NIRVANA “So you’re leaving tonight? That can’t wait until morning.” I was still not ready for Ambrose to go. I still had a lot of unanswered questions, and I wanted to get to know him. “I can’t stay, young one. You have Zarah to guide you and answer your questions.” I sighed. “Thank you for everything. For giving me back my life.” “You earn it. As they say, you only live once, but be careful out there.” I smiled and found myself hugging him. “You too, take care.” “How do you go from here?” Knight asked. “I can send you wherever you go,” McKaye volunteered. “I appreciated the offer, but I can take it from here.” He stepped out of the house with his cane until I watched him disappear into the dark. Once he was gone, I felt suddenly sad. We went back inside in the living room. “I have to go, too,” Shadow said. “I may not be able to heal you, but I’m glad you trust me enough.” “Are you kidding me? You, being here is enough for me. I’m eternally grateful.” I hugged her. “I’ll se
NIRVANA I yelped. My eyes went wide. My heart pounded frantically in my chest. “What happened?” I stared at Zarah for seconds because I didn’t know how to explain it. “I don’t exactly know.” “Close your eyes and focus.” “Okay.” I took deep breaths and let it go through my mouth. I suddenly saw flowers in the pot. I felt it against my fingertips, the fresh air against my skin. I was about to touch another flower— a hydrangea, but I was back in the room. “Zarah!” I fell, landing on my back, reaching for her hand. “What the hell?” “Ouch.” I rubbed my spine, wincing in pain. “What the hell was that?” Zarah laughed, shaking her head. I’d never seen her laugh, but she was so beautiful and young. “I was here sitting. The next second, I saw flowers in the pot. I don’t know the name of the small red flowers. Then I was about to touch a hydrangea, and I was back in the room, falling on my ass, Zarah. What the hell was that?” “Don’t ask me. You did it yourself,” she said proudly. It w
NIRVANA I had the longest shower in history. In fact, I lost myself in the mist. I could still be there if Knight hadn’t knocked on the door. “I’m done.” I stepped out and wrapped myself in a towel. I found myself staring at the mirror. I looked the same, except the irises in my eyes were slightly lighter. It was probably from the light in the bathroom because I felt the same. “You okay?” Knight came beside me. I knew he was just concerned. After what I had been through, cheating death, I should have been horrified that magic could cheat beyond my understanding. If dying and getting saved by a master warlock counted as unnatural, then I was not a normal human being anymore. I squinted my eyes as I looked at him in the mirror. “If you’ll ask me one more time, I swear I’m gonna punch your nose.” He smiled. “We don’t have to be violent tonight. I’m just checking up on you. Anyway, I brought your clothes here. You said you didn’t want someone touching your things, so they’re still
NIRVANA “I’m sorry.” He sighed deeply. “The food is here. Let’s go before the pizza gets cold.” Guys were already in dining, waiting for us to join them. “Sorry for letting you wait.” “We just came back. The food is still warm,” MacKaye said. “And before we start, I just wanna say thank you for everything, for being here for your alpha when I couldn’t.” When they nodded and felt grateful, I added, “And please, no more asking me if I’m okay. I’ll let you know if I feel weird or being possessed by the great evil warlock.” “How can you tell if you’re being possessed?” Zarah chortled as she took a seat across the table. “When you wouldn’t know what you’re doing anymore. Let’s have dinner.” Knight put two slices of pepperoni pizza on my plate, a slice of garlic bread, and a small calzone before he got himself the same as mine. “I might have to leave tomorrow, honey.” “Why so soon, Grandpa?” “I can’t leave the restaurant. I’m sure you have things to do.” “You can just call Zarah
