away. I want to turn aro
Alpha's sinful mate 59. Flawless
The only light in the room is a bedside lamp on her side of the bed. I can’t tell for sure if she is upset or worried right now, but things were definitely off. She crawled into the bed, and tucked herself in.From the looks of it, she was asleep, so I walk inside the room slowly. A bathrobe wrapped around me tightly, and my hair was still damp. I did not feel at my greatest and nonetheless I knew I did not look too good either. It was like this sometimes… I make my way to the dresser and pull out a simple loose T-shirt and a pair of boxers and after dressing, I slip into the bed. Laying on my back and staring at the ceiling, I can hear her breathe slowly. There was a slight unevenness in her breath and I wasn’t sure if she had been crying or not. There was no way in hell I did not scare her earlier. Any sane person would have been still running away from me and I resent myself for not being able to stop myself from being nothing more than a dick tonight.Pain has settled into my bo
Alpha's sinful mate 60. Apology
Killian’s patience runs thin and I can feel him shift and uncomfortably move as I take my time to tend to his wound. I have never seen a wound like this and I can only assume this is a gun wound. Which was painfully abused to remove the bullet, with claws or a dull knife at best. My medical knowledge was little, but there was something left from the time I volunteered as a Red Cross helper.I can feel the way he grows bothered and hot under my lap, his erection growing steadily as he shifts. With his uninjured arm, he resides to touching me. Gentle stroke on my thigh , slipping slowly under the loose shorts of my pajamas. His fingers dare to seek the hem line of my underwear and I do my best to ignore him.To ignore my own botherness and uneasiness and need and longing and lust that only blooms when his fingers sneak under the hem of my underwear. I let out a sharp hiss and narrow my eyes on his figure, when he moves them further down, over the stubbles of my recently shaved privates
Alpha's sinful mate 61. Discovery
Suddenly, Killian’s body weight leans completely on top of me and I feel like I can barely breathe. He is muttering nonsense which I don't fully grasp and when I touch his cheek to try to push him away, it finally downs on me that something is not right.My heart skips a beat as I touch his forehead and I feel the fever that has somehow hit him all of a sudden. Or maybe it was there all along, but I was too busy thinking about his words in order to actually understand what was happening with him.“Killian!” I try to pull him back to me, but the man barely answers when I pat his cheek. My heart skips another beat and this time is a bit painful as I try to catch my breath again. He is extremely heavy and right now, almost completely unresponsive. With all my power, I crawl from underneath him and get out of bed. I bring him a cold compress and try to see if there was anything else at hand that could help me lower his fever.There was nothing inside the house that could help and I highl
Alpha's sinful mate 62. Confession
I find Killian sitting on the floor, his back leaned against the bed frame, a hand into his hair as he tries to put himself together before he pushes himself up once more. My heart sinks into the pits of my stomach, with confused emotions swimming all over.I felt fear when I looked at this man. His scars were battle scars. His body was trained to break people in half. He was a damn mountain of a man and I was nothing but a flower swept by the wind, somewhere at the base of this mountain who could crush me at any given moment. I felt fear, because somewhere deep inside I wanted him to be a good man. A good husband and perhaps, a good father too. I felt fear because he did not hesitate to snap indecent pictures of me when I was vulnerable. What did he want to do with them? Was he selling them? Was he planning to use them agaist me? Did he not have me trapped here already? What more could he possibly want!I felt fear, because no matter what or who he was, he was hurt and aching and pa
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Alpha's sinful mate 126. Happy birthday
Altair and Aaron. Two bright stars on the endless sky that life is and can be. Two perfect little angel who just happened to hit a bit of a road bump right before they were even welcomed into the world. Born a bit too small and frail to be allowed to fly, the two little angels have been confined to secure chambers that helped them grow and develop their flight wings.Or at least, until they were ready to be taken home.That day came way too late.I was growing insane walking these brightly lighted corridors, always watched by nurses, always told what to do, how to touch and how to not touch them. It took so long for me to be allowed to actually hold my children that I actually had a breakdown right in front of the maternity when I was told I had to wait a few more days. I still did not get to properly hold either of them, but seeing them, and getting to touch their little hands and feet was enough to keep me sane.Not to mention that the mating bond was burning like a bright fire insi
Alpha's sinful mate 125. Mate
Everything hurts. There is nothing in my body that is untouched by pain.I hear voices around me and I don't entirely care if they are nurses or people who think of themselves as being close to me, but I don't want to wake up yet. The pain is too much and my mind slips back into nothingness.***I think... I think it's later. I might have died. But the pain that still clings to my body is still sharp and very much present. The voices around have changed. And I can feel a warm touch that squeezes my hand. I can feel lips pressed against my knuckles. I can feel a soft breath brush against my skin.A rush of tingles wafts under my skin and makes me feel slightly more alive as it pools energy into my chest, making my heart flutter slightly. My eyes slowly open and I try to blink away the haze from my eyes.I try to remember what happened. I try to remember the last thing I remember, but my memory is too foggy right now.I was certain I was in a hospital. Have I given birth? Was I even ali
Alpha's sinful mate 124. Young Father
