I feel like a masochist. I feel that I am nothing but an insane man. Every single moment spent around her makes me want to rip my own clothes. Her scent is maddening. And I could do nothing but enjoy the pain, allow it to seer through my soul. I can't stand it much longer and I need some distance between us. So I hide behind the only door at hand. I allow thoughts to consume me while warmth spreads like venom under my skin and before I know it, tiredness consumes me, giving me nothing but dreams in return. As I wake though, she's here. I could easily reach and grab her. But that masochistic wolf did not allow such things to happen. In what felt like a dance, I find myself in front of her, half naked, with my cock buried into her mouth. I was not what I had planned, but to see her like this was a treat. A delicious one. Her plump lips wrapped around me, her warm tongue stroking me, her little hand gripping the base of my cock making up for her little mouth,while the other gripped the
I think I married a monster. This man does not give me a break. He does not allow me to catch my breath and by the time he is close to satiate his own hunger, I can't even feel my legs. Wave after wave of pleasure has crashed over me again and again. It was hard to think coherently right now and I didn't know if I could even talk coherently right now. I don't think there is anyone out there with this kind of stamina and burning lust, but right now, what he gave me before we married is not even close to tonight. A beast. A monster focused on pleasure and pleasuring, who forgot limits, who forgot there was a world out there who might hear us. When he's done with me I am laying on my side, with a mess of a mind, while he lays on his back, a barely tired smirk drawn on his face, small beads of sweat shimmering on his whole body, making him look as if he was out of this world. The scars on his body were leaving gentle shades on what could have been a perfect skin and I feel drawn to one
A moonless night welcomes me as I wake up once more. Everything is bathed in darkness and I’m not entirely sure If I woke up or if this was part of some strange dream. Nonetheless, I push myself up on the edge of the bed and take a few moments to myself to understand what is going on. There are bird sounds in the distance. I what the crashing of the waves not too far from where I was and it now settles for me that this was not a dream. I remember coming here with Killian. A honeymoon for our arranged marriage. Honeymoons were usually reserved for lovers. For people who could not get enough of each other.For people who could not stand to be too far apart from their significant other. So, where was my husband?My eyes adjust to the darkness of the room and I look around before opening the canopy curtains of the bed and walking away from the bed. The floor was cold and to my surprise, the room was bathed in a humid cold too. Was it not supposed to be a warm and sweaty kind of weather?
I scavenge the house for a working phone, but the storm has cut off all signal and there is nothing much that a phone can do right now. So, after my nausea settles down and I get to finish my weird sandwich, I settle down into one of the bean bags. They were comfortable. Immense in size and I could easily sleep and maybe even snuggle on one of these.As I curl up on one of them and my mind comes to a peaceful stop while the storm rages, I can finally feel like I am able to think straight and even breathe a little better. This whole place was amazing, but something felt off. There were little things around that made me think this was not just a simple resort. This was a little more than that, and Killian left this out when he told me where we were.There were plenty of clothes that belonged to him for all seasons. I found suits and ties, I found sandals and shoes fit for a wedding, I found trinkets one would keep only if this place belonged exclusively to themselves. I stopped searchin
I have no idea how I could have been such a big fool! How could I have missed it?! Something like this should not go unnoticed! Not when you claim you are mates. I should not have been this harsh and jump into conclusions - A fool! A gigantic fool. The change in scent was not because she laid with another man! The change in her scent was not because she was fighting me constantly!The ripe fruit smell that her skin radiated and filled this whole place with was a fruit of our late night dates. I have no idea how it happened. Or when it happened. It was a bit soon, but -“Madelaine -” I call after her and I find myself following like a damn fool. I run upstairs and find her crouched by the toilet, spilling whatever little breakfast she had. When I show up, she immediately flushes and closes the toilet seat, not allowing me to see. Did she think I’m that easy to gross out?“What ?” she hisses through gritted teeth as she pushes herself and walks to the sink to wash her mouth and get rid
I have no idea if this man is really the man I married as my husband or not. He is suddenly all gentle and caring, even if stern and still distant. His touch is steady but he does not manhandle me as he used to and I feel like someone has replaced him during the night. Even earlier, he seemed ready to snap and start another fight, but it all dimmed quite quickly. Was he truly worried or was he scheming something ? I’m not sure if it’s my intuition or my nausea, but I have a hard time trusting him. Nonetheless, I do agree to a quick checkup to the pack doctor, because I did not want to spend entire days feeling like this. I have already gotten too close with the toilet bowl and I wanted to break it here before it was too late.We walk together on the beach, and I almost forget that I’m upset, when his hand rests on my back and guides me around. We make it to the thick forest and it does not take longer than ten minutes to come to a lovely clearing in the exotic forest. Lovely houses a