NIRVANA “Fuck,” he cursed under his breath as he realized what he did. His eyes began to glow. I froze, placing my hand on his chest. “Calm down. It’s fine. It doesn’t hurt, and it didn’t bleed.” He looked at my neck. “I’m so sorry. I never lost control like that.” “Maybe we both need that.” I patted the spot where he bit me. It stung a little, but that was it. I was more horny and unsated. “No, sweetheart.” His voice came out a growl, full of regrets. “I could have hurt you. And you don’t heal fast.” I chuckled. “You don’t want them to see your bite on my neck?” “Fuck, I want to, but when we do the mating. Not like this.” Arching my brows, I teased him. “So what are we exactly doing?” “I ruined it, didn’t I?” I cupped his face when I felt the guilt in his words, gauging his tone. “No. Never.” He got off me and moved to his side, but he still pulled me into his arms. “Next time, tell me to stop.” “Maybe I didn’t want to,” I teased further. “I know this is not the right t
NIRVANA “Be serious, Nirvana,” the female wolf spirit just said my name. “Wait. How do you know me?” I felt goosebumps erupt all over my body. “You died by a dark magic and brought back to life by magic. Your soul has been saved. You are pure and chosen to have an animal spirit to protect you, guide you, and help you protect the people you care about from the evil that walks on earth, but you must never abuse it.” “Excuse me? I’m far from pure. I think you got the wrong, wolfy girl.” “We had never been wrong. I symbolized power, loyalty, and guardianship.” “Uh-huh. I’m dreaming again, am I? But I say hard pass. I died once, and I can’t do it again.” I cleared my throat. “Look, I died and was brought back to life, and I’m taking this second chance to good use, helping people, enjoying life, and being with my loved ones, but not to be controlled by whatever you are. You look cool, though, like an astral projection in Dr. Strange.” “You need me, Nirvana, to help fight evils that
KNIGHT Everything just felt right, and it scared me. It was my first time waking up in the morning with the same woman wrapped in my arms. Nirvana was a light sleeper who liked curling and tangling around me. “Morning.” I kissed her shoulder blade. “Breakfast in bed?” “No way. Zarah and Grandpa are leaving today.” She turned to me to kiss me on the lips, quickly got up, and went to the bathroom. I had to get on my ass as well. I typed an email to my assistant that I’d be taking a vacation for the whole week. When she came back, she was wearing different pajamas. “Did you change your clothes?” “Yup. I kinda fell last night, but I’m good. My butt didn’t hurt anymore.” “Be careful. Where did you fall?” “I slipped in the patio. No biggie. I was just clumsy.” “Okay.” I didn’t know, but I felt she wasn’t telling me the whole story. “I’ll go down if the squad is already awake.” “At this time, they are. I’m going to use the bathroom. See you down in a bit.” When I went down, sh
NIRVANA “I’ll take your grandfather with me and send him home.” I suddenly felt emotional that I wanted to cry. “I’m grateful.” “I’ll see you soon, honey.” Grandpa kissed me on the cheek. “Be safe.” “You, too. Love you, Grandpa.” “Love you, too.” I was still standing even though the portal had disappeared minutes before me. I didn’t know what I would become if I were raised by a different person. I was glad my grandfather was there for me growing up. “Your grandpa is a strong man. He’s going to be okay.” I looked at McKaye. “Yup. After what happened to me, it’s just that I don’t wanna be far from him.” “We can visit him. At least once a month.” “That’s a great idea, Mac.” “Vana, we’re going to the pack house. Are you coming with us?” I turned to Kailin. Knight was standing next to her and smiled at me. “Let’s go?” “Sure.” I climbed on his bike, and he revved it up. It purred and roared off down the road. The trip to the pack house was thrilling as I rode with Knight o
NIRVANAThree months laterThis man wrecked me in every way possible, in a good-to-be-true way. The private island Lycan Alpha King Sebastien owned was more beautiful than he described, and we were here for the third day of our honeymoon. Yes, honeymoon. Knight asked me to marry him again, and I said yes before he could finish popping up the question. And here I was in bed, legs spread at his mercy. His searing gaze burned my skin. He stood at the foot of the bed, naked, and my hungry eyes devoured him. He was perfect from head to toe, and those muscles and his long thick erection in his hand with a small drop glistening in the slit of his crown.I licked my lips, squirming in bed. Knight knew precisely how to drive me crazy. My hands fisted above my head. No matter how I struggled, the rope laced with magic he used to tie didn’t even budge—no thanks to the book of spells my mother’s own. Dylan sent me a box full of my mother’s books and tools. Knight found out about it, and he u
