NATALIE
“ Okay! I agree with you two. Please help me find this man. ” I tell Anne and Giana who are both sitting on Giana’s bed.
Worry and anxiety is clear in their eyes along with suppressed pity. I got my head bandaged earlier and as usual, Doctor Yoona insisted that I admit someone was abusing me but…I lied to her and told her that I had fallen off the stairs like I always do. This excuse is becoming ridiculous at this point, but no one in this pack gives a damn to what happens to a wolf less daughter of the Beta. For all they care, I should die soon.
Instead of going home after getting my head bandaged, I came to Giana’s house. As expected, she and Anne were waiting for me to come. It’s like a routine. Every time I get scolded, I come here for comfort. Anne and Giana’s parents allow me to be in their house because they are the only one’s except Enzo who care about me.
“ So you believe he is your mate now. ” Anne excitedly makes a statement.
“ No. There is some error in this situation. ” I tell them without blinking my eyes.
“ Are you kidding us? It’s past midnight and you haven’t died. This only means one thing. That man is your mate and he rightfully claimed you. ” Giana bursts out at me.
I shake my head. “ I refuse to believe this. ”
“ You can’t deny this, Natalie. Please try to understand…Enzo is not your mate. ” Anne grabs my hands in hers and asserts.I shake my head once more. “ he said he is my mate and there is nothing and no one I trust more than him. Enzo is my mate, Anne. ”
Anne’s eyes dull down and she shares a brief glance with Giana who looks equally frustrated.“ You two know something. ” I mumble.
“ We need to find this man. He can make you understand this better. ” Giana intervenes.
I nod my head. Yes, that man with ocean eyes can make me understand why I am not dead even after he marked me unrightfully.
“ Perhaps…I consented to it while I was drunk. ” All of a sudden, a thought occurs to me.
Anne heaves a heavy breath and leaves my hands.
“ I knew you will be coming to us so I gathered the pictures of all the Alphas. ” Anne tells me.
Giana yelps enthusiastically and jumps closer to us. I don’t understand why my two best friends desperately want Enzo to be not my mate. Enzo too is our childhood friend yet something has changed between us four. For one, I am his mate but why does it affect Giana and Anne so much? I am sure I will figure it out soon.
“ See. ” Anne pushes her phone’s screen close to my face so I can take a look at the picture.
“ Is this him? ” Giana asks hopefully.
I shake my head. Anne shows me the next picture and then the next and another one. We see a lot of pictures, but he doesn’t turn out to be anyone of them.
“ Are you sure he was an Alpha? I have shown you pictures of all the Alphas already. ” Anne throws the phone aside and lies down on the bed, irritated.“ I can’t be too sure Anne. I think he was an Alpha because he seemed powerful like one. But my senses don’t work as better as yours so I can’t really be sure. ” I shrug my shoulders.
Giana facepalms herself and lies down beside Anne to sulk. I join them instantly and we three stare at the ceiling silently for a while.
“ How was he even? ” Giana whispers after a while.
My heart oddly skips a dangerous beat when I recall his touch, his strong strokes, his penetrating gaze. The dominance he oozed was something out of this world. The way he claimed me feels like the part of a forbidden fantasy.
“ He was an asshole. ” I mutter under my breath.
“ Your heart doesn’t agree. You always forget we can hear your heartbeat. ” Giana chuckles lowly.
“ I bet you were thinking about yesterday night right now. ” Anne teases.
I purse my lips before closing my eyes. My head is beginning to hurt again. The effect of the painkiller is wearing off.
“ Don’t remind me something I am dying to erase from my mind. ” The words fall out of my mouth without any control.
Silence falls between us again. All of a sudden, my phone rings. I sit up in the bed and grab the phone from the side table.Seeing Enzo’s name lightening up the screen, I find myself holding my breath.
“ Don’t tell him anything. Not until you have figured it out yourself. ” Anne is quick to warn me.
I pick up the call and place the phone beside my ear.
“ H — Hello… ” My voice breaks.
Tears pool in my eyes, my hold tightening around the phone.
“ Goddess! Where have you been? I want to see you right now! ” Enzo sighs right away.
My eyes move towards Anne’s warning gaze.
“ I — I am at Giana’s house. ” I tell him, guilt eating away at my guts.
“ Wait there. I am coming to get you. We need to talk. ” Enzo hangs up the call after instructing me.
“ Does he know? Did he find out? ” I begin to hyperventilate instantly.
“ No. He doesn’t know. ” Giana gets up and rubs my back.
