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“You look rough,” Gray mutters, pulling open the door of the packhouse.
“I feel worse,” I groan. I scrub a hand over my face, looking past him. “Is she here?”
Gray nods solemnly.
I don’t even know why I asked. I already know she’s here- I can sense her, feel the pull of the mate bond.
I reach up, tugging at my hair, shuffling my feet. “Can I come in?”
“I don’t know, man,” Gray grumbles, holding his position in the doorway.
“Please?” My voice is hoarse, gravelly. Desperate.
Gray heaves a sigh, stepping aside to allow me entry.
I stride inside, turning to watch Gray close the door behind me.
He spins around, his eyes dark, sullen. “Look, Theo… you really fucked up.”
“You think I don’t know that?” I snap.
I walk over to the nearest couch, sinking down onto it and lowering my head into my hands.
Saying that I fucked up is an understatement
C.J. PrimerI'm going away on a weekend trip, so no bonus chapter this weekend. I'll be back next week with daily updates! Just a heads-up that Monday's chapter may be a bit delayed pending my return from my trip. Thanks so much for reading!
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THEO “Wake up,” comes the sweetest voice, reaching into my mind, pulling me from sleep. The voice of an angel. I feel the weight of Brooke on the mattress beside me, shifting to move closer. Then I feel her fingertips stroking my hair gently. “Wake up, handsome…” I blink my eyes open, meeting the ocean blue of Brooke’s eyes. She’s so fucking beautiful. “Mmm,” I hum, leaning my head into her hand as she gently scratches my scalp. “That feels good.” Her pouty pink lips tip up into a smile as she traces her fingernails in a circle. “What time is it?” I squint, furrowing my brow. “Six.” “Six?!” I throw my eyes wide. Brooke giggles, sliding the covers off of her body and sitting up. “Why the hell are we awake?” I groan, scrubbing a hand over my face. “We don’t have to get up for at least another two hours, let’s go back to sleep…” Brooke smirks at me over her shoulder,
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BROOKEMy chest feels hollow as I muddle through my afternoon at the hub. I hate that I picked a fight with Theo. After I let those nasty comments from Sutton fester, I knew it was only a matter of time- and when I heard him make that comment about his dad and becoming alpha, it tipped me over the edge. I lashed out, tried to hurt him before he could hurt me.The worst part is that he’s right- he’s so right. Even though I said I was giving him a chance, I always had one foot out the door, unsure whether we’d really be able to work as a couple. Not allowing myself to give in fully, to give myself fully. Refusing to admit to myself that despite our differences, we fit pretty damn well together. We could be happy. We were happy.But I screwed it all up. Pushed him away in some vain effort to shore up my walls and protect myself. And it totally backfired- in trying to protect myself, I only
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