Absolute loneliness surrounded me. The other kids wanted nothing to do with the crazy girl and even though I stopped my medication weeks ago Laila wouldn’t speak to me. I knew she was back I could feel her and even heard her mumbling to herself sometimes.
A few more months passed, and I counted down the days until I could leave. I held some small hope that life outside could be better. It had to be.One night like any other I got ready for bed, crossing out the number on my little note pad and writing the next. “Only 496 more days.” I said to myself.“Shut up weirdo!” Danielle shouted. Throwing her boot at me. Danielle is a legend, constantly breaking out and coming back with a new tattoo or piercing and wild stories to tell. I secretly think she likes getting caught just so she can come back and show off. Her short spiky hair and pointed jewelry fit her personality perfectly.The hard heal of her boot found its target smacking into my temple, my left eye swollen almost immediately. I tossed it off my bed and onto the floor.“Now fetch bitch.” Danielle said with a laugh. “Bring it here like a good girl.”I reach down grabbing the boot, fighting back tears and full of defeat when all of a sudden, I felt like I was pushed out of the way. Still standing, the boot still in my hand but I had no control of my body. I watched helplessly as I took four huge steps forward before swinging the boot and smashing it across Danielle’s face. A growl coming from deep in my chest. “You fetch bitch!” Laila’s voice came from my mouth before she spit at her. “Leave us alone!” Laila said before storming off into the communal bathroom.Standing at the sink cold water running over a washcloth I felt Laila move back and I could once again move my body. “What the hell was that?” I asked.“I don’t know, you were hurt and I’m so sick of her shit and I just grabbed the boot and went for it.” She replied.“So, you can just take over my body. Am I frickin possessed! Like being crazy and talking to myself isn’t bad enough.” I put the washcloth over my eye and temple. The cold felt good, and my eye already felt better.I was shocked when I took the washcloth off and leaned into the mirror to look at the damage. Running my fingers over my eyebrow down to my temple. My face was completely healed.“Did you do that?” I asked still rubbing my fingers over where the giant knot should be.“I think so. I just wanted to make it better and now it is, and now I’m really tired.” Laila let out a yawn before going silent.“Great you break Danielle’s face and leave me to deal with the backlash. Thanks.” I said sarcastically but she was already out.Walking back out all of Danielle’s friends were gathered around her. Her face bloody and swollen I couldn’t help but smile.“Stay away from me you freak.” Her words muffled by her swollen lip.Crawling into bed feeling quite content. “You stay away from me.” I finally replied before getting comfortable and falling asleep.Things were better after that. Still, no one but Laila talked to me but at least they stopped bullying me.Danielle aged out of the home and rumors of that day made everyone else steer clear of us.Laila and I grew closer, we came to an agreement. She wouldn’t take over my body without permission or unless I was in danger. Which she agreed to easily as she said it didn’t feel right being in control. Saying my skin felt cold and standing up was awkward.We fantasized about the day we would get to leave here. We would get a bus ticket and get as far away from here as we could. Start a new life where no one knows us, and we can blend in.Laila couldn’t wait to see mountains, rivers and lakes. Try to garden and cook. Her passion for life pulled me through when I had all but lost hope.A month before our birthday we had our last appointment with Dr. Tard. Our final assessment to make sure we aren’t a danger to ourselves or others as he put it.I couldn’t eat breakfast that morning. My stomach far too upset to hold anything down.“I can do this if you don’t want to.” Laila offered.“You really want to go in and deal with him? You can’t just hit him you know.” I laughed.“Do I want to, no! But for you I will. I can feel how nervous you are. You’re making me sick, and who says hitting him won’t work? Have you tried it yet?” She giggled in return.“Okay sure. It’s only the meeting that determines the rest of our lives so no pressure.” I said nervously.