“ Calm down Natalie. He just wants to see you. ” Anne tries to assure me.
But I can’t breath. Enzo will never see me after today. This thought is enough to make my heart bleed.
“ It’s all my fault. I should have never gone there. ” I throw my head into my hands.
“ Come on, Natalie. Don’t beat yourself over it. What’s done is done. We will fix this. I promise. ” Giana runs her fingers down my hair softly while convincing me.I shake my head and take a deep breath. “ I messed up big time. ”
*****
Like Enzo said, he came to pick me up from Giana’s house in half an hour. Mrs. Norman — Giana’s Mom came to inform me in Giana’s room.
“ Don’t make more mistakes, Natalie. ” Anne holds my hand and stops me beside the main door.
Giana rushes close to us and grabs my other hand. “ Make the right decision. You have to. ”
I don’t know what they are asking me but I still nod my head before stepping out of Giana’s house.
Enzo is standing on the other side of the street, his back resting against the tree and his eyes taking me in. I shiver and unconsciously fix the neckline of my top.
The man before me is the example of perfection. His tousled brown hair and brown eyes compliment each other. He is not cold as the one who has marked me against my will. He is understanding, polite and kind. Anything a woman wants in their mate, in their boyfriends or husbands.
I walk towards him with a heavy heart.
“ Hey. ” My voice is small.
“ Hey. ” He replies with a soft smile.
“ Walk with me. ” He tells me next.
I nod my head and follow his order without a second thought. We walk on the street, side by side.
“ What happened yesterday night? ” He asks the most dreaded question.
My head snaps in his direction. I find him already looking at me, his brown eyes looking black in the dim lightening.
Does he know? I should have known Emilie will tell him right away. Tears well in my eyes.
“ I…” I suck in a shaky breath.
“ I was worried when Giana and Anne mind—linked me and said you were missing. You got drunk and slept on the roadside. Do you think it’s safe? ” He rants, his voice growing in volume with each passing moment.
I release a relieved breath and nod my head. “ I am sorry. ”
He doesn’t know.
“ Did I not say that you shouldn’t go to places like those? It’s not safe right now. ” He huffs, folding his arms over his chest.
“ I am sorry. I really am. ” I apologise again.
“ And if you do this again? ” He questions, lifting his perfectly carved thick left eyebrow.
“ I won’t. I promise. ” I mumble.
Although he is talking about going clubbing, I am talking about something entirely different.
“ You better stick to your words. ” He warns in a stern voice.
I nod my head subtly.
Enzo unfolds his arms from over his chest and takes my hand in his before we start strolling down the street again.
A lump forms in my throat when I realise that he hasn’t even bothered to ask me why my head is bandaged or what happened to me.
My hold tightens over his hand as the thought pops in my mind.
Enzo knows what’s the problem with me and how everyone treats me. Maybe, that’s why he doesn’t want to ask because he is afraid he might make me feel uncomfortable. I convince my mind and then my heart in absolute silence.
But, it doesn’t soothe the ache in my stupid heart.
We continue to walk and stop when the Alpha — Enzo’s house comes into view. My eyes take in a familiar face, the beta of the Night Walkers Pack.
I stare at him and so does Enzo.
Alpha Wilson and the Beta is now shaking hands. There are grim smiles on their lips which are as fake as their temporary deal, no matter what it is.
There is bad blood between Night Walkers Pack and the whole werewolf community. We all hate them and more than anyone, we hate their Alpha, Ryker Ambrose.
Why? One must ask. Of course, he kills people and is ruthless and he forces people into doing what he wants but are not all Alphas like this? Then why do we all hate Ryker Ambrose so much?
That’s because no one can defeat him. He is unmatched in terms of strength, power and wealth. That’s why we all hate him, I think. We can’t get rid of him even if he is pain in everyone’s ass.
The beta turns around to walk towards his slick BMW when his eyes land on me.
Oh my fucking Goddess! He will recognise me!
I suck in a sharp breath when he narrows his eyes and moves them down to my hand held in Enzo’s bigger one.
A strange emotion passes between his eyes when his gaze snaps back to mine once again. The emotion is so strange and strong that I snatch my hand out of Enzo’s grip and stumble back on my feet.
The beta throws me a meaningful smile and sits down in the back seat of his car.
“ Do you know him? ” Enzo questions.
“ No. ” I lie without hesitation.
“ Why was he smiling at you then? ” Enzo’s tones becomes grave.
