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10. Struggles

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AZURA.

He had a family…

I stared at the marble tiles of the shower walls, letting the water pour down my body.

Nikki is his woman, and the boy…

I closed my eyes, resting my forehead against the cool wall.

He had a son…

Why didn’t I know this? Sure, I never cared about the latest news, but it was never something mentioned. Sky or Kat would have mentioned it… But then again, Leo has moved away from his family entirely.

Nikki seemed damn nice, and I had gone and slept with her man.

He was your mate, Azura.

Would he have broken up with her if I wasn’t a Westwood?

I don’t know… Why did he mark me then?

Does he love her? Probably…

What he felt for me was just because of the bond…

I was the other woman.

My heart squeezed remembering the story of my biological mother. Her mate cheated on her, in fact, I even had a brother thanks to his infidelity, a brother who has been desperately trying to get to know me, but it’s been me who just hasn’t wanted to. I wasn’t ready. I felt bitter
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Karina Vazquez
What is she going to do? He did worry a bit when he marked her. He was probably thinking of Nikki
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Jen
I don’t think the boy is Leo’s
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Addy Ram.
*stares In big brown puppy eyes* But… but… it’s wasn’t enough to sate my cravings. I need more!!! I should’ve listened to the little voice in my head that said, don’t read yet, wait until tonight like you said you would…
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