ALPHA PARTHE.
The moment I stepped into that dining hall, something in me snapped.
How dare she dress in that manner for other men to see? She was too exposed for my liking.
This wasn't just a mistress but my mate. I couldn't tolerate that. I had to ask her to leave.
I saw the disappointment and embarrassment in her eyes, but who cares? As long as she is shielded from the hungry eyes of other men, then I am fine. Call me selfish.
"Alpha," Tervan's voice pulled me out of my thoughts, and I lifted my gaze from the scrolls I was meant to be reading before my thoughts drifted away.
"Tervan," I gave him my attention, "sit."
I and Tervan have been friends since childhood. His father was the Beta of our pack, but something tragic happened to him when I became Alpha, and Tervan has been my Beta since then.
"You wanted to see me. What's the matter?" I asked him. He is the one person I can feel free with.
"I have been bothered about something, Parthe." He began, addressing me less formally. "And I'd appreciate it if you put it into consideration."
I knew where this was headed, but I paid attention. "Tell me, Tervan," I urged.
"It's about your decision about not having an heir," He said. "That might be the worst decision of your life."
"Not again," I said with a frustrated sigh.
"Please hear me out. You need an heir, Parthe. Someone to carry on your legacy. You've built so much, only to let it end with you?" Tervan said so emotionally that I would have fallen for it if I wasn't the Alpha Parthe I know myself to be.
"This curse has to die with me. I am not putting any future generation through this torment anymore. It ends here. With me."
Thankfully, every Alpha of the Wild Wolf pack always had just one child before they died. This has made my intentions easier. This means I am the only one with the curse now.
"Have you thought about the pack? Your people? What happens to us?"
Tervan was hitting a nerve I didn't want him to.
"Think about this. It isn't a curse, Parthe. It is a blessing every Alpha out there would die to have. And to think that you are an AshBlood witch... You have decided not to use your powers, either. Why punish yourself this much?"
Tervan's tone was rising higher than I would want it to. But it's fine. He is my friend, and he is agitated.
"I use my powers to fortify my army. That's why we are the most sought-after by other packs for shield and alliances, remember?" I creased my brows, reminding him, just in case he had forgotten.
"That is not the point. Why limit yourself so much when you are made for more?"
"Tervan. This curse has brought me more harm than good, and you know it. My sister... My parents... Your... Your..." The word was heavy on my tongue. I couldn't bring myself to say it, but thankfully, he stopped me.
"Stop blaming yourself for all that. None of it was your fault," He said in a calmer tone.
"How about Luxuria? I almost killed her the other night. What if I had killed her, Tervan?"
My voice was deceptively calm, but he understood the storm brewing inside me.
He paused; his eyes searched mine, trying to read my emotions. "Do you think you have feelings for Luxuria?"
The question hit me with the force of a cold wind. I had to answer carefully. My reputation was at stake, but so was the truth. "Why would you ask that? Feelings are not a concept I entertain. You know that." I couldn't be seen as weak.
I saw the reassurance in his eyes. He'd always wanted me to make Shikta my Luna. It's okay for him to feel scared that another woman might be stealing my heart.
But that woman was my mate, and he, of all people, should know what it means to have a mate. He has one!
"Okay. Look. Whatever happened that night was never your fault. She stepped outside her chamber when she was instructed not to. She faced the consequences. That's all that happened." Tervan explained, but it did nothing to calm my guilt.
"What's the point in all these? I have less than two years to live. I do not want to raise a family. No Luna, no son, no legacy. Why is it too much of a problem?" I asked, picking up the scrolls angrily as I flipped through them with an intensity that almost tore them to shreds.
"Make Shikta your Luna. She'll bear you a son who would take over from you. She is capable of ruling your pack even when you are gone until your son comes of age and takes over from her. Please, Parthe. Think about this."
There was a pregnant silence between us. All he said was plausible. Shikta was strong and capable of being a good leader, no doubt. And if there is anyone I'd prefer to bear my heir, she'd be the one.
But...
"Is there something else you'd like us to talk about?" I asked, changing the subject.
He was disappointed and knew he had hit another dead end. "No, Alpha," He said, shaking his head sadly.
"I'd like to return to what I was doing. Send my regards to Lorel."
"Yes, Alpha. Sorry to bother you."
I watched him leave, and I can't deny that a part of me felt bad for him.
All he has ever wanted is to see me happy, but he doesn't know that I'll do anything I can to deprive myself of happiness.
I do not deserve to be happy.