Dread takes hold of me, gripping my heart with an iron fist that makes my anxiety spike alongside fear and other things while I walked behind the nurse that didn't bother to give me too many details. Actually until we stopped in front of a glass wall, she didn't give me any details at all.She stops abruptly and turns to the glass wall, pointing in a rather vague direction inside the room."The twins have been born hours ago. Two prematurely born children who are not in great condition -" she tells me with a flat, emotionless voice before she looks up at me." they have a chance of survival, but we would not put our hopes too high into it. Better expect the worse and have a great surprise. " she tells and I feel like I want to strangle her.Was the the way one delivers news to a new father?My eyes drift from her figure to the glass wall, behind which I can see two small, incredibly small, pink and strange looking babies. Some of us are born with ears and tails, but my babies were so v
Alpha's sinful mate 123. The waiting room
I’m not entirely sure how or when, but one thing is sure. Demetri beats me to the hospital. By the time I made it there, the man was already filling in details about the patient he had just brought in, even if they already had all her files. They demanded to know what happened, and as this was a hospital for the likes of us and more, Demetri did not spare a detail. I find him covered in blood from chest down and I don’t have to ask to know it was not his. The feeling of guilt and incredible nausea wash over me with such force I feel like I am about to throw up as soon as Demetri’s gaze moes and meets mine. I can feel the judgment behind those green eyes.I could feel the fingers he mentally pointed at me in an accusatory way. Demetri yearned for a mate and he could simply not understand how does a mated wolf get in this situation? How does a mated wolf treat his mate in order to have her risk everything in the Moonfire Eclipse unbinding ceremony?I make my way towards him and fall i
Alpha's sinful mate 122. Lost and Found
The chants that ring and echo through the forest barely reach my ears anymore. There is a magic buzzing in the air that surrounds my body, that makes my skin prickle and turn to goosebumps as if it was tickling me. It could feel a mild tingle under my skin, but in the beginning everything seemed fine.It seemed....It was not long after when the contractions started. At first, they were dull and faint, making just some of my abdominal muscles spasm and contract. And of course, I thought this was just because of my anxiety. But they have become a bit harsher, a bit more insistent.It didn't matter... Nothing mattered now. I had to focus on Killian. I had to focus on me... I had to focus on my wish.A low grunt humms along with the strange chanting of thw witch who doesn't seem to pick on my discomfort. My arms wrap around my belly, my hands going underneath it and above it, Stroking it slowly, trying to soothe the strange contractions. I have read about them. Any pregnant woman does.F
Alpha's sinful mate 121. Clearing in the woods
As I get in the car, I get even more uneasy and anxious. Something was off and I am not sure if it was just the fact that the moon was completely covered by clouds and it felt as if nothing was alive, or if it was just a sense of anxiety because I was so damn close to fulfilling my wish.Nevertheless, it did not matter! I was very firm on my decision. Nothing could make me change my mind now! I needed this! Thalia gets in the car with me and I barely get to settle down before she drives off like a damn maniac, making my heart skip a beat.“Where exactly are we going?” I ask half heartedly. Maybe this was a good question to ask before I had climbed in the car…She looks at me for a brief second before looking ahead on the road. A car passes by us and I feel myself grow smaller in my seat. That must be Demetri’s car. Nonetheless, it seems that he doesn't actually notice us, because he drives past without a damn sign he will stop.Why does part of me wish he would…“It’s a bit of a more
Alpha's sinful mate 120. Guarded
I didn’t even know what to say. I had already made up my mind about it. I have even come in contact with the right person to perform the ceremony. I could not wait another hundred years for the Moonfire Eclipse to happen again. I did not want to live my life short and meaningless.. I did not want to die waiting hoping to feel what I want to feel, craving and longing for it the way I am doing now. But it seemed like Killian was very adamant about his decision. He would not support me in this /madness/ as so many called it. It slowly started to set in for me. That I did not ask for the proper support. That this was not something I should rely on others to support me through.I slowly look away from him and I feel his eyes move to me now. His breathing was shallow and uneven and I could tell he was fighting back his tears. It did not feel right to put more pressure on him though, so I leaned into him again and remained silent.The man let out a long sigh, his nose burying into my hair,
Alpha's sinful mate 119. Sly fox
Killian runs out of the room like a whole damn storm, leaving nothing but splinters, broken things and pain. It was not as if it did not already hurt, but the turned back, the absolute betrayal I feel coming from him digs deep into my chest, pain pooling within my wounded heart.It was something to be expected, wasn’t it? Men were usually like that weren’t they? It was as it every and each one of them was a carbon copy of the previous one and so on and so forth. Our kind has seen them come and go, all as heartless as they made them. It was no surprise that he was just another brick in the wall- or at least that’s what I kept telling myself as I am once more in this god forsaken room I was slowly growing to hate.As my whole being shakes with my crying, the twins in my belly start getting fussy and agitated, kicking and moving tirelessly around as if they were on a damn dancefloor. It hurt, but it did not compare to the pain that was crashing over me in waves, as the sea crashed again
Alpha's sinful mate 118. Broken
Her brows are narrowed and her eyes are dark and her attitude unmoving. She seemed to have made up her mind without even asking me first. As I turn to her again I find her staring at me as If I were the biggest baddest wolf there was in the woods.There was fear, tangled with anger and frustration, alongside guilt and sadness, and somehow, no matter how insane she just sounded, I could not just blow up right now. “You are pregnant -“ I start speaking, trying to find a logical way to reason with her.“Very observant of you!” She huffs and rolls her eyes, as she moves away from her spot on the window sill, to find a better spot to sit in.I follow her with my eyes, pinned in my spot in the middle of the room, trapped between rushing out of the door and lashing out at her to smack some sense into her.“Maddy.” I start, my voice low as I slowly saunter towards her, pinching the bridge of my nose with a low sigh escaping my lips. “The Moonfire Eclipse ceremony is a dangerous thing to do!”
