Chapter 18

ONYX'S POV;

    "Let's go to your room," Selah whines as she gets on top of me. 

    "But we're fine here." I say, slightly pushing her off me. 

    She gets off me in anger and glares at me. "Find where anyone can come in?"

    "I'm really not in the mood, Selah," Onyx said. He was shocked that he had actually said that. He had never not been in the mood with Selah and this was strange. He looked at her to see that she was already frowning and getting on her feet. 

    "I should leave, then," She says. 

    Grabbing her by the arm, I stop her from moving and she tries to be free from my hold to no avail. "You're not leaving."

    "Why?" Selah queried. "You won't even touch me and now, you don't want me to go either!"

    "Calm down, Selah. Sex isn't the only thing we should be having, should it? There are other things to do. Like have conversations, take a walk or even play games,"

    Selah is staring at me in confusion. "What are you saying? Conversations, walks, games?" She bursts into laughter and I know that's valid. The dynamic of our relationship never tilted to that. But now, I want it. Is it so hard to ask for?

    "Of course," I reply. "We can do it, can't we? It's not so hard."

    Selah shakes her head. "No, we can't. We can't do it. We can't start all these right now and you know that! You never talked about these things while we were seriously dating but now that you're married, you want it. Just say you don't want me anymore. I'd understand."

    I immediately stand to my feet, against my own will. "Selah, you know that's not true."

    "Then what's true? What's true? The love you don't have for me? Or how tired you are of me already?"

   "Selah, you know that's not true. I am not tired of you and never will be!"

    Whack!

    I didn't see that coming and when I look at her again, I am fuming with anger. 

    "You slapped me?"

    Selah burst into tears. "Something has changed. You no longer look at me like the way you used to. Your fond smile is not there. It's just filled with emptiness. Just like your words! You don't love me anymore. Spit it!"

    I suddenly start to feel restless. My neck feels itchy and I want to extract myself from this conversation with immediate effect. I can see how hurt she is and honestly, there's nothing I can do about it. 

    She doesn't seem to understand that I am married. The worst is being married to some filthy woman I don't love and it's draining to have to uphold the status quo to maintain my Alpha-ship. She doesn't get that I have to forfeit some of my most prized habits for the throne. She thinks I just want to do it. 

    Selah pulls the collar of my shirt. "Tell it to my face. Tell me you don't love me! Tell me you don't want to see me any longer!"

    "I'm sorry, Selah. It's not within my power." 

    She steps back and a sinister laugh escapes her throat. "Know what? You are still mine and I won't stop until we are back together for real. Even if it'll have to take me to get rid of anyone in my way!"

    She turns and begins to walk away and I immediately follow after her. What is she talking about?

    "Selah, don't do something crazy! You'll get hurt in the end!" I call out after her. 

    She turns and stares dead into my eyes. It's filled with rage and contempt. "You have no right to tell me what to do. Neither do you even have the right to care about my safety. So just get out of the way and let me do my thing!"

    Sighing, I nod and watch her exit the palace. She jumps into her car without even looking at me and drives out of the palace. 

    "She's not worth it, you know?" A voice says from behind me. It's my mother. "I'm glad you let her go,"

    Clenching my fist, I turn to her. "I never wanted to. And you know that. Why are you even doing this? Forcing me to stick with someone I detest. How cruel is that?"

    My mother smiles. "The cruel one between us both is you and you know that. Treating your mate lime trash. For Luna to make her your mate, do you think she's stupid!"

    "I don't think the moon goddess is stupid. I just think she is being unfair to me."

    "She is never unfair!" My mother grinds. "She does everything for a purpose and you're too blind to see it! Like your father said, only time will change things. Only time will tell."

    With those words, she turns to leave. 

    

    

    SELAH'S POV:

    As soon as I drive out of the gates, I swerve into a corner and kill my engine before placing my head on the stirring and bursting into tears. 

    Everything I ever wished for was to be by Onyx's side, as is Luna, well respected by all and the ability to get whatever I want for myself.

    But then that filthy rag who calls herself Hazel came into the book. In anger, I yell and hit the steering of my car and it honks a few times before I continue shedding tears. 

    But something in my head tells me that if I keep crying, nothing would be done. If I keep crying about not ending up with Onyx, my only key to a better life, nothing would change. So I raise my head and a look of determination coats my expression. 

    I need to do something about this and something must be really done. It might take some time or I might get caught but there's no harm in trying, no matter the risk.

    Right?

    Sitting back, I know I'll either have to wait till evening or come back. But I know how agitated I am. I'll just drive to get some food and come back to camp here and there while waiting for twilight.

    My father might not even let me go out once I step out of this place so it's best I stay put.

    So driving out, I go into the most popular restaurant here to get lunch before driving back and eating. 

    I sleep for a few hours and when the alarm I set wakes me up, I know it is time.

    After yawning and stretching, I sit back to think and strategize properly. The only thing I have to do is talk to one of the cooks. Bribe them and get the job rolling. It's not that hard, is it?

    So I climb out of my car, making sure to unlock it as I begin towards the palace gates. 

    I'll have to go through the front again and I just hope the guard I met this afternoon is standing there. 

    When I see him, a sigh of relief escapes my chest. My footsteps become more firm on the ground and more confident.

    "Hey," I say in a seductive tone. The guard turns to look at me with a smirk. I wish I could wipe it off with a slap but I know what I'm here for. 

    "Hey, beautiful. You're back again," He says and cranes his neck to see if I'm with my car. "Without your car,"

    I nod. "I just need to take something I forgot. I left my scarf in the palace and I need to get it,"

    "Remember what I told you about the Queen?"

    My hand finds his arm and I stroke it gently. He tenses up and closes his eyes. I know his weak spot.

    "I just need to get my scarf. I'll be out before anyone even realizes. Besides, Onyx has the right to say anything and not the Queen."

    "You'll have to sacrifice something to get in."

    I frown. What game is this man trying to play? Sacrifice what?

    The guard smiles and touches my cheek. I slap it off immediately, realizing what he's talking about. "I'll give you four grand if you let me in?"

    The guard sighs in disappointment. "I would have wanted something else but four grand isn't bad at all,"

    Slipping my hand into my pocket, I produce a wad of cash and slap it on his hand. "That's five grand. To keep shut if anything happens,"

    The guard shrugs. He doesn't seem to care. Going to the gates, he opens it up for me and I nearly bump into Heyli and another woman. 

    She's so creepy. The way she looks at me gives me the chill. Her friend is more open on how she feels about me. She's openly glaring and when I turn to see them standing with the guard who is smiling at Hazel's friend, I know I have been cheated.

    "Are you going to be free tonight for a couple of drinks?!"

    "Bastard."