LUXURIA.I desperately scanned through the large books on my table. My hands were trembling. My fear was getting the best of me.The glow in my eyes was becoming difficult to keep in check. It appears and disappears at will.What is wrong with me? Who can I talk to? What if I am truly a cursed one? Otherwise, how do I explain this?Everyone called me CURSED. I think I am beginning to agree with them.I couldn't tell the Alpha about this. What if he kills me because it is evident I am cursed? My curse is spreading faster now.I had to hide this as much as I could.For days now, I still haven't found a possible explanation as to what exactly triggered the curse in me. I was only able to find some herbs in a medicine book that treat acute anxiety problems.I might as well start with that first.As I feverishly flipped through the pages of an old tome, I stumbled upon a chapter titled "The Cure of Hera." The name made my heart race as it caught my attention.I skimmed through it, searchin
LUXURIA.I had scanned through every single page of the book, but the part I was interested in was nowhere to be found.I was going insane with worry.I do not have anyone to talk to about this. I felt so alone in this world. If only my mother were alive...I wiped off a tear from my eye.Whatever it was that happened to my mother was unfair to me. I was raised to suffer alone in this wicked world where no one cared.My hands trembled. I had to get hold of myself in order not to snap. I don't know what would happen if I truly allowed the full extent of this strange illness to take over me.I know I am just sick. Nothing more. I just had to find a solution to it. I only chose to call it a curse because it has tormented me even more than I could bear.I am sick. That's all it is. I had to remind myself every day.I wouldn't want to see what happens the day I let myself snap and reach the peak of whatever feeling this illness always tries to push me to.It was getting late already, and I
LUXURIA.His eyes narrowed slightly as if he was reading my thoughts. Then he broke the silence. "What do you think of becoming allies with your father's pack?"The question hit me like a blow. My stomach twisted into knots, and for a moment, I wasn't sure if I had heard him correctly. My father's pack?I blinked, trying to mask the flood of emotions that surged through me.Anger. Resentment. Pain.My father had cast me aside as if I were nothing more than a worthless burden. He hadn't cared for me, hadn't protected me. The memories of his cruelty were still raw, burning like a wound that refused to heal.My father's pack? He wanted Parthe as an ally?My breath caught in my throat. This was my chance to ruin them. To finally take revenge for all the hurt and betrayal they had inflicted upon me.I could ruin them. I could tell Parthe anything—expose their weaknesses, twist the truth, make them seem unworthy of an alliance. The words were there, just waiting to be spoken, ready to tear
ALPHA PARTHE.Fuck...The Gods...What was she doing to me?Despite the iron walls I had meticulously built around my damned heart, I found her creeping in—like a slow-burning fire that I couldn't put out, no matter how hard I tried. She was everywhere, consuming me with an intensity I hadn't anticipated, seeping into the cracks I hadn't even known existed.I was not a man made for feelings. They had no place in me, and I never thought the mate bond could tear through the cold armor I had worn my entire life. I'd overcome so much—loss, blood, betrayal—but this? This was the one battle I wasn't sure I could win. It was maddening.This was going to be my undoing.Her skin, the softness of it, was like silk beneath my fingers. Her scent—a heady mix of innocence and desire, weaving itself into my every breath. It drove me to the edge every damn time I got near her. And right now, standing before her, with that thin excuse of a dress clinging to her delicate frame, I was so close to losing
ALPHA PARTHE.I emerged from the bathroom, the cold water I had doused myself in still dripping from my skin, leaving me shivering slightly. The cold had done little to temper the heat simmering beneath my surface.I had dismissed my new obsession to leave before I did something stupid.She was my mate. I know that. But I am so scared to stain her innocence with my darkness.Maybe not now.It was a fearsome thing, this pull toward her innocence. I had spent enough time wrestling with the temptation, trying to fend off the darkness that threatened to overwhelm me.The strain on my emotions and desire was getting the best of me and it was threatening to rip me apart from inside.The door opened with a soft click as I dried out the water from my body.Only one person comes into my chamber without knocking despite my warnings."Shikta," I called, my back still turned on her, picking out something to wear.I needed some air. Otherwise, I'd die of suffocation."What brings you here?" I aske
LUXURIA.I got into my chamber, and my skin flushed with hot desire and need.The coolness of the room did nothing to soothe the heat simmering beneath my skin. I tried, I really did—sitting in the icy bathtub until my limbs shook and my teeth clattered—but it wasn't enough.My mind betrayed me. The memory of him in his chamber, the way his gaze had seared through me, how his voice had rumbled low and commanding, left a mark on me that no amount of cold water could wash away.Just the thought of him sent a pulse of need straight to my core. I hated him. I feared him. And yet... I wanted him. My body ached with a hunger I didn't know how to fight. It was maddening, this war inside me.I should have known better. I should have fought harder. But I was weak. I was falling, and I hated how much I was giving in.I shifted on the bed, trying to shake off the thoughts, but it was no use. The pulse between my legs was relentless, the slick heat gathering, making my thighs clench.My breath ca
ALPHA PARTHE.Fuck.This girl was certainly going to be my undoing.I watched her fragile form freeze under my stare. She was terrified. Just as she should.My gaze was pinned to her trembling form, every inch of her body betraying her fear and shame.My length strained under my briefs. It took all the self-control in me not to pounce on her and fuck her until her tender core blows hot from friction.As I sat on the stool, I saw her fear. I sensed her panic."Don't let me stop you," I said to her, and she seemed to shrink under those words.I saw the tears in her eyes. Her sobs only made my cock throb harder."Alpha... please," she whispered, her voice shaking like a fragile leaf caught in a storm. The sound of her begging was sweet, so fucking sweet it made my blood pound in my ears.She didn't even realize how much her pleas fueled the beast inside me, how they fed the hunger tugging at my restraint.I swallowed hard.I wish she'd stop crying. It only fuels whatever she thinks she's
FLASH FORWARDLUXURIA'S POVThe chill wind whipped through the stone archways of the Ash Mountain pack, filtering into the large chamber where I sat.The chilling wind was nothing compared to the icy dread in my heart.Outside, in the courtyard, the ceremony was prepared. Not a marriage ceremony, as my lineage demanded, but a mating ceremony.I would be the first in my lineage to be mated without a proper marriage ceremony.Tonight, was the night of the full moon.Tonight, I am to be joined, not to a man of my choosing. Not to the man I have always loved. Not even to the man close to my dream man. But to the beast who ruled the neighboring lands with an iron paw. The Alpha Of The North.I clutched the silver locket at my throat. A gift that had been given to me by the man I would do anything to spend the rest of her life with, the Beta of my pack, Beta Kahel. He was my secret lover. But fate was so cruel to have tore us apart.Kahel had vowed to challenge the Alpha of the North, Alpha