NIRVANAI smiled at Carter. “Yeah. I’m a werewolf.”“You look wonderful, Vana. If he’s over you, come find me.”“Cut the shit, Archie.” Knight chuckled as he hugged Archibald. “Glad you could make it.”“I would not miss for the entire world,” Chance was the one to reply.Kain and Dane were engrossed in their conversation at the corner.“Hey.”Kain hugged me. “I thought we lost you.”“So do I.”“We wouldn’t be here without you.”“You all keep saying that when it was more of a team effort.” I patted Dane on his arm. He remained at Kain’s pack of assassins to protect Kailin and our allies. “You take care of my best friend, or I will rip your throat out.”“You can stop threatening him.” Kailin, in her beautiful blue gown, came and kissed me on the cheek. “I will be the one to rip his throat out if he betrays me.”The tapping of a spoon on the glass caught my attention. The whole pack house went silent, and the music stopped. Our attention went to Victor, Lennox, and my grandfather, who no
NIRVANAI shuddered at the loss of his thick dick inside me.“On your knees, Nirvana.” He growled. His breathing was rougher.“I don’t bow nor kneel to anyone, but sure.” I was too eager to do as he commanded me to, so I moved to my knees and faced him.“Open your mouth for me.” His eyes almost glowed. His jaw locked harder, every part of his body tensing.I opened my mouth as he gathered a fistful of my hair and gripped it, pulling me closer to his erection.“Now suck me.” He flexed his hips as he shoved his cock past my lips.I took it too eagerly, one hand gripping the base, the other on my knees, balancing myself on the bed. I swirled my tongue around him, sucked, and stroked him.My mouth stretched around his girth. I struggled to breathe through my nose, my eyes watering as I tried to accommodate him without gagging.“Relax your throat. You can take all of me.” He pushed my head into his cock, and quickened his thrust until a guttural groan erupted from his throat.He threw his
KNIGHTI stopped at the edge of the bed and watched Nirvana strip off her clothes one by one. Nothing fancy, even her skin tone bra, but her body, though, the sexiest and hottest fucking thing I’d ever seen, always would be and forever.She was on the last thing, her cotton panties, and there she was, the same body and curves I’d felt many times against mine, and the same woman I fell in love with over and over again, smiling at me as she spread her legs wide apart, revealing her always smooth and waxed pussy.Her cheeks flushed as she slid her hands between her thighs, and a low groan rumbled from within my chest as she let go of a shuddering moan.I found myself gripping my erect cock, stroking it. Locking her searing gaze against mine, she lay on her back, inviting me into bed. She didn’t have to do that because I intended to join her and make her feel what I longed for over a week.I crawled into bed, joined her, and braced my forearms on either side of her shoulders. Then I held
NIRVANA“No freaking way! That’s impossible.” My eyes grew wide as I stared at them one by one.“Is it, though?” McKaye said. “We trained for months.”“To fight that freaking monster?”“Your bloodline is some kind of link to an ancient warlock from Greece,” McKaye explained. “And you were the only one who could kill that son of a bitch.”“Yeah. My mother’s side from my grandmother were witches.”“And you don’t have a gift?” Knight asked me hesitantly.“No. Why? Should I?”He glanced at Zarah.“You’re a witch, Zarah. Can’t you jag my memory or something?”“It doesn’t work that way.”“Then I’m sorry to disappoint you, guys, but I don’t remember fighting an evil warlock named Cyrius.”“What about him?” Kaleb, the beta, tipped his chin at the alpha.Alpha Knight finally groomed himself, looking hotter and smelled so good.I couldn’t help but smile, and every time I looked at him, my heart skipped a beat. “No.”“You’re lying.”“Excuse me?” I arched a brow at him.“I can hear your heartbeat
