February 14. My son decided he’s going to be a lover boy, so he's born on valentine's day. It’s not like I had something planned for that annoying day, so it works for me. It’s a lovely birthday, too. However, he’s way too enormous for my lady canal, so the doctors decided to give me an emergency c-section. The good thing about that was that I didn't suffer through the birth. I just suffered half an hour of pain before my uncle took me to the hospital and they made me go to sleep.Next thing I know, I have a big baby boy in my arms.I laugh in a drowsy way when I finally look at him. Somehow, he looks exactly how I pictured him in my mind. Huge, pale and chubby with very dark hair on his head. Super dark red hair, almost black, just like… his dad. To be honest, the only good thing about Jae are his looks, so I guess it’s not the end of the world if my son looks like him. "I love you," That's the first thing I say to him. In response, he starts crying and the nurse tells me I can b
{ Jae }My parents come out of the room and my mom has a lump on her arms. I'm still trying to catch my breath after running through the pack to get here because my car decided to die on me at the worst possible moment... maybe because I tried to cross the river with it yesterday. But in my defense, I was drunk.My mom walks until she's in front of me, looking at my face directly for the first time in months because she can hold a grudge like no other... well, there is someone else who's holding even more of a grudge, actually. Anya. "Be careful," my mom snaps at me before I even do anything, "I'll put him in your arms.""I've held babies before," I mumble. I would dare to be more snappy normally, but I'm too scared at the moment, "Just let go of him."She finally does, leaving the baby in my arms. I can't even see his face, so I hold him in one arm and move the blanket away from his face with my free hand so I can get a good look. Not that I had any kind of doubt, but this kid i
{ Anya }When I get the piece of paper with the names Jae wrote, I fold it and put it in my purse so I can read it I later because if I do it right now, I'll probably just get angry because... god, I really fucking hate him. Right now even more than usual. My resentment is at an all time high. I hate that he ruined everything we were building. I hate that he made my tender heart turn to stone and now I’ll never love anyone again. I hate that he robbed me of having a normal pregnancy and a normal birth. He should have been with me these past five months. He should be here right now.Of course, I know I'm the one preventing him of doing so, but it’s because HE almost fucking kills me and HE ruined my eye, so he can fuck off. He can choke on a dick for all I care, I never want to see his stupid face again. Okay, fine. I'm back to pretending I don't think about him anymore. "I'm obsessed with him," I murmur while I'm eating a sandwich like a starving animal, with my son still on my a
{ Jae }A couple of days after my son is born, I get a text from my mom with a bunch of pictures of him wearing a stupid yellow hat with a daisy in it. "His name is Tate Amari Kyung," my mom says. I nod as I read it a couple of times, I guess I like that name. I fucking hate the hat, though, it looks super dumb, "We'll go see him tomorrow, you can drive by Anya's house and we'll take him out to you.""Sure, just let me know the time," I text back, rolling my eyes at this ridiculous fucking situation. I shouldn't be treated like this. Anya should let everyone know I didn't really mean to hurt her. She has a right to be mad at me, of course, but this... me having to act like a rat in hiding because she refuses to let me close to her, is insane. "How is Anya doing, Alpha Jae?" Olivia asks all of a sudden, making me look up from my phone, "I thought she would be here.""Right, uhm," I pocket my phone looking at Philip's dumb looking wife. I was annoyed at first when I saw he brought
My mom walks out of the house carrying Tate when I pull up in the address she gave me, so I get out of the car and I walk to them, extending my arms to grab my son. Today he's wearing a blue onesie that says “momma's boy” in it and it makes me smile. Anya is such a corny girl."Hey, man," I say, lowering my nose to his dark hair so I can scent him. He makes a baby sound when I do that and opens his eyes to look at me. His eyes look light, unlike mine. Maybe he inherited his mom's grey eyes. "How have you been, son?" my mom asks as I’m looking at my son’s face, reminding me of her existence. I briefly lift my eyes to her and I have to stop my smile from appearing when I see her eyes studying my face and I realize she's ready to forgive me now. But I'm not a kid anymore, she can't just freeze me out for months whenever she's mad at me and then slowly start talking to me again until things return to normal."Good," I say with a shrug and return my attention to Tate without even trying
‘I only said yes to this shit so I can close this chapter of my life completely.’That's what I repeat to myself over and over as I'm walking to the restaurant, carrying Tate and getting ready to see Jae for the first time since that night when everything went to shit tremendously."Oh, she’s here. Anya! Heeey!" Olivia shrieks when I finally get to the front door and I see everyone waiting for me in the foyer of the restaurant. Olivia, Philip, and Jae start walking towards me as soon as they see me. Luckily, all I have to do to avoid Jae’s eyes is to not look up."Hey, baby, how are you?" he says as he gets to me, grabbing Tate from my arms and kissing my cheek, a little longer and wetter than necessary. My treacherous body gets warm and I can feel the beginning of butterflies, but I metaphorically kill all of them before they have a chance to make me feel something nice."Hi, babe," I force myself to sound normal and to let him grab Tate as if we're used to navigating our son togethe
"We were in a car accident a few months ago," Jae answers for me. And I let him, because my eye is still hurting and I can't see correctly anymore. My eye is blinded. I know it's only temporary, but I kind of start to freak out a little, "She hit her head and hurt her eye pretty bad... we don't like to talk about it.""Oh, no," Olivia says with a pitiful sound, "Anya, are you okay?""It just hurts a little because of the flash," I admit in a tiny voice, breathing in and out, in and out. I can't cry here, "I'll be fine.""Let's give her time to feel better," Philip says, stopping Olivia from whatever she was going to say. I appreciate that a lot, because I do like Olivia, but she's getting on my nerves. And I'm still freaking out because I can't see. "Anya, look at me," Jae says, still trying to get me to turn to him. I shake my head and just focus on my breathing, "Uhh... let's order, yeah? She just needs a little moment.""Yes. I'm so sorry, Anya," Olivia says, but thankfully, they
It has been three months since I signed the divorce papers and said goodbye to any kind of future next to Anya. I felt like shit for a while, realizing I had ended what could have been a great marriage. But now I'm starting to get back to normal because I've realized... I have the life I always wanted, why the fuck am I feeling bad for losing I wife I never even wanted to have? Sure, she was great and all, but I never wanted to be married. I’m finally living the life I wanted for myself. Power, money, freedom, fun, friends, women. I have it all. Being an Alpha is in my blood, so I haven't had any issues with my new position. It's been going wonderfully, actually. My previous relationships with the council members and my father's twenty years of experience have been just extra points in my favor, but I don't need them.I can handle anything on my own, even when a small pack of dumbass wolves tried to get into my territory to wreak havoc. I only had to call Rogan, and the two of us t