~Jada
I’m not looking forward to today.
Last night, I was left staring at the ceiling until some ridiculous hour of the night. I couldn’t get Kael out of my head. This morning I woke cursing myself. I know I’m not allowed to be thinking about him like I am. I’m here to become a Silent, where my job will be to protect and serve him. Nothing more.
But is that why I dreamt about him last night? It may have only been fleeting, but it was all him. Those dark, sultry eyes...tall stature...soft, rousing voice.
I need help.
<~JadaI freeze. They freeze.I’m not sure what is worse. Being caught rifling through someone's stuff, or being the one to catch a stranger doing so. Especially when by the looks of them, they are a Silent. And a Silent I’ve seen before too. Those eyes are tied to a night not too long ago, that I would like to forget.It’s the Silent that interrogated me that night. Who made me admit what I’ve been keeping to myself. It was part of his job, however, I swear I unmistakably saw him feel some kind of pity for me. I saw it in his eyes.B
~JadaMy first thought is I have to tell someone.My second thought is questioning what I’m meant to do. It feels improper to be watching his scandalous act take place, but I’m so stunned on what to do. All I know is this shouldn’t be happening. It is forbidden to have a relationship with a Silent or Trainer. And yet here I am, witnessing Baylee making out with Niko.I have to interrupt. It might not be the best thing to do, but what if this is a mock situation? What if I’m meant to intervene and stop Baylee from getting eliminated? Is this my chance to protect her?
~JadaI have no idea who Sinful is.By the way he looks at me, he clearly assumes I should. But just because I don’t know he is from first glance, doesn’t mean I’m not terrified the moment my gaze lands upon him. It doesn’t mean I don’t see something in those strange, lavender coloured eyes that could frighten even the bravest souls.It’s because he’s immortal. I can tell. No one looks like that, asserts that aura and confidence without being of high power. But what an immortal is doing on mortal soul, I’m not sure.I watch Sinful ca
~JadaWaking up the morning of the new week left me queasy.There is no way today can go well. Already, someone else I didn’t know so well has been eliminated from the competition last week. I had convinced myself it would be me, considering what I had revealed last week between Baylee and Niko. When I wasn’t sent home, I was left up late at night wondering why it wasn’t me.Baylee has been ignoring me. In fact, she’s been ignoring everyone, going cold and distant to even her closest friends. But none of them had glares sent their way when passing her in the hall…
~JadaMy plan was set for tonight.I’m assuming it won’t be difficult to get in, if it’s anything like my sects residence. By the first hour of morning, everyone is in the room should be asleep, which leaves the perfect time to put my plan into fruition. Luckily, I was able to sneak the kids - whose name I learned was Jake - room number thanks to a very impressionable girl hanging around the library.Tonight, I’m not exactly sure what I’m going to find out, but hopefully it will keep me in this competition. He seems to always be hiding something, and I’m hoping it’s dark and intriguing.
~JadaI shouldn’t agree to this.Jake is a strange kid, and I know that. Like me, he has discovered he wants more from this competition than to win it. He wants to know about the Alpha he could potentially be serving, like me. However, I’ve never gone about sneaking into his estate. I’ve been very obvious about what I’ve been doing.Problem is, I promised Kael I wouldn’t no longer pursue anything but this competition. He hasn’t written back, and I cannot be sure he even got it and read it, but I can’t possibly go back on it…“Listen,
~JadaThe moment he opens the door I regret everything.What am I thinking? Alpha Kael trains Silent’s, and here I am, trying to distract him with cupcakes while Jake sneaks in. There is no way this is going to work. Not when he in no way wants to see me, and I’ve snuck out. No matter how I rationalised this in my mind, seeing him makes this all seem incredibly foolish.He appears at the door himself, not having anyone else to do his bidding. Either he doesn’t have staff here during the night, or at all. He seems to prefer solitude, and with all his secrets, it makes sense.
~JadaI couldn’t move.In sheer shock, I’m left staring at Alpha Kael’s unconscious body slumped backward on the couch. His eyes are rolled back, his mouth parted, hopefully still taking in air. I’m unsure what to do, my entire body shaking in pure fear. What just happened? Is he still alive? I can see his chest moving slightly, but I’m not sure how long that is going to last.Standing up, my legs feel as if they are going to collapse at any moment. If someone walks in, they are going to see my Alpha, looking as if I’ve injured him myself. A Silent would surely kill me in this moment.
~JadaTwo months later.I love our new home.It took some time to be built exactly how Kael and I wanted it, but I’m glad we waited. It’s traditional, yet fits in with what Kael and I both love the most. What I believe makes it so special is it is right in the outdoors, rather than in a stuffy city. Being underneath the shade of trees, a garden right outside to grow things in is like medicine.Kael and I decided it would be best to leave the Discipline Pack after he gave his title to a friend of his who he has always trusted, Carson. Kael wanted to put distance between him and his old life, and as someone who has always wanted to travel, I couldn’t be happier.
