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Chapter 46 - ZANDER
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2022-08-09 11:28:28
V.TurnerHappy Tuesday. I wonder what Zander has planned. I hope he remembers Mumma Kylie's words of wisdom! Another bigger chapter today, I will try to keep them on the larger size, but I'll be going back to work this week, so things may slow down again until I get back into my routine.
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My head is still spinning as I lay in my bed staring up at the ceiling, thinking about everything that has happened last night and over the last few weeks, going over and over them in my mind. I haven't slept a wink. Everything is just replaying in my mind. It's hard to switch it off. A part of me understands why he did what he did, but the other part that shares the bond with him hurts so much. It feels like our bond is a little bit broken because of it. At least before, it could have been mended, but now, even if he tried, I’m not so sure. He was so quick to jump and help Grace, so quick to jump and help her, yet forgot me in the process of everything, even after we mated, even after he promised I was everything to him. He didn’t show that to me last week. Who’s to say that will not happen again. He admitted he did wrong, but did he only realize it because he lost Grace in the process? Was I just a backup option to him? I hope I made it clear to him last night that I wouldn't be
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I close my eyes and breathe in the scent of comfort before I step out into the wild ways of Monday morning. Ollie had just stopped the soft murmur of his car, and Brent had already jumped out and made a be-line directly to some of his school friends. “How are you holding up?” Ollie asks, carefully studying me. I can feel his unease. Neither of us like keeping that I am mates with Zander a secret from Brent or the rest of our family, but I am so grateful that he has. “I’m okay,” I reply with a shrug. “Kia kind of took things into her own hands last Saturday, but I managed.” I’m not upset at Kia for the little stunt she pulled on Saturday morning. It was kind of nice not having these feelings of anger and hurt flowing all around me for once, and right now, I feel somewhat oddly calm and peaceful. I knew he wanted to talk more but I just wasn’t ready yet. It still hurt too much, and I need more time to heal. My mind is a mess and I can’t simply make a quick decision that could potent
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I loved watching her reaction as she found the flowers. She loved them. As much as she tried to hide, it was nice to see that she at least appreciated the gesture. The frustrating thing is, we were in such a good place before, and even then, I should have been doing this stuff for her, but I wasn’t. Honestly, I was so focused on other things that I didn’t even think to give her small things like this, to at least make her feel comfortable enough to show she had someone, to let her feel loved and free. It made me feel like an ass that I wasn’t treating her like the queen she is rather than taking everything for granted and thinking that she would just accept the bond a hundred percent because, the truth is, she had accepted me, but until I knew I could lose her, I hadn’t accepted her completely. I had to call all around to see if anyone knew someone with a flower greenhouse. But I needed specific flowers. Thankfully, someone had some in my territory, so getting the flowers wasn’t as
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His apology is understandable and scary at the same time. We were intimate, and I trusted him completely. I felt ready to tell people he was my mate and prepared to have strained relationships with my family over him. I gave him all of me; he was my first in everything. While I understand his reasoning, it also hurts that he didn’t think he could trust me enough to realize that I wasn’t going to reject him, that I was there for support. I feel the bond moving through us as he speaks to me, explaining his actions. How was he was able to keep away from me for so long if this is how I feel right now? I see his confused face as I rummage through my bag. I had already packed the little blue box and was going to give it back to him tonight either way. I didn’t want to hurt him, but I also think it’s the right choice to give it back to him for now. I watch the colour drain from his face as I try to give back the little blue box. Taking a deep breath, I hope he hears what I have to say be
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“I want to tell people about us,” I announce as we’re sitting on the couch watching TV. I’m holding her tightly, not wanting to let her go home or anywhere else but be here with me. It’s been a few days since our chat on Monday, and honestly, I want to be with her this weekend and not worry about sneaking around. As exciting as this has been, I can’t show her how much I love her with only small gestures and walks in the woods. I want to take her to dinner and show her off to my friends. Announce to everyone I have my mate, and my pack has their Luna. I think we have grown so much these last few days alone. Imagine what we could be if we told people. No more sneaking around. I feel so fucking stupid for the time we lost last week, and my stupidity cost us time together and nearly cost me her. I will never make that mistake again. If I did, it might actually kill me. “Zander… are you sure you’re ready for that type of commitment?” She asks, pushing slightly away from me and turning
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Heart racing, nerves pile up as I sit in my car in front of the packhouse. I know Ollie and mum already know about Zander, but I was honestly more nervous telling Dad and Uncle. I wouldn’t know how they would react. Would they be happy for us? Or still so angry over the issues between our packs? I know we have had a rocky start, but I also know that I wasn’t going to reject him. I still cared so much for him, and he has tried to show how much he cares over the last few days. And I agree that we could do more if we could be more open with our relationship with our family and pack members. Some might hate it, and others might be excited about it, but Zander and I were always meant to be together in the end. I still haven’t forgiven him for what happened, but he has explained, owned his mistake and is trying to make things better between us, so I’ll keep an open mind and allow him to try and make things right. I suck in a breath of air as I open the door and head into the pack
