83 - Kissing Another Mate

"Please ... save my baby ... It's innocent. It’s ..." My voice was drowned out by my crying.

The image of my failures that made my baby so weak, all those mistakes haunted me until I couldn't open my eyes.

From the moment he arrived in my womb, I never gave it a break except for the various sufferings and fatigue that I carried with my body.

In this second trimester, all I ever gave it was stress. This baby had learned to fight and was on the brink of death many times. Danger instead of love, misery instead of peace.

And all because of me.

"If motherhood is something I've failed at, at least let it live," I said into Amelia's arms. "My baby should feel the love I could never give. Maybe if it's born, Hilbert will recognize it as a child. Then when that time comes, I ..."

"Lizzbeth! Oh my God! Hang in there!"

After that, all I could hear was Amelia's screaming voice that was so shrill in my ears. Even though the nurses and the Alpha woman were doing something to my body, I couldn't fee