“In that case we definitely hit him.” She started making punching noises. “Grab that red tank top we got last summer.”“Oh no.” I groaned. “It doesn’t even fit, and the top two buttons are broken.”“I know, wink, wink!” She said in a seductive voice.“You’re a perv.”“And so is he, if the good doctor is distracted by your assets, he won't care what we say.”Laila had a point over the last year our body definitely changed. We’ve caught all the men here checking us out, but Dr. Tard constantly lurks.“It’s your show” I tell her.Putting on my black yoga pants and the red tank top I tried my hardest to get the top buttons to stay fastened. Looking in the mirror I had my doubts.“This doesn’t seem appropriate at all.” My nerves are shot, and I couldn’t hide it.“It doesn’t have to be appropriate; it just has to get us out of here.” She took over and marched straight to his office door.The door opened and Dr. Tard’s face appeared. If he wasn’t such a sleaze, he wouldn’t be bad looking. His chiseled jaw, messy black hair, masculine features and kind brown eyes a perfect mask for the foul man he actually is.I had figured out over the years that pretty young girls with behavior problems or daddy issues were more often than not recommended to the home so he could keep an eye on them.To my knowledge he had never tried anything, but I wouldn’t put it past him.The hairs on the back of my neck stood up just being around him. For once I was glad Laila was in control.“Amanda, what a pleasure…” he paused. Looking me up and down then licking the corner of his lips. “to see you.” He finished.“Gross!” I gagged.Laila and I had perfected talking to each other inside my mind. It made us seem less crazy, but a smile still came across her face.“Be quiet or I’m never going to pull this off.” She said back to me as she reached out and touched his arm.“Ugh I’m gonna be sick.” I co
First the sounds of birds chirping little melodies in my ear. Then the warm feeling of sunshine on my face. I inhaled deeply, the smell of exhaust fumes and hot tare snapping my eyes open.“Good you’re back. Being you is exhausting!” Laila quickly pulled back forcing me to take control before we fell face first into the sidewalk.“Unless you’re shoving my boobs in someone’s face then it’s fine.” I joked.“Listen, you have a top tier body and gorgeous face. I was just using the blessings bestowed upon us to our advantage.” She said with a flirty tone.“Seeing as we share the same body, I feel like you could be biased.” I rolled my eyes at her. “So, what happened?”“You passed out and I made a run for it. I was halfway to Mexico before I realized I forgot all our crap and had to turn back.” Laila’s tone was flat serious.“Really?”“Busted! I could never run that far with your weird body.” She said.“So is it top tier or is it weird. Make up your mind.” I laughed.“You passed out, not eve
I must have been a sight. The high ponytail I put in yesterday loose from being slept in. Wild strands of hair in my face. Wrinkled, mismatched clothes and shoes that had holes in them for weeks. The two black garbage bags containing half my belongings had been drug along the road, streaks of dirt and mud along the bottom. Not to mention my puffy tear filled eyes and defeated expression. If there is such a thing as biker Santa Claus I have no doubt it’s Tommy. Almost as wide as he is tall. Tattoos covering his arms and legs. Snow White hair perfectly matching his full but trimmed beard. A big round red face with a tiny button nose. Just looking at him made me feel better but when he opened his arms and pulled me into a big bear hug I broke down. I have no idea what I’m doing. The first 24 hours out of the home had been worse than anything I was prepared for. My tears soaking the front of his white cotton shirt. He wrapped one arm over my shoulders and with a tug pulled me the
The cabin is cozy and small, the door opens into the living room and kitchen. A three cushion couch with a wooden coffee table lining one wall and the kitchen on the other.A small two burner stove and sink left little counter space. Two tall narrow cabinets served as the pantry. Up the stairs a large space with two dressers and the bed. The loft overlooking the kitchen and the bed up against a window with a perfect view of the lake. Laila is ecstatic. “This is amazing! This whole space to ourselves. No five other girls in our room, no shared bathroom and no snoring.” She said excitedly.“Well I still have to deal with your snoring.” I joked. I had no sooner made it upstairs then a knock came at the door.Rushing down the stairs, pulling aside the little curtain and looking through the small window in the door. Tommy was outside holding a large tray covered in tin foil. I had completely forgotten he said he was going to make ribs. I quickly opened the door and tried to help him wit
