61. Becoming My Reality

ZADIE WILSON

What have I done?

I asked myself as I tossed on the bed, thinking back to all I said to my sister and how I made her cry.

“You are insane, Zadie Ann.” I hissed, rolling alone on my bed.

Ayden would have been here if I hadn't locked him out last night after pouring out my feelings. I locked everyone out of my room and spent the hours of the night tossing from one edge of my bed to another.

Getting into a sitting position, I tugged at my hair. “How could I have left my sister alone after I practically forced her to spend the night in my house? What have you become, Zadie?”

It was no secret that I loved Emaline very much. Leaving her with Ayden last night could have been the best option because I couldn't face her after my outburst. I was equally hurt.

The orphanage meant so much more to Emaline but it also meant something to me. It was my home even though I couldn't remember much. It was sad that my memories became more jumbled as I grew, making me a girl with zero to n