I shrug my shoulders. “ I don’t know. ”
The car disappears from sight but my trance doesn’t break. What just happened?“ You are not lying to me, are you? ” Enzo comes in front of me and snaps me out of my trance.
“ I can never… ” lie to you.
I can’t say this to Enzo anymore.
“ Please take me home. ” I gulp the lump which forms in my throat and demand.
Enzo glares at me, long and hard. Then, gives in with a sigh.
We walk down the empty streets in the middle of the nights in an awkward silence.
Stopping outside my house, Enzo turns to me and cups my face. He dives in, his lips almost capturing mine.
A wave of shock passes over me when I push him back and stumble away myself.
“ WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?! ” He yells.
My heart skips a beat, in fear that someone is going to come out from my house.
“ I am sorry. I am really sorry Enzo but I — I am not feeling well. Forgive me! ” I blurt, making a run for my house.
Enzo doesn’t call me out from behind and I only halt to breath when I have locked the main door from inside.
“ What an interesting sight! ” Emilie yawns from the living room but doesn’t bother to wake up Mom and Dad this time.“ I dropped the painting to your room. ” I mumble before vanishing up the stairs.
Everyone in my family lives on the ground floor and I am the only one whose room is on the first floor. It has something to do with the fact that it’s all my family could do to isolate me.
Shaking my head, I stop outside my door and place my forehead against it.
What am I doing?
Make the right decision. Giana has asked me.
Was it the right decision to not let Enzo kiss me when I knew I am marked by someone else? How can I be so loyal to someone I don’t even know when I was not even loyal to the man who claims to be mate?
What am I doing? I don’t know anymore.
I thought everything will be fine as long as I find that man but I have failed in that too. He is not one of the Alphas and I don’t know where to find him now.
Sighing, I push the door to my room open. A horrified gasp leaves my lips when I see the very familiar figure sitting over my bed like he owns it.
NATALIE My mouth drops open, my jaw aching when I see the man — screaming trouble —sitting right over my bed. Gasping, I step inside and close the door before anyone from my family catches a whiff of his scent or hears the spike in my heart rate. “ What the fuck! ” I mumble under my breath. “ We have to work on that colourful language. ” He hums in a deep voice. Putting his hands on both sides of his frame, he stretches his muscles and leans back. I draw a deep, shaky breath. Disbelief makes me freeze on my very spot. “ Y…Y…You. What? I mean…h…h…how? ” I am at a loss of words. “ How am I here? ” His left eyebrow shoots up. His gruff voice does weird things to me. Heat tackles my body. When you are close to your mate, you get affected by heat season. Giana said this to me and I think…she was not wrong. “ Something bothering you? ” A fine smirk touches his lips. “ You! You stay there! ” I narrow my eyes, taking support of the wall behind me. This is a shitty time for this h
NATALIEWith my heart hammering in my throat, I pull the door open slightly. “ What are you doing? I heard noise coming from your room. ” She blinks at me, her droopy eyes screaming that she woke up from her deep slumber.How good is her hearing to be able to pick up noise from a soundproof room even in sleep?I swallow hard and look around. “ I — I was in the bathroom, taking a shower. ” I have never lied so confidently before, I can guarantee.Unconsciously, I fix my wet hair to hide the mark over my neck. “ At this hour? ” She narrows her eyes in suspicion.Fuck my life!“ I — Mom. ” Come up with something, Idiot.Finding me at a loss of words only confirms my Mom’s doubts. Without giving me the time to regain my composure, she pushes the door open with great force. The door hits my face, making me stumble back and cup my nose instinctively. Pain stabs my whole face. I wince and close my eyes.“ There is someone here, right? You are lying again. ” She accuses and strolls inside
NATALIEThe next morning brings me a new kind of nervousness and fear that I have never experienced before.I get ready and sneak out of my house before anyone sees me and eventually stops me from going out.Contrary to my expectations, I find Giana and Anne already waiting for me around the street, still dressed in their pajamas.“ I told you! ” Anne tells Giana as I get near them.“ You can’t tell him. ” Giana folds her arms over her chest.“ He has the right to know. ” I don’t know from where these words are coming.“ Natalie. I knew you will do this when guilt hits you again. We have been waiting here for two hours so we can stop you. So please…listen to us and give up on this stupid idea. ” Anne insists, gripping my wrist.“ Anne…Enzo has always been good to me. I can’t hide this from him anymore. At least not after, I have done this twice. The first time, I could let it slide as a mistake but…I can’t anymore. He needs to know what’s going on. ” I get my hand out of her grip.“ H
