I’ve been staring at the wall for the last hour, maybe two hours. The paint is chipping and I know what I look like. I’m a sacrificial lamb awaiting to be offered up for the guest. What they don’t know is that I’m going to gut the guest. What they don’t know is that I’m not going to take it laying down. Today I have my game face on. I’m not going to let anything show. I’m not going to let them know that I’m hurting and I’m not going to let it show that I’m affected by them having Shane. Even though it’s all that I can think about. I cried so hard last night that my eyes were swollen this morning and my head was pounding.I didn’t lock the door last night after Ava left. There was no point in continuing to pretend that this room was my safe space. I was never safe and if anything they could have broken my door down. The child in me wished and believed that I was safe in these four walls but the adult I needed to be needed to accept the fact that this room was not my safe space. I neede
“The sooner you get that look off of your face the sooner we can get you ready,” Ava said. There wasn’t a hint of a taunt in her voice just facts.“And what look would that be?” I asked.“The one that says you’re heartbroken and you’re being offered up to the devil,” Ava said. She said it so matter-of-factly and she wasn’t wrong.“So you’re wanting me to—”“I want you to do what you know needs to be done. It isn’t just your life that’s hanging on your performance tonight. His life rides on it too, or have you forgotten?” Ava asked. I close my eyes and will myself not to lunge for her and scratch her eyes out. “We all know you don’t want to do this but we don’t care. Fix your face. You are of age now and you’re going to be whisked off. You’ll ride off into the sunset with a mate that’s also an Alpha. You can’t say the same thing about that pathetic excuse of a man downstairs, can you?” Ava asked. Inhaling slowly through my nose, I pray to the Goddess for patience that I don’t have, and
We walk side by side down the stairs. Our gowns trail behind us as we face today and what it’ll bring. I push the thought of Shane to the back of my mind. If I focus on him today I’ll cry and lose my composure. I need to wear another mask today. One of indifference and obedience. Two guards lead the way in front of us and two more follow close behind. The handmaiden wasn’t dismissed. She follows the guards behind us with her head bowed low. Today is a busy day and Ava insisted that we keep her by us. We’ll need help from someone who isn’t a man.When we reach the bottom, Ava takes a step closer and links her arm with mine. When I look at her she doesn’t return my gaze. She takes another step and pulls me along with her. It annoys me but I don’t let my mask slip. I keep my mask in place and follow her to the front of the packhouse. We’re to wait here until our father and his Beta show up. The guests will be arriving soon and breakfast isn’t on the schedule for today. The heat from the
For a second I don’t utter a word. I just stare at Ava, her cheeks flushed from a mixture of anger, jealousy, and embarrassment. The sun has the same effect on her, sweat drips down the side of her face and falls to the ground. Everything she’s ever done to me has me sitting back and enjoying every second of her fit. I can see her anger rising with my lack of response and it only makes this moment sweeter.“What’s the rush? Our guest of honor has arrived. We have more than enough time,” I said. “What do we even have to do?” I asked.“We’re going to be judging the others from higher ground,” Ava said.“You can’t be serious?” I laughed. When I looked at my sister the expression on her face answers that. She’s dead serious. “Why would we do that?” I asked.“It’s what anyone of high nobility does. Our guests have arrived and now we’ll go and judge them,” Ava said. She said it as if this explanation was enough to make me understand.“Skipping breakfast to greet guests is one thing. Continu
As soon as I’d taken my last bite my sister was on her feet. She barely ate any of her food. I’m sure the food wasn’t up to par with what she thought she deserved to eat. They weren’t even supposed to be cooking today. She should have just been thankful that they were there. Food that warms your belly is one of the little things in life that I look forward to. How did we grow up so different?I followed Ava as she walked out of the dining hall. The guards that had followed us out of my room were waiting outside. They stayed close as we headed toward one of the nearby buildings that was supposed to be used to entertain guests. We never really used this building, but Ava was walking toward it. I knew the large outdoor patio would be perfect for what she had in mind.As much as I’d hoped she would have given up on that part of the schedule I knew better. The guards opened the door and I followed her in. The building hadn’t been used but had servants to upkeep it. They’ve done a marvelous
Shane I’m woken with a kick to the chest. The wind is knocked out of me and I’m gasping for breath as hands come for me in different directions. It isn’t until they touch me and pull me to my feet that I realize I’m leaving this cell. The thought should give me a sense of relief but it doesn’t. Today is the day of the celebration and I’m too worried about her to care about myself. “Where are we going?” I grunt. I barely get the words out through great gulps of air. They don’t answer me, of course. I’ve lost so much blood the world is spinning. I can’t walk straight and fall until their hands hold me up. They drag me from the cell, my arms slide, and I suck in a breath as a burning sensation has me jerking away. Only to hit my other arm on the bars near it. “Fuck,” I hiss. “Stay still,” the guard demanded. “Where are you taking me?” I asked. “Alpha requested we move you to the Meeting Hall,” he answered. “Where the celebration is?” I asked. My eyes go wide as I realize they’re
It’s like I’m having an out-of-body experience as I make my way down the stairs. An oversized cloak wrapped around my shoulders and fell to the floor. Two guards followed me but I paid them no mind. I already know that Ethan will be waiting for me either at the bottom or outside the packhouse. I hope it’s the latter but. Dread makes its way up my body with every step I take.The handmaidens had been waiting for me in the bathroom down the hall. As much as I wanted to run screaming, I walked inside and they helped me undress. I had spent the last hour being washed and wiped down. Powdered and prepped for the second time today, I was thankful for the break from Ava.I was on the ground floor now and Ethan was nowhere in sight. I wouldn’t let myself hope, I knew he was somewhere around here. I walked to the front of the packhouse, the door opening as I grew closer, and Ava stood outside. One of our carriages was waiting at the bottom of the stairs.For someone who had spent hours bad-mou
The room had gone quiet as the visiting Alpha made his way down to me. He searched my gaze and when he saw the obedient partner he wanted he smiled. I could feel the frustration and jealousy coming off of Ava in waves. Based on the way she had dressed I knew she had expected a reaction from him. She huffed when he continued to stare at me.I hate him.I do too, Korra.Can you remind me why we’re being obedient?Because they have Shane, Korra, and… I can’t… I couldn’t live with myself if something happens to him.I couldn’t either, Adea.So work with me, please. We can’t do anything wrong tonight.“Greetings,” I murmured.“You look beautiful, My Queen,” Ethan said.He lowered his hand from my chin and I let my gaze trail down the length of his body. He wore a navy blue tailcoat trimmed with a black velvet collar and cuffs. The gold buttons twinkled and winked at me. The white shirt beneath had ruffles and was tight around the neck. Matching slacks with gold buttons were tight around hi