"Leave me alone, Killian!" I hiss and look away from him bringing my knees on the bean bag and crossing my arms on my chest in a defensive. "You've already done enough -" I add with bitterness as I to Ce myself to look away.What was I doing? What was I DOING?! I was pushing him away over and over again, because I couldn't being myself to trust him. He lied. He lied from the very beginning, while everything that happened has been orchestrated, planned and schemed by none other but him! He asked for my hand in marriage without stepping forth, but pushing a paper in front of my father and having him forcefully sign in. He stalked me down and drugged me that night. I could not even be sure if the short haired man was not just another one of his men. One of the leeches that worked for him! Did he orchestrated that night too?Then all the late night meetings we had. He never said a thing, while I surely gave him the opportunity to do just that! He never even hinted of his real life, his re
Lips brush on top of mine and I suck in a sharp bretsh, trying my best not to give in to the temptation of kissing him. Of lunging forward and capturing his rough and bitten lips between mine. I wanted to taste his lips and tongue and I wanted to let him devour me as he knew to do best, but I had to control myself."Even if I understand, that doesn't mean I trust you, Killian." I answer and I can feel him smirk.His lips catch my bottom one and he tugs at it playfully before locking his mouth on top of mine and kissing me forcefully, ignoring my little pleas and struggles. The man took what he wanted, when he wanted and at some point I'd have to get used to it and make peace with myself. This man was a conqueror. He would not expect me to bend to his will without a fight, but he did not care much for my fight and struggle. He took what he thought belonged to him.Instead of pulling away, he deepens the kiss, tilting his head to the side, his tongue invading my Mouth and waging war aga
Altair and Aaron. Two bright stars on the endless sky that life is and can be. Two perfect little angel who just happened to hit a bit of a road bump right before they were even welcomed into the world. Born a bit too small and frail to be allowed to fly, the two little angels have been confined to secure chambers that helped them grow and develop their flight wings.Or at least, until they were ready to be taken home.That day came way too late.I was growing insane walking these brightly lighted corridors, always watched by nurses, always told what to do, how to touch and how to not touch them. It took so long for me to be allowed to actually hold my children that I actually had a breakdown right in front of the maternity when I was told I had to wait a few more days. I still did not get to properly hold either of them, but seeing them, and getting to touch their little hands and feet was enough to keep me sane.Not to mention that the mating bond was burning like a bright fire insi
Everything hurts. There is nothing in my body that is untouched by pain.I hear voices around me and I don't entirely care if they are nurses or people who think of themselves as being close to me, but I don't want to wake up yet. The pain is too much and my mind slips back into nothingness.***I think... I think it's later. I might have died. But the pain that still clings to my body is still sharp and very much present. The voices around have changed. And I can feel a warm touch that squeezes my hand. I can feel lips pressed against my knuckles. I can feel a soft breath brush against my skin.A rush of tingles wafts under my skin and makes me feel slightly more alive as it pools energy into my chest, making my heart flutter slightly. My eyes slowly open and I try to blink away the haze from my eyes.I try to remember what happened. I try to remember the last thing I remember, but my memory is too foggy right now.I was certain I was in a hospital. Have I given birth? Was I even ali
Dread takes hold of me, gripping my heart with an iron fist that makes my anxiety spike alongside fear and other things while I walked behind the nurse that didn't bother to give me too many details. Actually until we stopped in front of a glass wall, she didn't give me any details at all.She stops abruptly and turns to the glass wall, pointing in a rather vague direction inside the room."The twins have been born hours ago. Two prematurely born children who are not in great condition -" she tells me with a flat, emotionless voice before she looks up at me." they have a chance of survival, but we would not put our hopes too high into it. Better expect the worse and have a great surprise. " she tells and I feel like I want to strangle her.Was the the way one delivers news to a new father?My eyes drift from her figure to the glass wall, behind which I can see two small, incredibly small, pink and strange looking babies. Some of us are born with ears and tails, but my babies were so v