KNIGHTWhen Kailin called urgently via our link, I thought someone was in trouble again in the tasting room, like the twins.I had struggled the past week without Nirvana, but I never gave up searching for my mate. Scratch that. I once considered jumping off the cliff, and there may be a minuscule chance she would appear and come to save me. But somehow, her promise kept my sanity intact.Everyone helped me check for the lost women or unclaimed bodies in every morgue in the region, but none of them was Nirvana, and I couldn’t find a record of her death either. I felt so relieved and hung in a thinner thread as the days passed, and there were still no signs of her.The underworld was back to normal— no more viruses or killings, thanks to my mate, and my uncle was offered a job at the council while I barely hung in there and not dealing with my loss. I barely slept, or I found myself in the woods mourning. I lost some sense of self-love and belongingness. I couldn’t work, and I hadn’t
NIRVANA“Grandpa! Where the hell have you been?”“Vana?” His eyes widened like he’d never seen me in years. He ran in my direction and squeezed me into a tight hug. “Oh, Goddess. Thank Goddess.”I chuckled as I hugged him back. “It’s only just been a week, Grandpa. You’re overreacting.”He looked me in the eye from head to toe, cupped my head, and kissed me on the cheek, and he was about to get all teary-eyed.“We don’t do that, Grandpa. Where have you been, anyway? I was worried when you did not pick up my call.”“What do you mean?” There was pain, confusion, and relief in his eyes.I slumped my ass to his couch. “You’re acting weird. What’s going on with you? How’s the pack anyway?”He came sniffing me, making me freeze. “You’re a—”“A werewolf?” I scoffed. “Yeah, since birth. Duh. You taught me how to shift. Don’t tell me you suddenly forget about it.”There it was again, the staring, and then he smiled. “I’m proud of you, kiddo.”“Of course, I just sold two pieces of my paintings
KNIGHTGasping for air, I woke up on the ground. The blood’s bitter, sweet, metallic taste dried on my mouth.A shudder of terror rocked through me as I got up. It felt like a new day, or nothing happened last night.Trees stood tall, leaves dancing against the soft breeze. Sunlight streaked from the sky.I saw broken trees on the ground from a distance, a reminder that something had happened around here last night.“Guys!” I went to Califf, shaking him. “Cal, wake up.”He sucked in a breath, staring at me. “What happened?”“I have no idea.”Luka and McKaye stirred and froze as they realized we were still in the forest.“What the hell?” McKaye looked at his naked self.“Did we win?” Sebastien dusted the dirt off his body.Alpha Frye came from behind us, confused, eyes roaming around. “I think she did it.”“Fuck. Nirvana. Where is she?” Terror filled my chest. “I can’t feel her.”“We’ll find her.” Michael, Grady, and Ryden went separate ways to find Nirvana.“Nirvana!” I called her nam
NIRVANA“Asina? Wow. You are gorgeous.” I was surprised to see her standing before me. For the first time, she showed me herself— a beautiful and tall woman with straight long, dark hair, brown eyes, and a smile that could bring men to their knees. She was truly captivating, a real strong heroine in a white flowy dress. “Am I dead?”“About to if you won’t wake up.”“I can’t. There’s too much pain and loss. I can’t do this, Asina. I’m too weak compared to his power. He killed everyone I loved, and I want to die along with them. I give up. And you leave me alone there.”“Nirvana, you take it all wrong. You don’t need me to win the battle against Cyrius. All you need is your courage, your strength, and your heart.”Frustrated, I sobbed as I fell on my knees. “He is powerful to stop, and you’re telling me to use my heart and my strength? I don’t have strength anymore. I can’t even level a percent of his power.”“Because you believe you can’t.”“Are you kidding me right now?” I growled in