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Excruciating pain shoots through me as my link with Ashleigh is broken as my Beta and my family. I will never be able to contact her again that way. I can see everyone is shocked at what Dad has done, fuck. So am I. Hell, I’m fucking furious he did this without my permission. He was the one who insisted that we do the binding early so we can create better bonds, and, in reality, Ashleigh is my best friend, and there is no one else who I trust more. I can’t for the life of me understand why Dad has taken such drastic measures. Zander and I always have butt-heads, and we always will. We are Alpha Males, but to protect our packs and our kind, we have the same morals in that respect. There haven’t been any issues or problems with our packs for years, sometimes small things here and there, but nothing to this level. I hear the parents yelling and arguing in the main office as Ash heads out the front door. I’m sure Brent felt the link snap as well and will have questions when he gets
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My senses are in overdrive as I feel the warm sun streaming through our bedroom window. His scent engulfed all of me as tingles danced along my skin. I hear his deep breathing next to me as one of his arms slung over, pulling me close to his hard chest. Last night was hard. I had the worst night's sleep, tossing and turning until I couldn’t take it anymore. I wanted Zander to hold me close to tell me everything was going to be ok, that this weird emptiness won’t last forever. I wondered if this is what it felt like to become a rouge or if it’s worse. At least I don’t have the scent of a rogue. I just didn’t have the links and connections to the pack anymore. It’s like I’m in limbo. I am just waiting. Usually, when one is stripped of your title, you get a new one or move to Omega status. Uncle didn’t even do that for me, so now I’m stuck in limbo unless I renounce my allegiance to my pack and turn rogue until I move into Zander's Pack. In the Liverpool pack, there are a few titles
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Alpha Zander Chapter 65 - ASHLEIGH
The pain that radiated throughout my body is now gone. I can’t feel anything ... I can't see anything. Instead, I find myself alone in this pitch-black void. ‘Kia, Kia’, I try to call out to her, hoping she will help me pull out of this. Once again, I’m left with emptiness. My mind spirals, thinking of all the possibilities, the “what ifs”, and trying to figure out what just happened. I’m numb; it feels like nothing exists anymore. If this is death, it is a horrible place to be … a black void with nothing by me and my hazy, uncertain thoughts. I miss them … Zander, my family, my friends. The idea of never seeing them again scares me. I feel like I’ve been floating around in this void for hours when suddenly I smell this odd yet familiar scent. It is a sweet, floral scent making my mind spin, trying to remember what it reminded me of. I try to move in the void to get closer to the scent. I need to get closer. A strong pull snaps me out of the darkness as the scent becomes overwhel
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The putrid scent of antiseptic assaults my nose as I pace in the hospital's emergency room, waiting for the doctor to tell me why my Luna, Beta, and Gamma are in the state they are in. I burst through the doors earlier to find Ashleigh, only to be kicked out, so the hospital staff had space to work on her. I hoped they were helping her. I can’t lose her. Her bloodstains on my skin from holding her close have now dried as I didn’t want to wash away her scent. It was the only thing keeping me sane right now. Oliver comes flying down the hall with Brent hot on his heels. I sent him and her parents a message as soon as I arrived, and Danni was checked in. He looked so pale when we got to the hospital, and it fucking killed me the state they were all in. I hate the smell of hospitals … The smell of disinfectant stings my nose, making my eyes water. I fight Jace for control, trying not to let him take over and go on a rampage. Hospitals always bring back bad memories so the smell al
Alpha Zander Chapter 63 - ASHLEIGH
I felt a sense of loss when Zander wasn’t by my side. I suppose that’s why they allow mates to be in the same classes, so our wolves don’t go crazy on us. I had a crappy feeling for the rest of the day after this morning's conversation with Brent. I was already feeling bad that I was upset with him only a few weeks ago about hiding the same thing from Ollie and me, and yet here I am doing the exact same thing to him. No wonder he's so upset. At least Ollie and mum already had time to accept Zander and me being mates. Some girls at lunchtime came up and congratulated us, but all I could see was jealousy and frustration in most of them. It hurt that they weren't actually happy. They probably just wanted him because of his title or maybe because they were ex-lovers or a number of other reasons. I don’t have the courage to ask Zander how many he’s been with at school. I’m sure it's a lot. I won’t dwell on that fact because he is my present and future. So after everything that happene
Alpha Zander Chapter 62 - ZANDER
Ashleigh's emotions are heightened by a thousand after marking her. I feel everything - happiness, frustration, sadness … It was a rollercoaster of a night, trying to navigate everything. Out of all of her emotions, happiness and joy were what I felt the most. I was so fucking grateful that she is happy to be with us. After the incident this morning with her brother, Jace was more aware of what was happening. He is unsettled that her family's drama saddens our mate, and I promise I will get to the bottom of it for her. I only want what is best for her and, at the same time, to have a relationship with her family. I want to work together and fix it. Oliver seems to be on board with an alliance. We just have to convince everyone else. Thankfully, the day is easygoing; I have a few classes without her, but that was in the afternoon. Lunchtime rolled around quickly, and everyone gushed around her, trying to get information on what happened and how we found out we were mates. I know
Alpha Zander Chapter 61 - OLIVER
It was a challenging weekend. I barely went home, I had about 20 missed calls from mum, frantic messages from Kylie to know where Ashleigh was, and neither Robert nor Kylie got to say goodbye to their daughter. Now they couldn’t reach her via the pack link or family link. It was a fucked up situation just because Blackwood was her mate. I didn’t even know how to begin to explain things to Brent when he got home. He walked into a house of chaos after his patrol run that night. As much as those two niggle and bicker, they were siblings. He looked up to Ashleigh as his sister and the pack’s Beta. He respected her and appreciated her guidance. Now, I don’t even know what their relationship will be like. After seeing Ashleigh the other night with Blackwood, I knew she made the right choice. She had to be with her mate. She was his Luna, and rejecting him wasn’t an option for either of them. It was nice to see that they loved each other. However, I made a promise to myself and our family
