Gianna "Eat this." Diana hands me a bowl of cooked meat. "Meat will give you strength, and also it will also be good for pups." "I don't feel like eating." Licking my lips, I shake my head. "I know, honey, but you need to." She gives me a sympathetic look and pats my head, "You need strength to go through the full moon, as the pain will increase on the full moon night. We have to prepare you for that." "Fucking hell." Gritting my teeth, I look heavenward, feeling tired as this pain drains all my energy. "It is good that Jarek isn't here. Otherwise, I would have chopped his dick." I groan, causing everyone to laugh. "If he so much tried to get anywhere near me when he comes back home, he will be sleeping in the doghouse." I rub the underside of my belly skin, which is itching as it has been stretched to its limit. Susan, the older she-wolf, instantly comes to my side, and then placing her hands on my belly, she lightly presses it. She feels my stomach for a minute or two and then
Gianna Since I am feeling a bit better now, I have decided to join everyone for breakfast. During day time, I feel relatively better, and the pain is also bearable... nothing like that I can't handle. However, at night time, things turn difficult as I start experiencing waves of intense pain. Diana and the rest of the she-wolves really have helped me by guiding how to manage pain, but still, each time when the pain hits, it drains me out. The only thing which provides my heart relief is knowing that my pups are showing signs of being healthy and strong alpha pups by responding to the influence of the full moon. As Diana told me, I tried to reach out to Jarek, but I couldn't. I tried taping our bond, but all I felt was like hitting a wall of brick. I thought something magical would happen, and I would instantly be able to connect with Jarek but no nada. Honestly, I thought it would be like the movie Twilight where Bella saw or heard Edward when she did something reckless, but sadl
Gianna "I have asked Tony to work with these new kids who will most probably go through their first transition this full moon. Normally, it is Eric who works with them as he is the best trainer we have got, but since he isn't here and I thought Tony would be the best to do this job as he can connect with these new kids." Ryder walks me to the training ground where some kids around fifteen to sixteen years are practicing with Tony. Tony gaze shifts to us, and after barking some orders, he jogs toward us. "Hey, how are you doing, mama?" A boyish grin appears on his face as he wraps his arm around my shoulder in a side hug, "We have heard you are pretty badass, handling everything like a champ. We all are so proud of you, and as a gift, I volunteer to babysit your boys whenever you need a break. After all, I am going to be their cool uncle." He winks at me, which earns him an eye roll from Ryder; however, I can't help but smile. "Thank you." I smile at him, "I will remember this offe
Gianna After spending my entire afternoon with the new wolves, I rested for a little bit, and then I again occupied myself with work. It was actually quite a nice experience talking with these kids. After the initial hesitation, they started opening up to me and sharing their worries and emotions with me. For some reason, we both were helping each other, and because of them, I am able to understand what kind of emotions they go through when their wolf are beginning to surface. Jarek has shared his experiences with me, but talking with these kids who are actually experiencing these changes at this moment was an entirely different thing. Currently, every emotion of theirs is intense. Small things trigger them and affect them... most of them feel vulnerable as they are unable to control their responses. But one thing they all told me is that my presence helps them and their wolves like me being around them. This, even more, solidifies my decision to be present at their transitions b
Gianna Focusing on my breathing, I force myself to calm down. After a few moments, my heartbeats start to get down to normal rate. My body might still be screaming with pain, but my mind is focused and composed. Forcing my mind to block out the pain, I try to focus on the invisible thread that is tying me with Jarek. Slowly but surely, my mind begins to detach itself from my surrounding as everything starts to go in the background. I feel like connecting to my inner self. Not a moment has passed when a feeling of warmth encases me, and I feel someone pulling me towards them. It took me a moment to identify these feelings, and the moment I did, strange happiness gripped my heart. It is my connection with my boys, and their wolves are attempting to reach out to me. Since I am a human, I could never actually explore my connection with their wolves. But maybe when I am drawing strength through the mate bond, I am being able to form a connection with my pups as well. I feel their
Gianna It seems like someone has sucked in all my emotions, and I am working in an automated mode. Well, that's how I feel like it is. But in reality, I am just holding back all my feelings because I can't afford to break down. I need to stay strong now, more than ever. I need to stay strong for Jarek, as more than ever, he needs me to remain strong so that I can bring him home. And I will. I have already told him that I can go to any extent for him, but now he will see what his mate can do for him. Even if I have to align heaven and earth for him, I will... because I would not let anyone separate me from him, not even death. Every single eye is on me when I enter the room. Instantly, my eyes roam over familiar faces, momentarily hoping that I am wrong and I will find the face that will put an end to all my fears. Swallowing, I look away because he is not here, and this just confirms what I saw and felt was not just something I made up. A part of me was hoping that everythi
Gianna The strength that your mind possesses is amazing. And I am astonished at how you can control so much just with the power of your mind. My body might be experiencing the worst pain I have ever gone through, but my mind is telling me I am much stronger than this, and I need to get over this pain. And you know what is surprising is that amid the pain which is rippling through my body, I am not giving up. I am pushing through this pain and doing what I have to do. And I have never been so proud of my myself and my body for not betraying me in the most crucial time of my life. My mind is still trying to process what has happened. Honestly, a part of me wants to believe that this all is a dream and everything will be just the way it was when I would wake up from this dream... I would wake up to Jarek beside me while his arms caged me to his chest. We would happily be counting the days to welcome our boys, as he would be fussing over small things to make sure everything was pe
Jarek I woke up to find myself tied with the heavy silver chains attached to the wall. Chains are wrapped around my wrists and ankles, and they don't budge no matter how much I try to pull them. The metallic chains have silver mixed in them just to the point that they wouldn't burn through my skin, but whenever I try to tug on them, it pierces my skin. My body hurts, and my memory is hazy. However, I do remember clearly hearing Gianna's voice. I remember her pain, her agony, and her anger. Even though my wolf was extremely weak when he heard her calls... there was a burst of energy inside him, and he responded to her with everything we had. Even if it was the last time I was going to hear her, I wanted her to know that I love her. She is all that I have on my mind... This is definitely not what I have imagined myself being ended up in. That motherfucka Micah was one of the trusted persons who we have been working with for ages. He is the last person I would expect to betray hi