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Alpha's sinful mate 115. In the middle on the night
Silence fills the room in a heavy cloud that makes me feel a little uneasy. Killian is still kneeling by the couch, his hand on my belly. I feel odd. I’m not sure why. Maybe it’s because I know how much harm I have done to him, and how much pain he must have been through.I knew damn well I was nothing but a bitch for a whole entire month, while he had worked his ass off to finish remodeling this home for us. For me, for our babies, for us as a family. I knew all this and yet, I could not bring myself to genuinely apologize. It would not have been enough anyway, so why bother, right? Seeing him this patient, this calm in the middle of the storm, this gentle and genuinely entranced by the idea of being a father, made /her/ rethink quite a handful of things that were now a bit uncomfortable to think about./Trusting him could be a mistake…/ Trusting him could also be the besst thing we could do in this lifetime./His kind -/He can’t erase or delete from history what his kind has don
Alpha's sinful mate 116. Anger and frustration
It’s been long enough for things to have settled, but they haven’t. I can still tell she is not very comfortable around me. And I am not sure if it was me or the pregnancy that made her feel the need to put distance between us.I had hoped that once home, we would spend more time together, but Madelaine still finds ways to put the wall right back up as soon as she realizes she has been lowering her guard. From the fact that we were not even sharing the same room anymore, to that of going the extra mile and having her mother come to visit often enough that I had the feeling she was living here now too.The amount of anger and frustration I felt was not something I could put into words. My mate chose to stay away from me on purpose. What did I do wrong?! I needed answers!While Madelaine was down for a nap, Mellisa was reading in the little study room that Madelaine transformed into a little nest, crowded with books and various art supplies. I knock on the door and enter before I am tol
Alpha's sinful mate 117. The Eclipse
I swallow back the lump that rises and block my throat as I watch her stroll around the room. Somehow, she still seems half asleep and not so very present. She stops in front of one of the bigger canvases and stares at it blankly. There’s a bunch of peonies painted in a rather messy and a huge mess of colors that makes it a bit painful to look at. She is at an arm's length, but if I take one step forward, she is close enough that I could pull her towards me. Something tells me I shouldn’t do that though. She seems so different from the woman I met last autumn, while still being the exact same. It was a strange contradiction I did not understand yet.“If you have a problem with me, you should not go around my back and aim for my mother.” She speaks in a low voice , her eyes cutting to me. Her face is stern, cold and adamant like a sword ready to cut. “Our problems should be kept private, don’t you think?” She adds and her flat voice makes me uneasy.My brows narrow and as she turns
Alpha's sinful mate 118. Broken
Her brows are narrowed and her eyes are dark and her attitude unmoving. She seemed to have made up her mind without even asking me first. As I turn to her again I find her staring at me as If I were the biggest baddest wolf there was in the woods.There was fear, tangled with anger and frustration, alongside guilt and sadness, and somehow, no matter how insane she just sounded, I could not just blow up right now. “You are pregnant -“ I start speaking, trying to find a logical way to reason with her.“Very observant of you!” She huffs and rolls her eyes, as she moves away from her spot on the window sill, to find a better spot to sit in.I follow her with my eyes, pinned in my spot in the middle of the room, trapped between rushing out of the door and lashing out at her to smack some sense into her.“Maddy.” I start, my voice low as I slowly saunter towards her, pinching the bridge of my nose with a low sigh escaping my lips. “The Moonfire Eclipse ceremony is a dangerous thing to do!”
Alpha's sinful mate 119. Sly fox
Killian runs out of the room like a whole damn storm, leaving nothing but splinters, broken things and pain. It was not as if it did not already hurt, but the turned back, the absolute betrayal I feel coming from him digs deep into my chest, pain pooling within my wounded heart.It was something to be expected, wasn’t it? Men were usually like that weren’t they? It was as it every and each one of them was a carbon copy of the previous one and so on and so forth. Our kind has seen them come and go, all as heartless as they made them. It was no surprise that he was just another brick in the wall- or at least that’s what I kept telling myself as I am once more in this god forsaken room I was slowly growing to hate.As my whole being shakes with my crying, the twins in my belly start getting fussy and agitated, kicking and moving tirelessly around as if they were on a damn dancefloor. It hurt, but it did not compare to the pain that was crashing over me in waves, as the sea crashed again
Alpha's sinful mate 120. Guarded
I didn’t even know what to say. I had already made up my mind about it. I have even come in contact with the right person to perform the ceremony. I could not wait another hundred years for the Moonfire Eclipse to happen again. I did not want to live my life short and meaningless.. I did not want to die waiting hoping to feel what I want to feel, craving and longing for it the way I am doing now. But it seemed like Killian was very adamant about his decision. He would not support me in this /madness/ as so many called it. It slowly started to set in for me. That I did not ask for the proper support. That this was not something I should rely on others to support me through.I slowly look away from him and I feel his eyes move to me now. His breathing was shallow and uneven and I could tell he was fighting back his tears. It did not feel right to put more pressure on him though, so I leaned into him again and remained silent.The man let out a long sigh, his nose burying into my hair,
Alpha's sinful mate 121. Clearing in the woods
As I get in the car, I get even more uneasy and anxious. Something was off and I am not sure if it was just the fact that the moon was completely covered by clouds and it felt as if nothing was alive, or if it was just a sense of anxiety because I was so damn close to fulfilling my wish.Nevertheless, it did not matter! I was very firm on my decision. Nothing could make me change my mind now! I needed this! Thalia gets in the car with me and I barely get to settle down before she drives off like a damn maniac, making my heart skip a beat.“Where exactly are we going?” I ask half heartedly. Maybe this was a good question to ask before I had climbed in the car…She looks at me for a brief second before looking ahead on the road. A car passes by us and I feel myself grow smaller in my seat. That must be Demetri’s car. Nonetheless, it seems that he doesn't actually notice us, because he drives past without a damn sign he will stop.Why does part of me wish he would…“It’s a bit of a more
Alpha's sinful mate 122. Lost and Found
The chants that ring and echo through the forest barely reach my ears anymore. There is a magic buzzing in the air that surrounds my body, that makes my skin prickle and turn to goosebumps as if it was tickling me. It could feel a mild tingle under my skin, but in the beginning everything seemed fine.It seemed....It was not long after when the contractions started. At first, they were dull and faint, making just some of my abdominal muscles spasm and contract. And of course, I thought this was just because of my anxiety. But they have become a bit harsher, a bit more insistent.It didn't matter... Nothing mattered now. I had to focus on Killian. I had to focus on me... I had to focus on my wish.A low grunt humms along with the strange chanting of thw witch who doesn't seem to pick on my discomfort. My arms wrap around my belly, my hands going underneath it and above it, Stroking it slowly, trying to soothe the strange contractions. I have read about them. Any pregnant woman does.F
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