Approaching the table I couldn’t hide that I was nervous. My hands sweating as I tried to force a smile that kept falling. “Good morning, what can I get, how can I help, Um what will it be.” I stuttered out every greeting I could think of at the same time. The younger man looked up and gave me a warm smile, while the older gentleman continued to look out the window. “We’ll have the usual.” The older man said with a humpf. “Being it’s my first day I don’t know what your usual is sir but if you tell me I’ll try my hardest to remember for next time.” I said trying to stay cheerful. The older man smacked his hand on the table and turned to look at me. “The usual, my usual.” He said defiantly. Trying to hold back the tears building in my eyes. CeCe came up from behind me. Placing her palms on the table she looked the older man dead in the eyes. “Listen here you contemptuous old jackass. You’re her first table, you better be god dam nice to her or I’ll tell Tommy to burn all your f
I couldn’t have been in the bathroom for more than sixty seconds when two women I had seen go into the bar came in. One was shorter, her brunette hair in a pixie cut, her makeup flawless and her dress showed all her curves with half her skin showing. The other couldn’t be more opposite, her long blonde hair pulled carelessly into a ponytail. She had on pants that were clearly to big, a white t shirt and a flannel unbuttoned over top. The one with the pixie cut spoke first. “Listen don’t take it so hard, Blanes a piece of no good trash. You’re better off without him.” She exclaimed. “Why does it feel like I’m dying.” I grabbed my chest still writhing in pain. “A rogue rifling through the garbage is a better mate than that scum.” The blonde told me. The door to the bathroom swung open and a man appeared in the doorway. “Alpha Colton wants her!” He declared. Both girls stiffened before each one grabbed one of my arms and started dragging me to the door. As we walked through the res
Leading the way Beta Lucas took a right at the end of the hall before stopping at two big wooden doors. Like the foundation two wolves holding up what I could now tell was supposed to be the moon were hand carved into the door. One wolf on either side with the moon split in half where the doors would open. Beta Lucas took one handle while the other man took the second. Pushing the doors open the light was blinding at first. Two long glass windows on one side of the room showered it with daylight. My eyes strained to adjust from the dark hall. The man inside resting his backside against the desk with his legs stretched forward and crossed at the ankles looked as though he had been waiting for us. His pitch black hair and dark tan skin made his blue eyes shine. The five o’clock shadow on his face did nothing to hide his chiseled square jaw line and high cheekbones. As he shifted slightly his shirt strained against his muscles. “Omega Zeke, your dismissed. Beta Lucas close the doo
When I awoke the next morning, I’m not sure what I was expecting but this wasn’t it.Beta Lucas lay with half the pillows on the bed behind him so he was sitting up. Noticing I had woken up. “Good morning sunshine. You hungry. Don’t worry I’m cooking.” He said. His tone cheerful and playful. “Good to know you feed your hostages.” I grumbled back at him. “Whoa! Whoa! Whoa!” He protested. Lifting his hands and shaking them back and forth. “You’re not a hostage. You’re free to leave.” He paused. “Whenever you want.” He finished. “Is that so?” I propped my head up and looked at him. “Absolutely, if you WANT to leave. You can.” His obvious over pronunciation of the word want had my attention. “You think I want to stay here?” I asked. “I have to go to work. Tommy and CeCe are expecting me.” I said sternly. The laughter that came from him was downright insulting. “You’re one job is keeping the Alpha happy. It’s a pretty posh job if you ask me. Hell given the chance I might consider swin