~JadaI don’t think I want to be apart of their family.Kara sweeps back to her seat, motioning for me to sit on a vacant one also. With my eye on Kael, I sit next to him, wishing I hadn’t walked in on their conversation. Now they are distracted by me, and aren’t going to finish their conversation. I wanted to know more about the Sinful manipulation thing.“I’m so happy Kael has a mate. Especially one as beautiful as you. I’m sure you two will treat each other well,” she says softly. There’s a flicker of sadness in her eyes as she says that, which Kael seems to notice also, as he shifts uncomfortably in his seat.Kara is so sweet and so stunn
~JadaIt was almost like looking in a mirror.When have the same green eyes, the same hair. It’s so jarring, for a moment I’m stunned, stumbling back a few steps as I eye her skeptically. There is no denying I’m related to her, and that she is the woman in my nightmares who raised me, who hid me from Kael’s father’s power, and was supposedly sent to the prisons where she was executed privately, along with my father.Yet, here she is, standing in front of me as if all the grief I spent dealing with in my childhood was all for nothing. Did Axel know my mother was alive all this time, and didn’t tell me? I’m not sure why I’m questioning his morals now…
~JadaIt’s clear how bothered Kael is that he can’t detain Axel.We all sit in one room, Axel on one side of the table, myself and Kael on the other. He looks at us, cocky and entitled, knowing there is nothing we can do but listen and negotiate with him until he gives us the information we need. Kael is fuming beside me, quietly calculating his next move. At least no one else knows with this exchange.“Well, aren’t you going to ask me where she is?” He questions, leaning comfortably back in his seat. It bothers me how calm he is about this, knowing he has a chance of getting out of here alive. I want to wrap my hands around his neck for what he tried doing to me.
~JadaAt first, I didn’t know if he was serious.A half smile slipped onto my face as I readied myself to turn him down. To let him know this isn’t me admitting to him that I love him, and want to be with him over Kael. However, it doesn’t seem that that idea was flirting with his mind, as an almost sinister expression moves across his face. I freeze, realising this might not be as innocent as I first assumed.“I just thought we could talk is all. I would like to fix things,” I murmur, leaning he palms of my hands against the office desk. Axel takes a few steps forward, folding his arms over his chest. In that moment, I looked into his eyes and felt genuine fear.
~JadaI’m not tired, even as we return back to our room.Kael peels his jacket off while I sit on the edge of the bed, pulling my shoes off my feet. My eyes linger on Kael’s body as he tugs his shirt off, tossing it away. I’m not sure what intrigued me so much about the way he looks with the light reflecting through the window, the smooth, buttery light casting shadows over his already perfect abdomen.Something within me flutters, heat moving down from my stomach to between my legs. It’s a feeling that makes a blush reach my cheeks, which I turn away to conceal. Why am I suddenly feeling this way just by him taking his shirt off.“I’m hoping we ca
~JadaIt feels good to have no worries.Kael and I had a swim in the sea and a walk down the beach as the sun began to set. As dusk falls me, we moved to a restaurant on the beach. It’s surprisingly busy here, people laughing and talking amongst each other as they drink and eat. Everything here feels so calm, the people enjoying themselves with no worries on their shoulders.Naturally, everyone stares blatantly at Kael, whispering between each other as they try to decipher whether Kael is actually the Alpha of the Discipline Pack or not. Luckily, no one comes up to him to ruin our meal.“This place is so nice,” I comment once Kael and I got our drinks. He sits oppos
~JadaKael never left my room that night.We sat up all night, talking to each other about almost everything that we could. By the time dawn flooded through the windows, it was too late for us to get any sleep. I don’t even want to get up. I just want to lie next to my mate, still naked, my head resting on his chest while he plays with my hair.“Can we just stay in bed all day?” I ask. I don’t think I want to face the reality of our lives yet. I don’t want to see Blue, I don’t want to deal with the fact Kael might still pursue his mother against both her and Sinful’s wishes. It’s all so much.Kael loosens a breath, rolling over to look over m
~JadaI feel guilty seeming so relieved.Sinful lets me go, and I fall into Kael’s arms. When I look up at him, he smiles down at me, as if he isn’t regretful, however, I know It can’t have been easy to completely disregard ever being able to commit to finding his mother again. I’m going to have to make it up to him, however, I doubt anything will come close to that.“Noble of you, Kael,” Sinful says, and for a moment, when I turn back around to glance at him, I see a hint of sadness. Maybe it’s because he knows his mate would never do the same for him. As much as I despise him, that even makes me feel somewhat sad.