NATALIEWhen you think you are breaking apart and can’t hold yourself together, you find yourself running back to your home — the safe haven.I did the same. After running away from everyone I had considered dear once, I came back home and dashed to my room before locking myself inside.I can feel those pointed looks directed at me. Those people make my skin crawl. They make me feel disgusted.It was not my fault. They did this to me. I want to run to everyone and tell them one by one but I know no one will believe me.I sobbed, pulled my hair out, and asked myself the same question.Why was this happening to me? They all had loved me once. Everything was fine — I had a happy family, good friends, a standing in this werewolf society for being a beta’s daughter. I had a future — a bright one.But Moon Goddess fucked up everything when she decided she didn’t want me to have my wolf.What’s a werewolf without her wolf? I can’t be loved, I can’t be seen as someone respected, I can’t eve
NATALIE This only makes me cry harder. The little restraint I had over myself is gone.“ This is pretty annoying. ” He hums when I don’t stop crying.“ You are not even asking what happened to me?! ” I hiss, placing my burning forehead on my right knee.“ I don’t need to know. But I do need you to stop crying. ” His irritated voice sounds from the speaker.I sniff, shaking my head. Why am I only getting all these assholes in my life?“ I won’t stop crying! ” I declare.Tears blur my vision worse than before. Talking to him seems to be having an even more negative impact on me. I want to cry so much that I pass out and when I wake up, I might not even remember what happened today. It might feel like a dream.Silence falls on the other side.“ He lied to me. Everyone…all of them lied to me. ” I sob quietly.My body is slowly turning cold now. It seems to be happening due to the plaguing emotions which are hurting my heart.“ Okay. ” Equally disinterested.“ Are you not going to ask wha
NATALIEIt feels nothing new to wake up in the pack hospital bed with Doctor Yoona breathing down my neck.“ The Alpha is visiting the hospital today. Tell him what’s wrong with you. ” She tells me robotically as soon as I blink at her.Why does she even care? And why would Alpha care either?Pain hits me after these questions do. I sit up in the bed and my hand instantly wraps around my neck. Doctor Yoona hands me a glass of water without even asking. I grab it, deciding to say thank you later.“ I gave you the healing potion. How do you feel? ” She questions when I gulp down the water and place the glass at the side.“ I am fine. ” I give her a small smile.“ How did you fall off the stairs this time? ” She is clearly mocking me.“ The usual stuff. ” My voice drowns as a huge lump gets stuck in my throat.“ You will die. Someday, you are going to die if you keep this up. ” She tells me before fixing her thick rimmed glasses over her nose.I nod my head and stare at her, barely ho
NATALIE“ Caught you, thot. ” The rogue hisses close to my ear, with his heavy body covering my small frame.Taking in a shaky breath, I place my hands over the ground. Closing my eyes, I think about the possible ways of getting out from under him.He grabs my waist, ready to turn me around. I hit him in the side with my elbow as hard as I can. The crunch noise makes me sure that I hit a bone, straightHe groans, rolling off me. I get up on my feet quickly.“ Get this — Get this, slut! ” He growls from the ground.I look down at him and up at the rest of the seven men. They are close, too close.If I make a run again, one of them might shift and attack me.I place my hand over my right shoulder which hurts from the impact with the ground earlier.“ Where will you run from here, bitch? ” The buff man scoffs.“ Stop — Stop right there. ” I wave my hand at them.Sound stronger. I tell myself.“ I mind linked the patrol guards. They will be here any moment. So, if you want to save your li
NATALIE “ Untie this rope. ” I whisper, casting my eyes down. Fuck, fuck, fuck. I don’t want to have sex with him here. But I do want to have sex with him. “ Why should I? I am kind of liking this view. ” He retorts in his usual cocky tone. I lift my head. Another wave of heat ripples through my body. I gasp when our gazes lock. He rests his back against the tree in front of me leisurely and folds his arms over his chest. In the darkness, I watch his intimidating silhouette with desire swirling in my eyes. “ Please. ” Am I begging? No. Hell no. But, yes. A little. “ You didn’t listen to me when I said you shouldn’t cause me a headache. ” He reminds me. “ I…” I breathe. And clench my thighs. Wetness pools between my panties as the ache in my core grows stronger. “ Ple—Please. Just. Just… ” I bite my lower lip, stopping myself from moaning. “ Interesting. ” He hums, raking his fingers through his hair. “ What is so…interest—interesting… ” My lips quiver. I have to clenc