Vera
And just like that, Cleo was quiet. She wasn’t gone far from it. She retreated to the farthest parts of my mind. I knew she was just there, but she gave me that false sense of privacy. I could feel her pouting, but she didn’t push it on me. She used to insist on me needing her as much as she needed me, but recently, because of what happened she has given that to me. She never liked him, but accepted that he was who I chose. It didn’t matter that he wasn’t our mate, she stepped back for me.
Now that I’m single again, she has been itching to go out and meet people. Finding your mate isn’t something that is likely to happen. There are thousands, hundreds of thousands of wolves in the world. Not everyone is lucky enough to cross paths with their mate and I’m not one of those people who believe that’s even possible. I don’t want to find someone to be by my side forever. I don’t know what I want, but I know for sure that I do not want that. Cleo is interested in Dane because he’s a ranked member. Something about male wolves who have a firm place in the pack calls to her and who doesn’t like a man in uniform?Now that I’m done working on the sitting room, I head toward the kitchen. When I push the double doors open, I’m not even surprised when I see a disaster waiting for me. Food all over the floor, counters covered in unfinished plates, and dishes piled high. The clock on the walls says that I have less than an hour to get everything done and ready. I take a deep breath, walk in, and get started.The truth is I have tried to see other people. I just bail out at the last minute, but I did have my first in-person meet with someone last Saturday. I haven’t told Ami because I wanted to see how it went first. Knowing her, she would want details of every position and she’d want me to check in. I had no plans of sleeping with anyone. I wanted to see what it would be like to spend time with another man. Baby steps.Out of the three guys I was talking to, I thought James would be the safest option. As if there was anything safe about meeting up with strangers. It only got worse when you went back to their place or Goddess forbid somewhere dark and secluded. But the things a girl will do for some dick. I shuddered. Me. I was that girl now. Despite every survival instinct telling me not to meet up with men I didn’t know personally, I did it anyway.I met James at the movie theater. He as a Warrior, he didn’t have rank, and he was from one of the surrounding packs. He was proud of where he came from and liked what he did. He didn’t want more or less. He was working a job nearby for a short assignment. He wasn’t expecting to be here long.My hands were sweaty and icy as I walked through the theater doors. I saw him instantly. He stood out like a sore thumb. He was glorious, really. Tall, blonde, blue eyes with broad dependable shoulders.When he turned and saw me, I couldn’t help from lowering my chin and staring at the ground. I hated this, my body froze up, and I couldn’t take another step forward. It wasn’t something I should do: I wasn’t taught to do this as the Luna’s daughter. My mother was one of the first females to run a pack. I should be headstrong and confident, but I wasn’t. That wasn’t who I was anymore.This was learned behavior from him.James swept me up in a big hug. I went from talking to him every day for the last few weeks to being mute. When I lifted my chin and met his gaze, he was all smiles. I couldn’t help but feel comfortable. His eyes swept down my body and compliments dripped from his tongue. It should have made me feel good, but it only made it awkward. I wasn’t used to them and I sure as hell wasn’t used to all of the attention.James was sweet. He bought me popcorn, soda, and one of each chocolate candy because he remembered that I loved chocolate. He made jokes until we got into the movie and held my hand while we watched. It was weird, but good. When we ran out of popcorn he ran out and got a refill. I couldn’t even remember the last time I had been on a date.After the movie, I expected him to pressure me to go back to his truck, but he didn’t. He told me he had a great time and asked if I wanted to grab dinner. I had so much junk that I couldn’t image putting any more food into my mouth. I told him thank you but passed.He said he had fun and didn’t want to leave. He was flying across country to another assignment tomorrow and didn’t know when he would have the chance to come back. Everything about him was good, everything about it was nice, but still I hesitated. I hadn’t removed the barrier between us.A part of me couldn’t believe he was a nice guy, even though everything about him checked out. I think that’s what it was. He was too nice. I wouldn’t be able to find fault in him and if I kept seeing him what else would there be? He was relationship material, and I wasn’t.I wasn’t ready for that.I couldn’t foresee a future where I would be ready for that. I told him goodnight and called it a success. I didn’t get chopped up into a million pieces and stuffed into a box. I did the thing and that was a step in the right direction.VeraI hadn’t heard from James since I said goodbye to him. I didn’t reach out to him, and he hadn’t reached out to me. Days had passed and I was okay with it. I liked that my heart didn’t hurt, I liked that I didn’t miss anyone, and I really liked that I didn’t feel any sort of attachment to anyone. I know it wasn’t what most people wanted when they thought of seeing someone, but I hoped I never felt anything more than lust for anyone, ever again. If I could even manage that. I hadn’t been with anyone since him and I didn’t want to, ever again.Now that the packhouse was clean, I could disappear upstairs. I would rather sneak up to my room and hide before I had to face anyone else. I didn’t want to make small talk or pretend that I was happy. I was always aware of the time when people were due to arrive back, and I’d made it my life’s mission to stay unseen. I didn’t want to slap a smile on my face and wait for my mother, the Luna, to dismiss me. I was an adult, but still seen as not