I sunk down into the seat trying to disappear. A few seconds of admiring my bear and we had destroyed the car. I lost my temper in the kitchen and had torn it apart. Now with everyone arguing I just wanted to run away. I’ve caused nothing but problems since I arrived, at what point will they stop tolerating me. Sarah’s laugh, big and booming. Made me peak my head up over what remained of the seat. She swatted at Alpha Colton’s head playfully. “Nearly took that oversized head of yours clean off.” She laughed deep from her belly. “You’re one to talk!” Alpha Colton curled himself up and rolled on the ground like a ball. “You bailed out of the car before it could stop moving. Thought you were just going to keep rolling, all the way to town. You could have beat us there.” As I sat and listened, they weren’t yelling at all. In fact they were giving each other a rash of shit over who jumped out of the car first when I started to turn. I quietly slide out of the car. Wishing one of my s
Feeling Laila growing weaker, I still couldn’t help but procrastinate getting ready. Sarah insisted we hurry, the beasts within me unable to be contained by me alone. Secretly I didn’t want to contain them anymore. I could feel each of them now. The strong and powerful bear watching over me protectively. The mischievous and flirtatious tiger, with a borderline obsession with Alpha Colton. Lastly my poor wolf, her spirit broken by Blaine’s rejection, her heart aching for her mates acceptance. They did nothing to fill the void of Laila’s absence. Begrudgingly I picked up the pace and found myself downstairs moments later. Standing before Alpha Colton and Beat Lucas, I felt uncomfortably underdressed. Alpha Colton wearing a three piece light blueish grey suit, Beta Lucas in a two piece black suit. Alpha Colton opened the front door, leading the way out to the car. Beta Lucas stood with his arm stretched out signaling for me to follow. “You’re both going?” I asked. Alpha Colton
“You hunted me.” I said questioningly under my breath. “What?” Alpha Colton asked. The distance between us enough my whisper couldn’t be heard by them. “You hunted me.” I repeated. My forehead scrunched and my eyes narrowed. My hands started shacking, wanting Laila here as I could feel myself becoming overwhelmed. “It’s not like that.” Beta Lucas said quickly. His hands waving back and forth in front of him. “You hunted me!” I growled. I could feel my words vibrating in my chest. “You hunted me down and bound me to you.” A burning rage building inside me. Molten lava filling my heart and rolling through my veins. When I looked up at Alpha Colton through my eyebrows he immediately sat back. Both him and Beta Lucas with their backs now pressed firmly against the back of their chairs. “No…” Alpha Colton began to speak again but before he could finish his sentence a deep roar left me. Grabbing the edge of the counter top with both hands I ripped the large granite slab from t
My legs gave out on me, Beta Lucas held onto me making sure I didn’t fall. My vomit covered the front of his shirt. My skin was hot and clammy, sweat rolled down my face. “Her name was Beth.” He said quietly. I felt completely bonded to him, I knew him as well as I knew myself but I didn’t understand why he lied. “You and Willow said you hadn’t found your mates.” I said trying to catch my breath. “If Willow knew my mate was dead, she might give up her chance to find hers.” He paused for a long time while I regained my bearings. “I love Willow too much to take that away from her. I’ve always wanted her to be happy, even if that wasn’t with me.” He paused. “Promise you won’t tell her?” I could feel his love for her, how deeply it ran. I had never felt that way about another person and begrudgingly agreed not to say anything to her. We parted ways, returning to our rooms to shower once more. I was startled by a soft knocking on the bathroom door, which I had left open but I w
Neither Alpha Colton or Beta Lucas moved, both seemingly frozen in time. Laila on the other hand was making a big show of trying to get back on her feet after plopping down, I couldn’t help but laugh and she rolled and grunted. Trying to roll her furry fat bear ass over. “You better stop laughing at me or I’ll leave you naked in front of these two. You prude litte weirdo, you’d die of embarrassment.” She grunted. “I was just in bed with both of them and Willow, at this point I’m pretty sure the cats out of the bag and they’ve seen it all.” I chuckled. Laila stopped rolling, stretching out flat on her back. “Wait there was a four way, where was I.” I debated on lying to her and making up some things that happened but decided against it. “You were sleeping, and it wasn’t like that. They were all in our bed watching over us. We almost died and they made a whole thing out of it.” “Go back. What do you mean we almost died?” She asked. I could feel her grip slipping and our for
