Later that night when the guests finally departed. Ava walked me up to my room and I bolted it shut. She left and when I turned around I almost screamed. Shane was in the room. I hadn’t expected him to be up here. I still hadn’t come to terms with the rumors or decided what I thought about the. Yet here he was, he had jumped up from the floor and scared the life out of me. What do I say? Do I say anything? Do I ask him about it? Or do I ignore it and pretend I didn’t hear anything? I shake my head. No. That’s not me. I may keep my mouth shut around everyone else but not around Shane, not with him. We talk, we don’t hide things.“What took you so long?” Shane asked. His lips were down turned and I wondered what peed in his soup.“We had guests.”“What kind of guests? Who?” Shane asked as he strode across the room to us.“What if she caught you here?” I asked. “What if she came in?”“She didn’t come in, did she?” Shane asked.I didn’t like my question being answered with another questio
“Listen to me! I didn’t want to hurt you, Adea, even though deep down, that’s what I want to do. I want to hurt you. I want to see you cry. I want to make you bleed. I’m a sick man, Adea. I’m sick and disturbed. There’s so much you don’t know about me. You don’t know how I can be or what I’m like. I’m a different man with you.”“So you’re not yourself. This isn’t who you are? Then who are you? If you’re not Shane, if you’re not the man I know, then who are you?” I asked.“I’m the devil.”“Goddess. Do you hear yourself? For fucks sake, LET. ME. GO.”“No. I’m not letting you go. I’m never letting you go. You’ll never be free of me.”I’m crying now. My heart and mind are at war with each other. I want to tell him to fuck off. I want to tell him to get out of my room. Hell, I want to push him from my window. But at the same time, I want to hold him close. I want to climb into his arms. I want to cry on his shoulder. I want to mark him and I want him to mark me. I want to make him mine. I
“I hate you. I hate you so much,” I cried. Shane didn’t say anything. He clenched his jaw as he stared back at me. “Is that how you like it?” I asked.“Oh, Adea,” he groaned. “I’m a sick man but I’ve tried to be good for you. I’ve tried to be… I’ve tried to be something I’m not. You’re so innocent, so precious. As much as I wanted to soil you, tarnish you, dirty you, I can’t.”“Is that why you haven’t taken me yet?” I asked.“It’s one of the big reasons.”We didn’t say anything more that night. We didn’t mention it and we didn’t mention the women but after that night, Shane never touched me again. Sexually at least. He didn’t take anything and didn’t give any. We cuddled, we snuggled, and we held each other but after that night it was as if we’d pulled apart. Stayed apart. As soon as I knew about the other woman, I couldn’t bring myself to touch him, taste him, kiss him but I still loved him all the same. He visited me every night and stayed until sunrise but he never made any moves t
Two days before the celebration, one year older, I stood at my window afraid. Afraid I’d never see Shane again. Afraid that something happened to him and that I would be forced to leave with Ethan. I waited with bated breath as the sun slowly lowered below the horizon. When the moon was high in the sky, I steeled my resolve and threw my leg over the window. Shane had climbed up and down from here time and time again. It was my turn to figure it out. I ignored the warning in my head screaming that I would plummet to my death. Slowly but surely, I somehow managed to climb down the walls. My feet touched soft grass and I let out a breath of relief when I was on solid ground. It was dark out, with nothing but the moon shining above me. I didn’t waste any time and ran through the fields. There had been times when I woke up after he’d left but not long after. I’d run to the window and watched as he walked back. I knew nothing of where he was from or where he lived but I’d watched him walk b
“You’re so impatient, Princess,” Shane murmured.“Don’t you think we’ve waited enough?” I asked.He doesn’t answer me but his fingers do. I raise myself up so his fingers can get in between my legs. He doesn’t hurry either, his fingers pinch the inner fat of my thigh and I groan. His eyes lit up as he took his time touching me, as if his flesh on mine made him a new man. As if it were a new thing, a new sensation he hasn’t felt before.“Damn it, Shane. If you’re not going to fuck me, I need you to touch me.”“Touch you?” Shane asked teasingly. His fingers poked my sensitive core and I jerked.“You’re a tease,” I pouted. Shane leaned in.“I did what you wanted, didn’t I?” Shane asked. His breath was on my cheek and a delicious shiver slid up my spine.“You know what I want.”“Do I?” Shane asked. “How rude of you to presume that I know everything.”“Shane!”“Tell me, Princess. What do you want?” Shane asked. His voice was the opposite of mine. It was calm and in control. Where my breath
Shane leans forward and presses a kiss to my forehead. We teeter on the edge of the abyss before he leans back and grips his cock. My eyes are on his thickness as he lines it up to my entrance. We stare into each other’s eyes as he thrusts into me. I knew he was big and I saw how hard he was, but I didn’t expect it to be like this. I feel it the moment my hymen tears. It’s done, he’s taken me but I don’t have time to feel triumphant. I don’t have time to feel like I’ve won and I don’t get to mentally laugh in Ethan’s face. No, I’m too lost. Ethan is the furthest from my mind. Shane’s cock in my tight cunt demands all of my attention.Pain, that’s all I feel as tears stream down my cheeks. There’s no way he could have prepared me for him. He drops his chest against my face as I scream. It’s muffled and I wrap my hands around his arms and dig my nails into his flesh. He doesn’t groan or yell at me. He takes it. He lifts himself up and stares down at me. Seeing the tears, he leans down a
Drifting in and out of consciousness, I get snippets of Shane’s scent, his strong arms as they carry me from the field to the packhouse walls. Soft Baltic linen was smooth against my skin and passionate kisses pressed to my wrists. Sweet promises and dark eyes are the last thing I see before I wake up in the morning. When I do, he’s gone.The sheets are cold and he’s nowhere to be seen. I hate waking up without him. Especially after last night. I flinch as I sit up. My muscles and my core hurt. My cheeks flush as memories of last night flit through my mind. I cover my face with my hands. I want to squeal.There’s a knock at the door and I look down at my dress from last night. I hide it beneath my sheets and hope for the best. I jump to my feet and throw on my nightgown. Taking a deep breath, I walk over to the door as the knocking grows louder. As I unbolt the door, Ava pushes it open and walks through the room. She doesn’t greet me, instead, she looks in every corner of the room, ev
Mentally I shook my head. There was no way he would let me go. No, even without my purity Ethan would take me. There was no point in hoping. No, what happened last night was the best that to ever happen to me. It was my choice and I regret none of it. I’m sure it’ll cost me in the future, but until then, I’ll keep the secret of my purity to myself.I needed to find a way to let Shane know about what happened. I needed him to know he had to be careful. I had to keep him away from me. The thought alone had my heart dropping out of my chest. I stood by the window next to my bed. I didn’t look at her as she made her way to me.“I may not have been able to find anything today,” Ava said. “But I’m not letting this go. A dark-haired man was seen outside your room and I’m sure something is going on. I won’t be made a fool in front of Ethan. I’ll be keeping a closer eye on you, sister.”I held my tongue as she turned her back on me and walked out of my room. I slumped to the ground only after