I’m not entirely sure how or when, but one thing is sure. Demetri beats me to the hospital. By the time I made it there, the man was already filling in details about the patient he had just brought in, even if they already had all her files. They demanded to know what happened, and as this was a hospital for the likes of us and more, Demetri did not spare a detail. I find him covered in blood from chest down and I don’t have to ask to know it was not his. The feeling of guilt and incredible nausea wash over me with such force I feel like I am about to throw up as soon as Demetri’s gaze moes and meets mine. I can feel the judgment behind those green eyes.I could feel the fingers he mentally pointed at me in an accusatory way. Demetri yearned for a mate and he could simply not understand how does a mated wolf get in this situation? How does a mated wolf treat his mate in order to have her risk everything in the Moonfire Eclipse unbinding ceremony?I make my way towards him and fall i
The chants that ring and echo through the forest barely reach my ears anymore. There is a magic buzzing in the air that surrounds my body, that makes my skin prickle and turn to goosebumps as if it was tickling me. It could feel a mild tingle under my skin, but in the beginning everything seemed fine.It seemed....It was not long after when the contractions started. At first, they were dull and faint, making just some of my abdominal muscles spasm and contract. And of course, I thought this was just because of my anxiety. But they have become a bit harsher, a bit more insistent.It didn't matter... Nothing mattered now. I had to focus on Killian. I had to focus on me... I had to focus on my wish.A low grunt humms along with the strange chanting of thw witch who doesn't seem to pick on my discomfort. My arms wrap around my belly, my hands going underneath it and above it, Stroking it slowly, trying to soothe the strange contractions. I have read about them. Any pregnant woman does.F
As I get in the car, I get even more uneasy and anxious. Something was off and I am not sure if it was just the fact that the moon was completely covered by clouds and it felt as if nothing was alive, or if it was just a sense of anxiety because I was so damn close to fulfilling my wish.Nevertheless, it did not matter! I was very firm on my decision. Nothing could make me change my mind now! I needed this! Thalia gets in the car with me and I barely get to settle down before she drives off like a damn maniac, making my heart skip a beat.“Where exactly are we going?” I ask half heartedly. Maybe this was a good question to ask before I had climbed in the car…She looks at me for a brief second before looking ahead on the road. A car passes by us and I feel myself grow smaller in my seat. That must be Demetri’s car. Nonetheless, it seems that he doesn't actually notice us, because he drives past without a damn sign he will stop.Why does part of me wish he would…“It’s a bit of a more
I didn’t even know what to say. I had already made up my mind about it. I have even come in contact with the right person to perform the ceremony. I could not wait another hundred years for the Moonfire Eclipse to happen again. I did not want to live my life short and meaningless.. I did not want to die waiting hoping to feel what I want to feel, craving and longing for it the way I am doing now. But it seemed like Killian was very adamant about his decision. He would not support me in this /madness/ as so many called it. It slowly started to set in for me. That I did not ask for the proper support. That this was not something I should rely on others to support me through.I slowly look away from him and I feel his eyes move to me now. His breathing was shallow and uneven and I could tell he was fighting back his tears. It did not feel right to put more pressure on him though, so I leaned into him again and remained silent.The man let out a long sigh, his nose burying into my hair,
Killian runs out of the room like a whole damn storm, leaving nothing but splinters, broken things and pain. It was not as if it did not already hurt, but the turned back, the absolute betrayal I feel coming from him digs deep into my chest, pain pooling within my wounded heart.It was something to be expected, wasn’t it? Men were usually like that weren’t they? It was as it every and each one of them was a carbon copy of the previous one and so on and so forth. Our kind has seen them come and go, all as heartless as they made them. It was no surprise that he was just another brick in the wall- or at least that’s what I kept telling myself as I am once more in this god forsaken room I was slowly growing to hate.As my whole being shakes with my crying, the twins in my belly start getting fussy and agitated, kicking and moving tirelessly around as if they were on a damn dancefloor. It hurt, but it did not compare to the pain that was crashing over me in waves, as the sea crashed again
Her brows are narrowed and her eyes are dark and her attitude unmoving. She seemed to have made up her mind without even asking me first. As I turn to her again I find her staring at me as If I were the biggest baddest wolf there was in the woods.There was fear, tangled with anger and frustration, alongside guilt and sadness, and somehow, no matter how insane she just sounded, I could not just blow up right now. “You are pregnant -“ I start speaking, trying to find a logical way to reason with her.“Very observant of you!” She huffs and rolls her eyes, as she moves away from her spot on the window sill, to find a better spot to sit in.I follow her with my eyes, pinned in my spot in the middle of the room, trapped between rushing out of the door and lashing out at her to smack some sense into her.“Maddy.” I start, my voice low as I slowly saunter towards her, pinching the bridge of my nose with a low sigh escaping my lips. “The Moonfire Eclipse ceremony is a dangerous thing to do!”