VeraHis hand tugged up on his length slow as if he was enjoying it as much as I was. That or he got off on knowing I would watch him. He sighed, and the phone moved, giving me a wider look. I could see his tatted stomach, and I stared as if in a trance as his stomach flexed. His hand slid down his length and my fingers slid down my stomach and between my legs. I slipped my fingers into my wet heat and gasped as I followed his movements. The snarl ended as he started to pick up speed and opened up the chat. His little avatar popped up from the bottom of the screen and I knew he was here in the chat. I pressed the camera button and lowered the phone between my legs. I lifted my leg up and placed my foot flat on the bed. I swallowed as I pressed and held the button to record.As soon as it started, I slid my finger into my pussy. I gasped and pulled them out at the same speed he’d started to jerk himself to before the recording stopped. I fingered myself, pushing my finger in and out un
VeraWhat a way to end the night.His avatar disappears, the screen goes dark and just like that, we’re done. The nice thing about Dane is there’s no bullshitting. We both know what this is, and we don’t have to skirt around and pretend we want more. We don’t have any expectations. I made it clear from the beginning that I was not looking for more. Just the thought of it sends me into a panic. Dane, being in the military, agreed. He didn’t have time for that either. I think that’s why I feel so comfortable writing to him so openly. Even with sexting, I did that with my first boyfriend. I haven’t done this since my senior year of High School and that was seven years ago.Biting my lip, I fell back on the bed, naked, but thoroughly pleased. I let out a content sigh and my breasts jiggled. I stare up at the ceiling as I caught my breath. Even sexting with Dane is good. One minute I’m having a shitty day and the next, I’ve forgotten about all of my problems as I record myself coming. I di
“Can you pick Bella up from the airport?” he asked. At the mention of his little sister, I crumbled. My vision blurred as I thought about one of the little girls I considered my own. The asshole knew I’d do anything for her. She was his baby sister, but I practically raised Bella. I’ve known her since she was little, but six years flies by, and little girls grow up. There was no way I wouldn’t meet her at the airport, especially when I knew she was most likely flying alone.His family wasn’t the richest, but there was a time when they took me in. His dad has loved and treasured me, like only a father could. After I lost my dad, I never thought I’d get that again. When I got very sick, he took care of me, and I owed him my life. He felt more like family to me than my mother did. I hated that after all this time, I would see Bella again after we split. For the last six years, they had been my little sisters, too. I wouldn’t just be picking her up, and that’s why he called me. Because h
After I hung up last night, I cried over a man that didn’t deserve my tears. No matter how many times he hurt me, I couldn’t learn my lesson. I allowed myself to wallow in my despair and cried myself to sleep thinking about everything we could have been. I don’t know why I did, especially when I knew Amos was the type of man that never changed. In my small room, away from everyone, I at least had this space to breathe. I didn’t have that when he was here. I didn’t have to worry about anything, but what was happening in my DMs. Compared to before Amos left, I had plans on the weekends, and people who wanted to talk to me. I wasn’t isolated, and I didn’t have a man hovering me with expectations.It was a new day, and everything was right with the world. Despite my puffy eyes, crunchy snots, and swollen face, I was feeling optimistic. If Cleo was talking to me, I knew she would tell me I’m psychotic, but she wasn’t present. I was okay knowing he wasn’t here to make my life hell. I was tr
“… What?” She asked quietly.“Well…” I trailed off. There was a minute of silence with me waiting for her response and her probably brewing.“I swear to the Goddess and the original blood line, if you got back together with him, I’m going to book a ticket, fly down there right now, and kill you myself!” Ami hissed threateningly. I threw my head back and laughed. “I’m glad you think this is funny, V! I’m dead serious!”“Oh my gosh, no,” I laughed.“You better be telling me the fucking truth,” she yelled.“I would never get back with him! After everything, this is the best,” I said.“Then what were you going to say? I’m still dying of a heart attack over here,” Ami said dramatically.“Mm. So he called me last night,” I said.“What the fluff for? What could he possibly want?” she asked.
Ami finding a man with the same name as her baby is hilarious because his name is Charming. She really would call it fate. The birds sing outside my window and I know I have to get up. It was now, or I’d waste another hour in bed. Which, in my mother’s words, meant being useless. The nagging voice in my ear was hers. My one goal in life was being useful to her.The cloud hovering above my head thundered, but I closed my eyes and calmed the rumbling. I had enough on my plate. Spiraling would only hinder me from doing what I needed to do today. I didn’t have enough time to deal with my negative thoughts and self-loathing.Rolling out of my bed, I rise from the bed like Dracula out of his coffin. My head spins as I jump to my feet and my vision goes black. It clears as I walk. If I don’t make breakfast, I’ll never hear the end of it, and that will only come back to bite me when I try to go out. It doesn’t matter how old I am; I live under h
Everyone knows that Mythinder is used for two things. One, to find people you’re attracted to and two, hook up with them. I’ve been out of practice until recently and I’ve talked to a few guys that have made it unbelievably awkward. It had only been a few minutes and he was so easy to talk to. I didn’t joke around with the other guys, so this was a nice change. Goddess it feels good to laugh.Another ping from my mother reminded me I was in a rush to leave the packhouse. I still hadn’t checked her message and I needed to get out of here before she lost her patience and mind linked me. This was something wolves within a pack could do to communicate with each other. If she couldn’t get a hold of me, it was common practice for her to screech down the mind link line. I tapped my screen and it lit up.Me: Guess again! You have two more tries.Uriel: Okay… are you a werebear?