If it was possible, fire would be coming out Alpha Colton’s nostrils right now. Standing up straight, his hands balled up into fists, his eyes narrowed and his nostrils flared. “That asshole is just full of bad decisions this week isn’t he.” He said under his breath. Turning on his heals, he stormed off out the door. I nearly fell as I tripped over the shower ledge, grabbing a towel I frantically chased after him. My short legs moving at cricket speed trying to keep up with his long strides. Alpha Colton took huge long breaths, growling every time he exhaled. “Great, you got Beta Lucas murdered. Way to go blabber mouth.” Laila teased. “Not now Laila, this is all your fault.” I snapped. “How is this my fault? He bit me! He bit us. How the hell was I supposed to know it would turn his dick into stone.” She laughed loudly to herself. “Maybe I’m like Medusa, but only for the penis.” She said, now laughing uncontrollably. “I hate you.” I mumbled at her under my breath. Just
When I returned from the bathroom only Beta Lucas remained in the room. His face turned towards the floor but his eyes looked distant. Rocking back and forth slowly from heal to toe. I walked over to the bed and grabbed the clean robe that had been laid out. Sarah had obviously been here. The bed was made with clean sheets, all the bandages that had lined the floor were gone. Rounding Beta Lucas to get in front of him, I shrunk down a little trying to catch his gaze. In his right hand he held a small piece of bandage covered in blood. His eyes focused on me, they glistened in the light as tears threatened to fall from them at any second. “I didn’t…I’m so sorry… you have to know...” He stopped and in hailed deeply. “I would never…” his lower lip quivered as he turned his head up to the ceiling. I leaped at him, wrapping my arms tightly around his neck. His left arm grabbed my waist firmly keeping my feet from returning to the ground. I squeezed him as hard as I could, burying my
I felt the darkness pulling on me but was to tired to stop it. Realizing I was bleeding, falling asleep was the last thing I should do but the black nothingness felt comforting. I could hear Beta Lucas and Willow’s voices in the distance. Opening my eyes they stood in the light at the end of a long tunnel moving backwards before my eyes are to heavy to keep open. Cold caressing my skin, feeling myself falling I open my eyes. I’m sliding down an ice burg, landing with my feet and side in icy cold water. Endless water surrounds me, the iceberg I was on now gone. I sit up to see in am now on a small flat rock. The sound of my blood dripping into the water echoes in the silence. A white tiger with light grey stripes sits on a rock surrounded by water by me. I reached out to it, it’s sea blue eyes looking at me intently, or through me as it felt. Laila paced nervously in my mind and the tigers eyes followed her every move. The tiger let out a quiet meowing sound before jumping o
Willow looked shocked. “Are you sure? You don’t have to, that’s not why we are here.” She said. “Yes, I’m sure. Laila wants to talk to him.” I told her. “Why? You saw how he acted out there.” She looked at me questioningly. “He’s supposed to be my mate, and while I don’t fully understand what that means. From what Beta Lucas has said he should be the other part of me. I need to know why that asshole is meant to be my other half.” I told her. Shaking her head, she finally said something. “I don’t like it.” She looked down at the ground, seeming embarrassed. “But I understand.” She said after a long pause. Laila pushed forward and I let her have control. Looking at Willow with a smile. “Let’s put on the dress first.” She gave Willow a wink. I was surprised, Willow could tell it was Laila and not me right away. “I want him to eat his words.” She told Willow. Willow helped get the dress on which was painted on tight, hugging every curve. Laila ran her hands down her sides to he